It's been three months since Bucky got shipped overseas and I haven't had a single letter from him like he promised he would send. At least I haven't got a letter from the regiment telling me he is dead.

I look through the mail and my heart sinks until I see it's addressed to Steve. Okay, that's strange.

"Steve, you have mail!" I call upstairs then put the letter on the table before looking through the other mail which has rationing tokens. Since the War has been going on longer than we had anticipated we have now got to ration everything.

"Wow, okay." Steve says walking towards me.

"What does it say?" I ask and he looks up at me with a small smile.

"They want me to go down to the recruitment center tomorrow. Isn't that amazing Buggie?" He asks. I put on a fake smile then hug him but deep down I'm scared and upset.

"That's amazing Stevie." I say then he beams before sighing at the tokens. We thought it was hard when our mother died to live but these make it that much harder.

I go out to get what I can with the tokens because we haven't got anything in the house. While walking down the road I see posters and news channels talking about the men overseas. My heart breaks when I hear of a new death or serious casualty. I've also been lucky I haven't heard Bucky's name.

"Get out of the way." Someone growls and I step to the right which only makes them look down at me with disgust.

Everyone has gone mad since we had to get involved in this War. Adolf Hitler wants power but we can't let that happen. I walk into the small store where Charlie works but see it's practically empty. Luckily, I find the very few things I need before giving Charlie the tokens and walking home.

When I walk into the house I don't see Steve anywhere so I put away the groceries before grabbing my coat again to go for a walk. I've been doing it everyday since Bucky left just to take my mind off of the thoughts of losing him.

While looking down at the ground I hear someone call my name and instantly look up to see Steve running towards me. I shake my head with a small smile then he hugs me.

"Here, it looks like it's from Bucky." He says giving me the envelope. I look at it and tears spring to my eyes.

My best girl.

I'm sorry I didn't write to you sooner but it's been really bad. I'm only just getting time now because I'm hiding away from the German troops.

I hope you are looking after yourself doll. I miss you so much and I would love to be with you right now while holding you in my arms. Everyday you are on my mind and that's the only thing helping me through this War.

Steve better be keeping out of fights because I'm not there to get him out of them.

I hope to be home soon my love.
I love you doll.
Forever yours.
Bucky x

"So was it from Bucky?" Steve asks and I look at him smiling with tears in my eyes and nod.

"Yes, it is. He said for you to keep out of fights and he is also hoping to be home soon." I say and Steve smiles before hugging me.

"Typical Bucky. Come on, let's go and find somewhere to get a snack." He says and I roll my eyes.

"Steve you know most of the places were shut down because of the War and people couldn't keep them open. The only place is on the other side of Brooklyn but it's expensive. We could never afford to go there." I say then put my hand on his arm. He sighs then we walk home because it's all we can do.

Steve is at the recruitment office after getting the letter to go down there. I'm at home stitching up a hole in a pair of trousers of Steve's which I have to do this now because we can't even afford new clothing. I hear the front door and look over to see Steve. At first I get a sinking feeling and that instant thought that he has been rejected until he looks at me with a smile.

"I've been accepted." He says. One part of me is happy for him but the other side is now screaming at me to talk Steve out of going. I side with the happiness and walk over to him.

"That's amazing Steve. When do you leave?" I ask. That's when his smile drops and he combs his fingers through his hair.

"Tomorrow. It's a program they have started and I have to do training first. The famous Howard Stark is in charge of this project." He says and I step back with tears in my eyes.

"Oh, okay. At least you are following something you believe in Stevie." I say while trying to hold back tears. He looks at me sadly then pulls me into his arms and that's when the tears fall. He hushes me while stroking my back and whispering to me.

"Hey just think about it this way. I will be able to stop Bucky from being an idiot and we will come home together." Steve says and I look up at him.

"You better Steven. If you don't I will make sure to plaster all the pictures of you as a child over the place." I playfully threaten and he chuckles then kisses the top of my head.

"So what should we do tonight?" He asks and I smile.

"How about we go to the tavern or do you need to be alcohol free for this thing?" I ask and he smiles sadly which answers my question.

Instead of going out Steve and I stay home and watch the news to keep updated with the news on the War. We hear that Mr Riley has been declared killed in action while others have been captured. They aren't giving names of who they are only that none at the moment are from the One O Seventh.

"I really hope Bucky is okay." I say to myself but Steve hears then looks at me.

"He will be. It's Bucky. He always knows how to be okay." He says and I look at him knowing he is right.

I lay in bed thinking about tomorrow when Steve has to leave for this programme he has been accepted for. I just can't seem to stop the worry, anger and hurt from taking over my thoughts. I understand my brother wants to fight for our country and he misses Bucky but he is all I have because Bucky is gone too. I feel selfish because I don't want Steve to leave me and don't want to be on my own. Most of all I'm scared for him. I reread the letter from Bucky then find a piece of paper to write a letter back to Bucky.

My soldier.

Steve has been accepted because they are doing some kind of programme but I'm so scared. I have already had you leave and now my brother, the only other person who has been here for me is leaving me. I know it sounds selfish but I don't want him to go.

I can't wait for you to come home Buck. I need to feel your arms around me. Your lips on mine sharing a kiss that I hope will last forever. The nights are cold but the days are colder.

I miss you Bucky. I love you.
Forever yours.
Your doll.
Becky x.

I fold the letter then put it into an envelope sealing it and putting his details on it before sticking on the stamp. I will have to post this when I go with Steve to say goodbye. I hope Bucky reads this and comes home to me.