this is a depressing chapter so good luck also be careful cause if you get triggered but what happens stop reading. i'll update you in the next chapter.

Third Person POV:

A couple of weeks had passed since Patton's latest incident and everything felt normal. After a couple of private, late night dates with Logan, Patton had almost forgotten about what happened.

Logan had tried to talked to him about but every time Patton changed the subject. And of course Logan didn't want to push him so he let it go while still taking notes here and there. They both just wanted to relax and be with each other.

Tonight is their annual Wednesday date with  movies and of course Patton's overly excited and Logan is confused on why he's nervous.

After Patton kept adjusting his glasses in the mirror, there was a knock at his door

L:" Um, er, uh, P-Patton are you ready?" A subtle chill ran down Patton's body as he heard Logan's soothing voice.

P:" Almost sweetheart, be down in a sec." Logan smiled at the use of one of his favorite nicknames. He quietly walked downstairs as the other two sides were already asleep. He set up a bowl of popcorn and pretzels along with some sweets for Patton. Logan laid out the options for the movie tonight which was: The Spongebob movie, Clue, High School Musical, and a paper that said 3 hours of youtube.

Right as Logan finished setting up pillows and blankets, Patton quietly walked downstairs. Logan looked over and smiled. Patton smirked while he placed his hands on Logan's face. He leaned in and pressed his lips to Logan's. Logan rested his hands gently on Patton's waist and drew him in closer. Patton's hands slowly moved down to Logan's chest and loosed his tie. Patton began to unbutton Logan's shirt. He moved the two of them towards the couch and pushed Logan down. Logan got confused as to what was happening untilllll... he remember what two people who love each other do. He slowly pulled their lips apart.

L:" Uh... Patton... i-uh- I don't know how to do this...." Patton smirked and whispered in Logan's ear.

P:" Yes you do..."

Patton walked out of his room to the top of the stairs smiling with his usual giddy attitude but, looked down to find Logan laying on the couch with someone on top of him.

P:"n-n-no i-it can't be......" but it was, the dark side that was already haunting him enough.

P:" D-deceit...." Patton whispered to himself.

P:"I-i......" Patton's eyes filled with tears as he whispered to himself. He staggered back to his room and locked the door after leading Bear into the hallway. Patton began to sob into his pillow. He wanted to scream but couldn't as he didn't want to wake up the other sides. He bit down on the pillow to try and stop the pain that he felt inside.

P:" W-w-whhyy m-m-me....." Patton punched his bed in anger and sadness. He squeezed his eyes shut in hopes of this being a dream but it wasn't. He opened his eyes and looked over to his desk. Patton stared at the safety scissors in his pencil holder. He shook his head and went back to crying into his pillow case.

P:" Those wouldn't work...." Patton whispered to himself. He looked again but this time at the manual pencil sharpener next to the pencil holder. He stood up and walked over to the desk.....

He picked but the sharper and broke it with the force of pushing the pencil holder on top of it. He stared at the shining metal that laid before him. He slowly picked it up and held it in his hand. He lined the sharp end up with the pure skin on his wrist......

He could hear his heart beat slow and loud.....

His emotions disappeared from his face........

His tears stopped........

He stared at his wrist and gently nodded.........

And he finally did it......

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