Abir :)

I was back on track, I was always a late raiser.. But in this wedding preparation days, I used to wake up before sunrise.. So after that I tried to maintain the good quality of waking up early, but here we go. I woke up after 9:00 am today.. Yesterday I had slept with Mishti on the sofa, when I woke up she was not there and my whole muscle has become stiff due to uncomfortable position of sleeping..

So I first decided to take a warm shower. After wearing something comfortable I headed towards her room, just when I pushed the door, something soft hit against my face. I groaned in annoyance because I didn't expect such type of welcome. I moved my eyes to Mishti, she was sitting in the center of the bed towards the headrest. Her eyes and nose were little red, it's like she's at the verge of crying..

I became worried, "What happened? " I asked her, taking the pillow from the ground I walked inside, she threw another pillow but not at my direction.. "It's my 6th day of periods and I don't know why I am bleeding, it has stopped yesterday, " she started, my walk paused because I found it risky to go near her. She was not in a good mood and the reason was periods and my existence around her would make her more annoyed. Because she always need space..

"Umm, do you need anything....? " I whispered, her red shot eyes met mine.. "Yeah give me some poision, " she cried, holding her stomach, my heart clenched seeing her in pain.. "Should I buy any medicine for you? " I asked her, "No thank you! " She threw another pillow which landed on the ground.. "Now give me all those pillows, " she ordered, I nodded like an obedient man and picked up all the pillows ..

After placing the pillow in front of her, I sat down on the bed.. "Is it paining too much? " I asked the dumbest question ever, "Someone make me pregnant and give me a break of 9 months! " she shouted in annoyance, I blinked my eyes. "I am here, you don't need someone else, " I muttered, I received a hard glare from her followed by a pillow which I caught before it could hit my face..

"Of course! What do men want except sex? Of course you can help me in this! " She taunted, I licked my lips.. "I didn't mean that, " I fumbled with my words, "Even if I get pregnant, I can't deliver the baby.. That pain is unbearable, " she started crying, I moved closed to her.. "Listen, if it's paining too much, then take the medicine! " I added..

"Why we girls have to suffer? Why? God is so freaking biased.. " She started ripping the pillow, she was already holding a hot water bag on her lower abdomen.. I went down stairs. After watching a YouTube video, I warmed the water and added some spices. Adding it into a glass, I went back to her room.. Thankfully she didn't complain and took the water..

"Just leave me alone! " She said, I nodded in agreement and left her room. It's better to do what she wants.. She has done her breakfast, I was not in a mood to take something because she was crying in the room.. But I decided to make lunch, I wanted to make her favorite dishes.. And for that I needed some energy and good mood.. So I took my breakfast and went to the near shop to buy the ingredients..

The local youngsters and teens were my big fans, so I had to roam around wearing a mask.. After buying everything I started preparing the lunch.. In the middle, I had gone to her room to check her condition.. Thankfully she was sleeping.. I had made Rajma chawal because it's her favorite, most favorite actually..

I went to her room, she was awake.. Her hair was messy, she's staring at the balcony. It's the silence after the storm, I felt so relaxed seeing her calm and composed face.. "I have prepared the lunch, are you hungry or you will do the lunch later? " I asked her, she forwarded her hands in a gesture to pick her up.. I smiled at her and lifted her in my arms ..

She placed her face on my chest and closed her eyes.. "I annoy you a lot, " she complained, "Nope, you don't! " I muttered, " Even if you do, just know that you have every rights to annoy me.. " I said, she looked up at me.. "I have given the rights to two girls, so you should complete your part right? " I added, her eyebrows joined and her eyes scrutinized..

"Two girls? Who is the other one? " She said, raising her head, almost ready to kill me with the look of her eyes.. "Our daughter, if we will have a daughter then, yeah! " I added, her big eyes became small and a smiled formed on the corner of her lips..

I served the rajma chawal in both of our plates, she took a spoonful of rice and rajma. The way she was excited, I thought she would taste it first , but she forwarded the spoon towards my mouth. "Comm'on take it, " she said, being desperate to take the next bite.. I took the rice in my mouth, it's good. The taste was good, I took a breath of relief..

She put the spoon aside and started eating in her hand, "Umm, it's so yummy! I wish I could make it like you have made, " she said and again moaned in delight.. "Magic! Magic lies in my fingers, " I said proudly and started eating.. She rolled her eyes at me , we both finished our lunch in silence..

I asked her about periods, and she's not bleeding anymore nor she was having cramp. But she was tired, so she went to her room and slept.. As I was free, I decided to have a live session with my fans. The live session went straight for an hour. I had fun.

In the evening, I was watching the sunset sitting in the big terrace. The blue sky has turned orange, the reflexion of the orange hue sky was falling on the Arabian ocean, like the sun was touching the sea. Something strike in my mind. I remembered when I was away, when I was dead according to everyone, Mishti has jumped into the sea where I had jumped before.

In all the chaos, I had never asked her what she went through in this six months. I wanted to know, I wanted to know how much she suffered because of me and due to my absence.. "Romanticizing the sunset? " I looked back hearing her joyful voice, she smiled at me.. I forwarded my hand, gesturing her to come towards me.. It's a large swing, so I pulled her into my lap and made her sit comfortably..

"Are you feeling better? "

"Much much better! " She replied, "Good! "

Both of our eyes were on the sea , I was scared to ask her anything related to the past. I didn't want to make her remember those traumatic days, but it's better if she remove all those thoughts from her mind by saying everything to me.. I adjusted her hair, she moved her eyes to me.. "Umm.. Why did you.. Umm I mean did you.. " Urgh, I was so bad at starting the conversation. She furrowed her eyebrows in confusion..

"After the incident, why did you jump into the sea? " I finally asked, the color of her face drained.. She tore her gaze away and looked at the sea again.. There was a moment of silence between us and then she finally decided to speak.. "I don't know, " she mumbled, her voice devoid of any emotions.. "Were you trying to... trying to.. take your life? " I fumbled with my words again, a tear dropped from the corner of her eyes which fell on my shirt..

I wrapped my arm around her belly, I tried to turn her towards me, but her eyes were glued to the sea.. "It was.. I was.. I mean, " she wasn't able to decide what to say, I brushed her arm trying to comfort her. Again tears started dropping from her eyes.. "I was not able to believe that you're no more with me.. A part of my heart was not ready to accept the news.. When I was standing at the edge and was staring at the sea, I felt your existence.. I know it might sound dumb, but my mind was devoid of any thought at that time.. I wanted to see you, because I wasn't able to accept the news. It's killing me..

I just took a step ahead and jumped into the waves of water, you know what? When I found myself drowning in the depth of water, I saw you. It's my psychology, it's in my thinking, you were not real. But believe me when I hugged you, that moment was so surreal for me that I can't express.. But you vanished away and I lost my sense, " she explained, her breath was quick, the uncountable tears were making their ways from her eyes to her cheek and then getting lost in my shirt..

All the worst possible thoughts were coming to my mind, what if nobody would have seen her that day, I would have lost her forever. Even the imagination was the worst, living a world where she doesn't exist , it's gut wrenching to even imagine.. I tightened my hold around her belly and pulled her close to me .. My heartbeat was rapid..

"Those six months felt like hell. Everyday I was waking up from a dream, a dream where you were with me, " she took a pause as she was sobbing, I brushed her back.. "Just because you were alive in my dream, I used to sleep most of the time.. I stopped working, I stopped talking to people, I caged myself because I did not want to add new memories.. I was scared by the thought of forgetting a single memories with you. And you know I remember every freaking dream, those were my saviors.. "

I never thought that this girl, the woman, the CEO, Mishti Agarwal would fall in love with me, head over heel. It's so impossible at first.. She squeezed herself, "Once I had a longer dream and when I woke up I could not able to differentiate between the dream and reality.. Everytime I used to see happy couple, I used to cry. There's time I became scared, because I was not able to come out of the trauma, it's just pulling me into more darkness, " she added, her voice cracking..

I wish I could erase those six months from her life. Now I was actually happy that I got another life, because her life , her happiness depends on me.. She turned towards me and hugged me completely, her face nuzzled against the crook of my neck.. She was crying.. "I hate you, I will always hate you for making me feel this way, " she complained, my heart clenched in pain. The reason of her trauma was me and I was not able to rectify it..

"I won't hurt you again, never! " I whispered, "You are a lier, you broke my promise, " saying she hit her palm on my chest, she broke the hug.. "If you really thought about me, then you would have never hit them. You broke my promise, you know if again something will happen to you, I don't know what will I do with myself.. And I swear I won't come back to your life ever again, never!" She shouted, her eyes turned blood red..

She was accusing me for something I didn't do, but at that moment I was not even feeling like to defend myself.. I wanted her to shout at me, I was drowning in the sea of guilt. I cupped her cheek and placed a kiss on her soft cheek.. She lowered her wet eyelashes and didn't look at me.. "I am sorry, " I apologized, only if sorry could fix everything..

She hugged me again, "I get angry, I get annoyed. But you are so so so good that I can't hate you... After all this I couldn't hold myself back & forgave you because you feel like home and I can't run away from my home.. I don't know what you have done to my heart, I can't stay angry with you more than two days.. I hate liars, I never gave anyone a second chance. But when it comes to you, I forget all my principles.. Either it's your action towards me that melts me or I am just too much in love, " she said, a tear rolled down from my eyes..

I hugged her tightly, "I love you, I will always love you more than anything in this world! " I whispered, she sobbed silently.. "Tell me na, you love me too ! " I whispered, when I was going to kill Mr Robert, she had confessed to me and that's the first time and also last time when I heard those magical words from her mouth. . I broke our hug, "Please! " I mumbled, I was desperate to hear it from her mouth..

She made a stubborn face and shook her head in a no.. "Did you care at that time? No right? I won't tell it to you ever again.. Never! " She said, pressing her teeth, I smiled at her.. "I will wait...! " I mumbled, she was staring at me angrily, she tore her gaze away.. "I hate you, " she mumbled, I chuckled and wiped her tears.. "Even your I hate you holds so much emotions, those hate words feels like a comfort hug! " I said, she rolled her eyes..

"You and your manipulative words, " she commented, I chuckled.. "I have enough skills to manipulate you! " I grinned, "Hmm.. Stay in your delusion! " she shrugged , I pulled her against my chest and hugged her again. "It's a good idea! " I added, "Coming here with you was a good idea, " I retorted..

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The next day -

Mishti :)

"Heyyyy Mishtiiiiiiiiiiiii! " Sharanya shouted from her terrace, I was walking in the garden.. "Wait, I am coming, " she said and ran inside.. Finally the lovey duvey couple got some free time, she came running to me and hugged me.. "So! How is your honeymoon going on? " I asked her, breaking our hug.. She shrugged my words..

"Half of the time we are fighting, " she replied, I chuckled. It's same in everyone's case.. She poked my shoulder with her finger, "How is your pre-wedding honeymoon going? " She asked me, her smile was mischievous.. "It's same in our case too... " I muttered, we both sighed.. "These men don't deserve us, right! " She concluded, we both started laughing..

"Let's go to the near market, or just go for a walk? We will click pictures and will eat tasty food! But only us! Don't include them, " she said, I became excited.. "Give me two minutes, I will just change my clothes, " I said taking a step towards my house.. "Wear something traditional, " she said and ran towards her house.. I ran to my room.. I had brought a few traditional clothes, so I picked a white kurti.. It's a plazo pant and a duppata..

There was some flowery design on the kurti and the duppata color was the same as the design, red.. I wore a pair of jhumka and kept my hair open.. After applying a pink shade of lipstick, I grabbed my phone and ran towards the door.. "Hello hello! What? Where? " Abir asked me, his eyes moved from my head to toe.. "Going on a date! " I muttered, pushing my feet into the heel.. "Huh? " He commented, "Of course with your sister, " I commented and walked out of the house..

"Stay safe! " Abir shouted from my back, I waved my hand and showed him a sign of thumbs up.. Sharanya came at the right time.. We preferred walking, there's a mall near us.. We visited the mall and ate some chocolate donuts.. We ordered a chole bhature, but the taste was not that good..

So we ordered a pizza.. We clicked several solo pictures and duo pictures which we won't share on any social media platform. Because our family doesn't know that I am here in Goa. We didn't buy anything, we just explored different shops and returned back..

While returning back, I got a call from Jeevika. Why everyone started remembering me all of a sudden? I received her call and put the phone between my shoulder and ear.. "Take this and give it to Abir, I will go after taking the call, " I said to Sharanya, actually I had bought one donut for Abir.. She took the donuts and left.. I was just a walking distance from the house...

Hey what's up?

Hello! How are you?

I am good.. Tell me about you.. What is Mrinal bhai doing?

He is watching a movie, I was getting bored so thought to call you..

Umm.. How is everything going there? Are you going out and exploring places or just staying in the hotel..

No actually we are exploring a lot of places.. But today we were tired, so stayed at the hotel..

Good good..

Did you talk with Abir Sir?

Kind of.. I mean yeah. Everything is good between us now. But we haven't talked on that Sarpanch related topic..

You should..

Yeah.. We will.. Maybe..

Okay then.. Bye..

Hmm bye..

I cut the call and turned back to leave, but almost got startled seeing a stranger just behind me.. "Hello ! " He said in a disgusting way, giving me a creepy look.. "Wanna spend a night with me? " He asked me, what? People nowadays really need to hesitate. Because what the actual fuck? He was a youngster and maybe drunk.

"Idiot! " I muttered under my breath and walked ahead to go, but I stumbled over my feet as he pulled my dupatta from behind .. I turned around and slapped hard on his face.. "Stay in your limits! What is this behavior? " I shouted, as it's a road beside the beach so it's empty. I felt creepy and scared.. He roamed his finger on my face and I jerked his hand away..

"Don't you dare to touch me! " I voiced showing my index finger, he pulled me by holding my hand, and by twisting my elbow he kept my palm on my back .. His grip was so strong that I wasn't able to move.. "Leave me! " I shouted, a sudden force pushed him from me, resulting him to fall on the ground.. My heart beat quickened, without even looking at the man I knew it's Abir..

Before the guy could stand, Abir pressed his body against the ground by holding his collar.. His jaw clenched in anger, his breathing was uneven.. I was standing there like a statue, "Can I break the promise? " Abir asked me, his voice was dangerously cold.. "CAN I BREAK THE FUCKING PROMISE? " He repeated himself, I got startled. It's more like a command to hear a Yes from my mouth..

He let out a deep breath, "Ye.. Yes! " I muttered, and the next moment a hard punch landed on that guy's face, I shut my eyes. He deserved it, he deserved that punch.. Abir kept punching him, the police had arrived. I didn't know from where they came.. I went to stop Abir because the guy would die, the way he was beating him..

There's a police station nearby, maybe they heard my screams..

"Abir, leave him ! " I said, he didn't listen to me.. "Abir, the police is here, let them do their work, " I mumbled, he was still hitting him.. The police reached us, and held Abir back.. "The guy was trying to harass me and touched me inappropriately! " I stated, two cops were holding Abir in a tight grip.. "I am sorry mam, you had to face this.. We will take a good care of him! " He said and made that guy stand holding his collar, his whole face was filled with blood..

As the cops left Abir, I went to Abir.. He was still looking in that direction.. "Calm down, " I whispered, he was breathing heavily. Sometimes I myself get scared of his anger.. I wrapped my hands around him and hugged him.. I could feel the raise of his chest, "What were you doing here alone? " He asked me, "I was taking a call! " I mumbled, he didn't say anything.

"It's okay, leave me! " He muttered and broke our hug.. He was not looking in a good mood.. He held my hand and we both headed to the house.. "Give me some time, I need to calm myself! " He said and left my hand.. I watched him going upstairs, he hit the door.. He was still angry on that guy. I sighed..

I went to the terrace, the wind was cool.. I felt relaxed.. I opened my arms to feel the cool breeze, instead it started raining. Damn! I didn't run inside, I let the rain drench me.. It's so soothing. I don't get drenched, but today I wanted to.. I was completely drenched under the rain, I felt like someone's watching me.. I looked back, it's none other than Abir..

The terrace was clearly visible to his window , he was just simply staring at me, standing near the window.. As his eyes moved down, I became conscious.. I was wearing a white kurti and as I was drenched it has become transparent. His tempting gaze made me little more conscious, I tore my gaze away and got inside the house..

The terrace was towards the left, so to reach my room, I will first cross his room.. As I reached near his room, he came outside. We had a few seconds of eye contact, I looked down. Damn! My chest was just covered due to my bra, and the plazo was of thick material. But still it's transparent to his eyes.. He held my hand and dragged me to his room.. He pushed the door with the help of his leg..

"I am feeling cold, " I whispered looking at the air-conditioner, the temperature was 20° .. "Let's make it better for you! " He whispered and took the remote from the table and decreased it to 16° making my eyes widened.. I glared at him and turned my heel to leave.. But I was pulled by him, my back hit against his chest, making my heartbeat faster..

"I need to change my clothes, " I whispered, he sucked a droplet of water from my neck, "I can help you doing that, " he whispered and bit my earlobe, my cheek heated up.. He removed his one hand from my belly and moved it to my back, I shut my eyes as he pulled the dori of my kurti.. A shiver ran down my spine.. I felt more cold..

He pushed my wet hair to a side and started placing numerous kisses on my back.. In a jerk, he turned me towards me, I was not able to match my eyes with his intense orbs.. "Finally, the reason why dad sent us here is going to be successful, " he whispered and lifted my chin up.. "And for your kind information, he sent us here to know about each other, " he placed his finger on my lip.. "Yeah, both physically and mentally! " He whispered, I gulped..

He pushed all my hair to my back again, "You are looking beautiful, " I was already feeling butterflies, he was making me more weak.. "We have never taken a picture of us right? Come with me! " He dragged me along with him.. He first dropped himself on the couch and then pulled me to his lap.. I kept some of my hair strands on my shoulder, but he kept all of it at my other side, opposite of the camera angle..

When he said picture, it means intimate picture or maybe romantic picture, we had never clicked such pictures..

He slightly nuzzeled his nose on my bare shoulder , I was staring at the camera and he clicked a photo. It's a picture of us, where he was not looking at the camera , his nose was pressed against my shoulder.. It's clearly visible that I was drenched.. Keeping his chin on my shoulder, he clicked another picture, my cleavage was visible..

He placed his lips on my cheek, I lowered my gaze in reflect and again he clicked a picture of us.. "That's enough for today, I need to change it! " I muttered and stood up, "You are such a anti-romantic girl! " He shouted from my back, I ignored his words and went to my room.. My heart was still beating fast. I dried myself  and then dried my hair.. I was going to wear my night wear, but my eyes fell on a white shirt.. It's actually his shirt, it's in my bag because once he had slept in my room in the village, so the next day he had left his shirt in my room & I had washed it and kept it with me..

I smiled to myself and wore his shirt.. I was wearing my undergarments and thankfully it was not visible.. His shirt was falling till my mid thigh.. Abir knocked on my door, I became a little nervous.. I was not sure about his reaction.. I went to open the door.. "Will you like to take hot chocolat-" he took a pause, his jaw hung down.. His eyes stuck on his shirt and he took his own time to stare at me.. I started pulling the shirt down..

"Yeah, I would take hot chocolate! " I muttered, he was pulled from the chain of his thoughts.. Giving me a node he turned back, I love how he was smitten by me.. I followed him till the kitchen.. As he was preparing it, I sat over the kitchen slab.. He forwarded me the chocolate syrup bottle, "Open it! "

Instead of opening the upper lead, I opened the main cap, resulting in the droplets falling on my fingers, "upps! " I muttered and looked at Abir.. I could not control my laugh and ended up laughing as a few droplets has fallen on his chin, jawline and neckbone.. He took the bottle from my hand and licked my finger, I stopped laughing.. His eyes were fixed on me as he licked my finger sensually, I gulped..

Locking my both hands on my back, he came closed to me.. "Now clean it! " He whispered, he wanted me to clean the droplets from his face, but he had locked my hands.. "Free my hand then, " I mumbled, a smirk formed on the corner of his lips.. "The way I did, do it now! " He whispered, my cheeks heated up.. I stared at him.. "Comm'on clean it! " He commanded.. I bit my lower lip.. He brought his face near, making me take my head back..

"Do it sweetheart, " he whispered again, it was not like I didn't want to do it, but I was just shy.. He freed my hands and kept both of his hands on the slab at my both side.. It's raining outside and the sound of water droplets crashing against the ground was making the environment more romantic.. I held his jaw where there was no droplet , leaning forward I sucked the droplet from his chin.. I moved my lips and licked the chocolate from his jawline, he groaned audibly.. I wrapped my both arms around his neck and placed my lips on his neck, licking the droplet from his neckbone..

He leaned back, grabbing my face by holding my jaw he crashed his lips against mine in a jerk.. He took my lower lip between his teeth and sucked hard, I reciprocated the kiss.. He continued kissing me, goosebumps erected on my body.. I clutched his shirt in a strong grip... As I felt breathless, I pushed him a little and he parted away the next second..

"I want to taste you again, " he whispered, his hand moved to my shirt and he opened the first two buttons of it, making my heartbeat quick.. I held his palm, "Do it, or I will ! " He whispered, my toes curled as I felt something in my core.. His voice was enough to turn me on.. "It's kitchen, " I whispered, the next moment he pulled me and carried me in his arms..

As he started walking up the stairs , his honey brown eyes were not leaving mine.. I was just imagining what we both would do once we reach his room.. After entering his room, he pushed the door by his leg.. He pushed me against the bed, I was nervous but I was craving for physical intimacy, the weather was not helping much.. He kept his both knees at my both side as he sat down , I watched him pulling his tee-shirt from his head..

My eyes moved down to his perfectly built chest, my fingers were clutched around the bedsheet.. He leaned down and turned off the lamp.. One light was on, so it was not completely dark.. His eyes moved to mine, with that he hovered over me and joined our lips in a kiss.. I clutched his hair, the kiss was gentle yet dominating..

"Am I allowed to do it? " He asked me as his hands reached to my shirt, "hmm.. " I muttered, a smirk played on the corner of lips as he took my lips into a kiss again.. He started opening the shirt buttons by his one hand, after opening all the button , he drew a line by his finger from my neck to my navel.. He cupped my right breast, I stopped kissing him because his touch made my body shiver.. My bra was still acting like a barrier, but I could feel his touch through it.. He broke our kiss and moved down.. He placed numerous kisses on my neck..

I helped him removing my shirt, I didn't know I would wear his shirt just to remove it in the next fifteen minutes.. He flipped our position, now I was above him.. His hands reached to my back and he opened the strap, the bra got loosened around my chest, showing my cleavage properly..

He slide down the strap from my shoulder and again pushed me against the bed.. "Should I close my eyes this time too ? " He asked me, all the butterflies in my stomach woke up, "yes! " I whispered, for a moment I had forgotten that I was shy. Now it's his fault, he asked me such question and made me conscious again.. He closed his eyes and took off the bra from my chest..

I was just wearing my bottom.. My breath hitched, he placed a kiss on my mole, his hand perfectly cupped around my left breast.. I arched my back as his hand was replaced by his lips, I felt his warm lips around my nipple.. He first sucked it gently and then rolled his tongue around it.. A shiver ran down my spine, he cupped my other breast and brushed his thumb on my nipple.. I grabbed the bedsheet in a tight fist as he sucked hard and pressed the other breast..

"Abir....! " I moaned his name, my throat dried.. He moved to my other breast and gave it the equal amount of attention.. I clenched my thigh together feeling the heat.. As he was sucking my nipple, his hand reached to my thigh.. My breath was unsteady, his fingers dug against my thigh..

He pulled himself back, again we had an eye contact.. He placed his palm on my belly and moved it to my back, slowly raising my body towards him he brushed his cheek against mine.. Our naked chest came in contact, I was feeling a lot of emotions and everything was freaking me out.. I placed my lips on his, taking his lower lip between mine I sucked it..

The kisses were never ending, he reciprocated the kiss.. As we were kissing, his hand again moved my nipple, I bit his lower lips when he pinched it slightly.. He groaned in between the kiss.. We parted away, before he sat down he pulled out the blanket till my neck.. He handed me his tee shirt, "It will be more comfortable than the shirt, " he said, I nodded and took it.. He looked at the other side , I sat down and wore his shirt..

I love how he respect me and give me my own space.. As we both laid down, he pulled me to his embrace and placed his lips on my forehead.. "I didn't make you uncomfortable, right? " He asked me, I buried my face on his chest.. "you can never! " I said in a loud tone , he wrapped his arms around me securely and pulled me close to him.. I started melting under his warmth.. I was drenched, so sleep took over me easily..

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I wanted to write a little bit more, but let's keep that part to the next..

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