Mishti :)

It's 10:00 PM at night, I got a message from Sharanya that Yuvan uncle has rescued Abir, she has sent me a location.. Bhai was driving the car, while I was being restless.. She said that Abir's condition was serious and he was unconscious.. I was feeling the fear in my chest, I felt like my heart would explode anytime soon..

The rescue team were already inside the water, so when Abir fell into the sea they saved him. It's night, so the police couldn't differentiate..

Bhai stopped the car at the location, there's an underground house.. The guards let us go inside, as we were heading inside, my heart was beating faster. With each step and with each passing second, I was getting more scared.. I wasn't able to walk, I didn't have any strength left, but it's him, he's the reason why I was getting pulled ahead without even having any energy..

His condition was still serious, so I wasn't relieved.. The underground house was nothing but looked like a hospital.. There aren't many rooms.. "Don't worry Mishti, he will be fine! " Bhai said, even though he said those words just to calm me, I wanted to believe in it. If there's a 1% chance, then I want to believe in that as well.

"STOP RIGHT THERE! "

We both stopped, our feet rooted to the ground, Ishani aunty stood in front of us. Her eyes darkened, I gulped hard . "How is Abir? We just heard about the incident! " It's my mom & dad who just arrived after us.. Maanvir bhai & Mrinal bhai were with them as well.

"How did all this happen? Why didn't you inform us Uncle? " Mrinal bhai complained to Yuvan uncle, who was standing against the wall, his head hung down.. "Woh! A slow clap for you! " Ishani aunty mocked , pointing at our family.. "Ishani! It's not the time for any argument, " Yuvan uncle said coming to the front..

"You have lost the rights to say anything to me, Mr Rajvansh! " Aunty shouted at him, her face hardened, her dark red eyes were terrifying to even look at.. "Today my son is on the death bed, just because of you all, " she screamed in anger, a tear rolled down my eyes.. Aunty came towards me, "You knew it for a very long time right? You brag about your feelings that you love him! This was your love? Why did you never stop him? " She shouted, "How come she is at fault aunty? " Mivan bhai said, standing between us ..

"Of course she is not at fault! It is you, your whole family!!!! You guys were together in this mission right? Then why did my son sacrifice his life? " She said, I didn't want to say anything, because his son is on the death bed and it's valid for her to get angry. But she can't just blame my family like that..

"We had no idea that Mr Robert was alive! " Bhai said, "Or you guys were pretending to not know about it, " she stated, I curled my fingers, my nails piercing my skin.. "Ishani! Please stop blaming them! " Yuvan uncle said, my papa went to him and pushed uncle's shoulder.. My eyes widened..

"This is what your friendship is? How could you hide such a big thing from us? " Papa shouted, I let out a deep breath in frustration.. "Because I wanted to deal with it by myself, I didn't even have any plans to share it with Abir. He got to know about it by himself! " Uncle said, Papa let out a heavy breath.. "Then you could have informed us about it when Abir made all these plans! " Papa said, all were just shouting at each other..

I looked at Sharanya, who was crying while sitting in the corner.. "Abir didn't want to put all of your's life in danger .. You would have never let him take this step and he was stubborn! He didn't want me to share it with anyone else! " Uncle said, I knew it.. "All these years, I thought of you as a part of my family.. I loved Abir as my own son and he hid such a big thing from us! " Maa said in disappointment, she was crying..

"You are a mother! At least you could have stopped all of them from taking revenge, why did you even support them? " Aunty said to my mummy, it made me angry.. "Aunty! It's enough of your rants! Just like you love Abir, my mom does too. It's a good thing that you have such a big heart that you can forgive someone who killed your own family member just for some money & fame, but my mom doesn't have such a big heart.. What happened in the past, we all were traumatized.. My family has suffered a lot, it's not just us.. Your family was equally involved. " I stated , she glared at me in anger..

How could even she blame maa like this. The way she's getting angry on Abir's incident, the same way my mom was devastated. Here it's Abir's own decision but Myra was murdered, she was burnt alive. How could she say such things to my mom without knowing the complete case..

"And about today's incident, it's Abir who kept everything to himself.. I can't even blame him because his intentions were pure, he didn't want to put my brother's life in danger, that's why he didn't share it with us-"

She cut me off in the middle, " Thank God, you got my point. My son was so blind in love that he didn't think twice to put his life in danger, he didn't involve any of you because he loved you and your family more than himself. It's all because of you! " She said, it brought tears to my eyes, I remained quiet.. She just gave me a reason to be guilty..

"From today, from now, from this particular moment, I am breaking every single bond between these two families. I hope we both family never cross each other's path again! " Aunty announced, my head snapped in her direction. Sharanya stood up in shock and looked at Mivan bhai.. "Ishani, just stop all this! " Yuvan uncle said in frustration..

"She is right, Yuvan! You don't trust us, you hid  such a big thing from us.. I don't think that you think us as your family, so it's better to break everything between us, " Papa said, supporting the decision of Ishani aunty.. Tears started rolling down from my eyes, my nails were digging the skin of my palm.. 

The doctor came out of the cabin, I felt like my heart would jump out of my throat.. His facial expressions were giving me negative vibes, he opened his mask and looked at Yuvan uncle.. I started biting my lips, my whole body was trembling, sweats started forming in my palms..

"Sorry Yuvan! We couldn't save Abir! " The doctor said to uncle, as the words escaped from his mouths, I stumbled over my feet. A wave of shock hit me, I clutched bhai's hand to keep balance over myself but fell down on the floor.. My eyes blurry, my mind went blank..

I ran inside, the nurse was going to remove the oxygen mask from his face.. I pushed her and held Abir's hand.. "Please, don't go like this... Don't do this to me.. Please abir! " I started crying while holding his hand  ..

"You are lying Doctor ! " Ziya said coming into the cabin , "I am sorry to say Dr Ziya, but we couldn't save the patient! " And the doctor said the same bitter words again, I burst out crying.. Ziya entered into the cabin along with Ishani aunty, I ran outside not able to digest the truth. I could hear aunty's loud screams..

Everyone was numb around me.. Sharanya was sitting in the corner lifelessly, I wanted to hug her, but my own situation was worse. I clutched bhai's hand again as my chest started paining.. "Mishti, are you okay? " Bhai asked me, I fell on my back as I lost my sense. Soon everything became dark and my brain slipped into deep slumber as I became unconscious!

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With a heavy headache, I opened my eyes. My whole family was sitting around me.. I tried to get up, but then I noticed a saline was injected into my vein.. I looked at my surrounding, I was in a hospital ..

It hit me all over again, "Abir? " I whispered in shock, everyone's attention shifted to me.. "Mishti, please don't panic! " Maa said, tears gathered in my eyes as all the moments started flashing over my eyes. I sat down hurriedly and pulled out the needle along with the dripping pipe from my hand . "Let me go! " I pushed all of them & ran to the cabin where Abir was admitted yesterday.. I was admitted in the same hospital..

I pushed the door and entered inside only to find it empty.. My heart dropped, I tightened my grip around the knob of the door.. "It can't be possible! " I whispered and turned around only to bump with Mivan bhai.. He pulled me into his embrace, "Mishti, Abir is no more with us! Please accept the-" I pushed him back with a heavy force..

"Don't utter this shit , he is alive, I know, " I yelped in pain, Maanvir bhai tried to hold me, but I pushed him back. I ran to outside, I was in the hospital outfit, I don't care about that... When I went outside, I saw Ayansh bhai & Ruhani bhabi coming towards me.. "Bhai, where is Abir? " I asked him in my trembling voice, his head hung down..

My face went pale..

"Tell me that he's alive! " I yelled at him, my throat was burning.. "Mishti, please calm down, " Ruhani bhabi said, I shook my head as tears started rolling down my cheeks.. "I am sorry, " bhai said, I fell down on the floor again.. My brothers reached me, they all had surrounded me, but my vision was blank.. Only person I could see was Abir..

"Don't do this to me.. " I whispered helplessly, everyone was crying with me.. "It all happened because of me! I could not save him.. I should have never included him in this mission in the first place! " Ayansh bhai said in regret.. I took the car key from Mivan bhai... "Don't you all dare to follow me! " I said, "I need some alone time! " I said and stood up..

I got in the car, all my way I was just crying.. I never knew how does it feel to lose someone.. "I was okay with you not loving me Abir, but what type of punishment is this! " I screamed in pain, hitting the steering, my throat has dried due to my loud screams and crying.. I stopped the car near the beach where the heartbreaking incident had took place..

I started walking aimlessly, the cold water brushed against my bare feet.. I felt the unbearable pain again, as I looked at the ocean, I felt angry, devastated, betrayed.. "Why didn't you save my Abir? " I yelped, there's a time when I used to feel at peace around the sea. But now it has turned into hate..

"Give me my Abir back , you can't just take him away from me like this! " I shouted while looking at the sky, due to a strong water wave , I fell back.. But before my body could touch the ground, I was held between two strong arms.. I looked up, my eyes shined with happiness..

"Abir! " I whispered, he lifted me in his arms and made me sit above a big stone..

"Mishti...! "

And I came back to my sense, it's not Abir.. It's Dhruv, I was just hallucinating.. My heart again broke into pieces, I removed his hands from my shoulder.. "What were you doing inside the water? Life doesn't end here Mishti! Accept the bitter truth and just move on! " he said, I closed my eyes, I was tired of crying.. How easily he told me to move on!

"Leave me alone...! " I demanded, he didn't say anything and left.. I was staring at the sunrise and it reminded me of the morning when I was trying to wake up Abir in the cruise, because I wanted to show him how beautiful the sunrise was! A drop of tear rolled down my eyes..

Sunrise can be darker than any star less sky, I realized it today. There's light everywhere, but everything was reminding me that my life has lost the light and hope.. I was again disturbed by the footsteps.. I turned my head to yell at Dhruv, but it's Ruhan..

My inner walls almost shaken up seeing him, he was looking like a walking deadbody.. His eyes has turned small, his nose was looking red, his face was looking shallow.. With his improper walk he reached me.. "Make sure that nobody should get to know about Abir now! " He said, his voice devoid of any emotions..

"Are you okay....? " I whisper-asked, "Hmm! " he mumbled lifelessly and just left.. I again burst into tears.. I had met Abir recently, but Ruhan was his best friend.. I couldn't even imagine what he must be going through.. I wiped my tears again, this time with the harshness, which burnt my cheeks.. I was feeling like throwing up..

Yesterday, the Prime Minister was murdered, so if by any chance the news of Abir's dismiss would get viral then it would creat a huge mess. Police would start investigating and will definitely go to the root, which nobody wants in both of the families. When people remember Abir in their thoughts or prayers, I want them to remember him as the greatest human with a lively heart instead of a criminal..

It took me a very long time to realize what a person he was! And when I realized he left me in pieces. God is so cruel to me.. I got up and started walking towards the car.. I was feeling extremely weak.. When I reached my car, I realized I didn't have the car key. But the car was there, I looked inside, my three brothers were waiting for me..

I slipped into the passenger seat quietly, "You forgot to take the key with you! " Mrinal bhai said as he started the engine , I didn't say anything and looked outside towards the sea.. As our car passed by the beach, the wind brushed against my face and it was no more peaceful to me.. All I could feel was heartbreak and Abir's presence around me.. It's just questioning my love for him. I couldn't stop him, I couldn't save him..

I just saw him dying in front of me.. I had zero efforts from my side and now he's no more with us..

"Ishani aunty did the funeral without letting us know! "

Maanvir bhai said, a lone tear dropped from my eyes, I wiped it harshly.. "Bhai, please stop reminding me that he's dead! " I tried to say in a normal tone, but ended up shouting at Mivan bhai.. "Mishti, you have to accept the truth! " Mrinal bhai said, I shrugged off his words angrily ..

"I don't want to! Let me live like this.. Just.. Just don't mention about this incident. I have erased yesterday from my memory! " I said, I could see their facial expression changed, they all just became concerned for me.. The whole ride to the hotel was silent.. I went to the room and changed my clothes.. Bhai had booked all of our tickets to Gold coast.. I still had time, I was sitting on a couch facing the city..

Fresh warm tears started dropping from my eyes, even though I didn't want to cry anymore .. "Why are you crying? I told you na everything is alright! Stop crying! " I forced myself to stop those tears, but it's not stopping.. My eyes were tired of crying..

I was looking at the world where Abir Rajvansh, my favorite human being doesn't exist anymore.. I looked at the sky, it looks so far from me.. People say when somebody dies then we find them in the stars.. It reminded me of the bracelet which Abir had given me.. I moved my eyes to my wrist, again tears started dropping from my eyes unknowingly..

How I couldn't relate anything? How couldn't I see your change of behavior? How could not I understand what were you saying?

I again burst out crying, when someone leaves us it actually leave a hole in our chest. And in my case, he was my first love! A man who made me realize that life can be beautiful too.. Our journey has started in the cruise in the middle of the ocean, who knew it would end here in the ocean.. If it was going to end like this, then why did it start so beautifully? Why did I get attach to him?

"Mishti! " Maanvir bhai knocked on my door, I went outside holding my phone.. When I came here I did not have a carry bag with me, all I had was my phone.. I came here with an empty hand, but heart filled with hopes of saving Abir.. Now I am returning back with empty hand and hollow heart.. I opened the door and smiled a little looking at him..

Even his face has become pale , my whole family was outside.. We all headed outside, the cars were waiting for us.. When I was heading to Airport, all I could feel was that we were leaving Abir here alone.. My heart was not ready to leave Sydney.. After the security check when we were heading to the waiting room, we saw Rajvansh family coming towards us from the opposite direction..

We both families stood facing each other. My eyes moved towards Sharanya, that girl was at the verge of losing her sense. Her eyes has become small, she was not looking at anywhere but the ground.. Ruhan just passed by us, he had already lost his parents.. He had only his sister Ruhani bhabi and his best friend Abir, Abir was his life.. Now God took away his best friend as well..

Sharanya fell on the floor as she lost her sense.. Mivan bhai ran to her, but Ishani aunty came in the middle.. "The reason behind her trauma can never fix her! " She said, my heart dropped instantly.. Ayansh bhai carried her in his arms and made her sit on a chair.. Mivan bhai stood their completely lifeless.. I held his arm and dragged him towards the waiting room.. As soon as he reached the waiting room, he started crying..

"Neither I could become a good brother nor I could become a good friend nor even a boyfriend! I am worth nothing for , " he cried hugging me, I patted his back.. I wanted to console him, but I would end up crying if I utter a single word.. Maa & Papa were sitting at a corner.. Maanvir bhai and Mrinal bhai were sitting at a different place.. I made bhai sit and offered him a water bottle which he ignored ..

My whole family was feeling guilty. They think somewhere it's their fault..

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When I reached Gold coast, bhai called me to Agarwal house but I denied.. I wanted some alone time.. I headed to my own house while they went to the Agarwal mansion.. The taxi dropped me in front of my house. I wonder if Jeevika is aware of this tragic news..

I knocked on the door and then I realized I can go inside by pressing my finger prints on the sensor.. But Jeevika opened the door, before I did anything.. Maybe it's written all over my face or maybe Mrinal bhai had told her anything, because her facial expression just changed after seeing me..

"Were you crying? Why are your eyes looking so puffy? " She asked me as I got inside, she followed me and sat beside me on the sofa.. I lowered my face, clutching the pillow and keeping it on my thigh.. I started crying again, "Mam, what happened? Now you are scaring me! " she whispered, I wasn't able to control my tears..

"Did you meet with Abir Sir? Did he say any hurtful words to you? Or did you see him with anyone else? " She came with her possibilities, I shook my head while trying to get a grip on my emotions..

"Are you crying because someone killed our Prime Minister? " she said, it's the stupidest thing she has said in her whole life.. I gathered myself and wiped my tears.. "It's Abir who killed Andrew Robert! " I said, she stood up in shock.. There was a moment of silence.. "Did... Did the police? Wait! The bike that crashed and fell into the sea- that... Abi... " she became numb and sat down..

"Yuvan uncle rescued him, but he is no more, " I whispered, she was not a family of Abir, but his biggest fan.. She didn't say anything and left for her room.. "Don't let the world know about it till the Rajvansh family declares it! " I said, she didn't respond and locked the door from inside.. I went to my room, opened my purse and pulled out the dhaga from the purse..

I wrapped the dhaga around my ring finger on my right hand.. I kept staring at it until my eyes became blurry.. The whole day I stayed in my room, the cook called me to eat something but I refused.. I didn't disturb Jeevika as well, I very well knew she was crying in her room.. I opened my phone, the whole Administrative officers were shook with this news, they're trying to find the culprit's identity or anything related to him ..

I went outside taking my car, it's midnight. The road was empty.. I was riding aimlessly, I was totally devastated. Every fucking thing was reminding me of him.. My heart was still in Sydney.. I opened my phone and booked a ticket to Sydney, because I wasn't able to stay here in Gold coast..

There was a flight at 3:00 am, I went to a restaurant and ordered a meal for myself.. I took a morsel of food, but I felt like I would throw up.. I didn't want to waste the food , I wasn't able to eat it either.. It felt like I was taking poison.. After taking a little food, I paid my bill and left the restaurant.. I headed towards the airport.. I didn't inform anyone from my family about it, I didn't want to stress them..

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When i reached Sydney in the early morning, I felt suffocated, I felt the pain in my chest. But my heart was craving for the pain, I wanted to torture myself.. I headed to the same beach. The cliff from where Abir had jumped from was blocked by the police.. There's no one around me.. I was standing on the edge of the valley, staring at the deep blue ocean.. The sun drew the sky by its color, it's the sunrise time..

I took one more step ahead, a wave of cold wind pushed me back.. I looked deep into the sky.. "You took away Abir from my life, I want to meet him now ! Please let me, " I whispered and took a step ahead.. I opened my arms and closed my eyes, embracing the pain and suffering..

One more step and I fell into the wild sea, it embraced me and I felt light as I drowned into the deep sea.. I had stopped breathing, I opened my eyes and it reminded me of the day when I went for scuba diving with Abir.. My eyes were getting closed as I was losing my senses maybe due to low bp and weakness..

"Abir... I love you! " I whispered..

"I love you too, Mishti.... " I heard him saying from behind, I turned back.. My lips twitched upward into a smile, he was there in front of me, light was radiating from his body.. I cupped his cheek, the pain has started vanishing from my heart..

"I knew you would come here to meet me! " I said and hugged him.. "I am always with you, Mishti! " He whispered, I tightened my grip around him.. "Take me with you, please! " I whispered, when I opened my eyes no one was there..

My eyes became closed and I drowned deep into the water, my body started feeling light and I felt like my soul was leaving my body..

I felt eternal peace!

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