I have a hole in my stomach that only goes away when I hold my breath. Breathing makes me nervous, I wanna yeet myself into the sun?? Um?? Implode? All that fun  stuff.

I have therapy on the 15th and I'm scared. Like weirdly terrified. Idk why. I've met her before, she's really nice. It's just. -- ok, so I get nervous around everyone and I just noticed I tense around my siblings, like at all times
I can't untense and I'm the btch?? Tf?? Calm the shit down. And then is—

Nerves: ok, but what if you stop breathing and don't wake up?

That numb feeling: I'm down fam

Me: but I won't

Nerves: but what if you stop breath holy crap breath

Me: I am breathing

Numb: yeah, stop doing that

What the hecc? My stomach hurts now, and I'm supposed to eat but I'm not hungry (ever) but I'm also always hungry? Wow. I suck at existing.

~karmauh

*bangs head on wall*