*Hope*
"You did not have to pay for me Zac". I send him a smile. We have all gone to the Zoo, since it was what Siena wanted to do the most.

He gives me a small warm smile. "I know I didn't have too, but I wanted to".

"Of course you wanted too, because that's my Zac in a nutshell". Siena say, smiling lovingly at him, then she look at me. "Isn't it just typical Zac ?"

"It is". I say, smiling at her. Part of me wants to hate her, because that part of me feel she has taken my man. But fact is he was hers long before I ever met him. And I can't hate her, because she is absolutely sweet and adorable and oh so nice.

But no matter what it still hurts seeing her walk snuggles into Zac's side, her arm wrapped around his waist, his arm around her shoulder. Everything in me screams that it is my place, I was the one supposed to be his forever.

"Oh look, they are so cute.. aren't they just cute Zac ?" Siena point to the prairie dogs, who are in the middle of lunch.

He smile softly at her, and I have no doubt he loves her deeply. "Yeah, they are cute".

What am I to do here ? I mean how do one handle this ? Am I to just walk away ? To stand in the shadows, taking what I can get ? I wish I knew.

"So Siena, how do you like Zac's new house ?" I ask her, as we stand there watching the prairie dogs.

She smile at me, glancing up at Zac. "Oh I love it so much, it is everything we ever talked about building.. it's just perfect".

"That's great". I say, unable not to smile, her enthusiasm is really contagious. Zac look at me, his smile so grateful it only makes my pain worse.

She looks around, spotting something in the distance. "I just need to run to the little girls room.. are you just waiting here ?"

Zac nods, giving her a quick peg on the lips. "Yeah, we'll just stay here till you come back".

It suddenly feels all weird being alone with him and honestly I don't know what to do or say. "She is very sweet".

"She is". He breathes in deeply. "Hope, you don't need to do this.. I mean I can't even imagine how hard this must be for you.. but truly.. Thank you for being so kind to her".

"None of this is her fault, it wouldn't be fair to take it out on her". I say softly. "But what do we do ? What do you want to do?"

He step closer, taking my hands. "If I just knew.. If I had a way of.. unraveling all this.. I love you so much, you are my new dream.. but Siena needs me and if I left her it would crush her".

"She loves you so much Zac, it's clear to see". I sigh. I mean how could I ever take him away from her ?

"And how about you Hope ?" He step over to me, his arms sliding around my waist. "Do you love me ?"

I can't help it, I simply melt into his arms, even though my brain tells me that it should bother me that the same arms held someone else a minute ago. "I love you, you know that, Maybe even more than I realised".

"I love you too Hope, I truly do". He kisses me softly, and I eagerly return the kiss, feeling the butterflies run amok over kissing him again.

*Zac*
It hurts so badly to let her go. I mean I want her close. I want to kiss her and hold her. But I am afraid Siena would be crushed and I can't do that, I gave her my promise and I intend on keeping it, for better or worse.

Before we get to say anything else Siena comes skipping back, smiling so lovingly at me. Everytime I look at her I feel this deep warm love deep inside. I would do anything to make her happy.

"Could we go get ice cream ?" She look up at me.

"Of course sweetie, if you want ice cream I will get you ice cream". I tell her and we all walk towards the kiosk.

Five minutes later the girls are sitting on a bench with an ice cone each while I am leaned on a fence, pretending to look at my phone. Actually I am watching them. They are chatting and laughing like they have known each other forever. It warm my heart to see them get along like this.

How can I choose ? How can I hurt one of them ? I love Siena I do, but.. I am not in love with her, she don't give me butterflies, she don't make my body tingle like Hope does, but I feel a deep urge to protect her.

What if I don't have to choose ? I mean they get along.. they seem to like each other. People do this kind of thing right ?

Oh God Zac, of course you can't have them both.. to be honest I don't want to. I am just so torn about what to do.

I sigh and put away my phone, walking over. Of course Siena slides away from Hope, padding between them. "Come sit love".

"Thanks". I sit down, closing my eyes briefly. What have I gotten myself into ?

Siena snuggles into my side and I put my arm around her, listening to her tell a story about being at the zoo as a kid. Then I feel Hope sneak her hand into mine and without thinking I lace our fingers together, glancing at her. She sends me a small smile that once again poke at the butterflies.

Okay so this feel a bit weird, but also weirdly right. My head is a big mess of thoughts honestly and I wish someone could just kind of come and figure it all out for me.

The rest of the day is quiet and we actually have a good time. We drive Hope home first and I go inside under cover of picking up something, just so I can steal a kiss behind the closed door.

After promising to stay in LA at least for a couple of days, I hurry back to the car and drive us back to the hotel.

Siena stretches and jawn and I am instantly by her side. "Are you tired sweetie ? Should I just call some room service and we can eat it in bed watching a movie".

"Sounds great Zac.. But could you tell me one thing first ?" She look up at me, her hand placed on my chest.

"Sure baby, what is it". I brush a strand of hair away from her face.

"How long have you and Hope been together ?"