Mishti :)

I was in my cabin, was completing the rest of the work.. But my mind was somewhere else, I have no idea about that.. I was just feeling lost and restless. Jeevika knocked on the door, I gestured for her to come inside.. "Mam! We need Abir Sir for our magazine cover and he has to do some more photo shoots for our brand and ad! " She informed me, I shut my laptop and looked up.

"I think he has taken a break, will he agree to do this ? " I questioned her, "But mam, he has signed the agreements . So according to that he has to complete all this work related to fashion shows and magazines are a part of it! So he would do it, " she mentioned, "Should I contact him? "

"No! I will handle it, " I said, she nodded and left.. I dialled his number, but he didn't pick it up.. I resumed my work again, after half an hour he called me..

Hey! Anything urgent?

Oh yah! Are you busy?

Yeah! Just preparing myself for a music video..

You were on a break right?

I signed this project two months ago, so I have to finish it.. It's just a one day shoot..

You are an actor too?

Of course not! But I play the main lead in few of my music video. And it's one of a romantic song, and I have written the lyrics. So no one can portray it better than me..

Oh okay! Good luck with that..

Thank you.. You didn't tell the reason behind calling me?

Yeah! Actually can we meet? I need to discuss something related to fashion show..

I would be busy from tomorrow in these works.. We can talk today, you can come to the shoot..

Send me the location, I will reach there..

Okay !

He cut the call.. I could have talked about it in call, but I just thought to talk about it face to face.. I called Jeevika and told her to brought the papers.. "Mam, should I accompany you? " she asked me in little excitement, but I denied. I felt like to going there alone.. I smiled to myself and left for his set..

It's already evening.. The security was high around the set, seeing my ID they let me enter inside.. There's a few people in the set.. I headed towards Abir, he was wearing a white formal.. One person was setting his hair, while the other one is doing his makeup.. He was talking with the director..

"Hey , you arrived! Please take a seat.. It will just take me ten minutes to shoot the last scene.. Then we will talk! " he said politely and gave me a chair to seat.. I nodded and sat down.. Abir stood up, his stylist folded his sleeves and opened the first four buttons of his shirt.. This man is already sexy, they were just making him look more charming..

I cleared my throat and looked around. A beautiful girl came out of the vanity van, she was wearing a white gown, the end part of the gown was fluttering in air.. They all took their respective positions.. So the scene was, the girl will came running towards the boy, they will share a flying hug! And the artificial rain started drenching them.. The girl's character became a little shy and she started to move, but Abir held her and pulled her to him..

His nose brushed against her hair and moved down to her neck.. He turned her towards him, his hands caressing his waist and the other hand clutching her hair in a fist.. "Argh, finish it soon! " a man muttered being possessive.. "You are her boyfriend? " I asked him out of curiosity and he gave a nod.. Him feeling restless seeing them make some sense, but why was I feeling irritated and restless!

The girls leaned forward, I blinked my eyes..

And the shot was completed, I couldn't see the last part.. Whether they kissed or it's just a take from different angle.. I tore my gaze away and stared at my phone screen.. "Come with me! " Abir said, I followed him.. We both went to his van, I sat down on the bed.. He went to the washroom, after changing his clothes he came outside. He was wearing just a track pant, a towel was wrapped around his neck..

There's an air conditioner, still I was feeling the heat.. He sat beside me, I handed him the papers.. I was already having difficulties with words , he was shirtless and sitting just beside me.. "Oh, I have to another photo shoot! " he asked, I nodded.. He was reading the papers, I got some time to look at the beautiful view in front of me...

His soft wet locks were falling on his forehead , his big eyelashes and slender nose, a perfect jawline, everything was just looking perfect, I took a deep breath and looked away. I was feeling something strange inside my chest, again my eyes moved to his face, like there's some magnet.. "Okay, I will do this photo shoot after two days! " he informed me, I nodded .. "Okay, I shall go, take care! " I said and stood up.. "Good night! " a small smile was plastered on his lips and my fucking mind found it adorable.. It's just smile, the fuck is wrong with me..

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(Her outfit)

It's the photo shoot day today! I marched to the office, I already woke up late and the traffic was worse.. I reached the office around 11:00 am. I had told Abir to reach the office before 10:00 .. I headed to my cabin, on my way I bumped with Jeevika.. She was running from here to there because of the shoot. I entered my cabin and my eyes stopped at the particular person.

A smile crept over my lips.. Abir was already present there, but he was sleeping.. He was sleeping on the sofa in a sitting position .. He curled himself into a ball, I closed the door and walked to him..

Seeing him trembling a little, I increased the room temperature.. I removed the shoes from his feet, he made himself comfortable.. He was still sleeping, so I took off my jacket and covered him.. He pulled the jacket close to his chest and smiled in his sleep..

"Aweeee! " I couldn't stop myself from admiring him, he is such an adorable human being! Argh! My poor heart became weak.. I had to control myself from brushing his smooth silky hair.. I composed myself when Jeevika entered inside.. "Oh My God, he slept? "

I put my finger on my lips, gesturing for her to stop talking.. "Let him sleep, we will do the photo shoot once he wakes up! " I said in a low tone, she nodded her head.. "Last time you broke a contact just because a client was sleeping in the meeting and now you are postponing the whole shoot, " she said in a teasing manner, I glared at her..

"Sorry mam! " she excused herself and left.. I closed the door and took my seat.. I was just giggling like a maniac , I was feeling the butterflies in my tummy.. My brain cells were not working.. And I have lost my fucking mind for no reason.. I opened my laptop, but eyes were glued to him.. I forcefully looked at the laptop, but damn! Nothing helped, I ended up staring at him again.

He was sleeping like a baby.. I pushed all the papers to a side, keeping my both hands horizontally above the desk, I put my chin above it.. I just kept gazing at him until I started getting creepy vibes from myself .. The fuck I was doing.. I hit my forehead and pulled my laptop again, I cried internally because I was not able to concentrate on my work while he was in front of me..

"Argh, just stop it! " I shouted and hit the laptop against the desk in anger.. Not only did the laptop break, but his sleep also.. "Mam everything okay? " Jeevika came running to me, I looked at Abir who was staring at me with an unbelievable look.. "Sorry, I didn't want to disturb your sleep! " I said to him, they both just looked at me like they saw a zombie..

Shit! What was I talking about? I apologized to him for disturbing his sleep? When he is sleeping at the working hours! Tff! I felt so embarrassed..

"I mean, look at yourself, sleeping at the working hours! " I mocked him, trying to balance the situation.. He being unbothered about my existence stretched himself lazily.. "Whose jacket is this? " he asked me, I palmed my face, Jeevika was just staring at me being completely clueless..

I went to him and pulled out my jacket.. "Argh! When I came back I threw it somewhere and then I realized it fell upon you! " I made the stupidest lie ever in my head.. I was completely frustrated, so I just left the cabin.. I made strong coffee for myself , taking the cup I headed to the room where the photo shoot was happening..

"Mam, are you alright? " Jeevika asked me out of concern, I managed to smile and nodded.. He changed five six outfits and then we were done with the photo shoot.. I arranged lunch for him, "Mam, can I know the sudden change of your behavior? " Jeevika asked me, I looked at her in confusion..

"It's not for the first time I am arranging lunch for my professional partners, so what's wrong? " I questioned her back, "Yeah, that's true! But I have never seen you serving and arranging the dishes by your own hand! " she blurted, the spoon automatically fell from my hand.. I scratched the back of my neck and left the kitchen..

Abir was sitting in the guest room of the office, "Thank you for your cooperation, " I said keeping the formal bond between us, he just smiled.. Jeevika placed the plate in front of him & we both left .. " Mam, I am going on a movie date tonight, so won't come tonight! " She informed me, I showed her a thums up.. She stays with me in my house, so every time she goes somewhere she informs me..

I couldn't concentrate on my work the whole day, so I decided to go to any club and just get drunk. My mind was not working and I need to take a chill. Jeevika left for her movie night, I went to a club. They did let me inside with the formal outfit.. I went to a counter and ordered for myself..

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Abir:)

I was chilling in the club, today I didn't drink, just sat in a corner holding my cocktail.. Already a lot of things were going on and here mishti has occupied my mind.. I wanted to kick her thoughts out of my mind .. I gulped my cocktail and went to order another for me.. One shot won't have any effect on me..

That day when Ruhan held her from her waist and lifted her, it's so casual but it made me hell angry and possessive . I was angry because she didn't say anything. And Ruhan is my best friend, damn I know he won't touch anyone inappropriately. It's just in the flow, it's nothing, such a small thing.. But I became angry and the results was visible afterwards. The way I played and didn't let anyone take the ball..

And when that day Mishti came to my set, I couldn't focus on the lead girl. I didn't feel like to do such scenes in front of her, while she was completely unbothered about all the scenario. She's just messing my mind, it's just an attraction and nothing else.. I need to have a grip over my mind and should focus on the only goal and mission of my life..

When I reached the counter, my eyes fell on a familiar figure - I was awestruck.. "Mishti? " I muttered to myself and ran towards her.. She was taking the alcohol like her life depends on it.. "Hey, stop it! " I scolded her and took the bottle from her hold..

I became stunned when she pushed me back.. I again went back to her because she was drunk.. "What are you doing here? It's not good to consume this much alcohol! " I said, she glared at me.. "I am hallucinating, I know you are not Abir! " she stated, I rolled my eyes..

"Come with me, I will drop you at your house! " I said and made her stand on her toes, she couldn't balance herself and fell upon me.. "You are sooo drunk! " I stated and carried her in my arms.. "I need to call your brothers and inform him about you drinking! " I mumbled, suddenly she brought her face close to my ears..

"Don't call my brother! " he whispered near my ears and stared at me.. Her dark paired eyes were captivating.. "Why? " I asked her, I was heading towards my car.. She leaned closer and brushed her lips against my cheek, making my feet stopped on my way. I stayed rooted to the ground, she brushed her lips on my cheek and moved her lips to my ear..

"I want us to stay alone! " She whispered in my ear, I gulped.. Making her stand, I opened the car door and pushed her inside .. I hadn't moved from our previous accidental kiss and already got showered with her drunken kiss.. I tied her seatbelt, she was staring at me creepily..

"What made you drink so much? Who broke your heart! " I asked her dramatically , she pouted.. "You! " She muttered and pulled my collar.. I pushed her to her seat and concentrated on the road.. I entered in her house territory and parked the car.. People blabbers anything while drunk..

"We reached your home, now go to your room! " I said after opening the door, "I can't walk, take me to my room, " she said and smiled like a fool, still managed to look the cutest.. I let out a deep breath, I was trying my best to avoid her, to not look at her, to not touch her, but damn her! I again carried her in my arms, we opened the door through her fingerprint..

While I was ascending the staircase, holding her in my arms, her eyes were on me only. I didn't make an eye contact and took her to the room.. I just wanted to run away from all this, because she was drunk.. I made her lay on the bed, "Don't go, Mr Rajvansh! " she whispered, holding the collar of my shirt.. "Ms Agarwal, you need to sleep! " I said sternly..

"It's Mishti, mishti for you, " she said cutely, I ended up smiling after hearing the way she mentioned her name.. "That! Damn that stupid smile.. Will you stop smiling? Because I fall for you every time you smile! " she mentioned, my heart beat increased.. "You.. You what? " I asked her, with her half closed eyes she smiled again..

"I fall for your smile, Mr Rajvansh! " she blurted, I shook my head.. "You are drunk, you should sleep! " I stood up and headed towards the door.. But she came and stood between me and the door.. Taking a few steps back, she closed the door and locked it.. "Mishti, please you are drunk! " I reminded her..

My fucking mind has stopped functioning.. She took off her blazer, I let out a deep breath.. "Mishti, listen, we will talk tomorrow! Just sleep, " I held her shoulder.. But before I could drag her towards the bed, she hugged me tightly..

It felt like home..

I couldn't push her away, how could I? How can someone push the comfort away? She wrapped her both arms around me, I held her close to my chest and hugged her tightly.. "I have never felt something so deep , so soothing, so surreal like this before in my life! " she confessed, she pushed me to the bed.. I sat down, but before I could stand up, she sat over my lap, keeping her legs at my both sides..

"Your smile is more dangerous than mine! You don't know how much you rule my heart. It's better if we stop here, otherwise I don't know how we both would end up, " I said honestly, she removed the tie from my shirt, followed by opening the buttons..

I was falling weak, still I stopped her.. "Mishti, please! " I begged her.. "I won't consider any of my action as a mistake , because it's about you! With you everything feels alright! " she stated, here my heart melted again. Instead of pushing her, I pushed the thoughts of pushing her away.. She placed her hand around my neck and her other hand grabbed my hair..

I held her from her waist, and held her jawline.. She brought her face closed to mine, my heart beat increased.. She placed her soft lips on mine, I felt a jolt of current running through my body.. My lips parted away as I gasped due to her touch .. Her lips slowly caressed my lower lip, sucking it gently..

Reality hit me hard. Everything just flashed in front of my eyes.. I pushed her away and kept my palm between our lips.."umm!" She groaned in frustration, I made her lay on the bed.. "For God sake, just sleep! " I shouted, she made a face and covered herself.. Guilt started engulfing me as I was descending the stairs..

This is the worst thing I have ever done in my life.. I let her kiss me while she was drunk. And she is not just a random girl, she is Mishti..

The girl I respect the most, the girl who has a special place in my heart.. I ruined everything, I was a bastard ,I ruined everything.. While driving back home I accidentally hit the car against the bark of a tree.. I came out, I was not able to focus on anything.. I legit let her kiss me.. How could I loss my mind? I punched the car in frustation, I started punching my hand until blood came out of the ripped skin..

I sat down feeling completely devastated.. "How could I not control myself? ", " How could I just lose control,she was literally drunk! " I screamed in anger, my chest was falling up and down.. Tears started rolling from my eyes.. What I did was completely inappropriate and it a happened without her consent.. It felt like I forced myself on her and it's so disgusting to even imagine.. Her first kiss was supposed to be with her love of life and not with me, at least not when she was drunk..

I broke her trust, I broke everything by my stupid act. I won't be able to face myself again , how would I face her? I gathered myself and again got in the car.. My eyes were blurry, and I reached home.. The house helper opened the door, I directly went to my room and dropped myself under the shower..

The hot water was burning my bruised skin, still it felt nothing .. My heart was literally bleeding.. I shouldn't have done what I did! It was wrong from every perspective..

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Mishti :)

I woke up with a heavy headache.. It's around 9:30 in the morning.. I held my head and looked up.. I was in my room.. I remembered about last night, I was in a club right? Shit! How did I end up here.. I hurriedly got up and pulled the laptop.. I checked yesterday's cctv footage and took a breath of relief.. Abir dropped me at home.. My eyes widened, did I say him anything while being drunk?

Fuck , no! I dialled his number but got no response.. I have definitely said something, I tried to remember but failed miserably.. After taking a shower, I got ready. I found myself glowing, my face was glowing a little bit more.. Putting everything aside, I headed towards his apartment where he practices..

I had a gut feeling that he would be there.. The guards let me go inside, after parking the car I went into the room.. He was sitting in front of his desktop, I knocked on the door.. "Don't disturb me right now! " he said, his voice was heavy.. "It's me Abir, " I said, he slowly turned his chair towards me.. I went inside and closed the door..

"Thank you for dropping me safely at home yesterday! " I said, my eyes reading his features.. He was looking completely exhausted and messy.. I found something odd, " Did I say something yesterday? I mean I was drunk, " I muttered , he looked up at me... My heart clenched when my eyes locked with his brown orbs, it's looking tired and small..

"You didn't say anything! "

Even his tone was low & heavy, my eyes fell on his hand.. "Oh My God, how did this happen? " I asked him, holding his hand.. His skin was bruised .. "Abir you have fever! " I confirmed after touching his forehead, he removed his hands from mine .. "Let it be, I would be fine! " he said.. The red marks was clearly visible on his knuckles, he hasn't treated it even..

"I can't let you go like this, " I said, "Come here and lay down! " I said pointing at the bed.. He was just denying to my every words, I forcefully pulled him and made him lay on the bed.. Taking the first-aid box, I treated his wound. He curled himself into a ball and grabbed the pillow tightly as soon as I applied the ointment..

I didn't cover it with bandage, instead let it go, bandage would have made it worse.. There's a medicine for fever, "Have you taken your breakfast! " I asked him and he blinked his eyes.. I gave him the medicine and he laid back on the bed again.. He was looking completely off. I let him rest and left not before telling the guards to inform about his health to his family..

Today I didn't have much work in the office. After completing my work I decided to visit a lake nearby.. It's an open lake, I was sitting across a bridge, my legs were hanging down in the air.. There was a flower garden behind me , the cold wind was carrying the beautiful fragrance of the petals in it, giving a slight touch against my skin. I was feeling calm, unlike yesterday.. Alcohol really worked for me, surprisingly..

A dog was wandering there, it looked like a pet dog .. "Hey tummy, come here! " I called him, he walked to me while wagging his tail.. I brushed his hair, he pushed himself into my chest and I took him to my embrace.. I cuddled with him and then let him go when his master came. Till yesterday I was feeling so restless and anxious, in one night what happened that I became so calm..

Is it the calm before the storm?

I went back home, laying on the bed I looked at the lamp.. I started pulling its wire, turning it off and on.. I was drunk and he just dropped me.. I hope I didn't share any of my thoughts with him.. I had messaged him about his health, but he didn't see my messages.. He was looking so lost today, I have no idea about the reason behind it..

I fell asleep without even realising..

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It's sunday, I was off from work.. I was roaming across the hall holding my phone.. Abir didn't message me, nor did he pick up my calls.. "Mam, you seem stressed? " Jeevika asked out of concern, "Yeah! Abir is not picking my calls! " I blurted out and shut my eyes as soon as it hit me.. I should not have told her this, at least should not have mentioned his name..

She smiled at me and gave me side eyes.. "There is something cooking between you two, " she said with a mischievous smile, I would have glared at her but I ended up giving her a shy smile then registered myself again. "It's nothing like that! " I said sternly, her smile became more mischievous..

"It's so obvious.. For the past few days your behavior has changed a lot. I can notice it, and there's a man behind your fluffy personality! " she stated, I rolled my eyes and shrugged it off..

"Do you Love Abir Sir? " Her sudden question froze me, I didn't even blink and my eyes stayed glued to her.. "No, I don't! " I muttered and she smiled like an evil.. I went downstairs, and she followed me.. "Please tell me mam, what's happening? " she almost requested, I dropped myself on a couch and she sat on another couch ..

"Okay! I will.. Because I am anxious about my sudden change, so it's better to share it with you! " I said, she became excited.. I started narrating the story after the navratri days. I told her about Adrene and then how Abir rescued me.. How he consoled me, handled my panic attack, sang a song for me at midnight.. From that day to now, I told her every single detail..

She was staring at me in disbelief, her eyes wide open .. Her palms were almost shaking, "Abir Sir is a mafia? " she whisper-asked , "You better keep it between us! " I stated, she nodded unbelievably.. "Can you skip that & tell me what's wrong with me? " I said in frustration, her creepy smile was back..

"See! I think you are just too attached to him.. You both went on a two day trip on a cruise, you did adventures with him.. Then in Navratri, one thing I noticed was that you agreed to join garba night just because of him. It's so obvious, your eyes were searching for him.. I didn't say it because I was not sure. But now I have got my clarity..

That day when Adrene tried to kidnap you and Abir Sir rescued you. You were sick and getting panic attacks , not because of the critical incident. But because you had trusted him a lot and you didn't want him to turn out your enemy. But when he clarified, you became relieved.. Him being your enemy wouldn't have affected you until & unless you have some sort of feelings for you..

As you mention, you sneaked into his room and found him and adrene talking. That day you went to him, because you clearly wanted to get a glimpse of him, you were missing him and you wanted to check whether he is alright or not.. And the most important thing was that day you let him sleep when we were running out of time for the photo shoot..

You are extremely professional when it comes to work.

It shows that you have some genuine feelings for him, maybe it's not romantic. But yes, you feel something for him! " She explained, I let out a deep breath..

"Yeah, maybe I just care for him. It's not love, " I mumbled, "Yeah, there's possibilities, " she said, a grinning smile crept over her lips. I looked at my phone, there were no notifications regarding him.. I dialled Mivan bhai's number ...

Good morning, bhai!

Good morning, Mishti.. You okay?

Yes, nothing to worry about.. Actually I was asking about Abir, he had a fever.. How is he?

You could have asked him directly.. This morning I had a talk with him, he was doing fine.. He is coming to our regular hang-out place, so I guess he is fine now..

Oh, okay! Bye..

I cut the call, disappointment appeared over my face.. He got time to inform Mivan bhai, but didn't receive any of my calls nor messaged me.. If he's not interested in even sharing about his health, why would I be worried about him?

I am Mishti Agarwal, neither I beg nor I run behind someone or something until and unless he is that important to me, he is not!

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