NOTE -As the people asked me to find a ship name, Many people said - Eridette

No, I don't hate her, I will never hate her, how can I? She is my angel, She brought sunshine and happiness in my life, But I had to sacrifice her, I have to let her go, she cannot be bound onto me, She deserves someone whose heart will only beat for her, a person in whose soul she lives and will love her passionately and endlessly,  Unlike me, I can never keep her happy and I had to do this so that she will hate me, but the pain I saw killed me more than I can ever imagine.

But I can't, I can't love her when my heart is beating for someone else, I can't love her when I fell in love with Nova, I can't give her my heart when I had already given that to have been harsh with her, cruel, cold and dark towards her, So in this way, she would leave me.. Forever.

Oh, Odette, I never hate you, I am doing this for you and Nova, Please understand.

Yes, My Nova came back to me, she said she was now free and wanted to start new with me, started a whole new journey, I know my name will be tarnished for cheating on my wife but it's worth the risk to live my whole life with Nova, the only woman I ever loved.

But I find myself falling for Odette, faster than I can ever imagine, faster than I fell for Nova, it got me all the strength in the world to show my hatred towards her, she did not know that when she cried, I cried too and when she walked away, I felt myself wander away into nothingness, every tear she shed was mine too, I balanced her sadness with mine.

My dad made the worst mistake for the first time, tying the knot with Odette when Nova is alive, alive and I love her.  When I said 'I hate you ' to Odette, I just meant the opposite, No! I don't love her, I had to explain 1000 times to myself that ''Odette Ruined Your Life'' to make sure that I never become vulnerable in front of her and always be strong, to make it look real.

But I can't, I can't leave my Nova alone , I promised to be with her all those years back , yes , I was cheating on my Odette this whole month living with Nova, it broke me to lie to her, but I had no other choice.

''Come on Eric, where is your mind today?'' Nova's sound made me snap back into the present as I leant on her couch in her apartment, I made sure that I fuck Nova even at my office so that they know I cheat on her and they will let her know and she will leave me, completely, I hope she leaves,  I might break,  but I had to break for her, for her own good, I belong to Nova,  me, my heart and my soul belongs to Nova and how can I give that to Odette? 

'' Huh? Nothing love, I love you'' I said with a genuine smile as Nova bend towards me and kissed my lips into a gentle kiss.

'' I love you too Ric'' she whispered making me freeze like ice, No, Odette calls me Ric, only her

'' No, Don't call me that Nova '' I said seriously at her making her frown her beautiful face looked so cute and pouty, But not as cute as Odette, her pout was cuter, FUCK! I hate you, Odette! Get away from my mind, get away from my life, my teeth gritted due to my pressure

''Why Not?'' she asked crossing her arms across her chest making her breast pop out, I licked my lips and chuckled darkly.

''Nothing my love, Now come here'' I said placing my arms on her hips and throwing her onto the bed, she laughed as I slowly took off her top, her legs thrashing with excitement.

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Shoving away my dad from my path, I jogged my way upstairs to her room, I mean, our room, or to used to be,  It sounded so right, My mind was swirling as the effect of Alcohol numbed my mind and senses

Stumbling over the stairs a bit and tripping over the carpet, I softly opened the door to her room, her beautiful scent invading my senses , I was actually astonished when I felt my heart at peace with her and not with Nova, it should be the other way.

You hate Odette, Get that in Eric, I whispered to myself.

I softly got inside the duvet beside her sleeping figure, she looked so tranquil as I slowly wrapped my arms around her, she, like a good girl came closer to the warmth of my body, Do I actually love her? Nova or Odette? I got enough of this inner conflict, my ring clad fingers glided down the soft skin of her cheek, the way she sleeps squished her cheeks into a pout, I just wanted to kiss her.

With her beside me,  sleep came to me faster than with Nova, something does not feel right with Nova, as if she was not the Nova I knew, Odette was my salvation, I was sure of this.

The Alcoholic effect had faded but I still wanted to make Odette hate me till her core so she will let me go,  I have to hurt her more and more for this, She has to leave me, it is for her own good.

I know it hurt her when I said Nova was my everything, which was true, Nova was my love and my everything but, Still it did not feel right, Odette was my everything? That felt better! What's wrong with me? Why this inner turmoil?

I was in shock I felt a sting on my face, did she just slap me? Bitch! I was angry beyond my control when she did that, no one raised their hands on me.

My mind wandered when I thought about last night as I leant on my chair in my office , I ordered Kiara not to make anyone enter my office when Nova was with me, and yet she came in.

Nova was good with her pussy, she was beautiful and seductive and not at all innocent,  unlike my Odette, she is so innocent and feisty which makes me more attracted towards her, she was so strange yet beautiful.

''Where is your mind again Eric? With that bitch?'' Nova moaned in anger as I fucked her, Fury passed through my eyes when she said that , I pushed her away in fury, what did he call her?

''Don't you dare call her that!'' I roared making Nova grit her teeth , she came towards me and held my collars and pushed me onto my chair again , she straddled me again, my angry eyes locking with hers, slowly lowering herself onto me, we moaned together, syncing perfectly, God! She was good with this thing. She knew how to make a man feel good.

''You love me Eric, just me! You promised me that you will let her go , that you will come back for me!'' she moaned as anger laced her words, her teeth gritting with pressure ''Fuck you are so huge! Hmph!''

Yeah, that was the main reason I was hurting Odette,  to make Nova happy with me, to be with Nova,  I promised my love that I will let Odette go and I had to do it! But, But something feels wrong and not at all peaceful

''I love you Nova, so fucking much!" I groaned grabbing her face and kissing her deeply, but that's when I heard the door creak open and I saw her, looking at us.

Seeing her broken, shook my very core,  but I wanted her to this , this is what I wanted, her to be hurt and broken so she will leave me! But my heart said otherwise, why was my heartbreaking? Why was it feeling betrayed? What is wrong with me? Why is my soul crying?

''Odette! Stop!'' I said pushing Nova off me and adjusting my pants, buckling my belt again, as I was about to run Nova stopped, her face flushed with Rage and jealousy as she glared at me, nails digging into my skin.

''Eric! You love me and not her! Why are going behind her? We planned all this, to hurt and break her and why suddenly!?'' Nova shouted shaking my shoulders vigorously, my body shaking with her pressure.

She was right, I wanted this and why am I doing this? I am not even sure of my own thoughts, what is wrong with my mind, my head was hurting.

'' I know I love you but that does not mean that I don't care for her right? I do care for her very much, I ruined her life and does that make me help her? Save her? For you, I am hurting her,  Does it not prove to you that I love you and still why are you being so insecure Nova?'' That came harsher than I thought, I saw Nova's eyes water slightly.

But Odette was also slipping away from me, slipping into oblivion, If I don't follow her now, I will lose the trail of her forever,  Do I really hate her? I don't think so anymore!

''But Eric , you said you hate her? Leave her,  Why do you care if she dies? If she runs away? If she fucks some other man? Why?'' she cussed at me, and that triggered me hard, it pierced into me badly, my little rose with someone else? She dare not say that.

''Because I love her woman!'' I roared unexpectedly at Nova making her go pale and frozen, my breath was heavy as I ran downstairs as I left a petrified Nova crying, Oh I really said that? I love Odette.

''Odette Stop!'' I yelled as I reached the entrance, but she sped away with Patrick in my Maserati, Fucking backstabber! He was supposed to work for me.

''You! Get the bloody car out now!'' I yelled at a nearby man as I took out my phone and tracked my Maserati, The University, So that's where she is heading, I should have guessed that! Got you love! You can't run away from your husband, not in a thousand birth.

I got into the car and patted the driver and he sped towards the university, the expensive vehicle roaring onto the asphalt.

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I was wrong this whole week, I was a pathetic, selfish and idiotic bastard to hurt her all this time, Oh my god,  Do I really love her? Did I mean what I said to Nova? Now I am going to lose both Nova and Odette? Will I be alone in this world again?

It grew dark as I stepped out of the car towards the University that was so isolated, The sun disappeared onto the horizon and I placed my foot on the grounds. Dusting swirling due to the void.

Shutting the door, I walked into the empty premises of the University , it was so eerie and dark for my liking.

Where are you my Odette? I just want to see you.

I saw my Maserati resting over the side and saw that backstabber, Patrick, my driver.

I gritted my teeth as my fists clenched as I walked towards him, as soon he saw me, he went pale and his jaw hung open, before he could run, I grabbed his collars making him shiver, fear painting over his eyes.

''Where is she?'' I asked , my hands wrapping around his neck , choking him, he struggled to let free but miserably failed.

''Fuck you, boss!'' he seethed, Anger flurried through me as I smashed his head onto the Maserati bonnet making his nose crack, he let out a painful cry that reverberated over the empty air.

''See? It hurts right? That's how you hurt me, going away with her!'' I growled at him , but he let out a laugh darkly, blood dripping through his nose, his hands clutching his nose. 

''Boss, you did not know how much you hurt Mrs Carter, she will never forgive you for what you did!'' he whispered, the nerve of this brat! I threw him away onto the cement road, a painful whimper leaving his lips and stormed inside, raking my fingers through my hair.

As I entered, I could hear the soft sounds of weeping coming from inside, the sound was so painful that it was painful, I saw her cry, her face buried between her arms as her body shook with her crying, she was hurt because of me, I just wanted to kill myself for just thinking about hurting this angel, Look at me? How much did I hurt her? I was too late to realise that I love her, too late that I broke her soul, How wrong I was to let her go, how wrong was I to choose Nova over her? and in reality, I never realised that she is my true love.

Now she will never forgive me because I hurt her with all I was, Because I broke her nothing, I walked inside, my office shoes making a sound against the silent corridors.

 She was crying standing by the wall, Unknowingly tears filled my eyes as I saw her, it was the most painful sight my eyes ever witnessed.

Her beautiful eyes met mine and it got filled with hatred and disgust, Oh I knew I deserved this, She started running away from me as I walked towards her, she can't run away from me! I followed her, Her hair flying backwards as she walked with all her force, wiping her tears with the back of her palms.

''Odette watch out!'' I yelled as she hit the lockers when she ran looking back at me, but it was too late, she crashed onto the metal and fell down, twisting her leg, she let out a painful cry, shattering my soul, that cry was straight from the heart.

I slowly walked towards her and knelt beside her, her eyes snapping at me, her lips quivered as her eyes burned with rage,  Yes, Patrick was right,  she would never forgive me, I have to let her go, I don't deserve, all I gave her was pain.

''Odette, Listen to me, please, just this once'' I begged, tears filling my eyes as I held her hand, she tried her best to push them away but I was stronger than her, as I held her hand, her hands slipped down as she wept, her chest rising and falling.

''Please, leave me alone, please, I hate you so so much Eric!, so much that my heart is making me hate you like nothing!'' she whispered with disgust and rage, I never knew the pain would be this horrible until now, This was so searing.

''Odette, please '' I pleaded to grab her hands as my tears cascaded down my eyes, I was sorry, truly and really sorry for doing this, I don't deserve her, no one does.

''You should have thought about this when you left me when you cheated on me for a whole week! Never even caring to call me or even talking with me!'' she cried as she tried to get up, shifting her weight on her elbows.

I wrapped my hands around her waist and made her get up slowly, she leant onto the locker and slapped my hands off sharply, as if she didn't need my help.

''Odette, I will explain, I will explain everything, please understand, I did this for you, for your own good!'' I tried to explain, my hands in the air,  but she shook her head and pushed me away, in the process was about to fall on her face.

'' Don't you dare, Just let me-'' before she could complete this, I wrapped my arms around her and hugged her tight, feeling her warmth in my body as tranquillity passed through me, a feeling of ecstasy.

'' Shh, calm down baby'' I cooed, softly rocking her as she trembled in my arms, holding my biceps and face dug into my chest, as she tried to get out of my grip, but after a few minutes she gave up and hugged me, I rubbed her back and calmed her troubled soul and heart.

I have to let her go even though it kills me, I have decided that a long back.

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Why I still love you Eric!

𝚆𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚝𝚎𝚗 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 ,

𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚗𝚊 𝙿𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚂𝚝𝚎𝚛𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐

𝙰𝚒𝚍𝚎𝚍 𝚊𝚗𝚍 𝙴𝚍𝚒𝚝𝚎𝚍 𝚋𝚢 - 𝙶𝚊𝚋𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚕 𝙰𝚗𝚍𝚛𝚎 𝙱𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚌

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