Deku can still remember the time he realized he liked someone.

He remembered the time Ochako opened his eyes to what love feels like.

He hated it at first. He wasn't exactly the type of person who can fight emotions easily.

But now, learning how beautiful and incredible the emotion love was, he decided to embrace it.

Unlike Ochako.

Back at the Provisional License Exam, she knew her feelings would be nothing but a disturbance to her training, causing her to shut then down and move on easily.

Later on, she got them back anyways after such a simple event. This caused the brunette to embrace this strange emotion.

Before, she only had her feelings for a short period of time. Now, she had them for about a week, causing the young maiden to open up to its flaws.

Jealosy, Fear of Overthinking, Fear of being Left Out, Fear of being Forgotten were examples of the flaws Ochako seemed to notice.

She's still getting used to the pain.

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The class come out the bus one by one, bags in hand and exhausted looks on their faces. Some seemed sick and some seemed pretty healthy and okay.

Ochako was not one of them. Her eyes were droopy and her lips were dry from the aircon being pointed at her for the whole trip. She lined up with the girls, barely seeing anything due to a sudden blur in her eye.

"..We'll be sleeping here for tonight." Ochako lifts her head immediatly, her eyes awakening and revealing its chocolate hue.

She hears the class gasping in awe, causing her to take a peek from the side of the line.

She sees tents circling around a bonfire place and picnic tables. The sun was starting to set and red and orange pastel colors started to engulf and spread throughly in the sky. The trees stayed still in the calm silence, birds chirping ad they find their way home.

Ochako fixes her posture, her chest out and fists clenched. "The Test Of Courage will start in a few minutes. But, I need to assign tents." She hears Mr. Aizawa stating despite the fact she cannot see her due to Momo's height.

She hears names being called out but she couldn't seem to comprehend them. After all, she is exhausted. Before her eyes could even shut, she hears her name ringing in her ears.

"Uraraka and Yaoyorozu."

Ochako opens her droopy eyes once again, returning back to her senses. She eventually walks to her respective tent with Momo behind her.

The tent was big enough to fit two people and most likely 7 backapacks. Luckily, each maiden brought one, giving them more room.

They stand side by side, staring st the blue tent set upon them as they hear people chattering as they prepare their things.

"I'm glad I'm staying with you for the night Yao-Momo." Ochako manage to let out, looking over to her with a smile.

Momo smiles back, "I am too, Uraraka!" She states before squating down to maintain equal height with their shelter.

"Let's get in now.." She stated before crawling in the little shelter.

Ochako nodded in reply despite the fact Momo could not see it. Ochako crawls in and sees two thick blankets laying vertically and was separated with a pillow on the edge.

Ochako sees Momo in the corner with her backpack on her side. Ochako sits on the opposite corner.

They both start to unpack their needs. In the middle of unpacking, Ochako hears Momo letting out a heavy sigh, causing her to look over.

"Oh dear.." Momo muttered out loudly as Ochako tilts her head. "I brought too many things.." Momo brings out a gigantic pink pillow. It doesn't even look like it could fit into her bag.

She brought out another pillow exactly the same as the first one. Then a night light, then a little purse, then 3 books and even more.

Ochako laughed harder than she expected from the fact Momo practically brought her whole room with her for the trip.

She brings out a blanket, a brush, a teddy bear, and more unpredictable things to bring for a trip.

She kept unpacking as Ochako continued to laugh endlessly, tears slowly pouring out.

It's good to hear Ochako laughing, for its been quite a while she let out a laugh that actually expressed real happiness.

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"Everyone, the Test Of Courage is about to start!" Everyone hears Midnight calling out.

They peek out from their tents to see her in a comfortable civilian outfit. Black Jogger Pants and a sweatshirt to be specific. Her hair was tied up and her makeup was removed.

Everyone gets out from their tents and notices the sky slowly changing into a dark hue, stars started to twinkle in the black canvas.

A crowd starts to from around Midnight. Every single student was in their sports aittire and were wearing smilies of excitement.

Midnight could hear mumbling and conversations most likely about the Test due to the sound of their cheery tone.

Midnight smirks to herself, "We'll be having dinner first actually." Midnight informs, letting out a mischevious giggle as the class's smile starts to fade.

"Well, I am a little hungry." Kaminari says to himself, holding onto his stomach as Deku stares. The freckled boy giggled at the sight, "I am too.." He stated.

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After the quick meal, the class lined up and waited for Mr. Aizawa to announce the pairings.

Midnight seemed to be excited despite the fact she's not taking the test. She does several jumping jacks to wash away her excitement.

"Why are.. you jumping?" Cementoss questions, staring at the woman. She smiles, not bothering to stop her childish actions. "This place is my hometown! And this forest right here was me and my friends' playground. Why wouldn't I be excited?" Midnight replied, her endless jumping jacks coming to an end, only to do squats after.

She remembered this place. She remembered the voices of her friends doing countdowns when playing hide and seek. She remembered the scent of rain that spread through out the area after a storm. She remembered climbing on trees and getting little bruises from her adventure. It was nostaligic for the woman.

Deku notices her excitement due to the fact he was nearby. "Uhm, Miss Midnight, is there particularly something special about this place?" Deku hesitantly asked, not moving away from his line.

Midnight stopped squating and forms a smile on her lips. "It's because of the view, Midoriya! It's incredible and I wanted to show it to you all.." She replies, wiping the sweat of her forehead.

"Ah, I see.." Deku mumbled before looking away to observe the girls' line. He sees Ochako standing still, not bothering to communicate with anyone.

He notices the absence of the bandages that were previously on her arms. Despite the feeling of relief filling him up, he still never got rid of his concerned thoughts of Ochako getting hurt.

He couldn't do anything but stare from the distance. After seeing her empty state at the bus, he suspected something was definitely wrong.

Unfortunately, his brain thinks it's better to stay away to not make her uncomfortable.

While Deku is worrying over Ochako's health and has fully embraced his feeling, the brunette was busy trying to erase her feelings.

After hearing Jirou's corny joke, she was able to smile and laugh once again like back at the tent.

All she wanted was to distract herself from her thoughts.

'Erase them. Erase them. They're a nuisance-- Accept them. Accept them. They'll never harm you - ERASE ACCEPT ERASE ACCEPT ERASE ACCEPT ERACCEPT.

Her head continues to spin with unwanted thoughts. Something that can distract her will be quite pleasing to her.

She desperately started pointless conversations with everyone, trying to erase her feelings in the process.

It's difficult and she knows. It's painful and she's aware. But in order to achieve real happiness for her is to make her parents proud.

If her feelings stay there, she'll fail in accomplishing her mission to help her family. It'll distract her from her training and she might even fail at her school subjects.

If getting real happiness meant erasing her feelings for Deku, she'll do it.

How though?

. . .

Suddenly, a wild thought popped in her mind. Her head relaxes and her chest releases weight as if a large boulder has been removed off her back.

"What if I just confess?"

She muttered out, bringing a hand to her chin. "All the weight can be released and I don't have to worry anymore.." She continued to mumble.

'It's stupid, I know. I was able to erase my feelings before and I can't do it anymore.. But this is different. It's hard to erase these feelings and I'm not aware why. But I think the only way to get rid of them is releasing them..' She thought, sweat starting stream down.

'If I can just say "I like you" all of this will be over, right? What happens if I crave for more? No, I'll not let them take over me..!' She continued to think, pushing her lips together.

'I'll do it today and just get back to training. Easy..Right? Just say those 3 words and all of this wil be over. Rejected or not, I will move on and get to training immediatly after this. I'll just pass my thoughts to him and I don't have to bear with them anymore.. Right?' She spoke in her head, worried if this idea will work.

'Just let him know I like him, just tell him. It will get rid of the heavy weight of my chest. L-Like my quirk! If I make things float and just release them, they won't be used anymore! So, if I release my feelings, they'll disappear. It'll be easy..right?'

What an odd yet foolish idea, Uraraka.

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a/n:

if no one gets ochako's plan/emotions, here's how it goes::

> she started overthinking, causing her to feel pathetic after realizing deku does not feel the same way (like, he doesnt overthink or hes not freaking about it psh idk)

> she hated feeling pathetic and decided to erase her feelings

> she couldn't erase it due to some "unknown" reason

> she decides to confess thinking this will get the weight off her chest and thinking that she'll stop thinking about him.

and yes, i know, this is rlly bad writing. i cringe tbh. i'll try my best to improve .

-twat

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[another important thing!1!!!11]

if you didn't manage to notice, the words that were italicized and underlined were ochako's negative thoughts.

the ones bolded and italicized are her postive thoughts.

so basically,, the last part meant her negative and positive thoughts fused and agreed that her idea is odd yet foolish.

alright ,, im done.

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