WARNING!!!This fanfic contains a succesfull suicide and character death! Reader discretion is advised!

You where waiting in your parent's car, swinging your little legs back and forth. You were really exited. Why? You were visiting you two best friends' house, Alfred and Matthew. You've known them since birth, because your mommy is good friends with one of the brothers' dads. You always like comming to their house, because they have a huge pond in the backyard and when it's winter, it freezes over so you, Alfred and Matthew would always go ice skating, though you weren't very good at it. Finally the car stopped, and you exitedly jump out of the car and run straight towards the door. Your mother laughed.
- Bye sweetie! Have fun at Matthew's and Alfred's place!- Your mom said as the car drove away. You just waved as the car dissapeared from view. The cold winter air nipping at your nose and cheeks, making you very exited, as winter is your favorite season (along with spring), you pressed the doorbell and soon Mr.Kirkland opens the door.
- Hello there, love. Exited to see Matthew and Alfred, I see.- He says with a kind voice. You exitedly nod and Mr. Kirkland lets you in. You take off your (f/c) coat along with your (2/f/c) scarf and earmufs. After you take off your boots Mr. Bonnefoy comes in with his ussual happy aura.
- Well, look who's 'ere!- Mr. Bonnefoy says before picking you up and twirling you around a bit. You always liked Mr. Kirkland and Mr. Bonnefoy. They were like second parents to you. After Mr. Bonnefoy put you down Alfred came exitedly into the room.
- (Y/N)!!!!!- He yelled while hugging you.
- Hi Alfred!- You reply after hugging him back. You look around, but don't see Matthew anywhere.
- Where's Mattie?- You ask using the nickname you gave him. Alfred shruged.
- I don't know. He's probably in his room, though.- He replied. You smiled and nodded.
- Thanks, Alfie!- You said. You could've sworn you saw Alfred's cheeks turn pink. You piter-pater'ed over to Matthiew's room door.
- Mattie?- You say before knocking five times.

Do want to go ice skating?
Come on, let's go and play!
Let's go outside and play war
Or at least build some snowmen

Aren't you getting lonely?
Just please come out.
I don't know what to do.

Do you want to go ice skating?
I promise that we'll go ice skating.

- Go away, (y/n)- Came a quiet, but still audible reply from inside the room. You frown and look down.

Okay, bye.

~Magic timeskip to middle school with flying mint bunny~

You were sitting at your desk, putting all of your books in your bag. You were a regular girl. You had good grades, but you had time to go with your friends. You got some new friends, like Kiku, a Japanese boy who moved to America not too long ago, Ivan, a cute boy who transfered from Russia. People call him scary, but you don't know why. And other such friends. Sure, they're weird, but that's what makes them intresting! You then see Alfred standing next to you.
- Um.. Hey (y/n)! Do you want to go to my place today? I really need your help studying.- Alfred said with a slightly pink face. You smiled.
- Sure! As long as we can go ice skating.- You said. Again, it was winter. Alfred chuckled.
- Of course, (y/n)! Oh, and here.- Alfred says as he gives you an adorable cherry blossom hair pin.
- Aww~! Thanks Alfie!- You say as you hug him. You didn't notice how Alfred's face became a heavier shade of pink. He still smiled and hugged you back.

~Timeskip to Alfred's place + A few hours later~

- UGH! Why can't math make any sense?!- Alfred said as he hid his face in his palms. You look at the clock and see that it's 4 P.M. (Or around 16:00 if you use the 24-hour system). An idea popped in your head.
- Why don't we go outside and go skating on the pond?- You say. Alfred looked up and smiled.
- Sure! Why not? I need a break from this stupid junk anyway.- Alfred replies before pushing away the math textbook. You giggled.
- I'll go invite Matt.- You say and you exitedly skip to Matthiew's bedroom. You don't know why, but he always keeps his room locked when you're around. You knocked four times.

Do you want to go ice skating?
Or just go and goof around?
Why are you always kooped up in there?
What's so much more fun than going outside?

Doesn't it get lonely?
Locked in your room?
Just, what are you doing right now?

You sigh and your arms fell limp. You hear Alfred calling you from downstairs.
- Comming!- You yell before skipping downstairs. If you stuck around longer you would've seen how Matt opened the door to talk to you, but once he saw you gone, he frowned and went back inside to resume on working on an important gift.

~Timeskip to Highschool~

It was your last year of highschool. It was lunch at the time as you ate some pasta that your school served. The food changes, occationally repeating, every day so that the students don't get malnurished. Let's just say, Feliciano ordered almost all of the food, if Ludwig hadn't stepped in. You look up and see Alfred standing there looking very nervous (Kinda like Ayane-chan AKA Yandere-chan when she gets close to Senpai, only Al isn't cupping his hands). His face was pink too.
- Are you Ok, Al?- You ask.- Do you need to go to the nurse's office?
- I-I'm fine.- Well that was a first. Alfred F. Jones just stuttered.- Hey, (y/n), can you meet me at the cherry blossom tree after school? Please? It's important.
You were surprised, but you nod anyway.
- Ok!- You say before the lunch bell rings.
- Got to go, see ya!- You say before getting rid of the plastic utensils and plate before hurrying to class. While going to biology, you passed Mattie. You smiled at him, waved and said 'Hi' right before scurrying back to class. Matthew blushed, but smiled and waved back. You were the only person besides his family that actually remembered him. Others would usually mistake him for Alfred. But today he was going to tell you. He finally finished the important gift and he's finally going to confess.

~Timeskip to after school~

After class (which ironically was your last class of the year) you went to the back of the school where the cherry blossom (AKA Sakura) tree was located. Alfred was alreday there. Boy, did he look nervous. You stood in front of him and he snapped out of it.
- So, what was it that you were going to tell me?- You ask tilting your head to the side.
- I-I.... What I mean is that.. I-I l-l.. - Alfred stumbled over his words. That was a huge surprise. He kept stumbling until he had enough, grabbed your shoulders and kissed you. It was a sweet kiss, so your eyelids unwantingly closed. You then hear a subtle gasp. You immediately seperate and you see Matthiew standing a few feet away with clear shock and ,what seemed like, sadness in his eyes. He looked down, his bangs covering his eyes
- I-I'm sorry. I shouldn't have interrupted.- He said before dashing out of the school. In truth you loved the shy Canadian.
- Mattie!- You say before giving chase. Alfred looked at his hands and them back at the door to the school.
- What have I done.....?- Were Alfred's last words.

~After you run to Mattie's house~

You finaly reach that dreaded door. Mr. Kirkland and Mr. Bonnefoy were out, but you had a spare key to the house, since Alfred gave you one during your 14th birthday party. Panting, you reach up to knock on the door.
- Matthew...?- You used the Canadian's full first name. You only say it when you're absolutely serious.

Please, I know you're in there.
I want to tell you what happened.
What you saw I wasn't expecting.
Please, I know the truth, so let me in.

The reason I've been quiet,
Was because,
I was too afraid.

You slide down to the floor, your face still facing the door

Do you want to go ice skating...?

You lower your head. But then you head a cock of a gun and then a large "Bang!" sound. Your head jumped up and you realise that the door was unlocked. You swiftly opened it.
- Mattie what- You were interupted by what you saw. There he was, on his bed, with a revolver in his hand and a little box in the other. You slowly walk up the the now lifeless Matthiew and slump on your knees. You look at the little box and take it. You open it and you find out that it's a music box. There were two figures ice skating, one of which looked like Matthiew and another one was you. Your (h/c) hair detailed beautifuly and your (e/c) eyes where so detailed, it almost looked like it was a smaller version of when you two would ice skate. After the song stopped a little hatch opened up and a piece of paper was inside. You grabbed it and what was on the note made you cry.

,, I love you (Y/N). Will you be my girlfriend?"

You looked back at the dead body in front of you and you slumped down against the bed. Right after you read the note Alfred came in and he was absolutely shocked. He tried to console you, but you slaped his hand away.
- No! This is all your fault! If you hadn't confessed, none of this would've happened!- You screamed. Your eyes bore pure anger towards Alfred. He looked down and left the room. Soon the police arrived and when Matthiew's fathers found out, Francis almost fainted from crying so much and Arthur was equally as shocked. A few days later was his funeral. But you kept the music box. You never fell in love again. You will always remain loyal to Matthiew. You played that music box 'til your dying breath, remembering the good times of going ice skating with him as a kid.