Mishti :)

(Here maa and papa means Abir's mom & dad)

Maa placed the juice on the table and left for the kitchen, I looked at papa with a sad pout.. "This doesn't taste good, " I mentioned, he moved his gaze from his laptop to me.. "But you have to deal with it.. Neither can I deal with my wife nor you can deal with your dear sasu maa!" He whispered, I threw my head back.. "I can hear everything! " Maa shouted from the kitchen, I scrutinized my nose, even the smell was bitter..

"Should I give this juice to the plant? They need vitamins as well, " I grinned, papa smiled and then glared at me.. I sighed, "It's a bad idea i guess, " I muttered, "Worst! " He added and pushed the juice towards me.. My lips curved down as I stared at the glass.. "But sometimes the worst ideas sound good, " he grinned, I jumped in happiness and we both shook our hands together..

I held the glass and looked at the kitchen. Maa was not there.. Slowly I leaned the glass towards the grassy ground until I felt a shadow on me.. I looked up, my heart jumped the second I saw maa.. I pulled the glass to my chest and sipped it for once. My whole life felt bitter, it was so so bitter.. "What were you doing? " She asked me after crossing her hands over her chest.. I looked at papa to ask for help, but he started pretending and started scrolling through his phone like he didn't know anything..

"It's his idea, " I muttered, "huh? Me? Huh! Never! I didn't even see her doing that, otherwise I would have stopped her! " He flipped in a second, my eyes widened, my jaw almost touching the ground.. "He is lying, " I stated, "I know, that's the only thing he has been doing since our marriage, " maa taunted papa and dialled someone's number..She sat beside me and kept the phone on speaker.. My eyes widened when I saw Abir's number..

"He.. He went to a promotional press conference, why are you disturbing him, " I smiled awkwardly and tried to cut the call, but she kept her phone away from my reach.. Abir picked the call, I could hear all the background noises..

Mumma.. I am busy, what happened?

I gave your wife a juice and she was trying to throw it away. What should I do?

Is she there?

Yes, she's listening.. Tell..

Mishti.. Be a good girl and finish the juice..

We both rolled our eyes, he was behaving like a typical father.. A neighborhood aunty came, so maa handed me her phone and went to talk to her..

Listen, you should take care of your stomach.. I am away, don't stress me , otherwise it's just a two hour road, I can reach you easily..

Okay.. Don't eat my head..

I cut the call and we both father daughter laughed, he gestured for me to finish it.. I pouted, having no other option I gulped down the glass of bitter juice in one go.. I felt like my stomach started praying to me to not take that juice , but I forcefully pushed it down my throat.. Papa started clapping for me like it's an achievement..

In the past one month, I lost the weight I have gained in the previous eight months. Because whatever I was eating, it's just coming out of my throat.. My stomach was accepting nothing other than water, so I lost a lot of weight.. So everyone became concerned for me and I had to follow a strict diet.. Maa gives me juice every night before taking the dinner to keep my stomach healthy and gut clear.. But it's too bitter to swallow, but I have been taking it for a month..

Maa patted my head before taking the empty glass into the kitchen.. I did a slow walk in the garden, only a week was left for my delivery date.. After half an hour I did dinner, but could not take the required amount.. Both of us have shifted to a room next to the drawing room for a month, because it's hard for me to walk on the staircase.. I was feeling drowsy, Abir would come after midnight , so I decided to sleep..

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The extreme pain in my abdomen and back broke my sleep.. I looked around, it was only 10:30 pm and I came to the bed just half an hour ago after my dinner.. At first I thought it was normal, but when the pain increased I realized it was labour pain.. For the next five minutes i tried to call maa, but nobody was able to hear it, because the door was closed.. I started sweating badly even though the air conditioner was on and the temperature of the room was below normal..

"Abir.. " I cried, I searched for my phone in the darkness, but it fell down from the lamp table along with the lamp.. I had no strength to bend down and find my phone in the darkness in between the pieces of glasses.. I sat down and put my feet on the cold marvel.. It felt like someone pushed me back when I stood up, I wasn't able to scream. The pain was unbearable.. When I tried to walk, my leg tangled with the blanket..

I lost my balance , but before I could fall I held the nearest sofa for support.. Tears rolled down my eyes, I stood there while holding the sofa for a few seconds.. "Abir... I need you.. " I cried, my heart was beating like anything.. Finally I reached the door and came out.. But I couldn't stand anymore, a sharp pain made me startled.. For support I leaned on the cupboard table which was outside , "Mummaaaaa, " I hissed in pain, all the things which were above the table crashed against the marvel..

"Mishti.. Oh my God what happened! " I heard bhabi's voice and it felt like a relief.. I wasn't able to open my eyes, the next moment I heard her footsteps sound which was coming from the staircase.. I wasn't able to stand, "Ayansh, Ayansh come soon! " She called bhai loudly, before I could lose my balance she wrapped her arms around me.. "Maaaaa! " Her loud tone vibrated throughout the hall...

I was on the verge of losing my senses, everyone's room door got opened.. I could hear their panic filled voice, bhai and maa & papa reached me soon.. I held bhabi's hand, "Call Abir.. Please call him, " I whispered, "We need to take her to the hospital! " Ruhaan lifted me in his arms. God knows from where he got the strength, I tried to stay steel, but it's so hard to not move a little when the pain felt like death.. Papa opened the car door and bhai placed me inside.. Bhabi came from the other side.

"You three go with her, we both will go after taking her reports and belongings, " saying maa ran inside.. Ruhaan started the engine, bhai dialled the doctor's number.. I patted bhabi's hand and she immediately dialled Abir's number.. After several rings he finally picked up the call..

Abir... Abir.. Please come soon..

I was crying badly, the background noises changed suddenly and I realized he just shifted to an empty space..

Mishti? What happened? I am going right now.. The delivery date the doctor mentioned was after a week right?

I don't know.. But my labor pain has started already.. Please come..

He cut the call, I held my bump and pushed my head back.. It felt like someone was ripping me apart.. Ruhaan stopped the car in front of the hospital, the male nurse opened the door.. Bhabi helped me in getting out of the car and then I laid on the stretcher bed.. I was constantly hitting my head back and the tears were rolling down my eyes..

"That idiot has to go to work today only! " Ruhaan uttered in frustration, he was looking concerned. I started panicking for Abir, because of his driving.. He will try to cover the road in the shortest time span possible.. Ziya held my hand, "Don't worry, I am here! " The relief I felt after hearing her words was unmatchable. I wanted someone from my family to be with me. Glad she came..

The doctor checked my blood pressure, temperature and pulses while a nurse took my blood samples.. I was shifted to another chamber, "Where's Abir? " Ziya asked me, I was breathing heavily.. "He is coming, I don't know when! " I mentioned, I felt like I would pass out soon.. The doctor had told me that I will have a normal delivery and the pain was killing me..

"Relax, you can do it, " Ziya held my hand and started brushing my forehead and hair, as my legs were placed in the position of delivery.. The doctor was constantly telling me to push, I gripped the bedsheet and was just crying.. "Abir! " I really wanted him to stay with me, but unfortunately he was not here.. I hit the bed, Ziya was trying to comfort me.. But the word has already left my dictionary.. I felt the baby's head coming out and the sharp pain it gave me was near death..

"Push.. Common... Just a little more and then you will be done, " Ziya whispered, I pushed hard.. The doctor held the baby in her arms, "It's a boy, " I heard her saying, my eyes filled with tears and it rolled down the corner of my eyes.. I felt relieved, but the pain was still there.. My baby was crying..

I let out a deep breath, Ziya was just constantly blabbering anything to calm me down and hold patience.. After half an hour which felt like forever, I gave birth to another baby.. "It's a girl, Mrs Rajvansh! " The doctor said, I lost my sense.. "Let Abir hold our babies first, " I whispered before falling into deep sleep. He will already regret for not being with me, I didn't want him to lose this chance as well..

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Someone was caressing my hair, I opened my eyes only to find Abir sitting beside me.. A small smile crept on my lips, my fingers gripped around his fingers.. I was about to get up, but he kept me laid and leaned the stretcher bed towards him and pulled me into his embrace.. "I am the worst husband of this generation, I am sorry, " he broke down, the smile from my lips vanished when I realized he was crying.. He doesn't cry so easily until and unless something really hurts him..

"It's okay Abir, relax.. You went for your work." I said and brushed his back, he has not been working and taking any project for the last two months , but today's promotional press conference was pre-sceduled and he had no control over it.. He was reluctant at first, but it was me who forced him to go.. "When did you come? " I asked him, "Just when you lost your sense! " He muttered and broke our hugs..

I leaned back carefully, my whole body was aching. But I was feeling very relaxed, "Did you see our babies? " I asked him, he shook his head negatively.. "See, we are now parents of one son and one daughter, " I grinned in happiness, he was not even smiling.. "Offo! Why are you upset? Am I angry with you? No right, and now I am fine as well.. Stop being sad, " I warned him..

He was holding my hand, his grip around my fingers tightened and he looked down while tears made their way down his cheeks. It made me feel more sad, "Abir.. Stop crying, " I pulled his hand, "You know when I listened to your crying painful voice, I felt like death.. I so wanted to be with you.. I know me being with you would not have decreased your pain, but at least I would have stood with you in your tough time, " he explained, a smile of admiration formed on my lips..

"And Abir Rajvansh keeps proving how he is the best husband and how lucky I am in this matter, " I mentioned and wiped his tears.. I was going to ask him about our babies, but then the doctor opened the door.. She was holding our one baby, my heart beat fastened.. I was on the verge of crying.. I held his hand tightly, "And here are our baby's parents, " the doctor forwarded her hand carefully, "Abir, hold him, " I said, he shook his head negatively..

"No no, he is so small, I can't! " It made me laugh after seeing his scared face, the man who isn't scared to fire a bullet or get a bullet into his chest was scared to hold a little baby.. "You hold him first, then I will hold him, " he gestured for me, the doctor carefully placed our baby boy in my embrace.. A tear rolled down my eyes, he was sleeping..

"His nose looks totally like you, " I was in awe, he started smiling after seeing our baby.. He was looking so cute while sleeping, I could not believe I was holding our baby.. He started crying loudly, "Oh ho ho! His voice is so beautiful, " I said with a smile, the doctor instructed me to breast feed him.. I was in the hospital outfit and it was easy for me to feed him..

"Our daughter? " Abir asked the doctor, I moved my gaze from our baby to him and then at the doctor, "She's admitted in NICU, due to not getting enough nutrition her condition is severe, " she mentioned, I froze for a moment.. "But doctor, I took enough-" she cut me off in the middle, "It's not mom's fault always, Mrs Rajvansh. It happens in a twin pregnancy, sometimes one fetus doesn't get enough nutrition due to competition with the other one... So it happens. But I can't say anything about her, her condition is quite critical! " She explained..

I started shivering, "You can meet her, Mr Rajvansh, " Abir looked at me, I gestured for him to go and meet her..

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Abir :)

When I heard her crying on the phone call, I abruptly left the press conference. Till now her pregnancy news hasn't come in front of the media and people, because she never appears in front of the media. But as I stopped the conference in the middle, the news went viral.. I came with them in their car, but it would have taken me forever to reach mishti if I would have gone in a car in the rush traffic and with guards..

So I told them to arrange a bike, and someone from the crew gave me their bike.. I was panicking while riding, her screams were not getting out of my mind.. Thinking about her condition was scaring me, she was going through all of this all alone and it's haunting me.. I covered the two hours of the road in one, but the road outside of the hospital was filled with traffic and I had to slow down..

Our guards were present outside, I told them to park the bike and I ran inside.. Both our families were outside her cabin, I had a talk with Ruhaan about her cabin.. So I reached it quickly.. "Where is she? How is she? " I was taking heavy breaths, "Congratulations! " Papa hugged me, I burrowed my eyes in confusion while trying to calm my fucking lungs.. "You became a father! " Mumma brushed my back, a smile formed on my lips..

"How is she? " I asked again after breaking our hug, "She's extremely tired and sleeping, " maa said, everyone was looking happy.. "You should have been here with her, " Ruhaan patted my shoulder, guilty washed over my face .. "It's okay! Now everything is fine, so relax! " Mivaan said, Ruhaan hugged me and congratulated me as well.. "It's a baby girl and a baby boy! " He mentioned, it's like our dream is coming true.. We really wanted to have a son and a daughter..

"Can I see her? " I asked them, and they gestured for me to go inside.. I had to change my clothes and sanitize myself before going inside.. Ziya was with her, mishti was laying on the bed.. Ziya came towards me, "I have never attended a delivery, it's my first time. And God it freaked me out, of course I had knowledge about it, but seeing it for the first time I had a terrific experience, " she took a pause, I was just staring at mishti..

"And my God, she's so so strong. She's crying a lot, and she's constantly calling your name.. Giving birth to twins is really tough man, take care! " She patted my shoulder and left the room.. My heart gripped in pain, I sat down beside her and started caressing her hair.. "I am sorry baby, " I whispered, I wish I was with her. I wish I could be her strength, she needed me ..

Her sleep got disturbed by my presence, when she looked at me, all her tiredness was replaced by a smile.. I hugged her and cried in her arms. She was trying to make me feel not guilty, but it's so hard to forget.. The doctor came inside holding our baby boy, my heartbeat fastened. As Mishti held him in her arms, I felt like we both won the world. His nose was just like mine. He was looking freaking cute.. When mishti started feeding him, I asked the doctor about our baby girl..

She mentioned about her health which shook our world.. I followed her to meet our girl, I wasn't allowed inside.. There's a glass room and inside that she's placed inside a glass cube which was opened at one side. The nurse was checking on her.. I was already guilty and seeing my baby's condition I felt terrible.. I placed my trembling palm on the glass, tears rolled down my eyes.. "She will be fine, right? " I asked her, she just smiled.

That smile didn't give me any positive hope, I moved towards the other side where I could get a clear view of my daughter. "Everyone is waiting for you outside, your mumma, your bhai, your nana nani, dada dadi, mama mami, your coolest chachu, bade papa badi maa and your big brother ahan. Everyone! Please get well soon, otherwise your papa won't talk to you, " I didn't realize when tears rolled down my eyes.. I wiped my tears, it's really difficult to look at her..

My heart was pounding like it would explode, I felt someone's hand on my shoulder.. When I looked back ,I found my mumma, I hugged her tightly.. "Look at her, she's not listening to me.. You should scold her, " I yelped, she patted my back.. "Don't lose hope. She will be fine.. Stay strong and take care of mishti. It will be tough for her as well, " she muttered, the world was crashing down beside me.. I was not able to be happy on such a big day.

I broke our hug and looked at our baby, "I will come soon, " I said and headed towards the room where mishti was admitted. Our baby boy has slept in her arms, again a small smile formed on my lips.. Mishti looked at me, "Did you see her? How is she? Did you talk with the doctor? What did she tell you? " She had numerous questions, but I had no answer for it.. I smiled, "She will be fine, don't worry, " I said with a smile and kissed her forehead..

"Baby is sleeping, can I hold him? " I asked her to divert the topic, she has just gone through terrible pain, I didn't want her to take more stress.. "Can I hold him? " I said, there's a little excitement and more nervousness in me.. Mishti carefully handed me the baby, my heart came to my throat.. "Oh my God, he is so small, " I almost had tears in my eyes, I kept him close to my heart.. But as soon as he felt a little movement, he started crying loudly..

"Ssshhhh.. Ssshhh.. It's me, your dad, " I tried to calm him, but he kept crying.. I handed him to mishti, she started caressing him after placing him on her chest.. He stopped crying, "He already joined mom's team, " I cracked, "And will you tell me about your teammate? What did the doctor tell? " She asked me in a serious tone, I sighed.. "She can't give an answer to our questions right now.. Her condition is actually not good, but don't worry. I know she will be fine.. " I said..

Her face color went pale, the nurse came and gave an injection into her saline.. I slid down the stretcher bed and told her to sleep.. She made our baby sleep beside her, but could not sleep.. I wrapped his fingers around my index finger and took a picture.. "He is so extra cute and his fingers are so tiny, " I was in awe of him.. Mishti was staring at us, but after studying her facial expressions I knew she was worried for our baby..

"Don't take stress baba, she will be fine, I am telling you, " I assured her , a tear rolled down her eyes.. "Why are you crying? I told you na, she will be fine! " I went to the other side and took her in a hug.. She started crying more, "I should have maintained a proper diet and taken enough nutrition, " her blaming herself is a constant.. "And you did right? Sometimes it's not mom's fault baby and you were pregnant. You had thousands of mood swings and irregular sleep cycles, of course it's difficult, " I made her understand, she stopped crying and started sobbing..

"And don't cry, you know na your condition will directly affect our baby! So calm down, " I broke our hug and wiped her tears, we both looked at our baby boy who was sleeping peacefully. She gently caressed his cheek and laid beside him.. I let out a deep breath and went outside.. I sent everyone back to our house, Ziya was there because it was her night shift.. And Ruhaan stayed with me..

We both sat outside of mishti's cabin for the rest of the night.....

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After thirty six hours the doctor gave us mishti's discharge papers and told me to take her home.. I entered her room, she was all dressed up in a plane kurta and pant. The baby was sleeping and maa was holding him.. "How will I leave now? Our daughter is here, " Mishti addressed, I told her to come with me.. She was able to walk, but I lifted her in my arms and took her towards the NICU..

She was going to meet our daughter for the first time and I was scared just by thinking about her reaction.. I made her stand near the glass wall, her eyes remained on our baby.. Every time I came here to see our baby, my heart was breaking.. I wrapped my arm around her, her both palms covered her mouth as her eyes became teary.. A nurse went inside and prepared an injection..

Mishti's fingers gripped around my palm and her nails dug into my skin.. She was just a new born baby and was already suffering, when the doctor went ahead to give her injection, mishti turned towards me.. Burying her face on my chest she started crying, I didn't look at that sight.. The sight of seeing her in pain and getting injected was waking the devil inside me.. I wanted to break the glass and take my daughter away, but I wish it was that easy.

She needed treatment and I was bound to stay calm. "I am not going without her, " Mishti stated, I looked down at her crying face.. "But you and baby both need a hygienic place mishti.. No matter how hygienic this hospital is, it will affect both of you.. And our baby needs a fresh environment, " I pointed out, she shook her negatively.. "I can't go without her, " she repeated, I sighed in distress.. "Do you want me to watch three of you suffering? " I asked her, she remained quiet..

"I know it's not easy, but please listen to me.. Take the baby home and don't worry about our girl.. Her dad will be with her, " I mentioned, she hugged me tightly while shaking her head . "The driver is waiting outside, " Papa said, both mumma and papa left.. Her mumma went behind them holding the baby, "You should go as well, " Ruhaan said to me, I let mishti go out of my embrace and stared at Ruhaan..

"Are you mad? How will I go leaving my daughter here? " I almost shouted, "Uff! I am not saying you to go completely.. Just stay with your son's house welcoming. In baby's home coming both mom & dad are needed to be present, common don't be like a stubborn boy and go! " He pushed me along with mishti, "It's just for one or two hours, till then I am here.. And Ziya is also here.. I will call you in case of emergency! "

"Even if it's for two hours, I can't go yar, " I muttered, "And the hypocrisy of you to tell me to leave? " Mishti commented , I stared at both of them in disbelief.. "Okay, I will go with her and will come back after an hour.. But ruhaan be with her, don't leave this place for even a moment, " I warned him, he chuckled at my possessiveness and nodded.. We both walked towards the exit, it's really hard to leave her..

"You know it feels like I am leaving a part of my heart here, " she mumbled under her breath, I pulled her to my embrace and went outside.. After half an hour we reached Rajvansh house.. All the Agarwals and Rajvanshs were already present inside, the house was decorated with flowers.. We both walked towards the door, everyone was standing in two lines and all were really excited to hold our baby..

"It would have been so wholesome with our daughter as well, " Mishti said, I was already sad and her words made me feel guilty.. "First her big brother will make his entry and then he will ensure about all the safety and then his tiny miny lil sis will come.. You won't understand their conversation, I know it! " I said and laughed, she stared at me, I kept quiet.. I was just trying to lift her mood, but she was way too concerned to even smile..

We both stood near the entrance, mumma did our arti, "Wait a minute, " I said and lifted mishti carefully in my arms.. She was holding the baby, she almost got startled.. "Relax, " I muttered, we posed for the picture which Ivan was taking.. I went inside and made her sit on the sofa.. Ahan ran towards mishti, "I will hold him, " he pleaded, "You are too small to hold him.. " Bhabi scolded him, but he was adamant..

"Look, he can't even walk properly and now came here to hold the baby, " Ayansh bhai said and took our baby from mishti.. Ahan extended his hands, but then bhabi took it from him.. Everyone was just laughing, mishti pulled Ahan to her embrace and hugged him.. "It's okay, you will hold your baby brother later.. Now he is just too small, " she made him understand, Ahan pouted and just stared at the baby.. I pulled him to my arm, "They just don't know the capabilities of Ahan Rajvansh, " I taunted everyone, he agreed with me which made me laugh..

"See, I have biceps, " he mumbled and showed his little arm.. It made me laugh more, Mishti was just smiling.. "He is not a toy, let him take rest you all! " Mumma scolded everyone and took our baby.. We were just watching our baby going from one hand to the other.. "I should go now, " I said, but mishti's mom stopped me.. "First take a little food and then go.. You need to stay healthy to keep your family healthy, " she said.. I couldn't say no because there's no benefit of saying no..

After taking a bath, I wore a new pair of clothes. The whole room was sanitized, we had brought two swings for our babies as well.. Mishti placed the baby inside the swing, he was sleeping.. "Don't worry, I will bring our daughter soon, " I said, she smiled a little and hugged me.. I stared at my surrounding, it felt so incomplete without our daughter.

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Happy Diwali Everyone! 💗