2 days later
*Lily*
"Seriously those two make me want to throw up". Madison grumbles as she glare at Zac and Hope. They are sharing one sunbed by the poole, laying nose to nose, whispering together, totally lost in one another.

"Stop being so damn jealous.. so what you and Zac slept together, you never even dated". I shake my head. "They are cute together and I am happy to see Zac having found someone".

She rolls her eyes. "Believe me, he is going to grow tired with her too, if she is lucky she gets a couple of months".

"Nah.. this is different". I say with a small smile. I know Zac, I have known him for 15 years and I have only ever seen him look at one other woman like this. Which reminds me that I have to talk to him.

"If you say so". She makes a face, then suddenly a smile spread on her lips. "So you are not the least jealous.. I mean he kind of used you as his holiday plaything too, when was that, three years ago..".

As soon as she say it I know she is up to something and then I hear Jax voice behind me. "He did what ?"

Fuck, fuck and triple fuck, I love Jax to bits, but he can be a bit jealous. I turn around quickly. "Maybe we should go to our room to talk about this".

"No, we shouldn't". He is shaking his head. "Did she just say what I think she said, that you and Zac.. that you were his holiday fuck 3 years ago ?"

Jax had not been there that year and me and him was not yet dating. "Sweetie .. does it really matter ?"

"Lillian would you please answer me.. did you and Zac spend that holiday... fornicating ?" He has his arms crossed on his chest and Madison has scampered off.

"Jax.. darling.. please don't make a big thing out of this". I say begging. "His wife just left him and I was going through a rough periode.. we just missed someone to give us attention.. there was nothing to it".

The look in his eye tells me he isn't just letting this go. "I fucking can't believe that wanker".

*Zac*
"This might be a close to heaven as you can get on earth". Hope say softly, as she snuggles closer to me on the sunbed, weaving her leg over mine.

I chuckle and kiss her right next to her ear, whispering softly. "It could only be better if we were all alone and I was buried inside you".

"Zac". She slap my shoulder, blushing so sweetly. "You are such a.. such a scoundrel".

"Oh that don't really cover it". Jax is striding out the door. "More like.. horn dog.. dirty bastard .. something like that".

I gently free myself from Hope, sitting up. "Excuse me ?! What have I done to offend you all of a sudden ?"

"Oh let's see.. what about.. fucking my girlfriend.. yeah that would kind of do it". He stops with his arms crossed.

I breathe out slowly. "Jax.. you know that happened before you and her was together right ? I would never ever do that".

"I would just have liked to know.. it's just.. fuck man, do you have to jump every woman.. I mean last year it was Madison". Everyone is out on the deck now. "So did you do Kylie and Isabel too ?"

"Fuck no". Kylie breaks in. "No offence Zac, I love you, but like a brother.. so no Jax.. he did not.. "do" me".

I quickly get up, not wanting this to blow up. "Jax, I am sorry man, we should have told you.. but it means nothing, to any of us. Can we just.. let this rest now ?"

"Well..". Jax looks torn.

Sebastian suddenly cut in. "Isabel ? Why did you not answer ?"

Fuck.. I clear my throat. "Guys listen, I admit it.. I have been a bit of a.. what did you call me.. horn dog in the past.. I had demons I didn't deal with very well.. sorry".

"Isabel ?" Sebastian turn to look at her. "Please say it isn't true".

Her eyes flash to me and I nod, I mean lying will only make all this worse. "Sebastian...".

"Oh no Zac, do not try and brush this off.. when ?" He looks sternly at me, then at Isabel. "When Isabel ?"

"Please baby, don't do this.. it doesn't matter.. it was a one time thing". Isabel has a hard time keeping back the tears.

Damn this is about to go real bad. Kylie grabs Oliver arm. "Come, this has nothing to do with us.. let's give them some space".

Lily grab Jax's hand and I am happy to see that he lets her. "Come, let's go to our room and talk this through baby".

"I am sorry Jax". I tell him. "But you do know that Lily loves you beyond anything.. what happened before you two got together shouldn't matter".

He nods. "You are right.. sorry for.. blowing up everything".

"Don't be.. I made the bed, now I get to lay in it". I shrug. One thing I have learned the last year is taking responsibility for my mistakes. I just have to stop blaming myself for everything that I could actually not control and not blame others for the things I actually could.

When they are gone, there is only me, Hope, Sebastian and Isabel left. Sebastian swallows. "Please tell me when ?"

"I am so sorry babe.. it was a mistake.. it meant nothing". Isabel look at him pleading.

"It was my fault". I straighten up, ready to take the ass kicking I deserve for this. "I am the one you should be angry with".

Sebastian is shaking his head and I fear he might start to cry. "You cheated on me, didn't you ? And with him.. how could you ? When ?"

"Remember last year.. I stayed 2 days extra in Canada after the holiday ?" Isabel is looking at her feet.

"The holiday you and me spend together ? The holiday he spend with Madison.. oh yeah I remember". He looks like he don't know if he should yell or cry.

Isabel close her eyes. "I wasn't sure about you and me.. or rather .. I was not sure you meant anything by it, since you.. kinda just left.. yeah we spend the week together, but we weren't really dating.. remember that didn't happen before after we came home".

I step forward. "We made a mistake, we got drunk.. she was scared you didn't want more.. that .. that you were like me.. I.. I took advantage of that vulnerability".

Before I realise what is happening I find myself sprawled on the deck, cradling my nose, praying that it isn't broken. Sebastian spitting at me. "Fuck you Zac, get up and let me kick your ass".