Who I am and who I want to be
So hazy through my mind's eye
I'm not sure I quite know lately
I've started to lose sight

I wish I could travel back
See who the younger me saw
Before I lost all track
Of who I want to be

Even though my hands are shaking
My thoughts are racing
Throwing thoughts at me unceasingly
Things that don't always make sense

I want to see clearly
Find what I saw back then
Finally make me make sense
Find whatever it is I lost

Was it my innocence that made me believe
I could be whatever I wanted
Instead of whatever it is
Others want me to be?

I try to hold on to what I have
A foggy idea of what I am
But the mirror into myself
Steams up even more

Am I too focused on the past
The feeling I had years ago
Unable to process here and now
Without the lens of yesterday?