"I think I need you but that's so hard to say!"

"Roshini you got the second mark in this semester," Nidhi said after checking the results online.

"Oh," Roshini didn't react big and looked at the playground like she lost everything in her life. He wasn't coming here at all but she is stuck in that place along with his memories.

The sixth semester has started, one side Roshini was running behind her studies and the other side she was totally devastated by everything. Her mom was working, her dad was staying in the house and now he was walking a little bit, her brother was busy with his studies. Roshini was doing more part-time jobs so that she can support her family.
And in this Siddharth, he occasionally smiles at her when they unexpectedly come face to face. Most of the time he will was nowhere to be found. Busy with his project and he totally stopped playing football in this year. Trying to reach him was like catching the wind in her hand. Her ego and his avoidance turned the situation even more badly.

This moment, in this very moment she can call him and confess that she is in love with him and without him she can't think a life ahead, but she can't as her state was like that, nowadays only she is seeing the smile back in her parents face. She doesn't want to bring any conflicts now.

Sacrifices are not new to her she always felt proud about doing that, but this sacrifice is painful, hurting and suffocating.
Siddharth, he was just near to her, only a few distance, she can feel him he is not gone anywhere. But now she can't go to him since now she strongly believing that even she confesses her love to him he won't accept it. Since everything has changed...

The more they remained calm, more the people started talking about them. Like, Siddharth dumped Roshini, Siddharth started seeing someone, Siddharth is going to settle in abroad so he has thrown away the trash (Roshini). And some people rumored that Siddharth was indeed a playboy!

She expected an explanation from him, instead, she got a shocking reply from his side that "Yeah we are broken our relationship so don't talk about this anymore." These things were informed by Nidhi. She will start cursing Siddharth for doing this to her best friend. But Roshini asked her to be calm since he did a lot of help, it is selfish to expect a person to act the way we want. If this is what his decision, then its fine, Roshini thought and totally avoided that topic. She turned her concentration more on her studies. It is difficult to be normal but she maintained to be normal in front of everyone. The only persons who understood her pain were Nidhi and her brother.
...

Days passed and it is almost the end of their sixth semester. Roshini woke up in the morning with a wish "Happy birthday" from her mom. It is her 21st birthday. But she isn't happy on that day since today is the last day for her seniors to submit their thesis, they will present their project and that's all, to actually say this is their last day. Her mom asked her to wear a saree for this birthday so she did to make her mom happy.

She took the books that Siddharth gave to her, he didn't ask but she wanted to give that to him. While traveling to the college her aunt, her uncle, and her school friends said and messaged birthday wishes on the phone. Nidhi was very excited since today they planned to celebrate her birthday at a café in the evening.

When they went to their class her classmates wished a happy birthday and Roshini just smiled and thanked them for the wish. She sat in her place and dropped the heavy bag on the table. Today all their professors went for the project presentation so they don't have many classes but for the attendance, Roshini stayed in the class.

After having their food in the afternoon Roshini came back to the class while walking she saw Siddharth standing before the staff room, she was frozen to see him. All of a sudden he also tuned, his gaze made Roshini feel awkward. She immediately turned her gaze and dashed into her class.

"I have to give this books to him Nidhi," Roshini said worriedly.

"Can you please hand this books to Siddharth," she added.

"No Roshini, you have to go. Give this books and ask him to never come into your life, stupid guy," she gritted and Roshini sighed.

"Then okay, he must be in the presentation hall, so after some time I will call him," Roshini planned.

"I don't know one thing here Roshini, he knows that today is your birthday right? But he not even wished. I haven't seen a person like him, he is really a coward," she again made Roshini sigh in frustration.

"Stop it Nidhi, and don't talk about him like that," she said and her eyes almost welled with tears.

Roshini sat in her place and controlling her tears start to write assignments. Nidhi listening to songs looked into the books. While flipping the ANSI and turbo C++ book Roshini's letter popped out.

She looked her in the sideways but she was busy writing, and when Nidhi was about to ask that she stopped herself. Whether Roshini is aware of this or not, she wanted to keep mum in this. Roshini doesn't want to give this letter to Siddharth but she forgets to take this out from his book in this confused state. She not even had a thought about this letter for the past few months so... it is now Nidhi's turn to do something.

She took that letter and placed in another book where it will easily pop out when it was opened by him, she acted as a cupid hoping that this small thing will again bring a change in their relationship.

After placing it back on her side Nidhi smiled and prayed God that Siddharth has to open this letter. When Roshini finished her assignment, she got a call, she was stunned to see Siddharth name on the caller ID. She looked Nidhi and she asked her to attend the call.

"Hello?"

"I am Siddharth speaking," he introduced like she has forgotten him after doing all these things to her.

"I know," she replied with a small smile.

"Are you free now, I have to talk with you," Siddharth said.

"I am in the class and I have to give your books. Where are you now?" she asked.

"I am near the playground," he told.

"Wait there I will come," Roshini said.

Telling this to Nidhi Roshini taking all the books went to meet Siddharth. She told herself that she should not cry at any stage and walked confidently.

There Siddharth was standing and checking his mobile phone, she remembers this place where he first asked her to be his girlfriend and in that place, he confessed that she is his crush and now in this place, they are officially going to separate. What type of fate is this? Roshini thought and smiled.

Siddharth after a long time Smiled like before. He carried that love in this shimmering eyes.

"Happy birthday," he told and handed a small gift pack. She was beautiful to his eyes and the feeling that he is going to lose her has pulled his heartstrings.

"No...I don't need," she hesitated.

"Please," he reached out the gift close to her hand. So Roshini bought that in her hands and handed the books to him back.

He bought a gold ring for her, he purchased this long back, this day he planned to give this ring to Roshini and propose his feeling but the circumstances made it different. So he thought to give this ring to her at least.

"Thanks for everything," she smiled gripping the gift.

"Thanks to you for being by my side and for your help," he replied back and looked her neck where she doesn't wear that chain. That moment he realized he is going to regret for  everything he did.

"How was your presentation?" averting his gaze Siddharth looked her eyes and prepared to answer her question.

"Yeah that went well," his face turned sore to notice that she has thrown away him. Roshini maintained like she is normal and cool that made him feel even sadder.

Am I nothing to you? He thought and clenched his jaw.

Roshini nodded for his answer and looked at him.
"I am going London in two weeks if you want any notes you can ask me now so that give before I leave," he told. He knows he is acting cruel but he couldn't avoid it. He is afraid whether if he continue this talk all his love will come out in a flow. This three years may also change their feelings so considering that he not even asked her to stay in touch.

His feelings pushed him to do this terrible thing, it said him to be silent. This love is a tricky player, it will make you a fool. Now Roshini was standing before him, he can confess his love and ask her to wait for him, but instead it telling him something different. When she was away from him it is forcing him to go after her. Siddharth was a victim in this one-sided love.

"No I don't want anything," she simply replied and wanted to shout at him to get lost.

"I am leaving, Nidhi was waiting for Me." she turned and walked without looking back. Siddharth holding the books looked at Roshini blankly leaving him, he hurt her feelings he doesn't know what is going to happen in the future but he wanted to meet her again in a better situation.

Roshini thought he will call her at least but he didn't. It felt like their time ends here and it is the end of her one-sided love. If she had known this before itself she would have said no to him at first when he asked to be his girlfriend, she would have avoided his feelings that grown deeper in her. She would have dropped the idea of confessing her love, and never imagined a future with him, but now these are all going to follow her every day and at every second she thinks about him. Like she is the heroine of a melodramatic movie.

When she came back to the class Nidhi asked what happened. Roshini didn't reply and started crying hugging her.

"Hey Roshan, don't cry," she exclaimed patting her shoulder but she cried her heart out.

Seeing her crying Nidhi also had tears in her eyes. She didn't ask anything more to her and stayed by her side until she stops crying. This feeling is too much for Roshini to hold back, she knows this is not going to end, at least letting it out may bring the peace she is yearning.
In the background, the rain was drizzling like how she is crying.

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