(look at this adorable man he was so young)

we drove to his house about 30 mins later he came out running he jumped in the front with tears in his eye's i grabbed my handle on my door but he stopped me and shook his head i said " baby this has to stop i won't let you suffer" he said " not tonight please let's just go" i drove to the house i showed him around he said " so where is my room" i smiled " with me if you want but you'll have to use another closet their is one out in the hall it's big enough for a man there's nothing in it but we can worry about that later you hungry" he nodded and took his hand guiding him to the kitchen he sat at the bar i said " what do you want we got leftover steak from last night" he nodded i pulled out a pan i was not going to heat it up in the microwave they were a little undone any way i pulled out a bottle of white wine to marinate it in i hope i wouldn't put to much i put the steak in the skillet i let it sit for five then i poured some wine on it dean said " woah there that's a little to much i stopped and i let it simmer and soak up the beverage" sorry i'm still learning i really didn't mean to" he came to me and rapped his arm's around me and said " it's fine baby i don't know either" i turned and faced him he was so beautiful i said " why me why not those pretty girls that wear short and tight clothes " he said " baby you are beautiful your the one that i want the one that i need you make me happy i was stupid for not coming to you earlier but i need you okay" i said " i'm not that pretty" i looked down he pulled my face up to look at him he said " don't say that your perfect okay i love you" " i love you too" he pulled me in for a long loving kiss i pulled away i said " your food's done" i went to the stove and gave him his plate he smiled at me and sat and ate in peace i said " i'm going to bed this dress is making me sleepy" he nodded  and said " where is your room " " last one on the right" he nodded i went and thought he might want something showy but i knew if he loved me he would take anything my mom always said don't change for no man so i went this this

i washed of my make up and layed down i waited for dean which what felt like hours i went down stairs he was passed out on the couch the t.v was on i grabbed the blanket and layed it over him i went to kiss him when i did he woke up and responded grabbing me and setting me on him his hands running down my back to my ass i grabbed his hands and stopped himi pulled away and shook my head going to my room he followed me i went to my room he came in frantically apologizing i said " dean i'm not ready" he said " i know i'm sorry you caught me off guard ok i won't do it again" tears started to well up in his eyes  

in a cracking voice he said " please don't leave me your all i have everyone's gone no one cares" his body started to tremble i went to him helping him to sit on my bed i wrapped him in my arms i said " i can't bring myself to the thought i am never leaving you" i pulled his face to me and said " i am not going nowhere i promise and i care i love you to much" we laid under the covers he held me and i held him then my phone rang it was mom what was she calling for it's 1;00 in the morning i answer and she gave me the worst news ever i dropped my phone and started shaking tears pouring down my face dean kept asking what's wrong he picked up my phone and asked my mom what happened there was a long pause he hung up and held me tighter isaid " he was my best friend me and him were so close " he just kept quite joey he's gone he shot himself i can't believe none of it i don't want to