Abir :)

Last two days they kept her under observation. She was constantly losing her senses and then getting it back after some time.. It kept happening for two days and today she was a little normal. She only allowed her mom to visit her and she told the nurse to keep all the curtains closed. She not only restricted people from meeting her, also restricted them from watching her from far..

These two days were more torturous for me, because she was in her sense, but I was not able to talk to her.. I was dying to talk to her, but she was not letting me. And I was okay with it, her comfort comes first. I used to stay at night here for the last week, but after she got her senses back, Maahira aunty started staying here as well. Because in case she would need anything, only aunty can help her. Not me. But still I stay here at night for my own peace of mind..

It's around 2:00 am.. I was not getting sleep. Because the whole day I just sit at a place without doing anything productive , so I don't get tired and don't get sleep either.. Maahira aunty was sleeping in another room.. I was sitting outside of her room.. Ziya was inside the room, she was doing her regular check up.. The door got opened, I looked up at her to know about mishti's health condition..

"There's one good news for you! " She began, I raised my eyebrows and stood up from my seat.. "I got an approval for you, you can meet her, " she added, my eyes opened, wide open. I stared at her in shock, she had a proud smile like she did an achievement.. "I asked her whether you could meet her or not.. She was hesitating at first, but then I forced her a little, saying you are dying to talk to her. And of course, she melted in seconds and told me to let you come inside! "

Hearing her words, I started jumping.. I pulled out my phone and looked at myself on the camera.. I fixed my hair.. I let out a deep breath.. "You can't believe how grateful I am for having you.. You are doing a lot for me, literally! " I said, I was genuinely thankful to her. Never have I ever thought she would play such an important act in my life.. She chuckled after hearing me..

"I think you should just meet her before she changes her mind! " She said, I nodded my head and took a deep breath.. As I pushed the door slowly, it made a little noise.. Ziya came with me.. Her eyes were staring at the wall, she did not move her gaze towards the door.. I couldn't understand whether to sit ; sit where her eyes were looking at or sit where the table was.. After having a battle in my head, I sat down on the table.. She was still not starting at me..

My poor heart was happy with it, I was feeling extremely happy because she let me come inside. I was sitting beside her, it's enough for me.. Ziya and I stayed there for two minutes and finally she decided to give me attention.. As her head slowly tilted towards me, my heartbeat raised.. I gulped..

I could feel my heartbeat in my throat, like it was all set to jump. I bit my lower lip, she moved her gaze to me.. A small smile crept over my lips, she was wearing the oxygen mask.. All the pipes were still connected to her body parts.. As her eyes stayed on me for a minute, the machine started making sounds, showing the irregularity of her heartbeat.. I got scared , my eyes glued on the machine..

"Her heartbeat increased after seeing you, " Ziya chuckled , after hearing her words I looked down at Mishti. I took a breath of relief, she was still staring at me.. Ziya left the room, and the room filled with complete silence.. I couldn't understand what to say.. A tear made it's way from her eyes and fell from the corner of her eyes. I didn't know why she was crying, I could not understand what to ask, I was confused about everything.

Only thing I knew was I didn't like her tear, it gave me pain when I saw her face becoming a little gloomy.. "I missed you...! " I whispered, she took a deep breath, maybe she was trying to control her emotions.. "If you are uncomfortable, then I should leave, " I said, but she shook her head a little.. I sighed and looked at her..

I placed my palm above her palm, she flinched a little, but let me touch her.. I brushed my thumb over her palm, it's so relaxing.. "Nothing bad will happen to us anymore ! " I said, she curled her fingers around my palm in response.. Her eyes slowly getting closed, because of the effect of heavy medicines.. Her grip around my palm vanished, but my palm remained there for the next few minutes..

I went outside to sleep, now I will actually get a sleep..

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Two weeks passed, her progression was visible.. But she's not talking with anyone. Her family members had met her, she was good to them, but didn't talk. She was now out of danger. For the last two weeks , I sit beside her at night until she falls asleep. Then I get a better sleep as well.

Today they will discharge her. The doctor will visit her regularly, but Ziya will personally keep her under observation till she becomes completely fine.. As aunty was there , I started the conversation.. "Ziya's house is just beside me, so if you don't mind, mishti can stay in our house.. It would be easy! " I said, I literally didn't want to let her go.. I was scared, scared like anything..

"No, she will stay at Agarwal mansion, I can't trust anyone with her life anymore! " She said, Mivan was beside me, he pressed my palm and blinked his eyes in assurance. Aunty was upset with me.. She had no trust in me anymore.. I didn't like the change of her behaviors towards me, but it's valid at this point. We three got into her room..

"Will you stay at Rajvansh house? " Aunty asked her out of nowhere.. She snapped her head at me and shook her head negatively.. My face went pale, but it's all about her decision and her comfort. I held her luggage, she stood up from her bed. Manvik took her bag from me and gestured for me take her with me.. Both of them left.

As she started walking towards the door, I walked behind her.. From the elevator to the parking lot, she was silent.. I was blabbering in front of her, reminding her to take her medicine regularly, keep her daily routine maintained, do some meditation and yoga.. I opened the car door for her, I wanted a hug from her, but looking at her I knew she's not recovered from the trauma..

She stood near the door of the car and stared at me, I smiled at her. But she was not smiling.. I had forgotten when she had smiled from her heart.. My palm was resting over the car door, she placed her palm over mine and again looked at me.. "Bye....! " She said softly, I nodded my head.. I was feeling emotional, I didn't want her to go away, I wanted to keep her in front of my eyes..

She got inside the car and I closed the door.. She pulled down the glass as Mivan started the engine, I waved my hand at her and she just kept staring at me until her car left .. I sighed, I felt empty for a moment. My chest became heavy, I moved to the parking lot and got in my car..

I didn't go home, but went to our old factory where the suryavanshi father and son were kept. It's highly protected by our guards, I was making plans in my head.. After a few days their family will hear the death news. I made sure they can't escape from the factory and then went back to home..

They have tortured her like anything, if they would have just kidnapped mishti, then maybe I would have thought to reduce their pain before their death. But his son tortured her to the next level, so I have decided to torture them where they will beg for food, but won't get anything. Just to keep them alive to feel the pain, they would get water. And eventually they will die..

I had never killed someone like this, but these two will get this as per punishment. And they their bodies will be thrown into the sea. There won't be any proof.

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Mishti :)

I was laying on the bed, mumma gave me my medicines.. "Now sleep well, " she said, covering the blanket on my leg. I held her hand, stopping her from going.. "I can't sleep without seeing Abir! " I mumbled in a low tone, she stared at me for a few seconds before raising her eyebrows in query.. "In hospital, he used to sit beside me till I fall asleep.... " I muttered, "Just call him here , I will talk with him for a few minutes and then will come back to sleep! " I said..

I was scared because she was upset over whatever happened.. She was upset with papa, bhai and Abir and me as well. "Does he have to come here? Won't it be okay if you would talk to him in a phone call? " She suggested, I shook my head negatively.. She sighed.. "Okay, wait! " She said and left the room to bring her phone. I feel safe whenever I find myself around him.. His presence reduce my fear..

Mumma came with her phone.. I need to buy a new phone for myself.. She dialled Abir's number and kept the phone on speaker. Abir picked up her call in a fraction of seconds, like he was holding the phone..

Hello.. What happened aunty? You called me at this hour.. Is she okay? Should I send Ziya?

Mumma gave me an unbelievable look, I scratched the back of my neck.. I felt sad after hearing his concern filled voice, it must be difficult for him to live without me, without knowing my health condition..

She is completely fine.. She just wants to meet you.. Can you come over here for a few minutes?

There's moment of silence from his side.. I glanced at the watch, it's 11:00 pm.. Did I trouble him by calling him at this hour?

Of course! I will reach there in half an hour..

He said excitedly, I smiled at mumma who was expecting a positive answer from him.. As she cut the call, I stood up.. "What? Why did you get up? " She asked me in confusion.. "Can I go on a ride with him? I am feeling extremely bored due to-"

"No! " She said sternly, cutting me off in the middle.. "Please mumma! " I pleaded her, "No means no! You can go outside and roam in the garden. But I won't let you go at this hour.. You are taking a heavy dose of medicines, you need proper rest! " She said, declining my request.. "Please! " I muttered, my voice became low due to her negative response.. "It's still a no! " She said and left.. I stared at her disappearing figure and pouted sadly..

I looked at myself, I was looking so pale.. So I decided to wear something comfortable and decent. I wanted to look good.. I wore a baggy black top and a loose plazo pant.. I comb my hair with my left hand.. It's still difficult for me to move my right hand, because the bullet was pierced into my skin just above my right breast , below my shoulder, so the right portion was still giving me pain..

I heard the hern sound of his bike.. I quickly went out of my room, making my way to outside.. Mumma was sitting in the hall, I gave her a pleasing smile and left... After parking his bike he was coming towards me.. My heartbeat raised after seeing him in white shirt. He had done a haircut and it's making him look more fine.. He had perfectly set his hair..

Till now he wasn't aware of my presence, but when he looked up and his eyes fell on me, a broad smile crept over his lips and he ran towards me.. As he opened his arms to hug me, I became terrified due to his sudden approach.. With my quickening heartbeat, I took a step back, locking my both arms over my chest.. My eyes tightly shut and my breath uneven..

And suddenly I came back to the reality, the dark phase was over. The man standing in front of me was Abir, I reminded myself that he won't hurt me, he loves me, it took me a while to remind myself that he is my man.. He won't hurt me.. I was still scared of physical approach.. I let out a deep breath and stared at him..

He was stiff at his position, probably hurt due to my reaction. But he hid it by forming his lips into a smile and kept his hands back.. I licked my lips in nervousness, I need to come out of that day. I wanted to, I really want to. But maybe my mind and body was not ready.. After studying his body language, I knew he wanted a hug.. I felt so helpless..

"How are you? " He asked me, diverting the topic.. I nodded my head positively.. "I want to go on a bike ride with you! " I whispered, his eyebrows furrowed in confusion.. I was feeling like we both were some college going couples, who just started dating recently.. That one incident made me so weak and it increased the distance between us..

"Umm, aunty won't agree to this, " he said hesitantly, "Go and take permission from her, I don't know how, " I whispered, he stared at me in disbelief.. I was just behaving like a stubborn kid, but I was tired of staying inside.. I needed fresh air.. "I will ask her for permission? " He asked me, blinking his eyes.. I nodded positively.. He gulped, I bit my lips. He walked inside, I followed him in fear..

Mumma came towards us, Abir looked at me, I became nervous.. "Can I take her for a bike ride? " He asked her politely, mumma moved her gaze towards me, I hid myself behind Abir and held the sleeve of his shirt near his elbow.. "She needs rest, it's not a good idea! " Mumma protested, my eyes filled with tears. I just wanted to go out for a few minutes and she's not letting me go.

"Hey, Abir.. You are here! " Papa said, after coming from the drawing room... But when he shifted his gaze to me, his face filled with concern .. "Who made my princess cry? " He said, pulling me to his embrace.. Both Abir and mumma looked at my crying face. It's so childish of me for crying, the reason was so silly.. "Hey, why are you crying? " Abir whispered, "I want to go out, " I muttered, making a pout..

"Let's go, I will take you.. Where do you want to go? " Papa said, mumma was glaring at me.. "She is not interested in going out with you! " Mumma stated, Abir chuckled but hid it by coughing.. I looked at papa making an innocent eyes.. "Fine! Stop doing the drama.. You can go with him, but come soon! " Mumma said, I smiled at her.. "Thank you, " I muttered, papa smiled at me..

"Be careful! " Papa said to Abir, he nodded.. "Let's go! " He said to me and forwarded his hand, I placed my palm over his and we both walked out of the house.. He climbed on the bike, I sat behind him by keeping my both legs at both sides . I placed my one hand on his shoulder and another on my leg..

He started riding the bike, the speed was moderate.. The cold wind was blowing in the opposite direction, my hair was blowing in air.. I closed my eyes as my skin became relaxed.. He placed his one hand above my palm , which was resting over my leg.. He held my palm and kept it over his chest, I shifted a little close to him.. I wrapped my other hand around him, keeping my both hands above his chest, I placed my head on his back..

He left my hand and ride the bike with his two hands.. My cheek pressed against his back.. I was feeling content and happy after so long.. It's been more than three weeks to that incident, but everything was still fresh in my head.. He stopped the bike, I opened my eyes.. We could see the city from that spot..

I got off the bike, he put the bike on two stands and then I sat over it, by hanging my both legs at one side.. He smiled at me and then looked back at the city view, "It's looking so beautiful, " he said while looking at the view.. I was just staring at him, he was glowing in the moonlight.. The last three weeks must have been difficult for him.. I had a brief talk with Ziya and she told me how harsh everyone was with him, but he didn't lose his temper for even a second and stayed calm..

She also told me that Ishani aunty had slapped him for being careless.. Nobody took care of him in my absence, I felt really bad. When he was away, at least I was taken care of by everyone. But here in my case he was left alone.. My heart clenched in pain.. I held his collar between my fingers and pulled him towards me..

As he stood in front of me, I nuzzled my face on his chest and wrapped my both arms around him.. He was stunned because he was not expecting a hug from me.. As I hugged him, I felt strange and uncomfortable first.. But when he pulled me to his embrace, reciprocating my hug, I felt relaxed.. I tried to relax myself, I tried to forget all the bad memories and hugged him tightly..

I let the tears fall from my eyes, his shirt became wet due to my tears.. I realized he was crying as well. I tightened my grip around him, pressing my face more onto his chest. "I love you... " he whispered , his tone breaking and falling apart.. It made me more emotional , he was not crying because I hugged him after so long.. He was crying, because he has been holding himself back for three weeks, he needed my comfort to feel himself again.. I brushed my palm over his back..

I knew the feeling of losing the person you love and in recent days he went through the same thing. I loosened my grip around him, he pulled himself back.. I wrapped my hands around his neck & brushed my cheek against his cheek, wiping those tears.. I did the same with his other cheek and cupped his face. He hugged me again, burying his face in the crook of my neck..

I let him cry today, his grip tightened around me.. "Why did you come in front of me? Why did you take the bullet? Anything could have happened to you! " He whispered, "I had already seen you in death bed once, I did not have the guts to see you in hospital bed again! " I replied, "So you would prefer to harm yourself? " He scolded, I smiled and kept my head over his shoulder.. "I missed you.. " He said, "I am with you always! " I replied ..

I changed my sitting position. Now we both were sitting on the bike, facing each other.. I was sitting towards the tank, I shifted a little close and hugged him again. My both legs were above his thigh, at the two sides of the bike .. He had his arms wrapped around me, I had my head on his shoulder, my eyes fixed on the city.. "I killed the security uncle, " I whispered, a tear rolled down my eyes..

"No baba! He is fine.. Sharanya had admitted him in the hospital, we took all the responsibility of his operation. And now he was doing fine. Don't worry about him, " he said, I sighed in relief. But still my heart was not accepting it, because it must have hurt him a lot. He was an old man and it would take him a lot of time to recover.. I genuinely feel bad for him..

The incidents started flashing in my mind, all these weeks I was trying to avoid it. But as I remembered about the old man, all the other things started coming to my mind.. I pressed my face in the crook of his neck, my eyes tightly shut and my fingers gripped around the thin fabric of his white shirt.. I was feeling terrified, I could feel my heartbeat getting increased. I started sweating..

"Hey, are you okay? " Abir whispered, he tried to pull me out of his embrace, but I held him tightly.. He started brushing my back, I started feeling uncomfortable. Those unfamiliar abusive touches were still fresh on my skin.. My breathing became irregular.. Abir pulled me close to him, when I felt his breath on my neck, it made me feel more uncomfortable..

I was constantly reminding myself that it was Abir.. "I love you, mishti.. I won't hurt you.. It's me, your Abir.. Ssshhh!! Nothing would happen to you.. You are safe.. Please calm down, please.. Open your eyes, it is me.. Your Abir! " He whispered in a panicking tone, I gulped.. I was not able to open my eyes.. I was sweating profusely..

"Relax! It's me.. Abir.. " He whispered, I took a deep breath and exhaled.. The moment where he had torn my shirt suddenly flashed in front of my vision, I pulled out myself from his embrace and pushed him back in a jerk.. My eyes went open, he balanced himself.. "Ssshhh! You are safe, " he reminded me again... My hands were trembling, I was shaking completely.. I could feel the rise in temperature in my body..

"Look at me...! " Abir said, after taking a deep breath, I stared at his hazel brown eyes.. "Take a deep breath, relax..! " He whispered, I told myself I was fine.. I had to convince my heart that it's Abir who won't hurt me.. After a few seconds I burst out crying.. I was feeling so miserable. I was in such a worse condition that I had to convince myself that I was doing good .. He must have felt bad because I felt uncomfortable around him..

My head lowered as I was crying.. "I am sorry.. " He apologized, he must be thinking he made me uncomfortable and he was sorry for that.. I shook my head while crying.. I should have stayed away from him, because the last five minutes made him really worried about me.. I was still crying and he was holding himself back from hugging me, from touching me, even from wiping my tears..

I covered my mouth with my palm and tried to stop myself from crying.. I stopped crying and tried to calm myself.. I was sobbing, his concerns filled eyes were resting on mine.. I wiped my tears and looked at him.. "I am sorry.. It's not your fault.. " I whispered, he forwarded his hand to hold my hands .. He was hesitating, so I held his palm.. He held my palm gently and kept brushing his thumb on my finger..

I didn't hug him again, because I didn't want another panic attack like this.. "Don't force yourself for anything, Mishti.. I will wait for you to get fully recovered.. You don't have to heal yourself just because of me.. Take small small steps in this healing journey.. I am here, with you.. Take as much time as you want.. You don't have to force yourself, " he said, I nodded slightly..

He is a man of patience and I was grateful for having him as my life partner.. He got off the bike and helped me to get off it.. It's 12:45 am.. Mumma would be hell angry at me.. He started the bike and I sat beside him.. This time he didn't hold my hand, nor wrap it around him.. I was scared of myself , I had no control over my reaction towards his touch..

Still I took a little courage and wrapped my both arms around him.. I kept my head on his back, I closed my eyes again.. I was feeling sleepy because of the cold breeze.. "Hey, don't sleep.. We will reach home soon , " He said, I kept my eyes open. He stopped the bike in front of my house, the guards opened the gate for us.. He didn't bring his bike inside, because he would leave..

As we both entered inside, I saw papa waiting for me.. He told me that mumma was sleeping.. "You should have slept, why did you wait for me? I could have opened the door by the password, " I scolded him, "Yeah! But I was just worried.. Now as you have come back, I can sleep.. " He said, everyone was worried about me and I was not okay with it..

"Okay, bye! I should leave, " Abir said, I glanced at the watch.. He will go back now, I won't call him from tomorrow on. Because it would be tiring for him to go back at midnight.. I walked with him to the door, he smiled at me before leaving.. I stood there till he reached the door, I waved my hand at him and he left on his bike.. Papa wished me a good night and left. I went back to my room..

I was feeling tired.. So I slept soon..

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Ziya had come to my house for the regular check up, Ishani aunty had come with her.. Mumma was in the room as well... I never liked Ziya in the first place, but she has been good to me and did a lot for me.. It's her profession to save her patients, but when it comes to me she puts extra effort. And if I have Abir with me now, it's because of her.. She treated him for months. And I was grateful for her..

As she was done with the regular check up, mumma offered her a cup of coffee.. They both were having a light conversation, Ishani aunty was sitting on my bed.. "You should not have scolded Abir, it's not his fault. Whatever happened to me, he had no control over it! " I said to her, she looked at me.. "If he hadn't added the location to his Instagram post, then -"

"It's me, who posted the pictures, not him! " I said, cutting her off in the middle. Mumma snapped her head in my direction, "You don't have to lie to defend his act, " Aunty said, "No, I am not lying. He would have died in regret if he would have done that. It's actually me who posted those pictures, I was not in the right sense, so I added the location. You all are blaming him for no reason! " I said, there's complete silence in the room..

"He didn't tell me anything, " aunty mumbled, only if you would have let him.. But I didn't say this to her.. Because once I was at her place, when I heard the news about the panchayat's son, I became impulsive and didn't hear him out.. And here something so traumatic happened to me, so it's normal for them to be impulsive. Still, they could have been a little softer to Abir.

Mivaan bhai came to my room, he was holding a new phone.. I became excited, it's for me of course.. "I have done all the settings , you can use it, " he said, I smiled and thanked him.. He had saved everyone's contact as well.. "You should take some rest now, " Ziya told me, I nodded and laid back..

"Take care! " Aunty said before leaving the room.. As they all left, I dialled Abir's number.. It's 8:00 am in the morning..

Hello..

He was still sleeping, his voice was deep and intense..

Mishti, this side..

Got a new phone?

Hmm..

Good ..

He didn't say anything, maybe he again fell back to sleep.

Okay, I will call you later..

Hmm.. I will call you back once I wake up..

He was sounding really tired, so I cut the call. He went to bed late last night , so it's obvious he would wake up late..

I yawned lazily and slept again..

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Kinda boring!