Abir :)

We all came here to Sydney by our private jet. Everyone was excited for the award night, because all our family companies were nominated under different categories. The agarwal families have come with us as well.. We have a banglow here in Sydney, so we stayed here for two hours before leaving for the award program..

There's a small party tonight, everyone just wants to enjoy whether they receive an award or not. Mishti was really hopeful for the GPBA award, and I was praying for her to receive that.. She was wearing a red long satin maxi gown, it's off shoulder.. Though she avoids wearing gowns in formal events, as she's the CEO of a fashion company, she needs to dress up well.

And the second reason behind her wearing the gown was to hide her little belly, because the flare of the gown was started just below her chest. There's huge media, and we both didn't want the pregnancy news to go viral.. I wore a black formal wear, she told me to wear a blazer above it, but I didn't. I never liked those formal coats and blazers, I prefer to wear leather jackets, but it would look weird to wear a jacket above a formal shirt.. So I just wore the formals without a blazer & jacket..

She was looking outside while I was staring at her, she was hell nervous. One because of the media and the award was the second reason.. I took her palm in my hand and tried to calm her down. The car stood in front of the venue, our guards were there to stop the public. The media had an idea about my presence , it became quite difficult to pass the public and outside media. I made sure she was safe..

We both reached inside, we didn't pose for more than a minute because I didn't want her to feel unwell.. The award giving ceremony has started, we reached here after the cultural program ended.. Because she didn't want to sit here for longer.. We headed towards the vip seats where both our family were seated , we both took our seat..

Just when we took a seat, Agarwal family's company name was being announced in the mic . Mishti stood up quickly and started clapping for her brothers.. Three of them hugged their wives and parents and then came to us.. "Congratulations bhai! " Mishti screamed in happiness, I congratulated them.. The three brothers went to receive the award. Maanvir and Mrinal handed the mic to Mivaan.

As I was expecting he first thanked Manvik papa and then continued further.. While they were on the stage Mishti went to papa and hugged him. "I am so happy for you, well deserved! " She said and came back.. I smiled at her, she was looking genuinely happy and I could feel her anxiety decreasing.. CEOs from different companies were winning different kinds of awards.. Mishti was waiting patiently because the category in which her company was nominated wasn't announced yet..

The fastest running company of the year award goes to :

The lady host announced and took a pause, Mishti grabbed my palm and held it tightly.. I crossed my fingers, I was never this much anxious in any award where I was nominated. I don't care much about those, because I believe there's a lot more talented artists, so anyone gets it, it doesn't affect me.. But here I really wanted her to win this prestigious award, I have seen her hardwork and dedication throughout the year. And moreover she has never received an award from GPBA..

And the award goes to Ayansh Rajvansh, the CEO of Rajvansh group of companies and co.

My eyes remained on the stage and then moved to bhai.. I could not understand how to react.. I didn't know bhai's company was selected in the same category.. My eyes moved to mishti who was staring at bhai who just hugged papa.. Mumma looked at me, mishti stood up and started clapping for bhai.. I stood up and hugged him, "Congratulations bhai! Well deserved, " I patted his back, he hugged mishti as well before heading towards the stage..

Baby Ahan was standing on the table and he was jumping in excitement as it was for the first time he was witnessing his father winning an award.. I was really happy , but my heart sank down thinking about mishti, she was smiling widely and just clapping for bhai.. I knew she was hiding her pain behind her smile..

Bhai called papa to the stage and touched his feet there .. Bhai gestured to papa to receive the award , "Wherever we are today, it's possible just because of Yuvan Rajvansh! " Bhai's speech started, everyone had a proud smile for him . I was happy for them. He stepped down the stage and came towards us, we all sat down. I moved my gaze to her, she gave me a tight lipped smile..

"We wanted to take the award home and see it's happening. It doesn't matter if bhai's company won or mine, it's okay... " She stated, I was unsure whether she's actually okay or just pretending in front of me. She was getting restless just a moment before and now acting all fine, it felt more like pretending.. "And I didn't know bhai's company was nominated in the same category, so whatever happened I am really happy for him, " she grinned in happiness. Both maa and I were staring at her and noticing what a fine actor she is!

The award giving ceremony ended, and a few businessmen were giving speeches. Ayansh bhai turned his chair towards us, "In which category you were nominated? " He asked Mishti, I gulped down as everyone's eyes moved towards us.. "Who won in that category? " Papa asked her, she remained silent while everyone was staring at her expecting an answer..

"You! " Maa answered, everyone's face dropped instantly.. I scratched my forehead, the environment became kind of awkward.. "What happened? Why did you all make that poker face? It doesn't matter if bhai won, it's a win for our family and me.. I am genuinely happy and he really deserves it! " She clarified, Mahira maa came and patted her cheek.. "It's okay, it happens;" she kissed her forehead, everyone managed to smile.. Bhai and bhabi both were looking totally upset, I blinked my eyes at them..

My papa came and stood behind us.. We both stood up, he circled his arm around her.. "So I was getting anxious over nothing. Both our companies were nominated in the same category. I would have celebrated it both ways, haha! " He tried to make the environment a little more relaxing for her, "And I feel so proud.. My daughter in law is on our level! You are going to compete with us soon, " he said and hugged her.. Mishti pouted, "I am your daughter only, " she corrected him and we all laughed..

Manvik papa took their balaye while Mahira maa was staring at them with teary eyes.. We all headed towards the exit, there's a party here, but we have already arranged a house party. So we decided to leave. While leaving both the families clicked a group picture in front of the media and left for the banglow in our respective car..

"Are you okay? " I asked her in a low whisper, she nodded and smiled.. "Mr Abir Rajvansh, you should stop spying on my emotions, I am completely okay! " I didn't know why but it felt like a lie. We all reached after half an hour.. She excused herself and went to the washroom.. I knew she went to the washroom to cry alone and will come back after doing her make up..

"I think we shouldn't celebrate, " Ayansh bhai said, I shook my head in disbelief.. "You didn't snatch the award from her bhai , why are you feeling guilty? " I muttered.

Here bhai was guilty and there she was hiding her emotions from me.. It's making me angry.

"We will celebrate and why won't we? We would have done it if Ithsim company would have won, so we will do it now as well.. Relax! And as much as I know my sister, she will feel bad if we won't celebrate.. So let's not sympathize with her and act normal. She will be okay! " Mivaan announced, everyone agreed with him.. Sharanya came with the big three tier cake, Mishti came from the washroom.. Her nose was a little red, I pulled her to my side..

"You were crying? " I asked her making sure nobody hear us, she rolled her eyes and moved towards our family members.. I didn't react anything and joined them..

They all included her in cake cutting, her fake smile was burning my heart.. We all fed each other the cake, she's fighting with her brothers as they were applying cake on each other.. I excused myself and went upstairs.. There's a large swing on the terrace, I dropped myself there and sat quietly.. I was waiting for her to come behind me. So that I can have a conversation with her.

It's not necessary to feel happy just because bhai's company won, she can feel sad. It's not about bhai winning the award, it's about her not getting it. She can be happy for bhai, but she should not just hide her emotions like this, at least not in front of me.. I heard the footsteps, as I was expecting it to be her..

"Why did you leave the party? " She asked me, I gestured for her to sit on my lap.. She sat on my lap and kept her legs on the swing, while resting her back on my arm which I had wrapped around her.. She's looking like a small baby while sitting on my lap.. "I have heard that pregnant ladies cry for small small reasons, but it's so opposite in your case! " I whispered, she furrowed her eyebrows..

"Like you got a reason and still not crying! " I whispered, she had cleaned her face, neither the cake nor the make up was on her face.. She pulled my cheek and smiled again, "I am not sad, seriously! " She mumbled, I just simply stared at her.. She stopped smiling and looked at the other side.. I brushed my nose on her cheek.. "Sometimes it's okay to cry.. If you can celebrate your success, you have full rights to feel bad when you don't get success.. Otherwise how will you bounce back stronger? " I said..

She tucked her hair and looked down at her lap.. Her both hands were intertwined and were resting on her lap.. A tear dropped on her palm, I remained quiet.. "I hate you, you never let me cry alone.. I didn't want to cry in front of you this time, " she whispered, another tear rolled down her eyes.. "Then there's no point of my existence in your life.. I am here to wipe your tears and listen to your complaints.. If you will do it all by yourself, then what will I do? " I muttered..

She broke down completely, when I tried to cup her cheek, she turned her face towards me and buried her face in the crook of my neck.. "Why? My company always gets a nomination in this award , but never gets any awards. But this time I have done a lot of hard work, but I still didn't get it.. I don't know , but I feel worthless, I feel like a loser... Rajvansh company has won GPBA three times and Agarwals have won it five times.. My company has never won one.. " She cried..

My heart clenched in pain, I brushed her back and hugged her tightly while placing soft kisses on her shoulder to sooth her.. "I am not jealous, because I know they deserved it.. I have a success rate graph of Rajvansh company and they are doing so well. So I am not even feeling bad, because they truly deserve it.. But I don't know where I am lacking? " She whispered, I was going to say something, but she cut me off..

"Is it because I am a woman and I am not able to handle it.. Both Agarwal and Rajvansh companies are handled by men unlike mine.. So am I not capable enough? But I am trying my best, " she broke down completely, she has never reacted like this for any award. But it's a globally presented award and she's been getting a nomination every year, but has never received any.. So it's making her feel worthless..

I made her look at me, her cheeks & nose have become red... I placed a kiss on the tip of her nose, "And from when Mishti Rajvansh started thinking about gender? As much as I know my wife, she doesn't think in this way, " I began, she wasn't matching her gaze with mine and just shedding tears.. I didn't want her to cry alone, but the way she's crying now, it made me concerned, because she's pregnant as well..

"In case you forgot, you are the only woman from both the family who was involved in our mission and you made it successful. You are the strongest person among all and you have the audacity to question yourself? " I mumbled, she calmed herself down and wiped her tears.. "It's about work Abir.. " she muttered, I rolled my eyes and lifted her chin up to match our gaze..

"You have made this company without any support, wherever your company is today just because of you and your employees. Nobody from your family was there when you started everything. I agree that luck was on your side and people from different industries helped you, but it's your hardwork and dedication that brought you here.. It's not easy to manage such a big company alone.. Never ever question yourself like this just because you didn't get the award, " I took a pause..

"And you forgot to notice one thing. Your company is getting nominated every year. Maybe Rajvansh has won it three times and Agarwals have won it five times, but they don't get nominated every year. The companies have been running for more than forty years, but they have been nominated for like ten to fifteen times.. But you have been getting a nomination from your foundation year.. This is what your ability is.. Your company came to the international spot in the initial year itself.. " I reminded her and there's not a single percent lie in my words..

She stopped crying and stopped sobbing.. I shook my head in disbelief, "It's okay to feel sad, but that doesn't mean you will forget about all your past achievements! " I made her understand, she let out a deep breath and finally smiled. The smile was real and contagious , it made my heart happy.. "How did I become so lucky to deserve you.. What would I have done without you in my life, " she mumbled, I smirked and pushed her slowly towards the swing..

As she laid down completely, I hovered over her making sure my whole weight was not on her. Her cheeks became red, but I love the redness. "If you feel so lucky around me, then you should make me happy as well, " I whispered, my fingers brushed down her cheek to her lips and then down her throat. Her breath hitched, without any warning I captured her lips and kissed her gently.. Her fingers clutched around my shirt and then she wrapped her arm around my neck..

The way her hand moved up my chest and rested around my neck, it turned me on.. I kissed her passionately and bit her lower lip.. My leg was placed over her and my feet was slowly brushing her bare leg after pushing the end of her gown towards her knee.. My palm sqeezed her breast, she moaned in my mouth.. I slowly brushed my thumb over her nipple and broke our kiss.. She wrapped her arm around me tightly as I pushed my lips down her neck..

"Abir, I am hungry! "

Her words brought me back to my sense, I looked at her before sitting back on the swing and made her sit.. "I can never understand how you always become hungry in between our make out session, " I chuckled while my fingers were buttoning up my shirt.. She stood up and tucked her hair behind her ears. It's been two years to our marriage, but Mishti Rajvansh will never stop blushing and will never stop feeling shy in front of me..

"It's first time, because I am pregnant! " She defended herself, I laughed and stood up..

"Last year, you have said the same thing for forty two times and that too when I was at the edge of -" I took a pause as she closed her eyes and looked down.. She was playing with her fingers, "But it's okay, I love it when my wife don't lie to me and do everything according to her! " I said and wrapped my arm around her neck.. We headed towards the staircase..

"I have a stomach, that needs food.. Unlike you, " she commented, "I don't feel hungry when I am inside you and my lips are all over your delicate skin, worshiping you. That make me hungry, but in a different way! " I stated, even this line made her cheeks red. "If you won't stop blushing then we might end up on the bed together, " I smirked, her face became straight and she went ahead.. It made me laugh..

We both went to the kitchen, everyone has ordered food from outside, but she's not feeling like to eat anything. There's nothing except noodles and pasta which I could make in less time, she scrunched her nose just by hearing the names.. "Then what do you want to eat? " I asked her, "Dal chawal! " My head spinned around after hearing her demand.. We didn't have rice or dal because it's not our house..

"You will be okay, if we will go to an Indian restaurant near? " I asked her, she nodded happily.. Ruhaani bhabi came to the kitchen while we were moving out.. "What happened? Are you hungry? Should I make something for you? " She asked her, but I told her not to worry because we're heading to a restaurant.. We both reached the restaurant after fifteen minutes, in the whole ride she ate my head because she's extremely hungry.

But it's traffic, what would have I done..

She ordered one dal chawal for her.. "What about you? " She asked me, I looked at the waiter and then at her.. "I think we both can eat one, because the quantity is for two person, " I clarified her in a low tone, she shook her head in a no.. I didn't want to waste more time and ordered one for me as well.. She's pregnant, so she needed more food. "Mam any side dish? " The waiter asked her, she denied.. "Only dal chawal! "

"One mushroom masala for me! " I ordered, he left with the order.. It's our good luck that there's no one in the restaurant because it's almost 11:00 PM. Our order arrived quicker than I expected.. She jumped on the food while I took my own time to feel my stomach.. I offered her a little mushroom, but she denied.. I was glad that she's craving for healthy food. I ate half of my dal chawal, and she took the rest of food from mine..

"Should we order anything else for you? "

Her answer was no.. I sighed.. I paid the bills and waited for her to finish her food.. She was looking extremely happy after taking dal chawal, like a kid got any candy.. "You know I have been craving for it since the morning, " she cried, I made my dramatic wife sit on the passenger seat.. She had dal chawal in the noon as well, but her cravings didn't end there..

"I will make dal chawal for you every day, " I assured her, she wiped her tears and smiled.. I laughed and turned our car towards the national highway.. She slept within a minute, I didn't disturb her.. I kept the speed of the car slow, my hand was resting on her belly.. A small smile formed on my lips.. "Good night to my baby and to our baby as well , " I said and moved my eyes back to the road..

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