Well I started to like Josh.

At first I just thought he was extremely funny and cool.

I didn't expect to like him so I buried it inside.

Since I became pretty good at hiding stuff.

We laughed.

We complained about school stuff.

All the while all my friends had someone to date.

Demi and Jacob.

Lawrence and Jannette.

Keenan and a really shy girl.

Erwin and someone from another school.

Rakelle and a young dude.

I was scared like that moment I left Saipan.

So I tried not to get my hopes up until the last day of junior high.

I confessed right after English.

I waited for you to come out.

We walked.

And it came out.

"I like you Josh."

I had no idea that my heart would beat so fast that my brain went numb.

I ran like the coward I was.

Already afraid of the answer.

I hid in the girls restroom and hid all day until finally we had to meet each other.

"I'm sorry."

That was your answer. I was so shocked that I didn't hear the rest.

I was broken.

The scared and scarred spirit in me was twisted into something unimaginable...

I felt angry.

So when I found out you liked me.

...I took my anger out on you.