"wh..at..Sophie and Ken?..no no..she is dreaming..that is impossible...lie...it's all a lie...they are playing games with your mind lily... there was no news about Sophie and Chris break up...she still remember that when she used live with her granny she saw them on some magazine cover ...they are smiling at each other...he was kissing her on the cheek..they were happy...so how does that happened?"

" I know...you might be thinking that everything is false..we are playing or plotting something against you...but no..." He came behind her and she didn't realize because all her thoughts were fighting with each other. He put his head on her shoulder and hug her from the back. " But that's the real truth...I was never ...never ever linked with her...not emotionally,not physically,not romantically,not legally...no nothing...it was all you" then he kissed her at the crook of her neck and smell her ..she smelled like as sweet as ever...like always..

"You know like a soul...my love for you can never die..it can never fade away...it just increase day be day...you were the first female after my mom whom I loved as a friend,as a partner in crime,then as a lover,you are and will be the woman whom I ever love at the end of my life. No one..can and no one will fill with spot..after you then our daughter...our Liliana...our little sweet flower...just like you...my world...our world"

She was listening his every word but s she was hesitating...she was still not convinced..she have to know...she has the right to know everything...if Sophie is dead...then what happened.. happened to ken

"Ken...where is he..?" Her words make him stiff. He was now silent..on the other hand lily was now becoming more curious to know about ken and his whereabouts.

"I am waiting ..if Liliana is their child then where is he..why are you in the picture..why are you legally recognized as her father..? don't tell me he just back out from his own daughter.. because as far I knew him he was not like that..he was the most sensible person in your friends group.."she still remember him back her high school days...apart from Valerie only he knew ..he knew that how lily was head over heels on Chris...how her love was strong for her best friend..for her Chris...

8 years ago...

After class lily and Valerie was waiting in the canteen ...Chris and his friends were going to come here to have lunch with them..that day he and his friends were busy with their football practice because the match was near and Chris was the star player and there was no doubt on that. That's why many cheerleaders and mean girls and also some beautiful Girls of her class and some of his classes were crazy over him but he had only eyes for her ...but not as a lover but as friend..his best friend..but she was okay.. because she knew she holds a special place in his life,in his heart ..so she has nothing to worry about...she just wish that like her ..he could felt the same things...she just wants to spend her whole life with him...not only as a friend of his but also as a girlfriend,as his wife,as the mother of his children,as his companion in their last days of their life

"Penny for your thoughts?" "Jesus ken you scared me..." "Really lily..you were so busy about dreaming of your Chris that you didn't even realized that when he came and is sitting here for freaking five minutes" when she realised what Valerie was saying now she felt embarrassed and her face turn into red as tomato from embarrassment

"Stop making fun of me...I was thinking something else" "ya ya.. whatever you say..'flower' ..." "Hey stop calling me that..only Chris can say that to me..." "Ah ha possessive much! Okay I will not call you that but what if another girl become his flower then what will you do?" "Huh?" That caught me off guard..what is he talking about..is there...no no no...I am sure there is no other one..."you are joking right?ken tell me you making fun of me...there is no other ,right?please don't scare me ...please ken..." "No...frankly speaking there is no one...but...." "But?" "But there is no guarantee that there will be no one in the future....if you don't confess your feelings..."

What...how did he know..."wh..at...are...you...it's nothing...he is ...he is just my friend...my best..." But he cut me off "oh please lily give me some break...anyone can tell that you love that fool but he is the blind one who only see you as a friend or didn't realize about his feelings...but I know ...that he does the same ..just don't want to admit it .."

"Re...allly...he...loves...he loves me?did he told you that...please ken tell me..." "Listen I can't assure you that but I know that cause whenever I ask him something about being with you romantically he just shrugged me off and tell me that it cannot be happen and you sees you only his best friend also has no problem you being with someone else...then on the other hand whenever anyone from this school or from outside try to approach you he just...I don't know how should I tell you but he just pissed off and make sure that that boy do not come across with you...when I asked him that because before that I didn't knew about all this but when I saw this with my own eyes I was like he is definitely in love with you otherwise he wouldn't do that to every boy because not everyone has bad intentions. So when I asked him that why is he doing this he said 'she deserves better and I will find someone for her..my flower is so delicate that she deserves the best...she needs someone who can protect her from all the bad things like me....'

See ...even he knows the answer and even he knows that how possessive he becomes towards you ...I think he just don't want to destroy this beautiful friendship between you two...I think his heart knows but his mind is telling him to stay where ever you are and don't cross the limit....so telling him is like hitting my head into some rock ...that's why I am asking you to confess your feelings lily...don't let him go...just smack him and tell him that you belongs with each other...only he can protects his delicate flower..not anyone else...he should do that without any hesitation...like as always he did...just break his stereotype thought that being into romantic relationship will crack your friendship and all. Just go for it otherwise anything can happen in future...

Present....

"You know ken always used to tell me that I love you and have feelings for you...but me being stubborn head, always stick to my own stupid decision and see my decision led us to where...I destroyed everything." He was still hugging me back while nuzzle his face into my neck and start kissing lightly.
 
I...I..don't know how and what to react..I knew ...I freaking knew that now I have someone at home but how can I now refuse this man...refuse this freaking love of mine to stop ..I can't say...no...I can't say...I wanted to cry...oh my god help me please...I want to cry out loud...I want to hold him tight...I want to tell him to do whatever you want because that's where I belong...where we belong...we belong with each other.....what should I do now...I am stuck...oh god..I can't breathe...oh god...please do something...I don't know what to think anymore...

I don't know what I was thinking anymore ...then his kiss made me bring back...he made me turn towards him and I am now facing him . Oh god ..how should I face him..oh god..how can I look into this man's eyes that only look for me...even when I hate him to core...no I wanted to ...but I couldn't..because I can never  dare to hate him...

He took my chin but I was not ready ..I was not ready to face him yet..and he understood very well because only he can see me ... through my soul...not even Jake...only Chris..it was always Chris.....but it was me who never came back to him...it was me..who ran away..it was me who didn't look back..it was me who didn't wanted to ask him..didn't fight for him...I only thought about me...about my feelings...I was selfish...v was right..I am selfish..I have become selfish...it was not.me...i am not right for him...anymore...but after listening all of this...how can I say no..how can I say that I don't love him or I have moved on..because it was not true..I can never get over him...I love him..oh god I still love him...so much...I wants to tell him that but I am so ashamed of myself...

"Lily...hey..flower..." Tears finally finds its way to flow ...and he then start to kiss my every tears..then my forehead..then my nose...then my cheeks again..then he stopped..finally I look at him and I saw he was crying too. We both were looking at each other without blinking once. Then someone's voice break our staring competition.

"surprise.. surprise..hey don't shock ...it's me ken..ya finally..you must be thinking why am I whispering?well my baby momma is sleeping and it's not my time to come but I had to. Because of your Chris...he just..I don't know for how long I have to handle him. Alex is not also here..oh wait...Alex is our
another friend..and thank God he is here with us.. otherwise God save me..in one hand pregnant wife and on the other hand crazy friend..do you know what he did today? He refused to kiss another actress from the film he is shooting..and do you know what another crazy thing he did?he made an announcement that he will not any other girl intimately or will do any intimate scene with another girl...if still they want to cast him then they are welcome otherwise he will leave this Hollywood...I mean I know ever since you left him..he never... never ever touch any other girl let alone kiss. He loves you that much he can leave everything and let me tell you...I know you might be thinking I am crazy but..that crazy man..my friend ...your Chris...is still virgin..can you believe it...?

What...no way..."no..no way...wha..t" "hey Don't look at me..like this..I mean uggh that man ..he can never change..why did he had to tell this  bullshit...what?" "Is this true?" "What...hey he is just kidding.. don't" "is that true or not Chris?did you really never.." "ya ...I...ya I never touch any woman ...I...was never sexually active with anyone..I..." Oh my god...there I was doing crazy sex with someone else to forget him and here he was waiting only for me...and...now I am feeling like a slut...I am disgusted at myself..."I am... sorry...oh Chris......oh Chris...I am sorry" now I was on my knees ..crying my heart out...how could I...oh god..how could I..."hey hey..baby..don't...don't you dare to feel bad..." "How could I ...I.(hiccup)I..(sob)..I..am...such..a ...slut...I am...selfish...I am disgusting...oh god...I am sorry ..please forgive me...please forgive me...oh god chris...I am so so sorry..."

"Baby please don't cry...hey don't call yourself that...it's not your fault... it was my fault..I was coward...I didn't respect you...I don't know what happened to me that day...I don't know why I told you those things but I swear when I regain my conscious I ran towards your hotel,then your house...I begged your dad all the time but he didn't tell me anything..I swear..i searched you everywhere but it was always dead end...but now I have find you and now our baby is with us. So everything will be fine.. I know....I know that baby...Ken and Sophie will be so happy you know that finally you are with me."

"But how did you stay celibate all this long?how a man can be virgin in your age?" "Well...ya it was not easy..but I jerk off .. sometimes...while ...well thinking about you... and that man ken used to.made fun of me...that how a man can be virgin...it's impossible..but there is nothing to impossible because I was saving for my love..and why should it always be woman.. can't a man be virgin for the person he love ?can't a man love a woman unconditionally?when you love someone you can do anything for that person and it's you who always loved me without any condition so it was my turn to love you back ...with more intensity...to prove you that your chris...only and only belong to you...no one else..and never will be.. "

Now I was stunned ...what have I done..?why...why it had to happened to us?why I let that happened?he was doing this all for me..and me...was busy grinding with another person..playing with two people's lives to convince myself...what a disgusting person I have become...

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"You know ken always understand me and he is a good listener..he knew that I will find you...he always wish that when i would find you we will go for a double date,Sophie will never cry for you...we will live under a same roof.. our baby would living with their two parents...but...but...he... couldn't...I wish he would be here to see all of this..I wish he would see his loving baby  grown up...so beautiful..but who would have thought that he would never see the face of his beautiful daughter...who.would have thought that he will not there to cut the knot and warm his baby in his chest...who would have thought that he would not  be there to heard 'dad' from her...

"What...do you mean... Where is ken Chris ...why he is not in Liliana's life? please I want to know..please...what happened...Chris..."

He is dead...my friend.. Liliana's father is dead..he is no more...

Well..now you know why ken is not here in  their life..poor him...but what might have happened to him..how did he died...well for that wait for my next update...follow,vote and share...thanks ..bye 😘😍