It's been a week since I filled in the form and I've written back to Steve and Bucky. I keep looking at the picture of Steve and Bucky together and it makes me giggle because Steve didn't smile whereas Bucky did. That's another thing I love about that man, his heart melting smile. That is one of the things that made me fall in love with him. That and his steel blue eyes. Eyes you can find yourself getting lost in.

While cooking breakfast for myself I have the television playing just so I don't feel alone. I hear women singing then an all too familiar voice sounds throughout the house.

"Who's strong and brave, here to save the American Way?"

"Not all of us can storm a beach or drive a tank, but there's still a way all of us can fight."

"Who vows to fight like a man for what's right, night and day?"

"Series E Defense bonds. Each one you buy is a bullet in the barrel of your best guy's gun."

I walk into the living room and watch the screen with a smile and teary eyes when I see my brother on the screen in a red, white and blue outfit with a matching shield.

"Who will campaign door-to-door for America?
Carry the flag shore to shore for America
From Hoboken to Spokane
The Star Spangled Man with a Plan!"

"We can't ignore there's a threat and a war we must win

Who'll hang a noose on the goose-stepping goons from Berlin?"

"We all know it's about trying to win the war. We can't do that without bullets and bandages, tanks and tents."

I see someone dressed as Adolf Hitler walk up behind Steve and he punches him making me chuckle and shake my head before he continues on with his speech.

"That's where you come in. Every bond you buy will help someone you love."

"Who will indeed lead the call for America?
Who'll rise or fall, give his all for America?
Who's here to prove that we can?
The Star Spangled Man with a Plan!"

"The Germans will think twice about trying to get the drop on us."

Once it is over it goes to the news and more names are mentioned which makes my heart nearly drop. When I don't hear Bucky's name I take a deep breath then walk back into the kitchen to finish cooking myself breakfast.

I guess Steve got what he wanted. To join the Army. What I don't understand is why he isn't he on the front lines with Bucky. That's why he enlisted. To make sure both of them come home.

Shaking my head I try to shift the horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach but it just won't go away. Something doesn't feel right but I can't figure out what it is. All I know is something is wrong.

Changing the channel as I sit on the sofa to eat and find a movie to watch then realise it has Steve in it. So... he is now Captain America? Jeez I knew he wanted to prove himself but this is too far.

Three more days pass and I still haven't heard anything about being selected to be a medic for the One O Seventh and starting to give up any hope I have been hanging on to. I see an envelope drop through the letterbox making my heart pound against my chest as I shakily pick it up. I look at the handwriting and breathe a little easier when I see Steve's handwriting so carefully open it and start reading.

"Hey Little sis.

I know it's been a while but I've been really busy. I've been traveling the world with a show and making movies. I'm now called Captain America. It's strange I know.

I have a few more shows to do before I do one back home. I really miss you Buggie.

Anyway, please take care of yourself okay. I will be home before you know it. I love you Little sis.

Stevie x"

I chuckle to myself because he doesn't know that I already know about him being Captain America. At least he's safe but Bucky isn't. I haven't heard anything from Bucky in a while and it's really worrying me. I grab a piece of paper and start writing back to Steve.

"Hey Stevie.

That's pretty cool and it's fine. I actually saw you on the television today and I really like the outfit and shield.

It's been really quiet and lonely without you and Bucky here with me. It doesn't feel like home. Just a house. It feels like an empty space where it's cold and lonely.

I can't wait for you and Bucky to come home because I miss you both so much. I've been trying to pass my time by reading, playing piano and singing but it isn't working any more.

I miss you Stevie. I love you.

Buggie x"

I manage to find an envelope and a stamp then make sure it's all sealed. I will have to go out in a little while to post this and hope it gets to him quickly. I feel tears sting my eyes so quickly wipe them before getting my coat and leaving the house.

While walking down the street I see Rebecca, Bucky's younger sister and she spots me then she gives me a small wave. I wave back as I make my way to the post office on the other side of town. I bet it's hard for Bucky's mum and family not knowing if he is alive or not and I bet just like me they are listening to the news five times a day and praying they don't hear Bucky's name.

While in my head I dont realise I arrive at the post office so taking a deep breath I open the door and wince when I hear the bell jingle at the top of the door.

"Hello. What can I do for you today?" The lady asks. I silently pass her the letter then she looks at me with sympathy in her eyes as she takes it then adds it to all of the other letters that are being sent out to other peoples fathers', sons', grandfathers', uncles', and brothers'. Just like me. I'm sending mine to my brother.

I walk out and take a deep breath the moment I'm out in the summer air of Brooklyn. Every single day gets harder not knowing if Bucky is dead or has been captured but I have a flicker of hope he is still fighting and he will come home to me with Steve. I know my brother is safe for now because he is going around the world making his fabulous speeches and performing even I know he wants to do more than that.

The moment I walk into the house all of my pent up sadness crashes into me and sit on the floor with my head in my hands crying my heart out. This War needs to end. I want to have my brother and the man I love home here with me. I manage to sort myself out then go upstairs to the bathroom to wash my face from the salty tear stains and help reduce the redness around my eyes while trying to calm down a little.