Am sorry Emmi. But is for your own good. And for mine too.

It hurt me so much to see her cry. Seeing a pretty innocent girl like her cry because she was in love or so breaks my heart.

I put on my radio and Christina Perry's song was playing. I was touched when I heard some part of the lyrics.
It was as if it was talking about me and Emmi.

"Heart beats fast,
Colors and promises
How to be brave, how can I love when am afraid to fall
Watching you stand alone
All of my doubts
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath, every hour has come to this".

Of course yes, i was afraid of falling in love with her. I just can't let myself do that again.

But at least now my doubts were clear about her. She loves me, she really do.

My head was filled with thoughts as I heard more of the song.

I remembered how she would sing along if she were here.
" damn!! Her voice also drives me crazy. She has this naive and angelic voice that touches my heart. I loved her singing so much but I pretend I don't"

"Now I hate her for making me feel this way"
I almost broke down seeing her impression and how hurt she was when i told her to stay away from me. I wanted so much to come down from my car and kiss her. Hold her tight in my arms and console her, to tell her that I didn't mean a single word of it. But there were too many odds against that happening.

It hurt me more when she told me she loved me with all her emotions and passion. I could tell she actually feels for me with the actions in her words.

I'll continue to be with her and protect her even if she hates me.