I was finally let in the emergency room to see my mom after waiting hopelessly at the reception throughout the whole night.

They had given me options to leave and come back the next day to visit her but I refused, I couldn't leave her or stay alone without her.

When i walked in, i noticed She was awake but looked so weak and fragile lying down on that sick bed.

"What happened mom.... Are you OK?" I asked anxiously taking her hand to caress her.
But to my surprise, she slipped her hand away from me fiercely turning away from me angrily.

"Look mom.....it really hurts me so much that the one person I care so much about doesn't even trust me again. and despises me because of some things that I had nothing to do with.
But this is truly not the time for this, look at you! you're so sick and all I wanna do is care for you but you keep being such a....a...!" I said furiously. But couldn't finish my sentence, because I didn't want to be rude.
But she was really being too stubborn.

"Am sorry honey. I think I was just so shocked and hurt seeing my baby getting so defiled and doing something as terrible as that." She said turning to face me and placing my hand back on hers and started to caress them.

"So you believe me right?.
We're good now right mom?" I asked with a suspicious smile.

"Yes baby. I love you dear" she said smiling sweetly at me.

"Cool. So this could be the perfect time to tell you i was also unjustly suspended for a week from school" I said with a wide smile on my face hoping she wouldn't get upset.

"Wait What?!!!!you....." She was interrupted as the doctor walked into the room with the patient's record book in his hand.

"Here you go ma'am. These are some more recommended drugs you need for your illness.
Am sorry we weren't able to come up with a long lasting cure, but at least this will add a little more time to your remaining life span" the doctor said handing her a sheet of paper he had torn out from the record book. He then looked at me with a look of disappointment and sympathy which left me wondering.

I looked at him with confusion them back at mom who now faced down pretending to stair at the paper.

"What does he mean mom? What is he talking about?
You're not sick....it was just a blackout from stress right?" I asked with so much curiosity and concern, hoping she would provide me with immediate answers.

"Can we talk about this later doctor? Am still having a moment with my daughter" but instead she just discharged the doctor pretending to ignore my question.

"No problem ma'am. But you're free to leave now. We need to make use of this room to carry out an operation soon." The doctor informed us and excused himself.

"What illness do you have mom?" I asked with my voice breaking. I kept my gaze straight trying not to meet hers preventing her to see how serious and hurt I was.

I was really hoping she'd say she was fine and she will be. But that would be a lie. It would be her telling me what I wanted to hear.

"Honey?....please, don't be like that. I was going to tell you" she sounded so defeated.

"What illness do you have mom?" I asked seriously with tears flowing down my eyes as I sobbed.
She sat straight on her bed trying to counsel me and calm me down.

"Is complicated dear. Am not so sure what it really is" she didn't sound convincing at all. She was definitely lying to me.

"So what do you think it is mom? Just tell me, and please don't lie to me" I replied her still sobbing. And my heart starting to break and worry as she was about to tell me what was wrong with her. But I wasn't so sure I was ready to hear it.

"The doctors say is cancer based on their diagnosis.
Am sorry I didn't tell you sooner Honey, is just that i didn't want you to worry.
Please forgive me" she said squeezing my hand and busting out in tears.

But what did she mean by " she should have told me sooner ". How long has this actually been going on.

" what?..... And how long have you known this?.
How long mom?" I asked with so much pain and emotions going through me.
I couldn't bare any of this anymore.

" please honey...I did this for you.
I needed to make sure you had everything you needed and made sure you were happy.
Is that a crime dear?, for a mother to work hard for her only child before she embarks on her unreturnable journey?" She said trying to counsel me.

I busted out in tears, I couldn't hold it back anymore.

"But is been long I've had it.
The doctors say there was no cure but could slow it down a little.
So I decided to take the little time I have on this earth that brought this curse upon me to do everything in my power to see to it that you had a bright future." She said with a sob.

"And how much time do you u have left mom?" I felt a huge lump in my heart as I asked that.

She then looked at me with disappointment on her face. Then she faced me and said.

"Less than a month baby" she said with a heart breaking cry.
I too busted out crying with her.

"No mom....this can't be happening... No no please,,.. Tell me its just a dream please mom, and everything would be back to normal once we get a goodnight sleep." Tears were pouring out of my eyes like a river flowing.

"I love you so much Emmi, but right now all we can do is make the most of the time we have left together baby" though she was correct, but I wasn't just ready to give up or say my goodbyes yet.

She was all I got now and always and I can't do anything without her.

" I love you too mom, but let's not give up yet.
You're not going to die OK? You have to trust me on this" I said giving her a warm sweet hug, I held her so tightly in my arms.
though I knew that wasn't true, I was a bit naive there.
But i felt more hope inside that she'd be fine just by saying it out.

" oh honey please....we barely even got enough money to pay for the already recommended for me already! "She said sadly looking at the paper the doctor had handed to her.

" don't worry about that mom.....am sure we will find a way to work things out.
And it starts with me getting a job to support you mom
of having to find money." I said looking at her with pity.

She looked so innocent and vulnerable.
She was really going to need all the love and support she could  get from me.