Every day since the dance Steve has made sure Bucky and I haven't been left alone. Now we are at the tavern watching a show about some stuff I don't care about when Bucky discreetly takes my hand in his lacing our fingers. I smile at him before watching the show again.

"Why don't you be a showgirl Becky? You can sing really well." Steve asks and I move my hand from Bucky's feeling cold the moment I do.

"I don't know Steve. I have only ever sang alone at home. I don't think I could do it in front of a crowd." I say and Bucky looks at me.

"Maybe you could sing for me doll." Bucky says and I blush.

"I don't think I can Bucky. Steve only knows because he caught me a few days ago playing the piano and singing to myself." I say then see Steve smirk. I had to turn Bucky down but little does he know I will be spending Saturday evening with Bucky.

"That's a shame doll. I would love to hear you sing." Bucky says then discreetly squeezes my hand and I smile blushing again. Luckily, Steve isn't paying attention.

Once the show ends Steve, Bucky, and I walk through the market. I'm standing by a stall with flowers admiring a beautiful blood red roses.

"They're beautiful, aren't they doll?" I jump and smile when Bucky looks at me.

"They really are but I can't get them." I say feeling deflated. Bucky strokes my cheek then turns to face the man.

"Can I have half a dozen red roses, please?" Bucky asks and pays for them then gives them to me, making me blush again.

"Thank you so much Bucky. I love them." I say then tiptoe to kiss his cheek and he smiles then pecks my lips.

"Only the most beautiful things for my beautiful doll." He says and I shyly smile giggling. We walk to Steve and I still have a blush on my cheeks which makes Steve look at Bucky suspiciously.

"What? She was admiring them so I got them for her." Bucky says to which Steve just rolls his eyes obviously annoyed with Bucky. I give Bucky an apologetic smile then go after Steve.

"I thought I told you not to accept anything from Bucky. Can't you do one little thing I ask?" Steve asks annoyed.

"Steve he was just being nice. I don't see a problem with it at all. Just be thankful I didn't accept to go to dinner with him this weekend." I say walking off to go to find Bucky but don't see him anywhere.

"Bucky?!" I call. Someone wraps their arms around my waist making me squeal then hear them laugh and relax knowing it's Bucky.

"For the love of God James Buchanan Barnes, don't scare me like that again." I say then turn around to face him.

"Sorry doll. Steve wanted me to come and find you because we are going to get ice-cream." He says and smiles that heart melting smile.

"Fine, let's go." I say then he kisses me before we walk over to my brother.

When I see Steve, Bucky lets go of my hand which leaves me feeling horrible because I want nothing more than to have his hand in mine. Steve looks over at us to see me looking down at the ground while tears sting my eyes. He walks over and hugs me but I push him away.

"What's wrong?" He asks and I look up at him. He sees the tears in my eyes then goes to hug me again. Once again I push him away.

"Maybe I can get her to tell me Steve." Bucky says so Steve looks at him then nods.

"Hey doll what's wrong?" He softly asks. I look into his eyes to see worry in them then sigh. He wraps his arms around me even though Steve doesn't like it and I wrap mine around him.

"I hate not being able to hold your hand. I hate not being able to be alone with you. All because my brother doesn't trust me." I whisper then Bucky sighs holding me a little tighter.

"He has no idea of my feelings for you doll. We can keep us a secret for as long as we need to. Plus, sneaking around is kind of a turn on of mine." He whispers and I giggle then we part and Bucky looks at Steve then at me.

"She just got emotional because she misses your mother. The roses reminded her of your mother. That's why I bought them for her." Bucky smoothly lies. Steve looks at me with sadness and guilt in his eyes before walking over and hugging me.

"I'm sorry Becky." He whispers and I hug him.

"It's fine Steve. Shall we go to get that ice-cream I was promised?" I ask making both Steve and Bucky laugh.

"Of course." Steve says. I look at Bucky then mouth "thank you." to which he smiles and mouths "anything for you doll." making me blush again. I will never get used to him calling me doll.

We get to the small ice-cream parlor and wave to Mrs Jackson who owns it. Steve and Bucky go to get the sweet, cold dessert while I look out of the window. My mind becomes preoccupied with thoughts of Bucky when the two men return.

"Hey are you okay?" Steve asks. I look at him and nod.

"I'm fine. Ooo, triple strawberry. Wait... who paid for this?" I ask. Steve looks at Bucky so I do the same to see him with a smirk on his face and he shrugs.

"Bucky I could have paid for this myself. Steve please tell me you argued this." I say. Steve smirks then shakes his head and I huff.

"So it's not okay for Bucky to buy me flowers but it's perfectly fine when it's food. You are unbelievable Steven Grant Rogers." I say annoyed with my brother.

"Calm down doll, it's because I offered. That's all." Bucky says and I shake my head in disbelief then feel him tap me with his foot.

"Don't forget about tomorrow night doll." Bucky quietly says leaning over wiping a small bit of ice-cream from the side of my mouth making my cheeks burn.

"I won't Bucky." I quietly say then eat some more ice-cream when Steve looks over at me.

It's Saturday and Steve is in his bedroom sketching like he does most Saturday nights. He told me Bucky is spending time with his family but little does Steve know I'm going to be meeting him.

I slip on a cute black dress that sweeps my knees, a little makeup with have my hair pinned back and I have a pair of small heels on. I look into the mirror before opening my bedroom window so I won't have to disturb Steve by going out the front door.

I take a deep breath and climb out before closing my window again then slide down the drainpipe like Bucky did. As soon as I reach the ground I look behind me to make sure Steve hasn't seen me before walking to the corner of the road to meet Bucky.

"Wow, you look beautiful doll." Bucky says when he sees me then kisses me softly.

"You look handsome as always Mr Barnes." I say. He chuckles while shaking his head before taking my hand in his and lacing our fingers sending warmth through my body.

"How did you manage to get out without Steve knowing?" He asks and I giggle.

"Climbed out of my bedroom window then slid down the drainpipe." I say and he laughs.

"I always wondered if you had a rebellious side. Now I know you definitely have." He says standing in front of me.

"You're a bad influence Bucky." I say and he chuckles then strokes my cheek before kissing me passionately. I put my hand on his chest to steady myself while he wraps his arm around my waist. I step closer then put my other hand on his cheek and feel stubble when I brush my thumb over his cheek.

"Come on doll, let's go get some food." He says breathlessly. I nod then he keeps his arm around my waist while we walk towards one of the small cafés by where the market is held.

We arrive at a cute home cooking café and the gentleman Bucky is he opens the door for me. I kiss his cheek then walk in then he follows in after before wrapping his arm around my waist again. We get taken to a table as far away from the door as possible then Bucky pulls out the chair for me.

"Bucky I am capable of doing this myself." I say rolling my eyes with a smile.

"It wouldn't be very gentlemanly of me if I was to let you do that doll." He says then makes sure I'm near the table before sitting opposite me.

"So James what else is there I should know about you?" I ask and he looks at me.

"I live with my mother, sister and twin brothers. I want to fight for our country in this War if we are needed. I also love dancing and I'm a bit of a dames man." He says with a chuckle.

"What about you? What else is there for me to know about Becky Rogers?" He asks.

"Well, my middle name is Rosealie and I only have Steve after both of our parents died. Our father fought in World War One and lost his life fighting for our country. Our mother worked in the TB ward. She got hit but couldn't shake it. Erm... I sing, clean, cook, play piano, dance and I can kind of sketch like Steve but I'm not that good at it." I say. Bucky smiles stroking the back of my hand making me feel all warm inside.

"I still don't know why Steve didn't tell me he had a sister. You are smart, beautiful and talented." He says which makes me blush.

"I'm not. He most likely didn't because he wasn't too happy when I asked if I could meet you the first time he came home and mentioned you. I was only around thirteen and he was sixteen. I'm scared that if we have to fight Steve will want to enlist into the Army but a guy like him would get killed in an instant." I say and Bucky looks at me. He squeezes my hand and smiles.

"He was talking about me to you? He should have known we would have ended up meeting eventually." He says and I smile.

A waiter walks over and I smile because she knew our mother. She looks at Bucky and raises her eyebrows at me then shakes her head.

"Oh Becky, who is this strapping young man?" Polly asks looking at Bucky again.

"Polly, this is James Buchanan Barnes. He is a friend of Steves but Steve has no idea I'm here with him. He is being protective again so I had to sneak out to see him." I say and Polly shakes her head.

"Steve really needs to let you live your life. You are a young dame now and need to make your own choices." She says and I smile at her.

"How does she know you and Steve so well doll?" Bucky asks and I look at him.

"Polly is a friend of our mum's and she practically raised us along with mum. She became our adoptive aunt so she understands everything." I say and he chuckles.

"Wow, you really do know a lot of people." He says and I giggle a little. After Polly takes our orders I look at Bucky unable to believe I'm actually on a date with a man as perfect as him. He looks at me and smiles then kisses my cheek, leaving me with burning cheeks.

I get a sudden uneasy feeling and soon find out why when a figure walks towards Bucky and I. Just my luck that it's Steve and he looks really angry.

"Becky get home right now." He growls. Polly hears and walks over then puts her hand on Steve's shoulder. He looks at her then at me.

"Steven, Becky is old enough to make her own choices and she has told me who James is. You can't protect her forever." She calmly says. Steve sighs then looks at Bucky before looking at me again.

"Fine. You better have her home before eleven Barnes or I won't take it easy on you." Steve warns before leaving us again. I look down and feel not only embarrassed but really damn angry at my brother. How dare he demand such a thing?

"Hey it's okay doll. I was expecting a lot worse than that from him. He gave me a whole lecture about crossing a line and not being allowed to date his sister. Let's just enjoy our time together." Bucky says stroking over my knuckles. I look up at him with tears in my eyes which he wipes away then kisses my cheek.

"Oh, you two are just adorable together. Your mother would adore James if she was still here. God rest her beautiful soul." Polly says and I smile slightly.

Once we get our meal silence takes over and I slowly eat because I've only ever really eaten in front of Steve. Bucky looks at me then uses his thumb to wipe a little bit of sauce from the corner of my mouth like he did earlier when we went to get ice-cream.

"Oh, I have something to ask you doll." Bucky says and he suddenly goes really shy. I giggle and nod then he smiles.

"So we have known each other a little less than a week but I can't fight these feelings for you any longer. What I'm trying to ask is will you be my best girl?" He asks. I look at him while tears sting my eyes smiling.

"Of course I will Bucky." I answer. He stands up then walks around to me before taking my hand carefully pulling me from the chair.

We stand close together then hear music playing which makes me giggle and Bucky starts to sway us to the music. He looks into my eyes smiling then leans down and gently kisses me. I put a hand on his shoulder when he moves one of his hands to my cheek holding it gently. We continue to sway to the music while we kiss passionately.

"You really are something special doll." He whispers as we gaze into each other's eyes.

"So are you Bucky. You could have any dame you want but you choose the sister of your best friend." I say which only makes him chuckle.

"And she is beautiful, smart, talented and kind. Her eyes are like the crystal blue of the ocean and her smile can outshine the sun, the moon and the stars. She lights up my world like no other." He says and tears once again sting my eyes as I smile more.

"Oh Bucky. Even though it's been such a short time I have known you it seems like I have known you all of my life. You James Buchanan Barnes are who I've been waiting for." I say. He swoops me down and kisses me more passionately than the other kisses before this.

Once we have danced, eaten and spoken about everything Bucky walks me home because he believes a dame like me shouldn't be walking alone at night. We arrive at the house and he walks me to the front door then puts his hands on my waist.

"I've really enjoyed tonight Bucky. I really hope Steve will come around and let us actually be open about our relationship." I say looking into his captivating steel blue eyes.

"I know doll. I hope he does too. I've never felt anything this strong for anyone. You make me feel like I can overcome anything in this world." He says and I look down while a blush covers my cheeks. He lifts my chin so I'm looking into his eyes again.

He leans down and goes to kiss me until the front door opens and Steve is looking at us. I sigh then kiss Bucky's cheek before walking into the house knowing Steve will either force me inside or drag me if I wanted a few more minutes with Bucky.

I go to my bedroom and close my door before taking off the dress and makeup then put on a comfy nightgown. I unlock the drawer of my bedside table getting my diary out and a pen.

Nineth March, Nineteen Forty Three

Dear diary.

Tonight has been amazing and Bucky was such a gentleman like he always is. We went out for dinner even though I had to sneak out so Steve wouldn't catch me.

Everything was perfect until Steve found us at the small café just near the market. Luckily for me Polly was there and she reasoned with Steve which left him to leave Bucky and I.

Oh, Bucky also asked me to be his and I couldn't be happier. He is perfect. We danced, kissed and everything just feels like a dream.

He walked me home but our moment was ruined by Steve opening the door giving me a look which I don't dare defy. He is so like our father sometimes and it's scary.

Hopefully Steve will come to terms with things and allow Bucky and I to actually be together without having to hide it.

That's all for tonight.
Becky Rosealie Rogers ❤️

I put the diary away then climb under my covers. Just as I'm about to fall asleep I hear something tapping on my window. When I open my curtains I see Bucky then open my window and he climbs through.

"Jesus Barnes. I swear you are playing with fire." I say with a giggle.

"I may be playing with fire but I won't get burnt. I can't go without giving my baby doll a kiss goodnight." He says wrapping his arm around my waist making me giggle. He pulls me closer and I look up at him.

"Well, kiss me then Barnes." I whisper. He instantly presses his lips to mine then guides me back to my bed. My legs hit it and I fall backwards with a giggle. Bucky smiles at me before kissing me again more passionately and softly. I put my hand on the nape of his neck combing my fingers through the back of his hair. He breaks the kiss then looks at me with a sparkle in his eyes.

"I need to go now doll but I will see you again soon, okay." He whispers knowing Steve will most likely be trying to hear everything going on.

"Of course Buck. Please be careful." I say then we stand up and walk over to the window.

I open my window then Bucky climbs out. He looks at me then pecks my lips before sliding down the drainpipe. He looks up at me smiling and waves before walking away.

I close my window and look at myself in the mirror and notice that I am glowing. Bucky has made my life so much brighter. I climb into bed and lay down finally falling asleep.