I decided to be a prisoner
Forever in your love

-the tiger moth
(Shopping king Louis)

Yoo Kihyun

"Minjae, yesterday-"

"I know. She was drunk," Minjae said in a calm tone concentrating on cleaning the gaming CDs. "Is she fine now?"

"Yeah, probably. I'm off to see if she's okay." I hesitantly answered. I didn't know why I was feeling so restless, I wanted to explain everything to Minjae even though I had no reasons to do that.

Last night I happened to meet my old friend Eunbi. We were just talking while she kept on drinking. I never guessed she wouldn't be able to hold the liqueur, becoming completely drunk after just having two glasses of beer.

I wanted to take her home but she suddenly got on top of me and started making out forcefully. When I pushed her off I saw Minjae and Jackson there watching it all happen.

I didn't know if Minjae was angry now, he looked calm. But why would he be angry about it anyway? It was not like we had something going on between us.

For God's sake he's a guy and I'm not gay!

"You don't have classes today?" I asked realizing that everyone had left for college but only he was there doing the house chores. I didn't go today since Eunbi texted me saying that she felt sick. Moreover, I was the one who took her home yesterday so I felt the responsibility to check if she's alright.

"No, my professor got sick. So all the classes got cancelled," he replied.

"Oh. Will you be fine by yourself?"

"Yeah." He shrugged and got off giving me a small smile. I didn't want to leave him all alone, maybe I'd just check on Eunbi and quickly get back home.

I took my car and it took around thirty minutes to reach the place Eunbi told me to meet up. It was hot outside, putting on my sunglasses I stepped outside the car. Eunbi was standing on a side of street, she waved happily after seeing me.

"You look okay." I approached her then put down my sunglasses. "Why did you say you felt sick!"

"I knew you wouldn't have come otherwise!" She quickly linked her arm with mine. "Now let's go. I couldn't talk to you much yesterday. There's this really good pastry shop-"

"Wait, just wait." I stood still as she was trying to drag me with her. "Do you remember what you did last night?"

"What did I do?" She slowly raised an eyebrow. "I didn't throw up on you, I am sure of it!"

"Great, thanks for not doing that," I said a little sarcastically but was actually quiet happy knowing that she didn't have a clue about about what happened last night. It would've been so awkward if she remembered.

But why was it that I felt nothing about her making out with me. Last time when a little lip touching with Minjae happened, I totally freaked out.

Maybe it was because Minjae being a guy. But why did I I keep on worrying what Minjae thought when he saw Eunbi kissing me. Something's weirdly wrong with me.

The little bell above the pastry shop chimed as we entered. Girls really seemed to like sweets, Eunbi ordered muffins and cocoa for us then we sat down.

"You're treating me. Okay?" She demanded wiggling her eyebrows at me.

"Okay." I answered while scanning the shop and the other pastries that were decorated under the glass. It seemed like there were lots of flavours, some of them not even sweet. Maybe I should buy those for Minjae since he didn't like sweet pastries.

He was all alone at home. What if hr got sick like last time? I checked the watch on my phone as I was tapping my feet on the floor continuously.

"Yah!" Suddenly my phone was snatched from my hands. I looked up to find Eunbi pouting at me. "You can get busy with your phone later. Can't we have a conversation now?"

"Okay, okay. What do you want to talk about?" I took in a deep breath trying to calm myself down and to stop thinking about Minjae for a second.

"Hmm." She put her elbow up on the round table, putting her chin on it she tried thinking a little. "Are you dating anyone?"

I rolled my eyes at her. "Nope," I replied.

"Then have a crush on someone?"

Soyou? But I didn't know what changed inside me, I didn't feel that much attracted to her the past days. What was more confusing is I keep asking myself if I really liked her all these years or if I just liked her personality. Because she seemed a total opposite of me, she was like an idol to me when I was little.

"No," I replied again.

"Oh." Eunbi parted her mouth a little. "You know I met Mrs Yoo, your mom few months ago. I missed her so much! She said she missed me a lot too. She even came to my house and we talked for a while."

"Oh really?" I asked this time checking the shop's wall-clock unconsciously. Eunbi must've met my mom three months ago when mom came to Korea. But mom hadn't told me that she met Eunbi. Perhaps she forgot about.

"And she told me about everything. I said I was going to Paris too so I can complete my graduation there. It felt like fate you know! She was saying the same thing. Yah! Kihyun! Are you even listening?"

I snapped back from my daze. "Ah, yeah. What were you saying?"

She let out a sigh looking down then looked up at me. "Yoo Kihyun, You have changed a lot."

"In what way?"

"I remember what I did last night." She suddenly said. "I kissed you, I remember that."

It took me a moment to grasp what she was talking about looking so serious. I could feel the awkwardness coming and I didn't want it among us.

"You were drunk," I stated simply.

"But I know what I was doing." Eunbi looked into my eyes, hers looking teary. In fact she looked like she was going to cry anytime. "Why do you act so clueless?"

"Are you okay Eunbi?" I tried to touch her shoulder but she slapped my hand away.

"I've been liking you all these years. When we were in high school everyone knew about it but you were totally clueless!" She looked away carefully touching the skin underneath her eyes.

"I knew," I said feeling guilty, I used to like Soyou back then. And I thought of Eunbi as a friend, nothing else. "But I used to like someone that time."

"You did? Well, atleast you knew." She let out a dry laugh then shook her head. "This just got emotional, I'm sorry."

"It's okay." I chewed on my inner cheek a little. "But even now, I can't date you Eunbi."

"Why? You said you don't like anyone, nor are you dating someone."

"Yeah. But I'm not sure," I stated resting my body against the chair. "I have this complicated feelings towards someone. Overall, I'm not ready."

"Are you turning down my confession now?" She asked without showing any kind of expressions.

I stayed silent, waiting for an impact to happen but she suddenly burst out laughing.

"I didn't even confess to you, you narcissist jerk! You're still the same!" She kept on laughing, I watched her with awe at first but then joined in her laughter.

"Who would even like you!" She exclaimed, her cheeks going red. Slowly her laugh faded away but she was still smiling.

I'm really sorry Eunbi.

***

Choi Minjae

Taking the books on the study room, I piled them all up by my side. I needed a shower after sweating so hard and doing so much work. I looked around, still a lot of chores to do.

No one even ordered me to do anything. But I was a worker of this place anyway so it was my duty. Also I wanted to keep my head clear, that's why I kept myself busy.

I didn't want to think about him, I really didn't. Without even realizing, I looked up to check the clock hanging on the wall. Almost been two hours since he went outside to meet Eunbi.

Not that I care. I willingly fell on my back then sat on the ground. Feeling angry at myself for thinking about that moron again.

He could just do whatever! Go up to girls and kiss them! Not my business either way! I hated how I kept on thinking about last night.

Then why did he kiss me the other day, why did he hold my hand, say stuff that I would misunderstand.

For the first time in my life I actually thought a boy might've liked me. And now I just felt stupid. Who would like someone like me.

I hate him. And I hate myself for thinking about him all day.

I wish I'd never met him. Then my heart wouldn't hurt so much without any kind of reasons. Never in my life I'd been this much confused and it was all that jerk's fault.

Lazily pulling my body to get up, I started working again.

Just keep your mind off him. Don't think about that stupid guy!

"Minjae!"

Oh god, please let this be a dream. I didn't want to see him now.

I turned around and Kihyun was actually there by the door. Huffing for air as if he just ran all his way here.

"You came back early-" I couldn't say much as he quickly walked up to me in a blink of an eye.

Before I could do anything he wrapped a hand around my waist tightly then pushed me back until a table hit me from behind. Then he smashed his lips on mine without any kind of warning.

He started kissing me roughly, holding my waist with one hand, his other hand touching my cheek. I couldn't breath, I couldn't even break apart from his hold. He was just too strong.

I used all my might pushing him away just after a second the impact happened. I could feel my cheeks going hot as I quickly covered my lips with a hand watching him in horror. "What the hell are you doing!"

He came to me again and I pushed him away. There was no way to escape, I never even knew he was this strong.

"I need to confirm." He said in a raspy voice staring at me.

"Confirm what?" I snapped still covering my mouth with my hand, though he wasn't trying to do what he did just earlier again.

"Confirm that I like you."

What the hell is he talking about? "You don't like me. Now stop doing things to me! Kissing me whenever you want? Do you actually think I don't have any feelings? Just because I act all happy and normal you think these type of act of yours doesn't bother me?"

I felt my eyes stinging, water threatening to fall. This was just too much. I couldn't control it anymore as my tear started falling down my cheeks. Hanging my head low, I gave up.

"You're crying?" He gasped coming towards to touch me, I pushed him away again but this time lightly since all my strength were drained.

"Go away."

"I won't." He said softly then touched my cheek, but this time way gentler then before. My tears kept on falling, I didn't even bother to look at him. He could just do whatever he wants.

"I'm sorry if I hurt you. But I'm hurting a lot inside too. This is just so weird, I have never felt like this before. I keep getting confused. And now you are crying in front of me, it really pains so much to see you like this." He murmured wiping a tear off my cheek.

"You can kiss me." I said a little annoyed. "If that ends your confusion then I dare you to kiss me."

I looked up into his eyes and those dark orbs were staring at me. I immediately flushed red, what the heck did I just say.

"But that would hurt your feelings-"

"Shut up." I pulled him by his shirt's collar, lightly pecking him on the lips I let go right the next second.

What the hell did I just do!

I was having no control over my emotions, my words or whatever I was doing. He stared at me wide eyed being surprised. Suddenly I felt so embarrassed, I wanted the ground to just rip apart and make me fall inside it.

"You are way more wilder then I thought." He mumbled still looking surprised. Now I wanted to run away but my legs were glued to the floor.

Out of the blue, he let out a soft chuckle, next second I felt him picking me up. I screeched a little while he made me sit on the table then put both his hands by my sides. Now I could directly look into his eyes since we were on the same eye levels.

There was only a little distance between us, I could actually feel him breathing. My heart was beating so loudly, I thought it would burst inside my ribcage. But what made me more nervous yet happy was, I could hear the sound of his heartbeat too.

And I could tell he was feeling the same thing as me.

He leaned in and our lips touched each others. This time he wasn't forceful but really gentle. I kissed him back, it felt like I was tasting the most sweetest thing on earth. Even though I hated sweets I couldn't help but love this sweetness.

I wrapped my arms around his neck, touching his soft hair. Who says magic doesn't exist? It exists, I could feel something magical happen in my heart. But at the same time I wanted to cry for no reason.

"I like you. I really like you Minjae." He whispered slowly between our kisses.

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A/n: really sorry if this chapter was too mature for you. I know most of my readers are 13-15.

*showers you with holy water if you're under 15*

Also, this is my first time writing kiss scenes with so much details I'm- if you've read my other books you know what I'm talking about.