I was woken up by my alarm at 8:45am.
My Gosh i was going to be late for school.
I quickly ran to take my bath before rushing downstairs to have a little breakfast which was already on the table when I got there.

"Honey! You're gonna have to take the bus or the subway to school, the car engine hasn't been fixed yet. or you could ask Jason for a ride you know" she shouted from the kitchen.

"Alright mom!"

At the mention of Jason, my heart felt so happy. I was so excited and couldn't wait to see him again.

We haven't even discussed much about that wonderful kiss that took place yesterday during breakfast, but I just knew it must have meant something to him as it did to me.

I began to recall the events of the wonderful evening we had last night and It made me blush to myself.

I returned my plate to the kitchen when I was done with breakfast.

"Bye mom!" I said giving her a kiss on the chick before heading outside.

I saw Jason stuffing his backpack inside the front sit of his car. I waved to him excitedly but he completely shoved me.

I shrugged. I didn't want to think negatively or think he was ignoring me. so I tried convincing myself that maybe he didn't see me. I decided to go cross and went to meet him.

"Jason!" I yelled from a distance because he has already started his car and was about to leave.

I knocked on his glass window and waved hi to him. Then he wined down his glasses.

"What do you want from me?".
He said with a tone tat scared me, it was very rude. I didn't know what to think.

" nothing....I was just hoping if I could get a ride to school" I said softly, a bit scared.

"Do I look like your driver? Isn't there something for poor people like you to use. A bus or something?" He said with with annoyance.

I was really hurt by his words.
Why was he acting so strange and mean now.

"And what is it you really want from me. Why can't you just stay away from me. I don't want anything to do with a loser like you" he said and shrugged.

I couldn't believe my ears. He was being a jerk again. But worse.

"Why are you saying this, what did I ever do to you?" I asked with a cold voice.

My eyes were red now and filling up with tears.

"Coming into my life. That's what you did wrong.
Don't you get it, I want nothing to do with you so stay away from me.
Now if you will excuse me, I don't wanna be late for school"

How could he say that. I was overwhelmed. I didn't know what to do or think. Why was he doing this to me.

Not up to 9hrs ago he treated me like I mattered and now this. I tried to think of a possible good reason why he would act like that. I didn't want to believe a single word he was saying.

"I LOVE YOU!"

I yelled with all my emotions. That came out of nowhere. I was hurting and wasn't thinking straight. My eyes were filled with tears now. And began to drop slowly down my chicks.

I waited anxiously for him to give me an answer.

"I know. And is pathetic, you're so pathetic. Did you honestly think that a guy like me would end up with a loser like you." I interrupted him.

"How.... How did you know? I stammered.

"Face it Emmi.... you're all the same anyway, you guys fall for the prettiest faces you see in just a second and you call it love. You don't even care about the real him. You just want what's on the outside to feel good about yourselves" He said with a serious tone.

"You're wrong about me....
And what about the kiss. You kissed me and I thought maybe you liked me too"  I said with tears dripping down my chicks.

"Whatever. Look Emmi, I was bored and needed to have some fun, and it just happened that you were around the corner.
It was fun while it lasted anyway. And about that kiss.....it was tasty anyway. But nothing compared to what I get from all the chicks I've been with.

Move on Emmi, forget about me.
And Go get a life!"

He shrugged shaking his head as he drove away almost knocking me out of my feet.

I watched him as he drove off. My heart stopped, it was like I was being stabbed on the chest over and over again with a knife. But it was nothing compared to the pain I was feeling right now.

Not up to 9hrs ago he treated me like I mattered and now he was acting like a jerk again but worse.

I felt like the whole world just flashed before my eyes. Nothing made sense anymore. It hurts so much.

I just poured my hearts out for a guy who didn't even care about me or notice me and got rejected with insults.

I walked slowly to the bus stop. I was devastated. How could he be so cold and heartless.

At the corner of a street, Christina Perry's song "a thousand years" was playing.

My hearts melted hearing the words in the song.

"Heart beats fast,
Colors and promises
How to be brave, how can I love when am afraid to fall.
But watching you stand Alone

One step closer

I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don't be afraid
I have loved you for a thousand years
And I'll love you for a thousand more

All along I believed it would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand years"

I would really love him for a thousand years even if he won't let me.

Images began to flash through my mind. The time he kissed me while holding me so tight, i could remember the butterflies i felt in my stomach then. when he hugged me at his place because I was sad. The words he said to me.
"Is OK if you don't want to talk about it, all that matters now is that you're fine"

And the way he took care of me and treated me when I bruised my knee.

He left me completely breathless, I was hurting. The feeling was overwhelming.

I walked into the bus slowly with tears still dripping down my chicks. I hugged myself as if I were cold. I went and sat at the edge if the bus beside the window. I stared through the window still sobbing.

My eyes were already red and swollen. Followed by a bad headache.

Why did it have to be him. And why can't I seem to forget him no matter how hard I tried. Or maybe I wasn't trying hard enough.

I tried fighting the tears, but it was of no use. It was the one in control. What was the point in holding back. I let all my tears and emotions out.

Now alone with my thoughts, my tears and my misery. I can't believe I felt for his trick.

F**k him and f**k love.🙇🙇🙇🙇😭😭😫🙇🙇.

Emma was the first person I saw when I got to school. I couldn't face her. She had warned me that he wasn't worth it.

"He's a player and got a long list of girls which you're not a part of"

I remembered her exact words. I rushed to the ladies room. I looked so pathetic. I thought to myself as I looked at my reflection on the mirror.

Emma finally came in after me.

"Aww, sweety what happened, you look so miserable"
She said giving me a hug.

I sobbed more. I couldn't control my tears. I had no words to answer her question. Where do I even start from.

"Is Jason isn't it. Honey I told you he would hurt you. Look at you now. Come on girl, forget him, let him go and you'll feel better "
She said while she patted my back.

" you were right. Am sorry Emma, is just so hard to let go". I said releasing myself from her hug.

"And that's what am here for girl. You're lucky I give the best therapy for broken hearts. But first you're gonna have to tell me everything" she said excitedly and concerned.

"Thanks Emma, you're a life saver. What would I do without you"
I said managing a little smile.

I washed my face and cleaned up the mess I was. Focus on other things that will distract me and move on.

First of..start singing again. I decided to join the music class.

But I wasn't totally giving up on him. I still felt he wasn't being completely honest about everything he said. Maybe there was more to it.

And who said love was easy anyway. Is just a matter of time.