Warnings - self doubt, anxiety, fear,
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"So what get over it Paul, she's here to stay until she's eighteen then she's free to do anything she wants" Sam snapped

"Yeah well as long as she doesn't hex me I'm fine I'll keep my distance" Paul growled

What they didn't know was trinity was well aware of their conversation and it only made her want to leave more. She felt like a charity case now even more than before she arrived here. She hated it here, she wanted to go back to Scotland right away but she couldn't. She couldn't because she was told to take two weeks off and it's barely been a whole day. She knew if she were to stay longer or for the full two weeks she might get worse with anger and sadness. She knew the rules within the will were to follow whatever the household asks of her. But she didn't dare think of wanting to follow that rule, but if she didn't who would know. How would she get away with it if they never knew, her parents were dead the only person who could see or speak to them was her.

Trust Merlin she'd never break a rule knowing they could now watch her ever move. She hated that ability, the one she could speak to and see the dead. Those who don't go through the mist and become a spirit that stays in this world. Of course Hogwarts had various spirits roaming that chose to stay or were forced somewhat or something upon those lines. That didn't mean every witch and wizard that dies end up like that. Which is both a good thing for various reasons but also a bad thing for other reasons.
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Time skip

A few days passed and she had very little interaction with anyone especially Paul. He didn't know why but she did and she didn't like him for seeing her as a burden. She didn't like Sam much either for making her believe even more so that she was simply a charity case. The one person she did sneak out to speak with on occasion was Jacob black. They agreed on not liking Sam and when she told him that the first time he was shocked. She couldn't tell him why she was with Sam but she did make it clear it wasn't her choice. By the time she realized it, the week was closing in to an end and she'd still hadn't gotten a letter back from Theodore. Which she feared would happen, but she brushed it off the boy was rather stubborn.

Always had been but it got worse when his mother passed and trinity totally understood now more than ever why that was. She too lost interest in things she once did, now more than ever she found herself being more mischievous. Sneaking out late and returning earlier in the morning but made sure to keep a regular schedule of when others came and left. This way she could easily apperate out and back in without a sound. Considering she cast a muffling spell on her room before she left each time so that when she did return it wouldn't make a sound if she landed weird. She got closer to Jake over the five days that passed and she felt comfortable around him more than the others.

Surprising to her because she desperately didn't like muggles and was raised on that very topic. Being who she was an all, not that Jake knew it yet but according to Sam he was going to shift sooner or later. Considering his heritage and all, being the descendent of a spirit warrior chief made it more possible than others. If you had the gene then you had it but if not you were forced to watch your friends leave without knowing why. That part she didn't understand considering it was their history and billy black always told the legends. So why couldn't the people who were protected know what truly goes on. But she thought back to how the wizarding world was and how it too did that same thing.

Muggle borns didnt know what they were until they were told because they possess the ability to do magic. They aren't told right away until they show signs of random occurrences and strange things happening. Then they can be invited to a school to learn how to harness their talents and do good with them. Trinity knew otherwise that she as part of the will but not fully detailed as it wasn't a good thing. That number seventeen on the list in the will meant she had to get the dark mark and serve along side the death eaters. Of course they couldn't just outright say that in their will because of the things that went down in the last war. Voldemort was thought to be dead but many insiders and few outsiders knew the truth.

Harry Potter knew the truth yet to her surprise no one believed him not really even. Especially those who did know the truth but buried it to keep everyone calm and not think of war. She read up on what he did and what the war did to her world, but that didn't help her understand. She didn't truly know why she had to do this at all, but she did it nonetheless for her parents. She was currently on the beach at around 10pm at night smoking. She never did it before but when Theo had once explained to her it helped his nerves and calmed him. She decided to try it here and see how it made her feel and he was right. It did help but she also picked up other things to manage the stress and pain.

She could turn water into alcohol easily so she did so and would drink whenever she needed to. Of course the others wouldn't know not yet because she did it late at night and returned without notice any time and every time.