I woke up stretching my hand around the bed searching for Jason.
I could still remember every single moment I had with him last night.
The memory was still very fresh.

"Jason?" I moaned out his name still searching for him on the bed but there was no sign that someone was on the bed with me.

I finally opened my eyes but to find out I was completely alone the room.
I quickly jumped out of the bed calling out his name as I was still searching for him.

I went to the bathroom but he was not there. I looked around the whole room and noticed that his stuff were no more there.
There was no sign of him.

I grew sad and frustrated. I fell carelessly on the bed with my two hands on my face.

It was then I felt something uncomfortable on my back and I pulled it out angrily.
It was Jason's singlet. He must have forgotten it by mistake.

I hugged it and feelings rushed through my whole body.
I could still smell that his sweet strawberry cherry flavoured fragrance. His sweet scent.
He really loved all things that were sweet.

I put the cloth in front of me staring at it and remembering how I'd undressed him and the way he was kissing me as I pulled out his singlet and began to kiss every part of his body.

Maybe he went to get something for us to eat or find a way for us to get home"
I thought.

As I put the shirt away and turned around, I felt something twinkling in my eyes from a direction.
I went closer to it, and it was were Jason had sat last night before I asked him to join me on the bed.

I removed the blanket that had covered it and to see an envelope with a golden charm bracelet on top of it.

I teared the envelop in a haste wondering what he could have written inside it.
I read it out loud.

To my princess,
#hot chicks.
Am sorry Emmi, but I had to go. And far away from you and  everything you love.
Am gonna miss you so much, your smile, your voice and each and every part of you.

Please forgive me for this, I'll understand if you hate me, but if for your own good.
I don't want to hurt you or anyone you love. my past has finally cut up to me and I don't want to put you and your mom in danger by being with.

Hope you like my present. I want you to wear it all the time and everywhere to remember the love we shared. Just the same way am gonna wear you in my heart always.
I love you Emmi, and I'll always do. I haven't felt this way for anyone in a very long time.
You made me love again. Which I thought was very impossible.

Love your bad boy.
Jason.

"I love you too" I whispered under my breath as tears ran down my red chicks.
I became afraid.
What did he mean by "he had to go far away from me"

What was it he did in the past that has come back to haunt him. I did notice he was someone off and looked afraid and uneasy the whole of yesterday and I didn't even make an effort to make him tell me what it was. And now he's gone and has left me alone again to hurt.

He couldn't have gone far"
I thought to myself. It was still very early in the morning.

I quickly searched around for my cloths and got dressed.
I rushed out grabbing the stack of cash he had left for my in the envelope and ordered an uber to  drive me home.

But I was delayed by traffic. It had to be now than any other say there had to be traffic.
My heart was beating fast.
I was hoping and praying in my heart that I'll be able to catch up to him before he leaves for good.

It will totally shatter my heart if I never see him again. I wasn't just ready to say goodbye to him.
And at least not this way, not like this.

When I got home I went straight to his place.
I stood knocking for over 25mins and there was no answer.
All the doors and windows were locked and the place now looked empty.

But except for Jason's room which the window was left open.
I climbed inside it and to find a whole heap of mess. The whole place was upside down, it was scattered.

I went around calling his name but still no answer. I tried calling his phone over and over again and left some text messages but nothing.
His number was not even going.

I was so devastated, this whole thing felt like a nightmare. I wished it was though, Hoping that I'd wake up any moment from now and we would still be at the hotel in each others arms
But it was not.

I fell helplessly on the floor sobbing and staring at the bracelet I wore in my hand that he had given me.

I stared at the ground and noticed everything that was on the floor were just pictures, some newspapers and magazines and almost everything had Jason's face on it.

The pictures looked familiar. They were almost like the same pics I had seen inside a novel when he took me to his fathers place.

He was really young in the picture and it looked like the picture was taken on his birthday.
I looked at the back of it and it was dated 1/09/2007.
Most of them had almost the same dates except for one which he was carried on the hand with the same two couples I had seen him with in the former pictures. It was dated 1/09/1997.

The newspapers had his faces on them but with different names on them. and he was a wanted criminal, A gangster.

My tears stopped coming out as I started to process all these information and taking it in.

Why was he a wanted criminal, and who were those with him in the picture.
Because now I am completely convinced those were his parents. But where were they? What happened to them and why was Jason living with other people.

I rushed back to my place to see mom and ask her if she knew anything about his whereabouts.
And even if she didn't know, she should at least know something about his mother, they were close enough to share  their secrets.

Immediately I opened the door, I saw mom sitting at the living room with her arms folded, she looked a bit down and sad.

"You're finally back.
Tell me honey, how was your night with Jason" she asked coldly.

My God, she must really be mad at me.
I didn't even call her or leave her a text. I was so distracted by Jason throughout yesterday.

"Mom...am sorry!" I said with tears rushing down my face.
I ran to her and  gave her a heart warming hug to counsel myself.

"He's gone mom, he's really gone for real this time" I sobbed.

"Am sorry dear, and maybe is for the best. Well at least now you know how he feels about you"

"Yeah,....but what is the use of that if I can't see him or be with him"

"Aww sweety?... But that's not what love is all about.
Here, he left this for you"
She handed a fancy shopping bag to me and left after giving me a kiss on my forehead. Leaving me alone to go through the bag.

The first thing I saw there was an envelope which had a big inscription on it.
"MEMORIES" I opened it to see pictures of me and of him, some we were together in. That we had taken as selfies.

I remembered forcing him to pose for the pics and he was reluctant to so do. But later ended up enjoying having his pictures taken.
He had later taken the camera from me and started snapping me too and we ended up taking a selfie.

But the one that surprised me was the ones he had taken of me asleep. They must have been taken this early morning or last night. But I had no idea when he took the pictures.
And then another of him kissing my forehead as I was still asleep.

And then a rose with a note on it.
It said.
"Keep blooming my flower" .
I put the rose close to my nose to perceive the beautiful scent.

Now I was deep in emotions.
I disagreed to myself that it wasn't going to end this way.

I decided to go to his father's place to look for him but still nothing.
The gate was even locked when I got there.

Just now that I found out how he felt about me, and now he's gone.
This was so unfair.
I haven't dome anything to deserve this except love him. And neither does he deserve to be away from me too.