Author's POV,

Isha took a breath and uttered the words which snatched the rug beneath him.

"I'm going to say yes to Amar's proposal. You give me divorce then I will marry him"

He stared at her stunned in his place. He couldn't believe his ears.

"What you said?" He asked again to confirm.

"I'm ready to marry Amar after you divorce me" she repeated making him clenched his jaw in anger and in an instinct he marched toward her.

"Do you know what you are saying isha?!" He gripped her arms with one hand. She hissed.

"Chodein mujhe! (Leave me)" she wiggle. "And yes. I know what I'm saying." She freed her arms as he loses his grip seeing her hissing.

"Isha, you said you can't think about any other man then how can you...?" He trailed of as hurt made their way into his eyes. Isha felt her heart clenching seeing his disappointed look. But she couldn't back of. It's now and never for her.

"Trust me, I can't think about anyone else till I'm in your nikah. That's why I'm saying you divorce me and let me think about my future. I'm only 19, I have all my life and I can't live with this loneliness. You will be happy with Sofia baaji and I can be happy with....Ama...Amar" she said and stuttered as she hates to take Amar's name with her.

"You said you love me" he reminded her. He didn't know what he want but it's sure that he can't see her with anyone else. He can't divorce her. He was being selfish he knew. He wanted isha to be in his nikah, to be his for all her life no matter if he could accept her in front of this world or not.

"I do. I do. That's why I want to pull you out of this dilemma. This all started with our nikah and if this nikah will end then maybe everything will be okay "

"Nothing can be okay isha... Nothing can be...." He paused and cupped her face with on hand "I can't divorce you" he whispered helplessly.

"Then accept me" she demanded staring into his eyes. "Accept me as your wife. Accept that you love me. And I promise you I will be only yours. Just accept me and I will accept everything you will give me. Even if it means to be your secret wife for all my life I will accept it" she said desperately. He stares back not knowing what to say.

"I... I can't betray Sofia." He uttered in distress. Isha sighed and took a step back.

"You have two days to make a decision. If you can't accept me till the day after tomorrow morning then I will go to Amma Jaan and will announce my decision of marrying Amar" she said and walk out of the room leaving a very distressed Arshad behind.

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Arshad's POV

She wants to move on.

She wants divorce

She wants to marry Amar.

Those words make my heart and mind go crazy in a very bad way. Few weeks ago I wanted her to move on but she didn't want and now when I didn't want her to get married she wanted. The thought of divorcing her makes me sick.

No, I can't do this.

She is mine. She can't marry my brother.

I was on the lawn head rested on the back, eyes shut close. After the conversation in the morning with isha, I was feeling suffocated in my room.

Arshad" I heard Amma jaan's voice. Opening my eyes I found Amma jaan standing in front of me. I sat straight.

"Hmm"

"Are you okay beta? Are you in pain?"

Is that obvious?

"Uh..no" I shook my head. She sat beside me and I rested my head on her shoulder while she caresses my face.

"Don't lie. I'm your mother, I can say what your feeling. your eyes got red when you're in pain or stress" she stated. I didn't say anything. "Tell me beta... What's bothering you?" She again asked after a few second.

"Amma jaan. Is it possible that a man can love two woman, his two wives at the same time?" I couldn't stop myself from asking. I wanted an answer. What I feel for isha was it love and if it's love then what I've with Sofia and if I love both of them that was it possible?

Many questions roaming in my head and I didn't know any of their answers.

"Why are you asking this?" She suspicion. I move back and turn to her.

"I have a friend who has two wives. He loves his first wife but then he had to marry a second time for the sake of someone. He didn't choose to marry neither he chose to feel anything for his second wife but he couldn't help and become restless for his second wife. He couldn't put a finger on what he feels for her does it love or just an attraction cause he loves his first wife so he couldn't possibly fell for his second wife too, could he?" I asked everything which was bothering me. Amma jaan always shows me the right path. She always supports me and pulls me out of any dilemma.

"Why couldn't he?" She asked.

"Cause he loves his first wife?" I said more like asked.

"If a man couldn't capable of loving his two wives equally then Allah wouldn't have given him the rights to marry 4 times. Allah made space in man's heart where he can keep his wives. The heart is a pure and innocent organ. And if something is in our heart then it is love. You said, he didn't choose to marry her neither he chose to feel anything for her but it still happens, why? Cause that was Allah's decision, if he ties your friend and his second wife in the most sacred bond like Nikah and he makes your friend fall for his second wife then he surely knew what he is doing. he knows the reason behind every decision and we shouldn't question his decision. We should accept his decision and should pray that whatever he decides for us will be in our favour" she said everything with a small smile. "Your friend should accept his feelings and his wife and leave everything on ALLAH SWT"

I sat silently staring at the ground.

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The whole day and night went on and I was still in my dilemma. Sofia's face makes me wants to bury my feelings for isha and let her live her life happily. But when the thought of someone else getting the rights that were mine now makes me want to hide her in my arms.

She is mine. Only mine. How can I let her be someone else? Doesn't matter if he is my brother or not.

Then accept her. Claim her as your wife. As only yours.

This thought made me smile dreamily. But my smile got vanished when Sofia stirred beside me before going back to sleep. I stare at her beautiful face. Removing hair strands from her face i caress her cheeks.

Will Sofia ever forgive me for this?

Will, I could ever face her?

I love her but now the feelings I have for isha is also stronger.

I was talking to Sofia in my heart when suddenly her voice echoed in my head.

I trust you. I love you. And I know you will never break my trust.

Gulping the sorrow I leaned down and kiss her temple before getting out of the bed and went to the bathroom.

I can't make a decision.

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Author's POV.

"Isha set this on the table," Kubra bi said giving her two dishes. Isha took it and went to the dining room. It's already 9 am and Arshad didn't come out of the room like he was doing for the past few days. He comes out with Sofia.

She was arranging the table when Amar walks into the room. He stopped on his track as he found isha setting the table, the hair strand on her cheeks makes her alluring. He stared at her with a small smile. He had a crush on her from the moment his eye landed on her. She has a face that could easily attracts men. A face of innocence.

He took a step toward her. This was the first time he found her alone after that proposal.

"Good morning" isha was in her world when she heard his voice near her.

Raising her eyes she found Arshad standing behind Amar. Both were staring at her. One glaring in anger and the other smiling in admiration.

She smiles as a thought came into her mind. "Good morning" she replied to Amar's greeting with a smile which burn Arshad to the core seeing her smiling for Amar.

He came out of the room before Sofia today and saw the heart burning scene in front of him. Amar gazing at his isha with admiration and when isha replied to him with a smile he felt like locking her in the room. Away from Amar's fondness gaze.

Amar asked about the breakfast while sitting on his seat that's when Mrs Malik and Asam walks in. Isha replied to Amar's question still smiling and greeted Mrs Malik and Asam before walking inside the kitchen without glancing at him while he knew she knew that he was standing there.

"Arshad" Sofia stop seeing Arshad standing there. He looks at her coming out of his trance.

"Let's go" he walks with her and sat at the dining table.

Isha again came with halwa (sweet dish) in her hand.

"Wow... Halwa" Amar beam in excitement as Halwa was his favourite dessert. He looks up toward isha. "You made this?" He asked. Isha who was standing close to Mrs Malik lookup.

"Jee (yes)" she nodded with smile making Arshad clenched his jaw and fist.

"I love this Halwa" he began filling his plate while isha walks out from there.

"Isha, I'm going to feed Jawad you clean up the kitchen" kubra bi instructed her. Isha nodded.

"Okay, Kubra bi. You go and feed Jawad or else he will come here and will make a fuss" isha said with fake horror face. kubra bi nodded chuckling before walking out of the kitchen taking a plate with her.

Isha was busy wiping the counter when suddenly someone grabbed her arms and turn her around.

"Kuch zyada nahi muskura rahi thi tum Amar ke samne? (Don't you think you were smiling too much in front of amar?)" Arshad asked gritting his teeth.

After everyone had done with breakfast and went to their works he came to the kitchen.

"Nahi to. Aapko aisa kyun laga?" (No. Why you think like this?)" She asked wiggling to free his grip around her arms.

"Isha," he moves closer to her face "ye jo tumhare dimag me wahiyat baat chalri hai na, Nikal ke phek do ise. (This disgusting think which is running in your mind... Throw that out of your head)" he warned her. She stopped struggling and match his glare.

"Kyun? Kya burayi hai mera Amar se shadi ke khayal me? (What's the problem in the thought of my marriage with Amar?)" She asked.

"Kisi aur ke nikah me hokar tum kisi aur mard ke bare soch bhi kaise sakti ho? (Being married to other how can you think about another man?)" He roared tightening his gripped.

"Jab mera mard mere baare me nahi sochta to mujhe pura haq hai kisi aur mard se shadi karne ka khayal rakhne me" (if my man doesn't think about me then I have all right to have a thought of second marriage.)" She replied while Arshad clenched his jaw in anger "Ah...let go of me!" Isha hissed feeling his tight grip paining her. He left her arms.

"Aap...." (You)" Her eyes filled up as she found Arshad staring at her with anger and disdain. "Aap... Mujhe kisi aur ka hone dena nahi chahte aur apna banana nahi. Aap chahte kya hai?? (You...don't want me to be anyone else neither you want me to be yours. What do you want?.)" She asked with tear filled eyes. His eyes softened while his heart clenched at his cowardness.

"Mai...mai... (I...i)" He can't speak and that makes isha furious.

"Agar aap faisla le nahi sakte to aapko mera faisla manna hoga.. (If you can't make a decisions then you have to accept my decision.)" She took a step away from him. "Aaj raat tak aapne mujhe qubool nahi kiya to kal ki subha hamre rishte ko dafan karke ayegi. (If you don't accept me before the night over then tomorrow morning will come after burying our relationship)" she stated before going back to her task. Continue wiping the counter.

Arshad stood there terrified. After some time staring at her back he strode out of the kitchen.

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Isha's POV.

After doing my Namaz I sat on the prayer mat praying for me and my marriage. What I said in the kitchen to Arshad I meant that. Tomorrow morning will come after the burial of our relationship, our nikah, our happiness, our love. Even if after giving him an ultimatum he can't accept me then there is no need for me to be here, It will only makes our life harder.

No. I will not marry Amar. I could never think about anyone else. Arshad is not only my husband he is my first man whom I love with my everything. He is my only man.

I stood up and went to the bed after placing my prayer mat on its place. I took his picture and caress it with my fingers. "I love you and I can wait for you all my life but I can't make your life tough because of your confusion. If you love me then you have to accept me or if you not then you have to let go of me" A tear escape thinking about tomorrow.

This night will over soon and my marriage too. He didn't accept me. Now there is no way I could stay here. If I did then he will ask me to marry Amar and I can't.

Wiping my tears I stood up and went to the cupboard. I took out my suitcase and place it on the bed and began filling my things in it, just then I heard a bang on my door which makes me startled. I look at the door which was locked.

When the door bang again and again -seems like someone is impatient- I closed the suitcase and placed it near tgw cupboard before walking to the door to open it. Before I could even open the door fully Arshad barks inside shutting the door and pinned me to the closed door.

"Mai bhale hi sirf tumhara nahi hun, par tum sirf meri ho. SIRF. MERI. Mrs Isha Arshad malik (i may not only yours. But you are mine. Only mine. Mrs Isha Arshad malik)"

If I say I was shocked and speechless that would be an understatement.

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Sorry, guys I know I couldn't update regularly but I can't do anything. I hardly got time for my mobile after my marriage. And you know what I got a baby in the name of my husband. He doesn't like my diverted attention😒 so bear with me☹

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