Hey, so I know you really want to get to the update, but i'd really appreciate it if you read this first.
The reason I initially started writing was because I wanted to give people a reason to smile, I wanted to send a message and make people look at things that maybe they wouldn't always.
From the feedback I receive, i'd like to say i'm well on the pathway to achieving what I want to achieve.

There is just something i'd like to say, I get messages and comments here and there from people who have related to the stories I write, and I guess what I want to say is, you're not alone.

The world can be a really dark place at times, and sometimes it can feel like you're alone, but you're not. I know I may just be some writer, well someone who is trying to be a writer, but from the bottom of my heart, I really do love and care for you all and if ever you need to talk then please do.

This has been a hard book to write, mostly because it brings back things for me, don't worry this isn't an attempt at sympathy, just an attempt to remove the stigma of people being vocal about abuse.

Because it happens, to more people than you'd like to think. I didn't ever want to be someone who would speak of my emotional difficulties but if it makes atleast one person seek help then it's veey worth it. I won't go into details, because I just don't think I can.

But once upon a time, I was four years old being diagnosed with depression, being shoved from one therapist to another and screaming everynight because of the nightmares I had. No one thought I would make it, not even me, but I did, and now i'll soon be in my 2nd year at University.

I got there, and even though my demons are far from gone, I believe that one day I will be strong enough to face them head on, help is out there, all you have to do is reach out. I was blessed to have a nan who became a parent to me when my mum couldn't due to her own issues and am now so much more blessed to have a mum, a nan and 3 beautiful sisters I see all the time and of course a beautiful best friend, so even when the darkest days arrive, I hold faith that the light will soon rise.

I don't want pity or sympathy, I am who I am because of it, I am stronger because of it and I survived. Hold faith, you will too. I forgave the person who hurt me, because it helped me move forward, and all I wish now is that he is happy, even if he never allowed me to be, and still doesn't but that's a story for another time. I still have a lot to work on but i'm on the way so that's a positive!

Enough with the emosh stuff, you may read now:). Thank you for those who took the time to read, it means a lot :)

Zoya inhaled heavily, her fingers covering her lips, who had done this? Who had hurt him this way? "I"

Aditya smiled "You came, for me" he grabbed her hand, squeezing it tightly, he needed to know she was there by his side now more than ever. She was the only reason he lived, the only reason his heart beat, without her nothing had any point. Then he pushed his body up "You're fired"

Zoya gasped, shaking her head "No, it's okay, please" she didn't want someone to lose their job because of her, they were just doing their job and that was all

His eyes narrowed but he nodded "You're lucky she was here, now get out" he shouted, though injured and bedridden, Aditya Hooda was still a force to be reckoned with

Zoya didn't care for the tears that slipped down her cheeks, or the tremble that escaped her chapped lips. He was here, he was alive, but somebody had hurt him and it was all her fault. "I'm so sorry, I"

He looked up, confusion masking his handsome features "You have nothing to be sorry for, this wasn't your fault, come here" he flung out his left arm, wanting nothing more than to have her close

"But, you're injured" as much as she wanted to put up more of a fight, she physically couldn't, because there was nowhere else she wanted to be but in his arms, she sat on the edge of the bed and led down, trying to muffle her sobs

"If this is what it takes for you to run to me, i'd go through it all again" he chuckled, pressing a kiss to the top of her hair. How was it she had the power to make him feel alive? It was as if he had gone through life merely existing until he had bumped into her that day. Every moment had led up meeting her, that was his life's biggest purpose

It didn't seem to matter right now if she could never love him, because he would love her. She was his salvation, the light in his darkness, the good in his life, the purest gem and the one thing he didn't deserve. But, he couldn't help but want her, he was a selfish man and he didn't want to give her up to anybody.

Zoya looked up at him, he had his eyes closed, his jaw was still slightly clenched. She raised a hand, running it across his serene features. She hated herself for ever coming into his life, for ever allowing him to care for her. He deserved better.

Aditya smiled slightly, he would pretend to remain asleep, that way she wouldn't become embarassed and pull away. He enjoyed having her close, he wanted her to always feel free to touch him, her touch was ice on the harshest burn. It was true, the world had burnt him, many a time. He opened his eyes to see she had fallen asleep, he swallowed down the lump in his throat.

Years and years had passed since he had last shed a tear, he lived as if nothing could ever hurt him. But she could, so very easily, he had given her the power he hadn't given to anyone. Aditya placed full faith in her, to never break his heart. Would it be far to much to ask of her, to fix the monster within him and make him a man good enough for her?

Aditya threw his head back, the tears rolled from the sides of his eyes, splashing onto the pillow beside him "Mujhe theek kardo Zoya, mein tumharee bina kuch bhi nahin hoon" he knew it wouldn't be long until Zoya found out the monster he really was, Mahi would return and he knew she would listen to her over him

Yet his heart yearned for her, it was as if she could calm the beast within him, he would follow everything she said, bring her the stars if she asked. But there came the trouble with falling in love, especially when the one you love, loves another.

XXX

Zoya looked over at Aditya who was asleep, she had been sat beside his bedside over the past few days. She neither had the energy to eat, nor the motivation. If someone had done a worse job, he would have been dead. She knew thinking about it would only make her feel that much worse. But she couldn't help it, why did she endanger so many people?

He had saved her. He had given her a life and this was what he got in return. It wasn't fair, she didn't want him to be another Noor. Another light in her life that distinguished because of her.

"Aapi, Aapi, why do you take so long to answer me when I call you" Noor stood at the doorway, her large curly hair bouncing around her face

"Sorry Kohinoor, I was in my own world, what's up" she stepped forward then froze when she saw Yash stood behind her, a gun in his hand "Yash, no"

Noor's body flailed forward as the bullet hit her straight through her stomach "Aapi" she cried

Zoya went to grab her when Yash pulled Noor up by the hair "Don't you think I hear you, telling your Aapi, she deserves better than me, I am the best she will ever get" he pushed her head into the sideboard

Noor spat out blood, it trickled down her chin, she held out her hand "Aapi" she grimaced

Zoya grabbed the chair beside her, hitting Yash around the head, then grabbed Noor "It's okay, it's okay" she pulled her up, wrapping an arm around her waist "Stay with me Noor, everything will be okay" she screamed when she felt something hard hit her head

Noor was yanked back, her body dropping to the floor, she screamed in pure agony, laboured breaths left her mouth, her eyes shut tightly when she felt something cool hit her skin, then she smelt the heat, then suddenly her skin was on fire.

Zoya crawled over, patting down the flames "Noor, Noor, stay with me" she sobbed

Yash shook his head, walking past them with a sneer on his face

Zoya held Noor's body to her own, rocking it back and forth "I'm so sorry, so sorry" she cried "NOORRRRR" she rose her head up and shouted

Did you notice any similarities to the last chapter! Im dropping hints here people, please pick them up:)

There is a new Jenshad 2shot called Jo Tu Mera Hamdard Hai, please check it out:)