I wake up in the morning and I see the other side of the bed it was wrinkle less as if no one used that side so that means Maan slept in the office room.
I sigh deeply 'I should tell him everything that happened to me, after all he is my husband he should know me inside and out' I think this and then went to the washroom to freshen up.

I came out of the washroom dressed in a sweater and trouser and then decided to go to the office room

I go there and I was going to knock but suddenly my phone started ringing I look at the ID and it was from the hospital.

"Dr Shivantika we have an emergency, please come as fast as you can" The reception spoke and the cut the call.

I look at the door and then at my phone, i close my eyes in frustration and went to my room to get my white coat.

I will talk to him after i come from the hospital.

The night passes and there was no sign of Shivantika, i slept here in this room because i wanted her to know that i was angry and disappointed on her , but it looks like she doesn't care.

I chuckle sadly and then went to freshen up.

After wearing three peace suit, i head to my office.

As I enter all the employees became silent and wished me good morning, without answering them i went to my office.

"May i come in sir?" My PA says after knocking, I nod and he enters "sir these are the files you told me to bring" He handled me the file and i started reading it.

"Do i pay you to sit in the AC room without doing anything" I ask him and he looks at me in confusion.

"Why sir, what's wrong?" He asks, "everything is wrong, did you recheck it? Yaha muft ka baithne ke liye paise nhi deta. Write this again, i want this file on the table exactly at 2 pm. You have exactly three hours ." I yell at him throwing the file, "chehra kya dekh rahe ho, get lost" I angrily told him and he swiftly ran away.

I close my eyes and lean on the chair, the first thing that came to my mind is the kiss we shared under the rain yesterday.

How she looked like a goddess, seducing me by her innocent look.

I smile at the thought but then i remember what happened after, i open my eyes and started massaging my forehead, i didn't sleep at all last night because the chair in wich i was sitting was damn uncomfortable, and then i didn't eat my breakfast as well.

Shivantika and Abhimanyu left their workplace the same time and reached home at exact time.

They both see each other at the entrance, Abhimanyu was going inside when Shivantika hold his hand to stop him and then hugged him from behind tightly, not caring if house helpers were seeing it.

Abhimanyu closes his eyes in content, after all, he never remained without her presence for more than 6-7 hours, he couldn't understand how they spent their day this time away from each other for more than 20 hours.

"Aapse baat krni hai" She says breaking the hug, "go fresh up, than we will talk " He says amd she nod running to her room, instead of following her he went to the office and showered there

After Shivantika came out of shower and noticed that Abhimanyu was not there she quickly went to the office room.

There he was sitting on the chair, with a book in his hand.

"You look tired" She says breaking the silence.

"I couldn't sleep"

She looks at him, feeling guilty.
"I'm sorry"

But he did not respond to her.

"You know what, I... I dont know from where to start, how to start, I never told this to anyone." She told him.

He looks at her his gaze softened.

"It's okay, tell me why you don't have good bond with them"

"My parents are old minded, they still think as people of 90's , in the beginning of their marriage my mum couldn't get pregnant, but at the age of 39 they got to know that she had a baby on her womb, when mum was pregnant, her and my father they both prayed to have a baby boy, but when she delivered she came to know that she had a baby girl as in me, firstly they didn't have any problem, they thought they can try for a second baby, you must have heard that a woman's fertility declines with age sometimes, same thing happened with her, and thats when they both started hating me" She told him, and he listened to her while holding her hand and caressing her back.

"Pr yeh sab meri galti kese thi, i was a child i didn't know these thing, i couldn't talk nor walk, then how it was my fault" She asks him, tears spilling from her eyes. "It was not your fault, it was no one's fault" He whispers to her, trying to make her feel better.

She does not respond but continues speaking, "when i was four they started accusing me, but they did not raise their hand, they just mentally abused me calling me a burden and a bad omen."

"Chhin liya hai tumne mujhse mera sab khuch, because of you i can't have a boy, pta nhi kiya paap kiye the maine ki tum mili, mar kiyu nhi gaiy tum ussi din, no children is better than a girl.i lost everything my beauty my figure,everything." Anjali yells at a 4 years old Shivantika who stood in a corner, crying and sobbing not understanding why her mother was shouting at her.

"Go to your room, tera manhoos chehra nhi dekhna" Vikram told her and she ran to her room wit her small steps.

She stop taking when she feel her throat hurting because of the lump forming there wich made it difficult for her to speak.

Sensing her emotions abhimanyu hugs her tightly "its okay, shh breath jaan, it's okay if you don't want to talk, i'm really sorry" He softly say to her kissing her forehead trying to calm her.

"When i turned 7 my father slapped me for the first time, and since then it never stopped, when i turned 10 they started locking me in a dark room."

When Shivantika was 7 they had a small birthday party for her so their neighborhood would think that they were great parents.

Small Shivantika thought that her parents finally started caring for her, so when the party was done she went to her father and hugged him expressing her gratitude.

"Thank you papa" She said in her sweet voice but instead of hugging her back he pushed her and slapped her "dont ever touch me with your filthy hand, manhoos" Saying this he went to his room leaving her heartbroken.
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A ten year old Shivantika came home from school with torn outfit, and messy hair and told her mum that "maa i dont want to go to school, can't i stay with you? , children bullies me there" But her mother didn't listen to her and told her to go to her room, the next morning the same thing happened she cried and begged, and in anger her mother told her "you don't want to go?, fine dont go" She dragged her and then locked her in the dark basement.

"Maa please darwaza kholo, maa mujhe dar lag raha hai" She cried but she didn't open the door, and when she did she found Shivantika unconscious.

That was the day Shivantika came to know, that her parents would never love her, whenever she would go to school she would feel jealous looking at the parents children bond there.

"I couldn't enjoy my childhood, they didn't let me, my childhood was spent by me trying to be perfect and trying to make my parents proud, but stupid me I couldn't realize that whatever I would do, nothing will make them love me." She says then look at him.

"You know whenever i see Riddhima maa loving you guys I always felt jealous, or when chachi would love Samaira(his cousin sis and not samiksha), i always felt that why i wasn't loved? Was it because i was a girl and i didn't deserve it ?. "

"The only good thing that they did to me was forcing me to marry you, when Pandit ji informed them that my kundali matched yours, they wanted me to marry you, i told them no i begged them but now i can say that I'm the happiest women in the world because i got a husband like you, and in laws that love me so much." She says hugging him and wiping her tears.

"I couldn't enjoy my childhood maybe because Shiv ji had better plans for me" She continues with a smile.

Hey guys new update as i said yesterday I was going to upload and it was much longer than chapter but suddenly my internet went off and wattpad kicked me out when I entered everything I wrote was deleted that's why I couldn't update earlier.

Not good with sad chapters hopefully you'll like it.