"Life hurts, nature heals."

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Its been a week,since I spent my school hours with the girl sitting beside me, Luna.
Not gonna lie, but she is actually so sweet, and generous, unlike some. She know how I am not comfortable to others, but still engage me more to overcome this insecurity. And make me feel the very best of myself. EVERYTIME.

I glance her, eyeing her. She be looking so beautiful even in that messy braid. Keeping her head in her palms, all exhausted, she spoke.
"Please give me an another key to success, education is not working anymore."

I widened by eyes, what is she saying? I looked at her notebook, where she couldn't solve the problems since last 15 minutes.

"What?"
I interrogated with an amused question.

"You heard me Zelda, I know."
She still resting herself like that position.

"Like, where do you find the difficulties, show me."
I took the notebook from her side,and kept that infront of me. I took the pencil, and rotating it between my index and
middle finger, as my usual habit and initiated to solve the equation after few seconds.

I kept solving it, until I found myself satisfied with the results. I saw her, already with a bewilderment expression, all shocked.

"Is the answer 56.83?"
I asked her to check the answer. She took her textbook and turn the very last page, to verify the answer from the given exercise.

Turning her side profile to me, I could see a shocked look. All for me to explore and interrogate.

"Yes, Could you please explain it to me?"
I nodded for the same and did that as it was a free period where we all were doing our own works, minding our own business.

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"Well, Luna?"
I craned my neck towards her side, while my hands gripping on my bag shoulder straps.
I caught her already staring at me, with a different secret held in her eyes. What this feeling with her? Admiration? Tenderness?
I don't know what to name it. Maybe, It can be also a delulu.

"Yes?"
She spoke with a deep weight loaded in her voice. Not so usual pitch, as she talks.
I gulped the unavailable gulp down my throat, to lighten the heaviness of her voice. Only if I could do so.

"Uh, do you have your phone number? So that we can talk."
I questioned. All eye fixed with her hazel ones. Anyone would love to drawn in them with all their acceptance. They were that attractive and beautiful. Her eyes shining like gold with that sun rays falling on her face. Her hair strands was being the unpaid beauty of her enchanting and ubiquitous features.

This time, after asking question, she break the eye matching with me, and kept stepping ahead.

Silence thickened the atmosphere. No single words from anyone. Later, after probably 10 seconds, she spoke,

"I don't have a personal phone with me. It's with my btother. But don't worry, we talk alot in school."
At the end, she smiled.

That's true, but I wanted her to talk with me hours. 'Cause, after so long, I get someone with whom I can spend some time, without being scared of unnecessary judgement. She is the most wonderful person to me now. I know, initially, my reactions to her were not so honest, and didn't felt her as a good one. But time deals with everything.

I nodded in answer to her, as somewhere it's fine, if the situation is not by my side at last, its her choice.

"Well, remember you said, you are gonna tell me more about your cousin Kim."
I smoothed her my smile playing on my face after I spoke.

Soon, her deep dimples faded as disbelief replaced her smile. She looked as stunned as I said.

"Uh, yeah..so"
I continued listening her, when she said.

"But, I think I-I gotta go...as my p-parents must be waiting."
I swatted at her, my expressions had morphed from curious to amused at her fumbling response. My gaze slammed into her. But still I forced a smile on my face and nod. That's all I can do for now.

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Right after, I made the way to my room, I kept searching those notes.
I picked one of them, and a smile made a timely appearance on my face.
I sat on the corner of the bed, and coaxed the personal details out of that scrunched paper.

My chest filled with warmth with the quote scribbled on the paper. This is so right to read, when you don't have anyone to rely on, these are the perfect things to make yourself feel the most of you.

"Hey petal! How are you? Hope good. Thanks for reading my notes till now. I was so insecure about them,lol. But anyways thank you<3.
You know what I did...I wrote a poetry for you...I don't know how is it but honestly I tried because you like them. The way you portrait your inner self in just few words amaze me alot.
So, its all about you. Here it is:-

"Golden as sunflower as she, calm as ocean I believe, her love infers the fallen leaves in autumn season, she tend to collect them and the breeze of my love, gathering those tenderness of hers, all together to make a perfect match."

How is it? Good or....? Please tell me in some sort of letter. That would be such a great acknowledgement from your side. This is all for you. I know somewhere it must have been Suck, because it's my first time. But for you, I would love to write it everyday petal. You just be happy. Take careeee, love yaa!
~for you petal.

The tears fell, a torrential downpour so strong I couldn't see past it. I didn't bother wiping the tears away. I sank in her poetry, wrapped my arms around my legs and buried my face against my knees, drowning beneath the waves of that person's love for me.

I squeeze my eyes shut and tried to calm my incoherent sobs.

Even thought I was crying, but a smile was played along on my face after I stop my sobs.

"You did it so well, you were my shelter that time. You know every single thing about me, yet played hide and seek. I hate you for this reason. But, you gave me so other reasons to smile, to feel confident, to believe in time, sweetheart. Thank you. Thank you for everything."

Silence engulfing my room.

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The bright afternoon sun had softened to the warm yellow of golden hour. Sunset approached, turning the sky into a palette of soft pastels.

I kept roaming around my nearby playground. It was such a refresh moment!

Hands stuffed in the pockets of my pants. No mask in my face. Hair be stranded in a messy bun. The most comfortable dress up.

I approach the basketball court. There were shrubs around that court, as boundaries. And I was just behind them. Watching the boys playing all along in the match.

"Hey alien, throw the ball to me."
I heard the voice and diverted my eyes to that side only to find someone who is the most unexpected for me right now.
The one who can just water the panties of anyone, in just plain t-shirt and pant.
The one who never fails to beat my heart at a very fast past, just by one glimpse of his.

Kim Taehyung
The name hung in the air, unspoken, like a guillotine waiting to drop.

The sun still shines against his honey smooth skin, casting his face into something that's half sunset/half shadow. It's a good look, a sharp contrast that matches with his hair.

"Yeah, wait--"
He stopped short.
Now all glazing me. This is the very first time he get to see my face, as that day it was covered with the mask.
He stopped on his track of passing ball. And kept watching me with his warm eyes. Ignoring all those screams and glares from other boys, probably his teammates.

The time I get to know what was he doing, my inner conscious mind kicked me and my cheeks flamed hotter than a bag of Hot cheetos.

We were having an eye conversation, which we both were unaware of. Whatever it was, it was bound to tilt my world off it's axis.

Not so long, his lips quirked up in a small smile, and sent the butterflies in my stomach in a tizzy.

"Uh, take this."
With that he turned, and threw the ball. Now, they all were back to their playing session.
No looking back.
No staring competition.

Nevertheless, my sweat intensified. Nothing wracked my nerves till now, just the way that handsome idiot did.

I got the best idea. To escape from here. I kept walking until the court is way too far from my side. I breathed hard because of intense walking. My cheeks still warm, along with my ear.

But there was someone who was already so ready to get my attention. Someone who can slow down my heart beat for now. Someone who is the most strongest and beautiful person at this moment in all of us.
Nature.
I viewed the sun setting, all so clear. Making it look the most gorgeous eye catching thing for me. Its slow March to slumber streaked the skies with an artist's palette of pale purples, soft oranges, and cotton-candy pinks.

My smile touched my lips and admire it, until I get bored of it. Heck! Can anyone be bored out of nature's beauty? No!

I made the way to my phone and clicked the photo of that beautiful scene.

(Image is mine)

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"You know today I met Kim."
I acknowledged everything to MOON, whatever I witnessed today. But, started from him.

"He passed me a smile."
I said cheerfully, and was getting more in the delusion.

He still kept the best glow of himself in that starry night. Him giving city the best spotlight ever, as the only light radiating object in the sky.

I uttered a stream of words so colorful and fantasies love scenarios so graphic, I could've moonlighting as a best romantic author.

Soon, with the flow, I get one of the not so pleasant reminiscence of my family. When they degraded me, well that's what their secondary job is. They don't know how hurt I get everytime they spit things like this.
Soon, my eyes get watery, filled with warm tears.
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"And then you know Jessica--"
I was interfered with my sentence. This time my mother spoke,

"Why do you talk so much Zelda?"
Her quite rude saying brought the conversation screeching to a halt. She kept her focus on me as she explained,

"You keep talking, when no one of us are interested in your listening."
My eyes smoldered with shame and disbelief. I couldn’t fight the small lonely tear that escape from my eyes.

"Just be mature Zelda! You are not a child anymore."
She spoke and continued slicing the piece of Steak tartare with the fork laid on her plate.

I looked beside my seat, and found everyone eating unbothered. My brother came near my ears, and whispered in not so sharp voice.
"This is what you get idiot."

"You keep talking all day, never get tired of. Just look at that--"
She gulped the piece, while covering her mouth and again continued,
"The girl beside our house, what's her name-"
Kept her hand on her temples, rubbing it to trying to get a resemblence of that particular name.

"Mum, Andra!"
My brother said abruptly and put an end to her recalling thing. I shut my eyes tightly as now the main thing have been initiated because of this scumbag. I hate him to the core. Soon, I heard things saying out of my mother's mouth, which breaks me apart all the time. And, it's very back-breaking thing for me to hold myself in one plate.

"Watch out that Andra, she is so smart unlike you, dumb!"
Solitary tear entered the race.

"She has just a good posture, unlike yours. Eating eveytime and doing nothing."
You break my desperation to stop the flow.

"She helps her mother so much in household. So Mature and such elegance. Be like her!"
That's it.

"I don't know what I did to deserve these type of children."
"Mum! What did I do?"
"For god sake, shut up Grebial. You are also not less."
At the end she sighed.
Annoyance.
Disgrace.
Disappointment.
Useless.
That's all I am for her.
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I breathed as a sob.
"I s-speak a lot, right?"
Constant water dripping off my eyes. Whimpering sounds were heard in that tranquility atmosphere. The celestial bodies were the only one witnessing my insecurity.
Insecurity to cry infront of one.

"No one l-likes my voice."
I wiped off the tears from my cheeks. 'Cause I don't get anyone to do so. Here. With me. By my side.

"Who said all these, dear?"
I got a sensation of him communicating and questioning me.

"Everyone around me,MOON. My family, people, everyone."
I sob in my hands. Tried to recollect myself, but unable to do so.
Why I can't be like those fearless women? Why I can't fight my own grief? Why am I so vulnerable? Why am I the only one to feel this pain? Why I always feel anxiety? Why I couldn't withstand my bullies?

He was glowing so much in that dark. Even if he is not full, still is the brightest among everyone. He started glittering more and more with seconds. Maybe an indication to console me.

"Speak infront of me. I am all ears. Your voice alarm like a music to me. I love you and your voice."
I kept looking at him vacantly and all eyes fixed. That's why I adore him so much.

"Speak to me, I won't judge you. You are my beauty. They don't know your significance, its fine. But you have me. Talk to me. "

He is the reason I still believe in tenderness, love, humanity, warmth and a reason to live. When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible, and that somebody is 'him', my Moon. I love him and it is the beginning of everything.

"Only if you would have been in person, I would have never let go off me."
I was crying my heart out. But, he is here, so no worry. Ofcourse, he knows me better than anyone else.

"No one can console me as you do. Thank you so much."

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Thank you!
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~Hey! How are you all? Not fine? It's fine...it's ok to be not okay sometimes. At last, you got yourself to collect. Best of luck. Meet you in the next.
Take careeee<3
~Jiya