Warnings - anxiety, depression, blood, panicking, self harm, negative thoughts and or emotions
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The longer she stared at her reflection the more lonely and confused she felt. The anger and magic swelled up inside causing her fist to collide with the glass mirror. As if time slowed down it felt like the world went in slow motion as the glass shattered and went everywhere. And then the moment it hit the ground time went back to normal and she had a small cut on her cheek and some on her arms. But it wasn't new the little marks just showered over the bigger and deeper cuts that she inflicted upon herself. It's not like she wanted to, not that she needed to, but it was the glass and the breaking of things that hurt her most. Theo and the memories they shared filled her head only further angering her as she trashed her bathroom.

Throwing things off the counter and then she sat in the shower fully clothes. Water running to hide the tears falling down her face as she felt the sting from the cuts. Blood mixing with water as the numbness filled her and her body went limp from all the energy she exhausted. She barely noticed the shouting as the spell wore off and her door burst open. Draco, Tom, Matteo stumbled into the room frantically searching for her. When Draco heard the water running knew and rushed to her. Turning the water off and pulling her soaking wet body into his arms as she let out a deep breath.

"I tried, I'm sorry" she whispered to Draco

The boys cleaned her room with a flick of their wands along with the bathroom and fixed her door. Draco was going to cast a cleaning sleep and dry spell on her but she shook her head.

"Trinity let me help please" he said

"It's no use dray, I'm too damaged now, you should go like Theo did, just let me go I'll be fine eventually" she said and passed out in his arms

What they didn't know was Theo heard it all, he knew he royally fucked up and didn't have a clue as to what he could to do fix it. Would anything fix this, nothing he could say or do would ever fix the abandonment she felt because of him. The betrayal she felt, the pain and guilt all the suffering and a lot was his fault. He knew that now, and he just hoped to Merlin that she'd one day forgive him. He pushed through the boys and grabbed trinity from Draco's arms and into his own.

"Why the sudden change of heart?" Draco hissed

"I can't....i can't do it anymore Draco, I should never have done it to begin with, I need her just as much as she needs me" Theo said as he brushed a piece of hair from her face

He looked down at the love of his life, the girl he wanted to be with forever and he knew that now. He knew that she just had to choose him as her suitor or he'd never be able to live with himself. He'd die of pain from the loss but he knew if she didn't choose him it was his own fault. The others left and Theo unknowingly to trinity flicked his wand. Changing her clothes, drying her off and stopping the bleeding from her cuts. He knew that she was one to keep scars, he knew it because she always said each one has a story. Each one had a meaning and purpose for being there, to never feel ashamed of the scars or how you got them. Because in the end it proves just how hard you fought to stay alive in whatever situation it was that brought those scars to you.

And with all that once she was all put together he pulled her covers back and pulled her to his chest and fell asleep with her in his arms. And for the first time in his entire life he felt at home and complete with her. As if she was all he ever wanted and needed because truth be told it was as he wanted and needed.
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Trinitys POV

I felt drained but it was Monday and I knew I had to wake up either way. When I tired to opened my eyes and move I couldn't because my body wouldn't. I got my eyes open and looked around, everything was back in the rightful place. But what was odd was the arms wrapped around my waist pulling me closer as if their life depended on it. I knew who it was, not just by touch or the sight of his hands it was his scent. A mix of cologne with cigarettes and oddly enough books or parchment paper. It was Theodore who was holding me and for a moment I wanted to stay this way. It wasn't until it dawned on me, of what he'd done or more importantly what he hadn't done for me. I didn't hesitate in pulling his arm off my waist and getting out of bed in a hurry.

To which I unfortunately fell onto the hard floor right on my fucking ass. Hurt like hell and woke Theodore immediately after I removed his hand. Of course also the loud thud that occurred afterward the fact I removed his hand aggressively.

"Trinity Merlin you alright?" He said panicked while rubbing his eyes

I scoffed but paused and took the moment to go over the details of his body. He was shirtless which made me red in the face, his deep brown eyes held worry in them. His hands were perfect to me and the image of his hand around my throat caused things inside me to stir. The look of his lips, he perfectly formed jawline, to his tussled hair that fell in all directions at once. His brown slightly curly hair looked ever so soft making me want to run my fingers through it. I huffed at my thoughts and got up from the ground without a single word to Theo.