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David's Pov
Max and I sat in silence while we quietly rode through the night on the empty road. I lived in the city so it was going to take a little bit before we'd get to my house. Max was watching out the window but suddenly spoke up.

"Why'd you do that?" He asked. I furrowed my brow, confused, and glanced at Max.

"Do what, kiddo?" I replied.

"Why the hell did you just stand there and let my dad beat you up like that? You could have easily taken him down in a couple of seconds with your werewolf super strength or whatever you call it!" He exclaimed. I let the swear slide this time and sighed softly.

"Max...Sometimes it's better to stand there and take it than to fight and give someone what they want...Your dad wanted a scene, he wanted to cause something drastic to happen. I didn't want things to escalate any more than it had, so, I stood there and took a few punches."

He seemed to believe my answer and nodded. It wasn't entirely the truth and I felt bad for lying to Max but I don't think he'd quite understand why I didn't like using my powers. Especially my strength and the shifting. While being able to change to my wolf form at will is nice, what isn't as nice is getting emotional and accidentally transforming. I've gotten better at controlling that over time but I still can't forget what happened because of it. It seemed silly that I couldn't get over something that happened years ago and have it affect me so much but here I was. I thought for a moment before I decided that maybe it's time to move on. I tried to remember that night to see if I could let it go. To see if I could finally stop believing that I'm a monster.

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It was a few years ago, almost two years after I was turned. A simple night out before the full moon phase the next day was all I wanted but it always proved to be a difficult task. By now I had a better handle on my..."condition" but I still got sensitive and had trouble with control this close to "my time of the month" as my boyfriend at the time liked to teasingly refer to it. Long before I had met Bonquisha, I was in what others would call a perfect relationship with Jay. He was tall, being around 5' 11", and he had black hair cut into a slight fringe. He mostly wore printed t-shirts and jeans but he was as sweet as a person could get and he was dorky like me on top of it all. I couldn't really ask for anything more when I was first turned and he stood by my side lovingly.

During full moons, he would stay up with me almost all night until we'd either fall asleep or until I'd turn back to normal. Sometimes we would start a movie marathon and wrap ourselves together in a blanket despite it being difficult to cuddle together in my wolf form. Even while I would transform he'd hold me in a tight hug and comfort me all the way through it. I loved him so much and was lucky that he loved me back just as much. I just wished it lasted longer.

Jay and I always had a tradition of going out the night before a full moon phase so I could have a fun night before going through heck the next three. This time we had decided to go to a bar I don't remember the name of. I felt uneasy about going to a bar since neither of us really drank that often but I always liked to let Jay do what he wanted too especially since he did so much for me. We went to the bar and had a good time together for a few hours. I didn't drink since we planned for me to drive us back but Jay had a few rounds and he didn't seem drunk by the time we decided to leave. The place was starting to get crowded and loud so we didn't really want to stay.

"Let's head out of here and go somewhere else," Jay yelled to me above the people and the music. I nodded in response and we left the bar. We walked into the parking lot and to my car but I saw someone walk up to Jay from the corner of my eye as I pulled out my keys. The person was obviously drunk to the point I could definitely smell-albeit with a more sensitive nose-the alcohol on him on the other side of the car. He put his hands on Jay's hips causing Jay to jump in surprise.

"Hey beautiful~," the man said. "How'd you like to get out of here and have some fun with me~?"

Jay squirmed uncomfortably and tried to push the other man's hands off of him but he held a tight grip. I was stuck frozen in shock for a few moments but as soon as I saw the unease in Jay I was instantly on edge. I glared at the stranger and growled lowly in my throat.

"Excuse me, sir, he is taken. Now if you don't mind could you please take your hands off of my boyfriend," I asked while trying not to sound completely ticked off. The man leaned over Jay so his head was resting on his shoulder.

"Oh relax...We can share him~" he slurred. He then turned his head and licked a stripe up Jay's neck. I widened my eyes and something inside me snapped with fury. I could feel the wolf raging in my head, telling me to protect my boyfriend. For once I listened to it without hesitation. Before I knew it I was on the other side of the car and punching the man in the face to get him off of Jay. He stumbled back and Jay moved out of the way. Everything should have stopped there but it didn't. The wolf had too much influence over me and I didn't know what was happening or what I was doing until Jay pulled me off of the man. I had beaten the guy almost to a point it was fatal. He was unconscious but I could tell he was fine and that he wouldn't remember anything the next morning from the alcohol. The guy was even snoring on the ground while he was out cold. I sighed softly in slight relief and I quickly calmed down, the wolf going back to the deep corners of my mind. I turned around towards Jay and he looked way paler than he normally was. His eyes were filled with terror and shock and I frowned softly. I gently put my hand on his shaking shoulder.

"Are you ok, Jay?" I asked. He quickly shoved my hand off of his shoulder and I furrowed my brow with worry and confusion.

"G-Get away from me..." Jay stuttered.

"What's wrong? You know you can tell me anything..." I replied. Jay glared at me and I furrowed my brow with worry and slight confusion.

"W-What's wrong?! Did you just see what h-happened?! Have you even see what you l-look like right now?!"

I slowly shook my head. He quickly pulled out his phone and opened his camera before facing the screen towards me. I almost fell backward with fear and surprise. During the whole thing, my rage must've triggered me to start to transform but since I calmed down I was stuck in some sort of partial shift. My teeth had frown out into fangs, I had claws on my hands, and my red-ish brown fur covered my neck, head, and ears that we're now pointed and on the top of my head. My face didn't have any fur but my nose was rounded out like a dog's and I even had a slight snout. By now I was used to transforming but I had never actually seen what it looked like. What I looked like when it happened. Jay put his phone back in his pocket and continued to give me a death glare.

"You almost beat a man to death and you probably would have if I hadn't stopped you! You're a monster, David!" He yelled. The word stabbed through me like a knife and I whimpered softly while my ears pinned back against my head.

"Jay, please," I pleaded. "I was just trying to protect you and I lost control..."

I desperately tried to change myself back but my emotions were too wild to even attempt to do it so I was stuck looking like this.

"That's the problem, Davey. If you almost killed a man because he was pushing a bit too far then maybe I shouldn't be around you. Maybe you shouldn't be around me." He said angrily. My eyes welled with tears and fear flooded through me as I knew what he was saying.

"No, please..! Jay, you know how I am close to the full moon...It wasn't me!" I begged.

"David. Just stop. It's over. I don't want to be around a monster that can kill me."

My eyes widened and I stuttered.

"W-What did you just call me..?"

Jay glared, his eyes burning through me.

"You heard me," he answered with a shout. "You are a monster, David."

Monster. That's what I am. That's what I was when I was turned and that's what I'll always be. The words burned in my head and shattered my heart. I started to cry but Jay just stared at me with a blank expression. No sympathy, no sadness, nothing. My body finally let me change back to my normal self and it broke me down further.

"Just take me home. I'm going to get my stuff and leave," Jay continued. "I won't come back."

I tried to pull myself together somewhat and nodded, sniffling softly. We got into my car and silently rode back to our house. As promised, Jay packed up all of his things and left without a goodbye. I saw him load his things into his car and pull out of the driveway before driving off. It really happened. He left me and didn't even say anything about it. The confirmation just caused me to break down into sobs again until I couldn't cry anymore and I mindlessly went to sleep in my now empty bed. The next night I faced the full moon alone and the wolf easily took over.

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I internally sighed softly and glanced over to Max before smiling softly. He was peacefully sleeping so I stayed quiet and couldn't help but start to think to myself. I realized in some ways, it was a good thing that Jay left. A lot of it was still bad sure but I always like to look on a bright side. With Jay gone I worked harder to train myself and have better control of both my lycanthropy and my lycanthropic powers. Because he left I learned what worked and what didn't work for me and it helped me to be able to help Max now with his own struggles. On the other hand, maybe it was time I completely move on and get back into dating once everything settles. It would be a good thing for Max to have two parental figures in his new life anyway. But, that's a thought for another day. Max absolutely always comes first.