Pets, I have lost of pets and I love them all to pieces. Caspain he's a cat, I loved him so much he was one of my best friends in the world, he'd always sleep on my bed with me and sat with me when I was sad. He has gotten really sick and before he died I promise I'd be with him until the end. And when he was put down I held his paw as it went limp. I stayed home for a few days after that. That's was 8 months ago. Only two months  after my dog Maggie who I've had since I was born was diagnosed with heart cancer. the Fluids suffocated her heart and she died on the way to the vet. It's was...horrible. That was six months ago, right now we just got a new little puppie. He was just diagnosed with parvo....so many of the family has died from illness this year and I'm scared.....I love him so much....I can't take it if he dies too. I don't know...I feel really selfish for complaining about my problems when I know so many others are going through worse. It should not matter so much, I know I'm being stupid. I'm sorry. I just ......I actually don't know why I'm putting this out..I'm just sad and scared right now and I've gotta put my thoughts somewhere, I don't know, I'm sorry. I shouldn't be complaining. If your still reading then thanks? I'm not sure why your listening to my dumb problems that I'm probably just overacting and being dramatic so sorry. Yeah... that's why I haven't really been doing that much art recently, I know it's a poor excuse and I'm sorry I'll get back to it soon.