The pain and denial in his eyes always hurt me too much,  God has given me strength which I accumulated over the years but never knew I would face him again, I was in pain and I could feel it in me.

I rubbed the palms together as the wind slapped my face, the chilly air seeping into my bones, my fleece didn't help with the breeze at all, I squinted my eyes, tucking my hair behind my ear, I was alone , again in this world , I wanted to go back to him again, cherish the feeling of being with him , he was my refuge and I wouldn't want to let go of him ever again.

But I had to, I had no other choice , the torture of seeing him with someone else made my soul cry , I softly sat on the wet sand, letting the waves high from the night tide wash my feet, I tugged the fleece tighter around my body, I shut my eyes tight and let a tear slip from eyes. Please come back to me.

My lips quivered as tears made their way down my eyes , unbearable pain filled my mind, am I really marrying someone else other than him? What's wrong with me? I looked down at my footprints imprinting on the wet sand , and the waves came in and it disappeared ..

''Hey!'' I heard his voice, I felt him softly sit beside me , his face had a huge smile which made my heart flutter, why is he so gorgeous?

''Why are you crying Kat?'' he asked concerned as I wiped my tears away, I sniffed and smiled at him, he clicked his tongue.

''I was, I was just thinking about my sister , I, I miss yo- her more than ever'' I stuttered, his eyes had a vulnerability, I felt that.

''You know what I was broken when the moment I knew that she died, I woke from two years of coma , and what they showed me was her ashes? I felt myself die once again, she was always what I wanted in life, was I selfish for that? To crave her? She had my daughter, if it was now, I would ask them to prove that it was her ashes, but I was broken to ask for that, that time, but you know that I still think that she is alive for me?'' he looked deep into my eyes.

My heart just clenched at his painful and heartfelt words.

''Wait are you wearing lenses?'' he asked me suddenly scanning into my eyes making me gasp, I looked away and blinked my eyes, he grabbed my chin and looked into my eyes again,  Oh no!

''No, N-no I am not wearing lenses'' I stuttered looking down, He clicked his tongue again. 

''Then why are you stuttering, you look like her, but darker, eyes greener, and hair, and nothing different'' he mused with a small smile.

''Do you think darker people are bad? Racist fucker! Rot in hell!'' I cussed making his eyes widen with horror.

''Oh no no! Chill woman, I think, a dark woman has more pure hearts than the whites , Agree?'' he asked looking at the starry sky.

''Of course!'' I exclaimed smiling, I always wanted to have dark and glowy skin rather than porcelain, I noticed that black girls are so much more beautiful than whites.

''But I never saw your name in her birth certificate, aren't you twins?'' he asked making me gulp, how can I when there isn't even a twin.

''Stop these questions, thinking about her makes me cry'' I sniffed.

''Ok , but why do I feel like I kissed you and even had sex with you? Am I forgetting something?'' he asked again, even I don't remember due to alcohol, but I know we did, and I wish that I remembered

''Not at all! Jeez!'' I faked surprise making him chuckle.

''Can I kiss you?'' he asked deeply leaning forward, I hit his arms playfully and rolled my eyes, laughing, Actually, I wanted him to.

''Such a perv, keep it in your pants, Carter'' 

''You scared that your sister will see this from the sky? Then sorry'' he whispered, I crossed my fingers and nodded, how much will I lie to him?

''You can think that way if you want to'' I chuckled leaning back, balancing my hands on my palms, looking at the waves crash onto the rocks, it felt serene here.

I felt his fingers intertwine with mine slowly, I smiled softly and looked at him, he looked back at me, our eyes locked, I softly leaned forward and so did, as soon as I was near his lips I tilted my head kissed his cheek.

He groaned in frustration, I laughed, threw my head backwards, my hands clutching the hem of the dress as I laughed, he just stared at me as if I was the most beautiful thing in the world, and for him maybe I was.

♡ ♡ ♡

''Are you sure about this Kat? Why should you marry me? Tell me!'' Jaxon asked me shaking my shoulders harshly, this was our wedding day and I couldn't control my tears, I was hurting him by doing this and I even invited Eric, what was I even thinking? 

I adjusted my gown and took and deep breath, My eyes slowly filled as I hugged Jaxon tight, my arms around his torso, He sighed and moved my hair from my face, he pressed his lips on my head and I closed my eyes, he had helped me through my pain and I know he is perfect.

''Well, we will just act, ok? I just wanna be with you'' he whispered cupping my face, I smiled and nodded my head, he kissed my cheeks and walked away, giving me a tight-lipped smile.

The wedding vows were all fake, every word was a cruel lie, a deception because I know that I've said these words to one man, and he stands before me, unknown to the agonising fire that was burning inside me.

And we clearly know that it was Deja Vu for me, at first mine and Ric's were as fake as this, I couldn't help but let the guilt gnaw my brain.

''Now you may kiss the bride'' I heard the priest say and I froze, I looked at Eric who stood at the distance with a gentle smile, nodding his head in assurance, I clenched my fists as Jaxon pressed his lips onto mine, it felt wrong, really wrong.

As if this wasn't supposed to happen, maybe it wasn't? I've only loved one man, and my heart can never choose another, but I am doing this for him, so that he could be safe, again.

We parted and I looked at Eric and whispered to myself ''I love you''

♡ ♡ ♡

''Congratulations Kathrine'' I shook my hand with Eric as he wished me, I forced a smile and nodded , I looked at a straight-faced Damian.

''Are you ok Dammy?'' I whispered pulling cheeks, he hit my hands away making me gasp, he glared at me with such anger that it hurt me suddenly, so much pain that I felt it pass through my heart, why was he angry.

'' No! You promised me that you will be my mother because my mommy never even looks at my face all I have is my dad, I wanted a mother and you broke that promise'' he angrily said '' Kathrine'' he whispered, I looked aside as tears filled my eyes, why did he calling me that made my heartbreak.

''No, No , I did not break it I, will be your mother'' I smiled nodding my head, the little boy just scoffed, his dark ember eyes filling with tears.

''For that, you had to marry dad, but you married someone else, now I will be motherless forever'' he cried, I could feel the anger coursing through his body, this kid had serious anger issues.

Eric froze and grabbed Damian's hand '' Cut the crap, Damian! Is that how you speak to someone elder than you? Is that what I taught you?'' Eric scolded pulling his hand, but Damian hit his dad's hand and stood straight.

''No'' he said strongly, he will grow up to be one of a kind!

Eric rubbed his temples and grabbed his son by his hips and took him up, Damian tried to fight, but his dad was stronger.

''Sorry, Kathrine'' Eric chuckled as he placed a quiet Damian down, he had his cheeks puffed out, hands crossed across his chest. He looked adorable.

I looked down at Lia who tugged my dress, I chuckled and picked her up, her large eyes looked at Eric and extended her arms out for him and tried to wiggle out of my grip.

Eric chuckled and picked her up from my arms, she snuggled her head onto his neck and I heard her sniff.

''Are you going to leave me?'' she whispered to him, he smiled and kissed her head gently.

''You have a new daddy, don't you? Then why me?'' he asked looking at me, I gulped and looked down.

''No! You are my daddy, you have been so nice , will you stay with us'' she begged and poked his cheeks making him chuckle.

''No love, I can't , I am so sorry'' he whispered placing her down, Lia whimpered and hugged Damian quickly, Damian smiled and patted her head.

Did I do something wrong? Am I making the wrong choice for my daughter, for him? Why does it feel that way?  I was feeling miserable when I felt Eric softly hug me. I felt my heart rip

''Take care'' he whispered in my ears rubbing my hair, I cried and hugged him back, is this the end? 

''You too'' I whispered, He parted and made me look at him with his index and thumb on my chin, I looked deep into his eyes which held a strange sadness that I couldn't decipher.

He turned and held Damian's hand and started walking away from me, each step he made away from me made me weaker, this was our end, this was the end of Eric Carter and Odette Willow.

My lips quivered as I let out a painful cry, I leant back onto Jaxon as I saw his Limo ride away from us, he was going back to London, and we will never meet again.

♡ ♡ ♡

THE END.

𝚆𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 ,

𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚊 

XOXO