He made me love him. He captured my heart like no other. He knew how to make me depend on him. He lied. I never should've trusted him. He never showed his true colors. He always said he was a good person. How did I not get suspicious. He put up so many red flags. God I loved him so much. He didn't even care about me. I can't trust anyone anymore. I was so madly in love. He betrayed and harassed me. He forced me to see and do things i wasn't comfortable with. He purposefully triggered my trauma. I don't know what to do. How do I keep living without the one thing that lit up my life? How do I keep living knowing its fake? How do I keep living knowing that its all gone? How do I keep living when he took everything from me? My friends, my happiness, my heart, me. He took who I thought I was. I can't be *me*. He ruined it. I don't know what to do i feel helpless. I can't fully trust anyone. I don't know what to do. I can't trust anyone. Not even my parents. He "cared" for me. Now what do I do? Do I even know how to love? Who am I? I can't go on. He took a half of me. I cared so deeply for him and he tossed me aside. He's so slick he tricked me. I thought he cared. I thought my friends cared. I knew he was trying to replace me. All those thoughts were true. It was all a lie. I hate him. I hate myself for loving him. I hate everything. I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to trust. I just want to love...

I don't trust anyone to say all this to so why not make it public.