(Hey guys! TYSM for 333 reads! The amount of readers this story has gotten so far is unbelievable to me! This chapter will be a bit intense, a little graphic. I'll mention that there is some blood in this chapter. When I mean some blood, I literally mean like from a scratch or scrape, no deaths or anything. ALSO, some fighting going on between two of the brothers.. may be kind of intense. Let's say one of them may have almost "died." Enjoy the chapter! DISCLAIMER: I do not own TMNT or the characters in it. All rights go to Nickelodeon. This is not used to advertise in any way, or promote their property through this fanfic)

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(Mikey's POV)

I was beginning to hear the voices more and more often now. It was like, they were comforting, but torturing me.

"You see this Michelangelo? You made a fool of yourself!  

"You are a nuisance."

"You are nothing!!"

.....

I breathed heavily sitting on my bed. My head was hurting, it really hurting like shell. I flopped onto my pillow, clenching my teeth as I tried to ignore the pain.

It hurt a lot, more than a headache. It was starting to feel like a stab almost.

"Michelangelo... revenge.. you must take it."

"B-But I can't..." I stated weakly.

"You fool! After all they've done to you? Do it now!"

"I CAN'T!" I yelled. I knocked over my dresser, and all of the belongings on it.

I slammed my fists on the bed. I felt tears spring into my eyes once again. Why couldn't I just grow up.. all I did was cry. This was absolute torture.

I put my hand over my mouth trying to cover my sobs. I threw the pillow over my head, still crying uncontrollably.

This would be my life forever... trying to grow up. Even if I did the best in training, I couldn't ever make my brothers or father understand me. Voices haunting me... crying... feeling broken.

How much longer could I hide it all?  

I finally calmed down my crying, as I was just sniffling now.

I heard the voice snort and laugh.

"You are a child. This is it, Michelangelo."

I put my hands on my head covering my ears and closing my eyes. I could hear a ringing in my mind, it was loud and irritating. I groaned as the pain grew more painful in my head. I felt like something was trying to push me back.

I felt a cold, dark presence. I felt something yank on my feet. I fought the urge to go, but I was pulled into darkness.

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I awoke at 4 A.M. I felt the need for revenge... to hurt someone.

I heard someone awake outside of my room, probably getting some breakfast. By the sound of the humming, it was Leo.

I laughed darkly. Fearless was always the one to boss me around... it's all going to change now.

I grabbed my nun-chucks and walked out of my room.

I silently passed Leo as he stiffened and looked at me.

"Um.. good morning Mikey, you're up early." He said.

I laughed darkly.

"I've always been getting up early now, Leonardo."

He looked a bit scared, I never addressed any one of my brothers as their full name.

"Hey Mike, are you feeling okay? I mean.. you kind of scared us back in the dojo talking like that."

I rolled my eyes. Typical Leo, always trying to act concerned for his younger brothers. Especially me... but it was all a lie.

I laughed again, turning around. "Leo, stop acting. You know you don't care. I'm obviously not okay.. but that will change."

I clicked open the blade on my nun-chucks. making Leo jump back.

"I do care Mikey! We all do... I'm sorry for what I said before, please, just talk to us."

I growled.

"Why? So you could all lecture me again? I've been trying for years, Leonardo. You know how many times I've kept my feeling to myself? It's time you felt the pain I have felt..."

"Mikey..." He said backing up a bit.

"YOU DESERVE PAIN!" I yelled launching at him.

He had little to no time to react, as I brought him to the ground. I swiped my blade on his wrist, giving him a small scratch.

He cursed under his breath as he kicked me off.

"What's wrong with you?" He said breathing heavily.

I smiled a cruel smile.

"Everything." I spat.

I punched him square in the jaw, sending him into a wall. He groaned, standing up weakly. I kicked him, this time in the plastron. He coughed falling on the ground, gasping for air.

I finally gave a scratch on his face and a few bruises. He was on the ground, almost out cold. I raised my nun-chuck in the air when I heard someone yell.

"MIKEY?! WHAT THE SHELL ARE YOU DOING!"

It was Raph.

I felt that dark feeling disappear, as I slowly blinked my eyes. I looked down seeing what I've done. Some blood on the blade of my nun-chucks and a beat up Leo on the ground.

I dropped my nun-chucks shaking.

"I-I..."

Raph pushed me back as he looked at Leo and checked his pulse. He breathed a sigh of relief, he was alive.

"DONNIE! GET YER SHELL IN HERE!" Raph yelled.

Raph turned back at me and almost looked sad but mad at the same time.

"What the shell did you do? He's out cold Mikey, you could have killed him!"

Raph looked down.

"Splinter was right... you can't be like this. I'm sorry Mikey, but why this?"

I shook my head and ran towards my room. I locked my door and hid under the bed. I almost killed my brother... I almost killed him.

He almost died.

I felt this sudden feeling of choking coming over me. I gasped and started breathing loudly and heavily. I shook uncontrollably crying. I was having a panic attack.

This wasn't me... I was a killer pretty much.

I was going insane.

I punched the wall hard, still shaking. I hit my head hard with my fists.

"Get out of my head!!!"

The voice laughed.

"You're a monster now."

I finally stopped shaking, but I was still crying.

I.. Michelangelo.. Monster.

I was a monster.

I just wanted to zone off from the world, wishing this never happened.

I threw the pillow over my head and slipped under the covers. I still cried, but I slowly drifted off into sleep.

What was wrong with me...

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(Whoah o.o, I got shivers writing this. Mikey is having a big problem now, and poor Leo. How was this going to turn out in the family? Can they save Mikey from this in time, bringing him back to normal? The next chapter will be saving Leo. Hope you all enjoyed! Bye, :D!!!!)