It was bad enough thinking that Jason was out of the picture between Emmi and I. Things were finally going smoothly between us, I sacrificed a lot of my time and money just to make her happy. I would literary do anything to please her.
I've never felt like this for any girl before, she drives me crazy, and makes me feel euphoria.
And now this happened.

Of course I knew where Jason was and why he left. He had called me the night before he left about what was going on, i was the one who went to go pick him up so late at night. He had told me to take care of Emmi and say nothing to her about all this. I finally thought I had my chance and opportunity with Emmi with Jason out of the picture, But it seems like there was nothing I did that was good enough for her to return my love to her and forget Jason.

After finding out she had been seeing Jason, it really hurt me. She lied to me when I asked her what she was holding and I foolishly believed her. But no one was beyond mistakes. She had mistakenly dropped the paper inside my car last night when I went to drop her home.

I tried every possible thing not to think about it and to forget, forget her too, but it was all useless.
I tried drugging myself to sleep, tried taking strong drinks but all I could see in my head was her image. Her beautiful face, beautiful smile and that her cute giggle.
Is not my fault I feel this way about her. in fact, I would give anything or do anything to get rid of this feelings. And the worst part is that she doesn't love me back, but instead my own best friend. It really hurts, it hurts more than hell.
Damn her and damn love.

I was so embarrassed of myself when she came to my place and found me completely messed up. But I never had to hide anything from Lucy, she was my ex and I feel very comfortable around her and that was why I asked her to stay with me. She is a very good person and knows how to cheer someone up.
I did feel bad about having to tell Emmi to leave my place and it must have really hurt her.
And I made things even worse by letting her catch me in bed with Lucy.
I promise we didn't do anything, Lucy had just decided to help me get cleaned up and take my shower. After that, she had just walked me to my bed to get some rest in order to get myself back.
She wouldn't stop scolding me about my actions and what a loser I was for letting Emmi see me this way.

"You need to get yourself back and go fight for your woman okay. Don't be such a downer. You're better than this, this was not the same Tyler I fell in love with and dated for a whole 3years," she had said advising me to go fight for Emmi.

She left me to get some rest after that.
In a few moments she began to tap me to wake up, complaining that the place was hot and she needed some fresh air, but I was too lazy to and tired to answer her.
So I'm guessing she had then taken matters into her own hands and took off some of her cloths.

I still couldn't forget the look on Emmi's face when she saw us. I could see how she was deeply hurt and disappointed seeing us together, with her hopes up to find me alone and probably apologize to me and feed me with some explanation about the paper.
But I just ruined my opportunity to get her back. I tried chasing after her but she was too fast, and the fact that o wasn't dressed me.
I quickly gave up hope, that there was no way she was going to listen to my explanation or even believe me.
Though Lucy convinced me to try calling her a few times, but she wouldn't pick her calls and I had no idea where to find her now.
I guess I just need to what for her to come around, give her some time and space to think about things, then see how things works out.