SANIYAH MONÉT MARSHALL
tuesday november eighth 2023

"heyyyyy niy." dd dragged out as he stood in front of saniyah's desk. the lightskin girl had her beats on and was currently trying to finish the last page of her history test.

dd stood in front of saniyah waiting for her to realize he was there, but she was too busy with her work. dd tapped her shoulder which startled the younger girl.

"what the fuck, dd? you scared the shit outta me." the girl placed her hand over her heart trying to catch her breath. dd chuckled at her reaction. "it's lunch time! jo sent me to come get you. she needs a tampon or pad or something." dd whispered the last part since other people were in the classroom.

"oh, um, just give me five minutes and i'll be done and we can go to jodie." saniyah slipped her beats back on and continued to focus on her test. thankfully for jodie, saniyah was on the last question, so she wouldn't have to wait too long.

after about seven minutes, saniyah took off her beats, packed up her belongings and walked over to her teachers desk and placed her test in the bin. "c'mon david, my bestie needs me." saniyah spoke from her teachers desk.

dd playfully rolled his eyes as he walked over to saniyah. as the two friends walked in silence to the cafeteria bathroom, saniyah pulled out her phone and realized she had a bunch of missed messages from jodie and notti.

"oh damn, didi was tryna get in contact with me for awhile." saniyah mumbled as she scrolled through the twenty messages jodie sent her.

"notti told me your givin him another chance." dd spoke up out of the blue. "why?" he asked. saniyah cracked her knuckles out of nervousness. "we had a small talk and he told me he'd change and i wanna believe that. me and him aren't together, but i'm willing to give him another chance only if he shows me that he really serious about this."

dd hummed in response. he couldn't lie, he honestly felt like this was going to blow up in saniyah's face, but he couldn't tell her that. he just hoped that notti would prove him wrong.

"just don't get your hopes up niy." saniyah nodded her head. "i won't. i know how he is by now, but i just wanna see how shit goes. if he
fucks up, it's over permanently and that's that."

dd stayed silent knowing he didn't believe her. he just hoped she doesn't burn herself out trying to fix notti.

the two teens finally made their way to the girls bathroom. saniyah pushed the door open as dd stood outside the restroom.

"jo, where you at?" saniyah asked as she reached into her bookbag for a pad. "finally your here." saniyah could hear the relief in jodie's voice which caused her to laugh. "here." saniyah slipped jodie the pad from underneath the stall.

once jodie was done, the two girls walked over to the sinks. "soooo." jodie dragged out as she side eyed saniyah. saniyah furrowed her eyebrows. "soooo?" saniyah said back in a questioning tone.

"you back with notti?" jodie asked as she washed her hands. "no. we're taking things extremely slow. i don't even know if he's going to change, so i don't wanna get too caught up." jodie nodded her head. "good."

the two girls shared a comfortable a silence as jodie finished washing her hands. once she was finished, jodie opened the bathroom door and was met with taina. jodie rolled her eyes at her and just walked away.

saniyah stayed and took in taina's appearance. the color seemed to be drained from her face and she wasn't dressed like she normally was. taina locked eyes with saniyah who was feeling a little conflicted.

saniyah felt bad for the girl, but she knew taina brought it upon herself. saniyah just didn't say anything and held the door open for taina.

"c-could you give darr- ddot this please?" taina corrected herself as she handed saniyah a folded up piece of paper. saniyah furrowed her eyebrows as she looked at the paper in her hand. "what is this?" saniyah asked as she looked up at taina. "just a few things i want him to know." taina walked into one of the stalls after that.

saniyah felt confused. she just shrugged her shoulder before placing the paper in her pocket. she finally walked out of the bathroom and saw dd and jodie looking at her. "what?" saniyah asked as the bathroom door closed behind her.

"did she say something to you?" jodie asked as she got closer to saniyah. saniyah reached in her pocket and pulled out the paper. "she asked me to give this to darrian." she held the paper up for the couple to see.

"did you look at it?" dd asked as the group started walking towards the cafeteria. saniyah shook her head. "imma just give it to dot and let him read it. i feel like it'd be kinda rude for me to read something like that. especially because i'm pretty sure it's a private thing."

jodie and dd shared a look that was all too familiar to saniyah. "you're too nice." the couple said in sync which caused saniyah to roll her eyes. the trio eventually made it to the cafeteria and sat at their usual table. it lowkey felt a little weird without taina there, but everyone continued on as normal.

dd and jodie sat next to ddot who was fucking up some nacho doritos. saniyah sat next to notti. notti instantly laid his head on saniyah's shoulder. "that nigga is fried." dd spoke as he looked at his younger brother.

saniyah looked down at notti's face and his eyes were completely red. she sighed before she wrapped her around around his shoulders and started rubbing his cheek. this was something saniyah did when notti was a little too high. it usually lulled notti into a deep slumber which caused him to sober up a bit.

sometimes, she wanted notti to just cut back on the smoking a little bit. saniyah felt as though notti would always go past his limits. "baby, where was you at?" notti spoke softly as he slowly blinked his eyes, the sleepy feeling was getting stronger and stronger by the second. saniyah's touch always made him sleepy.

"i was in the bathroom with jodie." saniyah replied as she stopped rubbing notti's face. she was thirsty and she needed to grab her water out of her bookbag. notti furrowed his eyebrows at the loss of her warm hand on his face. he sat up and slightly mugged saniyah as he watched her dig all in her backpack.

she could feel notti's eyes burning into her. she knew he was upset that she moved and it almost made her wanna laugh. notti really was a big baby behind closed doors. "hold on, e. i'm thirsty." saniyah finally found her water bottle and she took a few sips before placing the bottle on the table.

once notti realized she was finished, he instantly put his head back on her shoulder and wrapped her arm around his neck. saniyah giggled at his eagerness to feel her touch. "i wanna go to your house after school." notti spoke as he felt her fingers caress his face. "okay, but i got schoolwork i need to finish up, so i'm not gonna be able to give you all of my attention, okay?" saniyah told the older boy. "that's fine, ma. i just wanna be in ya presence." saniyah smiled at his reply.

"i'm homeeee and ethan is with me!" saniyah shouted as her and notti took off their shoes. "we're in the family room, nini!" her mother, diamonté shouted. saniyah grabbed notti's hand and led him to the family room. "baby, you know i know where the family room is right?" notti laughed at saniyah who was leading him around as if he's never been there before.

saniyah didn't say anything and just continued leading him. "hi mommy, hi dad." saniyah smiled as she saw her parents cuddle up on the couch. "hey princess, wassup notti, you still rappin and shit?" quavious, saniyah's father asked. "you already know." notti smiled as he dapped up quavo. "bet, i got something to show you." quavo got up and began walking towards the families in-home studio with notti hot on his trail.

THE PARENTS

DIAMONTÉ "SAWEETIE"
HARPER-MARSHALL
thirty-six - black and filipino
"i know you love him, but don't let
him keep hurting you like this, nini."
socials : saweetie

QUAVIOUS "QUAVO" MARSHALL
thirty-eight - black
"notti a cool lil nigga and all,
but i'll really fuck his ass up."
socials : quavohuncho

saniyah smiled as she watched notti and her father bond. "soooo, y'all are back together?" saweetie asked as she patted the seat next to her, telling saniyah to sit down.

saniyah and her mother were literally bestfriends. saniyah never felt as though there wasn't anything she couldn't tell her mother. she was so grateful that she has such a great relationship with her mother.

saniyah sighed loudly as she plopped down on the couch, her head landing in her mothers lap. "we're definitely not together, but we're working on it. i told him that if he messes up again then we done foreal. ion wanna keep dealing with things ion have to deal with. like, look at me, i'm gorgeous and there's plenty of boys and even girls who would kill to be in his spot." saniyah rambled as she vented to her mother.

"i'm glad you have that mentality, nini, but if he does fuck up again, are you really going to be ready to fully let him go? i mean, think about it, he's met our entirely family, you've met his, you and his siblings get along real well, his mom
literally adores you and not to mention that he's literally your first love and first everything at that." saweetie had to take a breather and let her daughter digest her words.

"don't get me wrong, me and your father really do like ethan and we like him for you, but as your parents, we're not going to keep letting you hurt yourself over him. you are my pride and joy and i refuse to let you break yourself down for a boy who won't drop a couple girls for you. i want this to be the last chance you give him. i can't make any decisions for you, but i can give you advice." saweetie finished as she rubbed her daughters head.

"yeah, it will be. i love him, i really do, but like you said, i can't keep breaking myself down about him. he said he's going to change and from what i've seen, he's blocked all the girls and deleted their numbers. me and him have real conversations now and i really enjoy this." saweetie gave her daughter a half-hearted smile. for saniyah's sake, she hopes notti really does change because her daughter is too sweet to be dealing with a boy who won't do her right. "good, i'm glad things are going well."

"oh, i forgot to tell you!" saniyah sat up quickly and faced her mother. saweetie furrowed her eyebrows at her daughters fast movements. "you remember about a week ago when everyone, but taina slept over?" saweetie nodded her head. "yeah, y'all all haven't had a sleepover in a hot minute. why tai wasn't here though?"

"okay, so basically, dd had invited me and jo to the studio and we was on the phone talking for a few minutes before he hung up. so, like, an hour after we got off the phone, him and darrian texted me and said taina was talking shit about me and saying i was easy for always going back to notti and all this other shit-" saweetie cut saniyah off. "hollon, how does that make you easy? for her to have been your friend, she should've knew the ins and outs of why you were doing that."

saniyah snapped her fingers in agreement. "that's what i said, but back to story. so, jodie was over here that day, so i showed her the messages and she basically said she always had a bad feeling about taina the whole time, which i knew but i was tryna give taina a chance. anyways, so we end up making it to the studio and me and ddot had talked before i walked in there cause i wanted to let him know that regardless of how i feel about taina, i told him that his relationship with her would never affect our friendship." saweetie nodded her head telling saniyah to continue.

"okay, so after that, i had went in there and tried to confront her, but you know how i am about confrontation, so notti ended up saying how i felt to her and i was shocked cause i wasn't even talking to him at that time, but just from knowing me, he knew what i wanted to say." this made saweetie smile. knowing that notti somewhat loves saniyah to know all of that about her just says a lot about how he's changing.

"of course she denies saying anything and dd got in her ass and then ion remember how, but we ended up finding out that taina liked dd the entire time!" saweetie gasped hearing that cause she would've never thought. "i know! like i felt so bad for darrian because what the hell. but after that ddot had to her to get out and then we all came here afterwards." saniyah ended her story with a shrug.

"wow... how is darrian taking it?" saweetie asked as she leaned more into the couch. "you know how he is, he acts like everything is perfect on the outside, but deep down he's hurting. he honestly hasn't really spoken much about the situation, neither one of us has foreal."

saweetie frowned. "i wish little darrian felt comfortable expressing his emotions to yall. he shouldn't feel as though he has to ball everything up." before saniyah could reply, notti and quavo walked back into the room.

"imma definitely bring dd and ddot tomorrow. i know we'd sound hard as shit on that beat." notti smiled as he thought of all the things he wanted to say on the track. quavo laughed as he patted notti's back.

"well, this is my que to go. we'll talk later mommy." saniyah spoke as she got off the couch. "alright nini, i'll let you know when dinner ready." saweetie blew saniyah a kiss, which she caught and placed it on her heart with a smile. her relationship with her mom makes her so happy.

"baby, ya dad was showin me so much shit in there, yo. like i'm already thinkin about shit i gotta say on the track." notti spoke with a smile on his face. "like i deadass wanna record my shit now." saniyah laughed at notti's enthusiasm.

the two teens continued to talk about notti's next few songs as they made their way to saniyah's room. once saniyah opened her door, notti immediately went to lay on her queen sized bed.

notti always admired saniyah's lifestyle. she always wanted and had the best things for herself.

it's honestly been a minute since he's been in her house, let alone her room. things were a little different. the last time he was over there, her vanity mirror was covered in pictures of the two, but now it's just a bunch of pictures of the group and not just them two.

he also noticed that she changed the entire theme of her room up. at first her room was pink, gray and white, but now it was black and gray. he furrowed his eyebrows at that because pink was her all time favorite color.

"baby?" notti called out as he sat up on her bed and took another look around. "yeah, e?" saniyah replied as she began to take out her computer from her bookbag. "why ya room all black?"

"i felt like it fit me better." saniyah replied as she began to do her schoolwork. notti just stayed silent. black didn't fit saniyah at all. bright colors were more her thing, specifically pink and yellow. he couldn't lie and say he hasn't noticed her wearing black more than anything though.

when the two were together, the only black clothes saniyah ever wore were notti's because that's all he wore for the most part. notti got up off of saniyah's bed and began walking towards her closet.

notti couldn't tell you why he felt so bothered by her room being black or her wearing black so much. however, he could tell you that black wasn't for her. black reminded him too much of danger or just bad things. she minded him of all things good and sweet.

he opened up her closet and all he could see was black, grey, white and brown. he balled his face up. no light colors could be found anywhere, not even her shoes. notti took a deep breath and just closed her closet doors and went back onto her bed.

he grabbed his phone out of his bookbag and began to make a groupchat with him, ddot, dd and jodie.

unnamed chat

notti💸
yo, yall notice how niyah ain't
wearing pink and shit no moe?

dd my brova🫱🏽‍🫲🏾
she ain't been wearing pink and shit
for a minute now

jojo🩵
she wears it on an occasion, but
not on a daily anymore
why you ask tho notti?

my mans ddot🔐
yeah she ain't been wearing her bright
ass clothes ever since yall broke up frl

notti💸
cause i'm at her house and her whole room
is literally blacked tf out and so is her closet
idk ts just bothered me so bad cause wtf

jojo🩵
yeah ts threw me off real bad too
but i think we just gotta let babes go
through this phase cause eventually
she's gonna be upset with all that
darkness around her

dd my brova🫱🏽‍🫲🏾
yeah niy got real sad when yall broke up
that's when she became all dark and shit

notti sighed knowing that niyah was changing because of all the ill shit he did to her. he himself couldn't understand why he'd hurt the girl who did nothing, but love, appreciate and support him unconditionally.

this wasn't even the first time he's done it. the first time wasn't anything as serious as the last time, but he still cheated. saniyah took him back though, she believed that it was just an honest mistake and that it would never happen again, she was wrong of course.

"why do you look so sad, e?" saniyah asked as she stood in front of her ex boyfriend. notti quickly slide his across his face to try and wipe away any looks of distain. "i was just thinking, baby. that's all. you done with ya work though?" saniyah didn't believe notti, but she knew he'd tell her eventually. well, at least she hoped he would.

"yeah, i only had one assignment to do." saniyah replied as she sat on the edge of her bed. "the rest aren't due until next week, so i figured i could just do them later." notti didn't say anything and just placed his head on her lap. like muscle memory, saniyah instantly placed her hand on notti's head and began giving him a light scalp massage.

saniyah couldn't lie and say she wasn't sure how to feel about notti. she loved him of course, but she didn't feel like she could trust him anymore.

"you wanna go to the mall tomorrow?" notti asked randomly. saniyah furrowed her eyebrows, "for what?" - "just to go." he replied sleepily. saniyah playfully rolled her eyes, she knew notti wanted to take her shopping to make up for his actions, but that's not going to work. it never has.

"we can go, but you know you can't buy my trust back, right?" notti nodded his head. "ion wanna buy that shit, i wanna earn it back. what i did to you was fucked up and i know it's gonna take you a minute to trust me again and that's fine. i'll wait however long it takes." saniyah smiled at his response.

"let's take a nap, ethan."

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