Sometimes it feels like I'm trapped in a room with everyone I love and I'm like a ghost, sometimes I can touch people and sometimes I can't and when I do it just makes everything worse because I just want to keep holding their hand or stay in a hug forever but soon enough it wears off and I can't touch them anymore. But the room has no windows or doors and I can't leave but other people can and they start to leave and I can't do anything about it, sometimes they come back but usually they go away forever and never come back, maybe they do come back but only partly by a hand or face being pushed through the wall momentarily but never all the way and eventually the room will be empty leaving me alone with only myself and the white walls that they can walk out through but I am trapped in