"My love for you has built me up and it is the one which broken me down"

Siddharth was busily packing his bag, Shiva and Lakshmi were standing near him and throwing draggers in their gaze. They terribly disliked this separation. But Siddharth has convinced them somewhat so that they were talking with him.

"You have to come whenever you get time, okay?" Lakshmi said.

"I will laksh, don't worry" he replied and looked Shiva who was looking at him sadly.

"Hey guys don't be sad, I will be back soon. When I come back you two will be at college. Then we can enjoy a lot without any restrictions. So smile. Please?" he asked and they smiled a little.

"Okay, you pack your bag, we will wait for you downstairs," Shiva told and they went out.

Siddharth was leaving in an evening flight and Vikranth also traveling with him to London. He is going to miss everything especially his mom, Meera was already worried and sad about this. She heard about what happened with Roshini when came back to the house, Siddharth just said she will wait for me to make his mom happy.

He was very sad like he lost everything for the past two weeks. He didn't eat properly and he can't sleep peacefully totally he is not like him. He felt so stressed, and couldn't stop thinking about Roshini. At a certain point he decides to call her but instantly drop that idea when he thinks about his dad, he was very happy that his son finally accepted his decision.
Considering his family's growth Siddharth remained silent hiding his uncontrollable love. He was not that selfish person, for his family he will do anything and that's conflict which made him avoid Roshini he hated himself for doing that, he avoided her so that he can stop himself from confessing his love. But all he did was apologizing to her mentally.

Thinking about this made him even gloomy every time...
Siddharth went near the bookshelf to take some books that he needed. He grabbed the book that love letter was in along with other few books. When he dropped that in his suitcase, the letter popped out.

Siddharth was confused to see that since it is kind of a color paper so he took that in his hands and when he found there is something written in it he opened it.

Dear love,

Don't be surprised that I am addressing you as my love because that is what my heart says whenever I look at you, that you are my one and only love. I don't know whether you remember our first meeting or not when the first time I saw you my heart just skipped a beat and you're the first person who brought out that kind of feeling in me. I tried to avoid your thoughts but you're something Siddharth. You made me think only about you... and I started accepting that you're my crush, I sometimes secretly noticed you in the library and watched you playing in the ground. The reason why I always sit on the bench near the playground is to see you. You know what, whenever I hear your voice or your name, and accidentally when I crossed you my heart will throb crazily and that conveyed you're doing something in me...

I was just keeping all these things inside me and I secretly started developing feelings for you. One day you came to me and asked to be your fake girlfriend I was confused but eventually accepted, how can I say no when I am having this uncontrollable feeling for you.

Looking at you from afar is different compared to be with you. You have deepened this love by your smile, talk, good nature, and everything attracted me. Loving you is kind of painful sometimes but even I liked that pain. So it doesn't affect me at all.

What are you Siddharth? What did you do to me?

To frankly say I can't imagine a life without you in it cause I am loving you like that crazily? I don't know whether you having this same kind of feelings but I wanted to tell all these things for a long time. Pretending was really exhausting for me. So no more hiding, I am in love with you Siddharth truly madly and deeply.

Many more happy returns of the day my love, wherever you are I will always pray for your happiness and success. I am happy that I finally confessed everything!

Love you Siddharth and I wanted to do that for the rest of my life, will you let me?

With loads of Love,

Roshini.

Reading this Siddharth eyes welled with tears, without his control his tears rolled down to his cheeks and fallen on his thumb. He was happy and at the same time sad because of his situation; he can't turn back and go to her now. He sat on the bed, dumbfounded. He again looked at the letter and closed his eyes. For all these days he thought Roshini doesn't have feelings for him, but reading the letter he understood how much she will be hurt by his behavior.

"I am sorry Roshini" telling that he starts to shed tears. Crying is new to him, he never cried for anything, the first time he is feeling the pain of loss. He felt like he is knocked down on the ground... Like the greatest defeat in his life.

When he was thinking about this Vikranth entered the room, Siddharth immediately wiped off his tears and hide the letter inside his bag.

"Are you ready?" he asked in a cheerful tone.

"Yes dad," Siddharth smiled.

After telling goodbyes to his mom and Siblings, Siddharth and Vikranth went to the airport. Before leaving India Siddharth promised himself that when he returned back he will definitely find Roshini no matter what and hard it would be... He will confess his love and ask sorry for what he did.

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             Roshini was standing on the terrace and looked at the flickering airplane lights passing above her head. She doesn't know why she felt something inside her to see that lights, maybe Siddharth was in it, she thought. Two days after their breakup, Roshini realized that she, unfortunately, didn't take the letter from his book. She felt very embarrassed about this. But later she realized all these things happened for good.

*****

(One year later)

"Roshini I came to the park?" "Where are you?" Nidhi asked gazing at the ambiance.

"Hey I am here only, turn around," Roshini chuckled and Nidhi slapping her head came towards her.

"I am sorry, I made you wait," Nidhi said giving an apologetic smile.

"It's okay, I am going to miss all these things for a while right so I enjoyed sitting here" Roshini replied. They completed their degree a week before, Roshini got a job in an MNC that having a branch in Chennai. The salary is quite high than she expected, her parents were happy about this. They happily accepted her to go and work there.

Nidhi in two months going to Delhi, she is permanently going to stay with Varun, and she is on cloud nine thinking about that.

"I will come with you to the railway station tomorrow, okay?"

"Hmm," Roshini hummed and nodded as yes.

"Nidhar?"

"Hmm" she looked her raising her eyebrows.

"Thank you for everything," Roshini said and gripped her hand.

"Hey stupid, why you are saying thanks all of a sudden," she asked in a dread.

"Just I felt to say," Roshini said and looked straight.

"Then thanks to you Roshan," Nidhi told.

"Why?" Roshini smiled.

"I just felt to say," she chuckled.

"Don't forget me Nidhar, maybe you have a lot of friends but I am having only you, so never lost connection with me. I want this friendship to last long till my last breath," Roshini said smiling widely.

"Maybe I have many friends but you are my special one Roshan, So don't worry we will always be friends. Let do this... if I have a son then I will get him to marry your daughter. So give birth to a daughter after marriage okay?" Nidhi asked.

Roshini started laughing like crazy, then suddenly she stopped and her face frowned. Marriage, love, Siddharth. She is trying every day to forget him, the more she tries the more she think about him. Like her assumption everything was reminding only about him....

She heard that Siddharth was pursuing MBA in London, nothing more than that. One time she happened to meet Vikranth about her brother scholarship extension and that time he told "Siddharth will ask about you whenever he calls" he said and that was unbelievable to her. Yesterday she called and informed that she got a job and so and so to Vikranth, since he was so interested in asking what she is doing and all. He congratulated her and asked her to work hard. He also added if she needs any help don't forget to call him.

She doesn't have an idea about whether Siddharth read her letter or is it still sleeping inside his book.

"What happened Roshan?" seeing her silence Nidhi asked.

"Nothing, don't forget to call me daily. I will miss you Nidhar," she whined and Nidhi hugged her with a smile.

"Don't lose your hope Roshan, you are going to be happy one day and I can feel it now itself," Nidhi said still hugging Roshini.

"Hmm," she hummed and smiled hoping her words will come true one day.

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