"I wonder how people describes me when they are talking about me, to someone who has never met me."

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"Don't worry, I am here for you. You are so pretty to handle, and I love this beauty"
I read the quote, which was sent by a stranger, more like a lovesick person, to me in a pretty handwritten envelope. These types of things I used to get during the last university I once studied as a student.
I always speculated who's have been providing me with these sweet gestures and adorably sentences to define, since at one place, I don't even deserves this.

That's true, 'they' made my life not less than a hell, but this person tried to rain some blossoms in my wound.
Alas! I couldn’t get to know more, but I just wish the person must be living an imaginary life, unlike me.

I wonder how he/she can read me this carefully? How well that human knows me? He even knew my struggles.

Still the secrets about him are folded in their most knotting way, which I am unable to open so far. But at the end, I thank him/ her for atleast, making me smile even in my most difficult phase.

I looked all those scrunched papers and kept a fixed eye on them, only to decide them to read all of them. Because this anxiety which 'm feeling current is somehow I am familiar with.

Deliberately yet with admiration, opening them.
One by one.

The one with a hot pink shade envelope caught my eyes. I flickered it between my fingers, rotating it front to back to get a whole view of it. A kind of paper lock was there, right in the front of its opener. I swiped the paper from it's holder, and extracted the scrunched papers out of it.

Opening it with the most delicacy, if it's possible.

"Petal, how was your day? Even if its not good, then still it's completely fine. Because at the end, you got yourself. I know you are strong, I know you got the power to fight with your miseries, and along with you, I am always there. You have my shoulder, petal. I love you to the moon and back. And yeah, please have your meal, I don't want to see a weak Zelda! Love you petal!"

That's what is written in this. My eyes were occupied with the warmness for this. Tears almost welled up, threatening to fall. I bring it, placed it in my chest at the place where my heart beats.

"Do you feel the rhythm? Hmm? I don't even know you yet there, you always make me comfortable with your words. Only if I would have thanked you for this gratitude of yours."

I closed my eyelids, and just enjoyed the silence engulfing me.

With 3 minutes of quiet mode, saw all those scattered papers laid in my leg. Then, I picked the other having a scarlet colour ribbon knotted on the top of that.

You just need to pluck the opener with your hand and that's it--

"Zelda...are you awake?"
I flinched, as soon as I heard my mother's voice ringing behind the doors.

"Y-yeah mum?"
I started collecting those papers, and stuttered, 'cause ofcourse what if she found these things? I will be dead in the next few seconds.

Opening the door, I saw an actual furious, Oh!--

"Why did you take so long?"
First question already encountered. Holding the hem of my shirt securely, I answered,

"J-just came washing my mouth along."

She squinted her facials, doubting my reply. But soon, nodded minutely and told me to do my study straight way.

I sighed, while closing the door, and rubbed my temple to cease the worries.

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"What could be the answer of this equilibrium constant?"
I questioned myself, while placing the end of my pencil in my mouth to guess the answer. Then, scribbled the answers of the question on the rough notebook to solve it, after rotating the stationary between the index and middle finger.
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"Oh gosh! It's finished now."
I closed my notepad after crossing the assigned plans, which I planned for today.

Took the bottle, kept near my phone, and drank it.

Only the water swallowing, and minute hand of the clock rotating can be specifically heard in the room. All silent.

I once recheck my made planned, and put the stationaries on their respective place. Taking the phone in my hands, I observed the timings.

10:03 pm.

"That's it, time to go."
I kept the device in my pocket, and closed the door of my room.
Rushing over the stairs, still carefully handling the handles to not make me fall out of my pace.

The door of the rooftop was already opened, letting myself cooed. I covered myself with my hands, with the sensation of the blowing winds. That was so cold. The wind roared in the sky, making my own self felt the most shivering of me.

My leftover hair strands attempted to get tangled over my face, not letting me view the one for whom I am here. I extracted them from my face, after releasing myself from my own hands grip.

I craned my neck up, to see the only Luminous object at that time.
I immediately grinned like a Cheshire cate, that was so beautiful for someone's view.

All alone in the dark, yet so brightened by its own beauty.
A Starless night, no one to support him, yet many more brave than any other thing.

"How are you?"
Simple question to ask.

"I wait so many hours, just to see this beauty!...and in the end,it was all worth it."
I spoke, while covering myself again.

"You know today, I get to know more about him. Kim Taehyung, that's his name. He is so handsome, God!"
With that, I initiated to speak my all wheredoings of today.

"I felt so good, when she informed me that she won't be telling this any secret to anyone."
I even sentenced Luna's soft heart and so beautiful gestures, 'Cause she deserves that.
It almost spent about 20 minutes, thought I didn't had any idea about this.

"Um,well I got something today."
Eventually, I kept hand inside my pocket, and search for that particular thing, which I kept before arriving here.

I grinned from ear to ear, when I got that and I showed it to him.

"Here it is."
It was one of the envelopes which I found underneath my cupboard. I was destined to show it to him, as it was so so so gorgeous, that I couldn't stop myself from not showing this.
After all, after my moon, these envelopes were my supporting at that time.

"Remember? When I used to say that there is someone who gives me a letter everyday? Here is one of those, and today..."
This time concaved one side of my mouth with my fingers, as to make it look like a whisper which should be kept between us only.

"I am gonna read that infront of you..hehe"

That was the same paper with a bow on the corner, which I couldn’t read during evening because of my mum's interruption.

I opened it gently, the lower part of the paper getting blowed to other direction because of the breeze.

"Hey petal? How's day going? Well, thanks to you for opening this letter, as I always wonder, that whether do you like this or not. But I  guess, situation is with me. Thank youuuu-<3.
I know what happened yesterday, everything of it. It was so horrible yet I cannot protect you. I am sorry, it was all my mistake, that I couldn't save you from those devils. I am sorry, for not able to protect your gentleness from them. They will be rotten to hell. I promise and especially that, David. Only if I would have protected you before getting bullied from those rascals, you wouldn't be having your precious tears. Only if I would have protected you, I wouldn't have get to see you so vulnerable in the washroom. Only if I would have marked my present in that hallway, they wouldn't have molested you.
Again so so fucking sorry, love. I never knew this gonna happen in my absence. But don't worry, they will pay for this. They need to.
And I will make them pay, at the end they will be at your feet, pleading to get your forgiveness. So don't, you have my shoulder, all me to rely on, all myself to love you. I don't know about this world, but I will accept you even with all of your flaws which have not been ever appreciated.
Eat your meal on time, hmm?
Take careeeeee, and I love youu, petal."

The excitement with which I opened it, was vanished now. All there was, disappointment and grief for myself.

The letter ends, but not my tears from my eyes. I folded it in my hand, and pecked it, only to keep it in my pockets.

"You see, how much he cares about me! I don't even know that is he a boy or a girl? But still, he knows my everything."
I looked down and hold the railings for the physical support, and about the emotional one? Leave that, it was never counted.

I recalled the session which happened that day with me, which had been mentioned in the scrunched note.
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"So did you worked for the link I provided, baby?"
His voice was soft, but the work he is talking about was way more notorious.

I grabbed my bag straps so forcefully. I was scared.
Scared of him, his teammates, and this scene.

"He asked you something bitch!"
I heard a girl's voice behind my back. Who else it could be than her?

I yelped as I felt my scalp being pulled out with a sudden strong force. I held her wrist to make my hair be free out of her grip, but in return I only get a slight slap on my ass.

"Leave her Jessica."
I widened my eyes as I heard him. The devil itself.

I felt a loosen held of my hairs as I rubbed my scalp because of that merciful pulling.
I felt him coming near my mouth, and kept the pad of his thumb on the side of my lips. I know what's coming now. I sobbed, my body jerked due to the upcomig horrific moment. No one can save me now, not me even.

"Why baby, why are you crying? I didn't even do anything yet!"
Still, it was making me so terrified of him without his any doings. He spoke so calmly but his movements says otherwise.

My eyes traced his soft creases of his eyes, handsome all say.
Yes, but devilish handsome.
His face and his acts both speak a lot different stories, which only I have been aware of.

"Baby, open your mouth."
I declined, shooked my head. Pleading to stop all these, but he was deaf.
He glared me with a sharp look and grabbed my asscheek harshly, I gasped, taking advantage of this, he inserted his thick digit in my mouth.
I whimpered.

"Kneel down!"
He ordered, I did the same not to make him more furious more, as he already is.

"Suck"
Doing the same thing he ordered. Sucking his thumb, he spoke,

"Good girl."
These two words- made me weak, as I already speculated what's bad going to happen with me.

Suddenly, I felt someone holding my both hands and placed in my back, I wriggled in his grip, yet couldn’t stopped them.
Soon I heard the sound of metals cuffing my wrist. I whimpered more, cries escaping my mouth as moans.

"Oh baby! You are making me so hard by your sweet moans."
He closed his eyes in sensation and whereas I was feelings so humiliated.
I cried silently. As now I cannot stop them, no matter how much I resist them. In the end, I will be the most punished.

"Uh.,mhmmm."
My words were stuffed inside my mouth by his thumb. Now, I could probably felt someone's hot breath fanning my side neck area. There, the other boy 'Morel' was planting kisses in that specific area.

I struggled fiercely and opened my mouth wide to yell, but David slapped a hand over it, gripping my face.
His eyes were half-lidded and his lips were curled in a side grin.

"If you shout now, then I wonder what position you would first try?"
He asked. My brows furrowed. I observed his eyes, and they were dangerous.

"Please let me go! I won't tell anyone."
I sobbed, couldn’t help my tears because of the harsh bites being planted on my neck, and the upcoming consequences.

"You would do anything whatever I will say?"
I craned my neck to his profile, nodding vigorously, in hope if he would let me go.
But alas! How wrong I was.

"OK, then give me a lap dance."
I stiffened on my place, ignoring all those bravo screams and his teeth digging in that area.

One of my tear escalated through my eyes, rolled down the cheek already. God please save me!

"Give me fast! Or else the consequences won't be good baby."
He acknowledged. A 'woah' can be heard by my side, it was from, Jessica. I looked at her side, we both made a contact. How could a woman let another woman hurt? How could she?

I glanced her with hurtful eyes, enough to let her know how she broke my trust from any other person, even if it's a girl.

"David, this is not fair, I want this."
Morel squealed infront of him. Fuck you.

"You can have her, after me."
I could feel a happy Morel, even if he is behind me. And there, I was all amused by their conversations. Aren't they ashamed of this?

I heard David giving a groan, clearly in disappointment. Not wanting him to be more angry, I made my way to his side, where he was sitting in the chair, all legs spread. I felt Jessica opening my cuffs, before giving me a side eye.

"Good luck."
That's all what she whispered behind me.

Slowly and slowly, I sat on his lap with dried tears drained on my face.
Not so long, he held me firmly by the side of my waist and bring me more closer, if it's possible.
With a cry, my back hits his muscular chest. His breath fanning my neck hair. I tried to sit up more straightly, but he pinned my hand in my lap.

My all weight draped on his lap, and he could care less.

"Ah, smell so good, all mine."
I felt him  giving me those harsh hickeys on my nape, snaking his one of his hand around my waist to hold me firmly.

"Please."
I requested him once again to stop his doings, unaware of the fact that it angered him more.

"Ah, what's- what's that?!"
I exclaimed, with knitted eyebrows, this time I perceived something poking hard underneath my asscheek.

"This is the out turn of your naughty deeds baby~"
Then, it sensed me and hit me like a thunderstruck. What on the Earth I did to deserve this? This is so unethical and smudged thing.

Indignity and degradation of that hard, thick plunging thing effected me so much to the core.

He initated to rub my body at that specific part which sent shivers down my spine. The tail of my spine made contact with his abdomen. I couldn’t formulate the words.

Eyes never ran out of the moisture, drenched face with dry tears, worming in his clutch.

"Yes baby, yes just like-oh-fuck!"
He kept bagging my back against his hard chest with his each and every force of his hand. My suplicatory insistent and consistent sobs were hard for hearing to them.

Whereas, the other two have a smug smile on the corner of their lips, which I wanted to punch out on the square of their faces, but unfortunately, I couldn’t.

Finally, he emphasized a nasty groan out of his mouth. Completing his work. As soon as he released me from his grip, I immediately run out of his lap, covering myself from those rascals  vision.

"It was better than any lap dance. You did a great job! But.."
A moisture stain was visible between his thighs over his pants. Oh shit--he cummed? That too, in his pants?

By the time, he came near my ears and whispered,
"Next time without joggers."

I was spellbound. Goggling my eyes, I watched him with utter disgust, but his next words were more disturbed and worried sick.

"Morel, your turn."
With a smirk, the latter approached me...
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I sobbed in my hands. Discontinuing my tears was never my thing. After some time, which may felt like an eternity, I wiped off.

"I-don't know, h-how would I forget t-them?"
I spoke in that silent atmosphere.

"You are all worthy to speak anything infront of me, love. This is your time. I know how long you have been brave, and I appreciate it. Cry, show your weak profile to me. And I swear, you won't be having any complaint."
I perceived him verbalizing all these things. There's a reason behind my love for him. And, every time, he never fails to show any minimise effect of that warmth.

"I love you too with all acceptance."
Taking out the phone, I clicked his photo and saved it in my gallery.

( Image is mine)

My eyes twinkling with tenderness. I gave him an honest smile.
Beaming from ear to ear, all visible to him.

"Sometimes the moon is all I have~"

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Thank youuuu<3
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Meet you in the next!
Honestly, the last time fits so well with Zelda, including myself too.
And yeah, You are worth of all!
Byeeeeee
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