You were on a huge and expensive cruise ship staring at the beautiful sea in awe from the decks. It was a happy and calm sunny day for you, but it would have been better if your boyfriend, Ludwig aka Germany had been with you. Since he was a nation and the only one who can stop quarrels it was difficult for him to skip world meetings, so you were alone.

You were taking deep breaths, enjoying the sweet oxygen from the sea and the air blowing your (h/l) (h/c) hair. At last, you finally found some time away from all the stress back in land, unaware of what evil was waiting for you.

Then, a thunder snapped out of your thoughts and you looked at the sky, only to be filled with fear. It was a warning. A thunderstorm began to cover the sky and the sun, with its grey thick clouds.

" What? The weather forecast said that we'd have sun all day. " You scowled and quickly went inside as the raindrops began to hit you.

Everyone began to panic as the storm was getting stronger and stronger every second. Screams and yells for help filled the ship.

You rushed to your room and entered inside before closing the door at once. You were panting and your heart was beating at an enormously great speed, afraid of your future. Looking from the window, you saw that the sea was no longer calm but wild with huge waves. A yelp escaped your lips when a wave splashed on your window, causing you to fall on the floor. You also noticed that the room was moving left and right, making you roll and hit your head by the bed. You groaned from pain and touched the area where you got hurt. Looking at your hand, you saw blood and you freaked out.

Your heart skipped a beat when you saw water leaking from the door. You sharply looked at the window, only to make you know that your life was coming to an end. It showed nothing but dark blue water. Immediately, you took from your bag a photo, which showed you and Germany smiling together. You wanted to remember him when you'll be in the afterlife. A tear escaped your eye before you kissed the photo.

" I'll always love you Ludwig. Forever. " These were the last words from you before the door broke and water began to fill your room killing you instantly.

~ Timeskip Skroll ~

At the world meeting room, quarrels and fights can only be seen. England, France and America were fighting with each other, Russia was disturbing China, Italy was daydreaming about pasta and Japan was drinking tea like he owned the place. Wow.

" VILL YOU ALL SHUT UP! VE HAVE A VORLD MEETING HERE AND YOU ARE ALL CHIT CHATTING! NOW IF YOU WANT TO GET RID OF THAT PROBLEM SIT BACK ON YOUR SEATS RIGHT NOW! " Germany yelled trying to stop them, however he failed. He let out a growl from defeat.

" Hey guys, we have an emergency! The cruise ship, which (Y/N) took sank! " Japan said in a calm tone, with a pad on his hand.

" WHAT?! " The countries froze.

" Rook at this. " Japan turned the Ipad around and all of the countries paled, especially Germany whose jaw was dropped.

" V-Vhat? Y-You're...you're kidding me, right? " He said under his breath. His eyes wide open, refusing to believe that the love of his life was dead.

" No. You see? It sank about an hour ago. " Japan said, still in his calm style.

Germany's breath was sharp and short, a dagger stabbed right in his heart and his head spinning with questions.

" Doitsu, are you okay? " Italy asked with worry.

" I..." Germany spoke. " Nein! " He screamed before he left the room, leaving all of the countries speechless.

He rushed into the house he was sharing with you and when he got there, he opened his laptop to make sure that this wasn't a prank. He quickly typed the ship's name and what he received assailed him. He began to read while chewing his own teeth.

<< An hour ago, the cruise ship was hit by a thunderstorm and sank, ending its service at the bottom of the sea. The ship is located somewhere in the Atlantic Ocean, not far enough from Europe. It took the lives of all who were inside and the number of deaths is 500, including staff members. We send our apologies and condolences to all relatives and friends of those who died. >>

Ludwig repeated reading it, again and again, trying to tell himself that this was just a dream. However, this wasn't a dream; this was real life. Blinking or rubbing his eyes didn't help, as they would leave him in the same place.

" No...NO! " He cried.

He got up from his chair and backed away from the laptop like it was some kind of scary monster ready to eat him. Tears began to escape from his eyes and his vision began to become blurry. This can't be true. You were everything to him; his love, his life and even his heart. Though he rarely smiles and laughs, you were the only one who can make him happy whenever you make something funny, which shocked the entire world. But now...you are gone. His happiness...is gone.

"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "

~ Timeskip Skroll ~

Germany's POV

A year has passed after (Y/N)'s death. I was never the same like before. I began to skip world meetings and ignore everyone, making the other countries worried about me...probably, but I don't care. I rarely go outside and the only thing I do is cry in my room like a baby mourning for the love of my life. (Y/N)...Why did you leave me? Why did I have to be so stupid, leaving you all alone in that cruise ship? If only I was with you and skip the world meeting, we would have been in heaven together. I'm the most horrible man in the world.

* flashback *

" Come on honey, it'll be fun. You'll see the beauty of the sea, smell its sweet air and do many things inside. " (Y/N) chirped, trying to force me to go with her.

" No (Y/N), I can't! You already know that world meetings von't go vell vithout me! " I yelled.

" And that's why. Come on! You need some rest and time of peace. " She grinned and grabbed my hand. But I was blind with rage and pushed her away from me, leaving her shocked.

" GET OFF OF ME!" I hissed.

To my surprise, she didn't cried nor became angry. Instead, she had a poker face. She was a brave one, something that I like really much about her.

" If you insist. " She shrugged.

* End of flashback*

I sat on my bed reminding myself of how rude I was on her. After a moment, I looked down at my wrists. Yes. I have begun to cut myself since the day I learned about the horrible news. I couldn't help but feel disgusted about myself. I shouldn't have raised my voice on her. I'm certain that she hates me now.

I got up and went to the bathroom to do what I do everyday. On top of the sink was the razor blade, which was covered with dry blood from my previous cutting. This time, I wanted to be sharp so I cleaned it before I placed it on top of my skin.

* SLASH *

" She doesn't love you! "

* SLASH *

" You're pathetic! "

* SLASH *

" She doesn't deserve you! "

* SLASH *

" Waste of her time! "

* SLASH *

" Not good enough! "

* SLASH *

" You're a NOTHING!"

* SLASH *

* SLASH *

* SLASH *

* SLASH *

I glanced at the blood dripping into the sink with a satisfying look. This was the only way to release my pain. I looked at the mirror, only to see myself. I did look pathetic. My hair was tangled, I had bags under my eyes and my skin was white as a paper. I returned to my room and fell on my bed that (Y/N) and I used to share and started to cry. Why must everything be this way?

I met (Y/N) on a day of an ambush.

* flashback *

" Come on Italy! Run faster! " I yelled at Italy, cause he was running in a slow motion.

" But I don't want to train Doitsu! " He whined. Gosh, why is he so lazy?

" STOP VHINING AND CONTINUE RUNNING OR ELSE I'M GONNA-" Four gunshots interrupted me and we all fell to the ground.

I looked at the area where the gunshot came from and saw England with a gun.

" Well well...I see that you three are trying to increase your strength. " He said with a smirk.

" England. " I growled.

" WAHHHHH!!! IT'S ENGLAND!!!! " Italy and Japan screamed and ran, leaving me all alone.

" How convenient~ You're little allies left you here all alone. " He said with an amused smile as he began to walk towards me and lowered his gun.

" Don't think that I'm afraid of you, cause I'm not! " I hissed.

" I admire your courage love, but that won't help you. " A grin emerged on his face as he pointed his gun at me and fired before I passed out.

He shot me. I was dead. That's what I thought in the beginning until a beautiful humming woke me.

I found myself inside an unknown room. It didn't looked like a familiar place. My eyes were heavy as fuck. I felt so sleepy.

' Where am I? Am I in heaven? ' I thought.

" Ahh...I see that you have awaken. " A female voice said.

I followed the sound of the voice and my eyes met the most beautiful girl I've seen in my entire life. She had silky (h/l) (h/c) hair, (e/c) eyes and (s/c) skin. Is she an angel?

" Who are you? " I asked.

" Oh right...I forgot to introduce myself. My name is (Y/N) (L/N). I found you passed out on a field and you caught my eye. I saw a bullet in your chest and you were wounded terribly, so I took you to my house and called a doctor. " She replied.

" Why you didn't take me to a hospital? "

" I noticed that your pulse was dangerously low and the hospital was far, so taking you there might take time and your life might meet its end. That's why I took you here in my place, which was near. " She smiled.

"..." I looked away feeling embarrassed. I'm a nation who trains every single day, shot by another country and saved by a breathtaking beautiful girl.

" By the way, are you okay? How are you feeling? " She asked with a hint of concern in her voice. Why was she worried about me? She doesn't know me and I don't even know her.

" I'm fine...Thank you for saving my life. " I said.

" You're welcome. "

* End of flashback *

And that's how I met her. She saved me and took care of me with kindness. She really was an angel in disguise. Saved by her and that's how I repay her. I'm really a monster.

I tried many times killing myself, but a young me would stop me from doing that. For example, three months ago I tried to shot myself. However, Holy Roman Empire took the weapon from my hands and threw it from the window. Another example is when I tried to slash my throat but ended up in the same way. Why? I only want to be with (Y/N) and apologize for being such an asshole to her.

I hugged her favourite pillow and hummed her favourite song << My heart will go on >>, before I drift into sleep. (Author's note: If your favourite song isn't the one from above, then think of it as it was.)

NORMAL POV

~ Somewhere at the BTT's house ~

" This is SERIOUS! West has been acting really unawesome lately! " Prussia yelled.

" Indeed. He's been rike this since the day of (Y/N)-san's death. " Japan nod in agreement.

" Veee~ I hope Doitsu will be okay! I'm really worried about him. " Italy whined.

" Ohohohon~ How about we have some fun Italy to get rid of that worry inside you. " France said seductively.

" VEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!"

" VILL YOU ALL SHUT UP! YOU ALL KNOW THAT VE HAVE A PROBLEM AND YOU ALL ACT LIKE IT DOESN'T EVEN EXIST!!!!!!! " Prussia roared.

Everyone was shocked. They have never seen Prussia so angry before. His rage was worse than Germany's. None of them dared to speak.

" You know that he's my little bruder and the awesome me is really vorried about him! I van't to see him right NOW! " He added before he exited the house out of the blue.

Everyone called his name but he didn't give a fuck, so they followed him.

Reaching Germany's house, Prussia began to knock the door calling his brother to open it.

" West! Open up! " Prussia cried.

"..." No answer.

* KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK *

" WEST! OPEN THIS DOOR AT ONCE!" He raised his voice.

"..."

* KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK *

" WEST!!! "

"..."

* KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK *

" Okay, I'm gonna break this door down! " Prussia began to bang the door trying his best to break it.

However, the door was enormously strong and the reason why is because when you were alive, Germany wanted to make sure that you were safe while he was gone. So there was no way for anyone, including the countries to sneak inside.

" Come on West! Open this door...wait! There must be something to open it! "

* flashback *

" Bruder, you're the only one who I can trust. Promise me that you'll keep it a secret. " Germany said with a stern face.

" Sure West! The awesome me can keep it a secret. " Prussia chirped and the blond haired man rolled his eyes in annoyance.

" Tsk...Bruder, if anything happens and the door won't budge, this key... " He showed a silver key and placed it under the flower pot, which was beside the door. " ...is the only way to open this door. Okay? " He finally said.

" Okay West! You can count on me! " Prussia winked and smiled brightly.

* end of flashback *

" The key! " He breathed and looked down at the pot before kneeling down. He grabbed the pot, revealing the silver key his brother said. He took it and opened the door.

" West! Are you in here? " He called. He thought that he might be in his room, so he went up there and knocked.

" West? "

" ... "

To his surprise, the door wasn't locked. He moved the door slowly, only to gasp from the horror of what he saw. His baby brother was lying on his bed covered in blood.

" WEST!!!! " He rushed towards him. His chest was aching terribly, feeling awful about his brother's picture.

He examined his unconscious body and seeing the many cuts on his wrists made him flinch. The bed was half painted with red, giving him a hint that he lost too much blood.

" West, why would you do that? " Prussia whispered, the irritation in his voice.

" Prussia! " Spain, France, Italy and Japan snapped him.

" OMG, what happened to Doitsu??!!!!! " Italy began to cry.

" I don't know! But this is so UNAWESOME! LOOK AT HIS VRISTS! " Prussia touched Germany's cuts.

" Why wourd he do that? " Japan asked, sounding concern.

" That's my question! "

The five nations were calling Germany to wake up, not knowing in his sleep that he was dreaming...of you.

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Ludwig was sitting on one of the tables watching and hearing you sing. His head was resting on his hand, his eyes half open and his lips in a form of a smile. He couldn't stop listening to your sweet voice.

You were on top of a stage singing << My Heart Will Go On >>. You sounded more like a siren than a great singer. You were very famous by making everyone who hears you sing that song cry. There was no escape from crying, even to your enemies, who were jealous about you. You had such a unique voice. Whenever you hum the last part of the song, you give reality to everyone's imagination. It was like you were the Titanic singing deep inside the ocean.

Far across the distance

And spaces between us

You have come to show you go on

Germany couldn't help but keep his icy blue eyes on you. They were too busy on you.

" Ahhh~ Liebe..." He sighed.

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time

And last for a...

"...West!" The voice snapped him, causing him to look at you with confusion.

" West! " It repeated.

Suddenly, everything around him began to shake. You slowly began to disappear into thin air.

" (Y/N)! (Y/N) NO!!!!!!!!! " He cried and ran towards you, but as he was about to touch you, his hand went through you. Ludwig hesitated.

"...West!"

...

...

...

...

" WEST!!!!!!!!! "

Germany jerked awake and found himself in his room. Five countries were looking at him with worry.

" (Y/N)?! " Germany cried and without a warning, he got up.

" WEST ARE YOU INSANE??!!!!! YOU GOT US VORRIED SICK AND...AND...VHY YOU DID THIS TO YOURSELF??!!!!! " Prussia yelled before him.

" It's for my own good! It's my entire fault that (Y/N) died in that ship! " Germany cried, tears escaping from the corners of his eyes.

" Mon amour, it's not! " France said with a frown.

" IT IS! " Germany snapped. " MEIN GOTT! I yelled at her when she begged me to go with her, but my stubbornness took me away from answering << yes >>. I was dreaming (Y/N) singing that beautiful song and thanks to you it ended at the most inconvenient time! " He argued.

" Oh...(Y/N)'s favourite song? My heart will go on? " Prussia raised an eyebrow and Germany slightly nodded.

" DOITSU! PLEASE DON'T CUT YOURSELF AGAIN! " Out of the blue, Italy hugged him tightly. Germany didn't let a sound, but look down at Italy with a pout.

" Germany-san...it's not your faurt that (Y/N) died alone in that cruise ship and I'm sure that she has arready forgiven you for your actions. You know her for four years. She's a forgiving person. "

" Oui. I'm sure that she doesn't want you to see you like this. " France spoke.

" Si. The chicka would be very upset. " Then Antonio.

" How can I stop this?! It's too...difficult! " Germany whined.

" How about you sing her favourite song in that cafeteria where she sings most of the time? It will be a good pleasure for her. " Italy said his idea.

" VHAT?! " Germany went wide-eyed. " You can't be serious Italy! I sing horrible! The nobles will be frustrated! Only the best singers sing there! " He argued while shocking his head as fast as he could.

" Come on Vest! You really have a beautiful voice, right guys? " Prussia put his arm around his brother's shoulder and grinned.

" Yes. " They all said in the same time.

" Come on, tomorrow night many nobles will be there and I think that that's the right time to do it. "

" B-But...how can I show up like this? Look at me! " Germany said, full of insecurity. It's true that he looked horrible from too much crying and less sleep, but that didn't stop them.

" We'rr put you makeup. " Japan stated.

" Now I feel like a girl. " Germany blushed.

" Concealer is also for men mon amour. " France winked. Germany sighed in defeat.

" Fine then. But what about the clothes and the music? "

" Leave that to us. " Prussia grinned widely.

~ Timeskip Skroll ~

" I'm really feel nervous about this. What if I fail? " Germany pouted. He was in the backstage getting ready for the performance. The redness and the bags under his eyes were covered, making him look healthy but his dull eyes were still there. He was dressed in a very expensive Bertolucci suit and his hair was gelled.

" Nah! You'll be fine. If the people aren't satisfied about your singing I'll make sure that the awesome me will kick their ass." Prussia scoffed, causing Ludwig to chuckle.

The clapping sound from the people warned them that it was Germany's time. He felt his heart beat like a drum inside; even his own ears could hear it.

" It's time. Go West! " Prussia whispered and pushed him.

Germany walked anxiously to the stage with a trembling body. As he showed himself, the room was filled with whispers.

" Hey isn't that (L/N)'s boyfriend? " A woman whispered.

" Yes, he is or...he was, cause she's now dead. " A man replied with a glare.

" Oh, he looks so cute. I wonder what he's going to sing~ " A young lady squeaked, causing the same man's glare to increase.

Many women were swooning for him.

Refusing to meet the people's stare, his eyes stared at the microphone. He then placed it near his mouth and spoke.

" T-This song...i-is dedicated t-to the one I l-love, (Y/N) (L/N). " He chocked.

The music began to play before he released his enormously rich and deep voice.

Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you,
That is how I know you go on

Everyone gasped from the sound of his voice. He sounded like a male equivalent of you.

Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

~ Somewhere deep in the Atlantic Ocean ~

Deep deep inside the dark blue waters of the Atlantic Ocean, the place where your body lies to rest, along with many others, your soul was hearing a beautiful male voice from above. It sounded so relaxing, yet so hurt and familiar.

Curious of whom it belonged your ghostly form followed the sound of it. It brought you to the cafeteria where you sing the most. It was filled with many people, both elders and children alike. You noticed that everyone, I mean EVERYONE had their attention on one thing. You looked at what they were staring, only to gasp. It was your loving boyfriend, Ludwig, on top of the stage singing your favourite song. His voice made you smile widely. You never heard him sing before. No wonder he had so many musical instruments. It's because he was a secret singer all along.

You stood beside the door enjoying his elegant performance and admiring his big secret.

Love can touch us one time

And last for a lifetime
And never let go 'til we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold to
In my life we'll always go on

Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here, there's nothing I fear,
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Everyone paused for a moment, before they rose from their seats and clapped really loudly. Some girls were screaming Germany's name. It was something...shocking to all of them.

Germany bowed quickly and rushed towards the backstage without saying 'thank you' leaving the people surprised, including you. He sat on a chair and began to cry. Tears of waterfall were running down his face.

" You did great. " A gentle yet fading female voice said, snapping Ludwig.

" W-Who's there? " He gasped.

" Look at yourself in the mirror. I am there inside. " She replied.

He did as she said and looked at the mirror only to gasp REALLY loud. It was you, behind the mirror with a gentle smile on your face. Without a warning, he cried your name and ran towards the mirror. He placed his hand on the mirror, but all he felt was the glass.

" (Y-Y/N)...? "

Feeling pity for him, you told him to take a few steps back and so he did. Your ghostly form passed the mirror and your feet touched the ground you missed so much. Your hair was well made, you were wearing a beautiful long (f/c) floating dress and you were wearing barefoot sandals made by pearls and corals.

Out of the blue, he hugged you but flinched a little from the coldness of your body. His head was buried in your hair and you could feel his tears damping you.

" You sang beautiful dear. I never thought that you had such a talent. " You said as you rubbed your hand on his back, trying to comfort him.

" (Y/N)...I-I'm...Es tut mir Leid. "

You frowned and tilt your head from confusion.

" For what? "

" For being such an asshole vhen you vere forcing me to come vith you to the ship. " He chocked.

" For yelling at me? It's alright Luddy...I have forgiven you. " You said smoothly and began to play with his hair. " Stress can take control over you sometimes. " You added.

" B-But...I vas the vorst! I shouldn't have refused you. If I vere vith you on that day, ve vould already be in heaven together. " He swallowed.

" Germany..." Your eyes met his dull ones. " I have seen you cutting yourself and that made me really upset. Please, stop it. Even though I'm now deceased, I'll always be in your heart, just like what the song says. " You poked his chest and he looked away feeling ashamed.

" Go find someone like me. Please...be happy. You have such a great talent and I think that you'll be a success if you show it to the public. " Germany refused to find another woman, but if you insist him to do so, he'll accept it.

" Okay. I'll do my best. " He nodded.

Your cold lips met his. The kiss he missed so badly. He then kissed you back.

When he broke the kiss, you felt your spirit becoming weak. You were slowly fading. You flew to the mirror but Ludwig grabbed your wrist. You turned around and saw the pain and sadness in his eyes, begging you to stay.

" I'm sorry...but I have to rest. My spirit is becoming weak. " You said weakly.

" No, please! Don't go! Don't leave me! " His strong hand pulled you to his warm chest. You tried to squirm, but his arms were too strong for you, even though you were a ghost. Wow, what a man.

" I don't want to leave you too, my love. But I have to. Remember...I'll always be in your...heart. " You said before you faded into thin air.

Germany couldn't help but smile. He finally got to see you again. Now, he could start again and forget about the past.

" Yes...you'll always be...in my heart. " He said placing a hand on his chest.

Author's note: Seriously, I've got to stop writing something like these. I really feel dire. Yes, as you can see...Germany is one of my favourite characters of the series and whenever a story with the hetalia characters appears in my head, Luddy is the first who pops out. I was wondering also, what would happen to the reader if he was a yandere. Not just a simple yandere, but a MAXIMUM YANDERE. Holy shit, it will be scary for the reader.