I don't feel the pain
It's not here anymore
When did the corners wear down?
When did the edges become smooth?

Was it time that did this
That made it easier to remember?
Remembering the charm I know wasn't real
The dimpled smile that never touched your eyes
None of it stirs anything
The embers long gone

When did you stop being a burden?
When did your memory become numb?
I don't feel the anger that I did back then
Not even the hurt over what you did

Was it knowing we never had a chance
That everything was pointless?
You were never the one from the start
I closed my eyes to that fact
Though it looks so clear to me now
How we were doomed on day one

Faded brown eyes with smile lines
Laughter so quiet it's nearly silence
When did you stop meaning something to me?
When did I forget?

Am I allowed to do this
To forget it all?
To forget all of the laughter and smiles
To forget all the pain
To act like you never existed
To act like I'm finally whole

The answer is hiding in the shadows of my heart
And the answer is yes.