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"What happened after we walked out of the club?" Jeremy asked. Catherine closed her eyes, remembering what exactly happened.

Past..

Catherine made Jeremy seat on the side of the road before she called for a cab. It took only 20 minutes before the cab arrived at the place.

"Can you help me?" Catherine asked the cab driver, who helped her as Jeremy was leaning on her. She was having difficulty to keep herself uptight. She pushed him inside the cab with help of the cab driver so that he could sit straight.

Catherine took a seat and turned to look at the man sitting beside her. He was snoring softly. She smiled at him fondly. He slid down and put his head on her shoulder.

"Where to madam?" That breaks her daydreaming. She blinked her eyes before thinking where to go. She didn't know where he was staying or anying. 

"Stop in front of that hotel," Catherine said, got down and asked the driver to help make him sit in the lobby.

"Thank you, here you go" Catherine paid him extra money.

After that she walked upto the receptionist.

"How can I help you ma'am?" the receptionist asked.

"I need a room under Jeremy McGill's namel" the receptionist checked her into a room, she paid advance and asked the receptionist if anyone can help her. 

Catherine grabbed him, supporting him to the room with the help of the concierge.

"Thank you" Catherine smiled at him before closing the door. The exhaustion she was feeling washed over her as she slid down the door.

"What are you doing?" She asked herself looking at him sleeping peacefully too drunk to be bothered by the world.

Catherine slowly walked up to him. Her hands softly rested on his cheeks. She still remembers how Salina kissed him. Not once he ever kissed her even though they were dating then how could he kiss her?

Jealous burned through her as she moved forward. Without noticing she duck down, pressing her lips with his. She felt her heart flutter. Tears filled her eyes. This is her first kiss with Jeremy. 

Catherine felt a tingle in her lips and the urge to kiss him again engulf her. And she did that only for a moment forgetting that she was supposed to love and be with Coltrane. But her  heart earned for Jeremy and him only. She loves him and only him nothing can change that. No one can take place in her heart.

A hand wrapped around her waist and pushed down on the bed, 

"What are you doing?" Catherine asked but he cut her off by kissing her passionately. She froze for a while but kissed him back slowly. She felt her heart beat increasing. He dominated her lips and left her breathless.

Catherine was under him. She can feel his warmth invading her senses. 

Jeremy pressed a kiss on her cheeks, slowly steady kissing her neck. He sucked on her skin giving her lovebites.

It's been so long since she felt this much alive. She did not notice when he opened her dress. He kissed her lips before biting her lips.

"Jeremy" Her eyes widened. She squirmed in pain, which flooded her senses. Tears filling her eyes. She never thought this could be painful.

Jeremy sucked on her skin, marking it. He was breathing hard, his temperature is high. His hand reached her dress, slowly tugging it open. Her hand automatically tried to protect her front. She felt blood rushing to her cheeks. This was her first time not only that he was her first time,  the man she loves. But only tears fall from her eyes. 

Catherine knows he will never touch her if he was in his sense. He grabbed her hand pulling it above her head. 

"This is my first time. Please be gentle" She whispered to him but is he in his sense? Tears fall freely. He was rough too rough to be true. She was hurting herself. All she needed to do was push him away. She knows he was not in his sense. She can easily push him off even though she put her hand on his clothes chest she cannot bring herself to push him off. She wanted to feel him even though it was the first and last time.

He takes her mound in his mouth. She stopped saying anything, afraid he would wake up from his drunken state and stop touching her. She can handle the pain if only she can be closer to him for once.

Jeremy pinched her tip as her back ached painfully. His hand travels down her body, setting itself at her opening. Her body tensed up and she felt his finger on her entrance. She tried to close her legs. Her heart galloped in fear. He swiftly entered his finger. She cried out in pain trying to bite her lips to stop herself from screaming.

Jeremy rocked her slowly steadily but that did nothing to stop the pain. Tears fall freely. He opened his pant zip ready to take her. She is afraid of what will happen next. He again entered her swiftly. This time she felt something breaking. And the pain was unbearable. She knows the first time hurts but this was way more than she can handle. Her body shook. He waited for a while to adjust himself. 

Then continue on, she felt herself being teared apart. Tears fill her eyes. She clutched the sheet tighter to stop herself from screaming.

He only increased his pace. She felt like he was torturing her but the worst part is he was not aware of himself. He reached his end cumming inside her.

Jeremy pulled out and rolled over to lay on the other side.

She curled into a ball, sobbing silently. The pain she was feeling was immense. There were blood spots on the bed. Catherine curled into a ball only for him to pull her closer. Jeremy wrapped his arms around her. She turns to him coming face  to face with his clothed chest. He holds her tighter and her tears fall freely soaking his shirt.

"Jeremy" Catherine sobbed.

"It hurts, It hurts so much but what hurts me most is that I need to stop loving you. I need to marry Coltrane. I wanted you to be my first and last but I can't. I am sorry that I hurt you but  trust me when I say I love you and only you" Catherine kissed him as his hold tightened, he was breathing a bit harder.

Catherine tried to get away from his hold but she could not after trying for a while she gave up and slept beside him.

The next time she woke up her heart galloped in fear but feeling his hand around her she understood that much time had not passed.

After trying to remove his hand, she succeeded. She whined as she sat up a sharp pain shoot through her body. 

Catherien slowly tried to stand up to her . The pain was unbearable as she slid down on the floor beside the bed. 

She cannot stand straight. The only thing she was feeling right now was pain. After many attempts she stood up fixing her dress as much as she could. She called the reception to send a female concierge with a dress, some pain killers and asked for room service. It took her for a while to open the door.

The room service came she asked the lady to change the sheet and throw away the sheet. She will pay for it. The lady told her that a man is sleeping on it. 

"Let him" With help the lady removed the bed sheet gasping at the sight.

"Don't tell anyone I am fine" She said paying the lady and told her to get out.

After a while a female concierge came in with a dress and pain killer. She is still having difficulty in walking, pain shot through her. She struggled for a while to take a bath and get dressed.

Catherine drink medicine and walked out after the pain dulled. She walked up to the receptionist and paid for all the extra charge.nd carefully changed the sheet. She asked the concierge to call a cab.

Catherine went straight to another hotel booking a room in her name . She collapsed on the bed switching off her phone much to her mother's dismal. She needs to be alone as exhaustion crawled. She can feel a tear rolling down her eyes. 

What did she do?

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Present...

Jeremy stare at her waiting for her to say something but she did not.

"What is it?" She blinked her eyes bringin herself out of her thoughts before telling him briefly, excluding the fact that she loves him and how painful the sex was.

"I don't remember the details. I was drunk too" Catherine lied even though she remembered every little detail. He might feel guilty about that.  

Sometimes truth do more harm.

Jeremy looked away gulping down. What the fuck did he do? He have no recollection of the events.

"Are you telling me the truth Catherine?" He asked staring at her eyes. Catherine gulped down before looking at him, "Yes".

He give her a brief nod.

"How did you know about the pregnancy?" He asked clearing his throat.

Catherine take a deep breath as a tear rolled down.

Past...

"I was feeling sick for awhile. I thought it was because of thw pre-wedding stress. I was always feeling exhausted so I decided to go for a health check up, one day before the wedding"

Catherine was feeling sick and it was getting worse day per day. Now even any kind of smell, makes her vomit. She did her best to hide it from Coltrane and her Mother. She has time till her bachelor party. She decided to visit her family doctor.

"I need to collect blood and run a test. Please wait till then can you pee on the stick" Dr.Jonas handed her a pregnancy test kit.

"But isn't it for..." She trailed off. Dr.Jonas gives her a confused look should not she be happy. She is pregnant and getting married to the man of many women's dreams. She smiled at the doctor. But her hand shook. 

She took the test. This cannot be happening.  She doesn't know what to do anymore. Even though the experience was torturing, she never regretted it.

Catherine walked out of the bathroom only to see her mother looking at her worried.

"M.. mother what are you doing with her?" She asked horrified looking at her mother.

"Doctor Jonas called me. She said you might need my support" Carina smiled at her.

"How did you come this fast?" Catherine asked again.

"I was passing by sweetheart. I heard that my baby is pregnant. I am so happy for you" Catherine stare at her mother biting her lips.

"Congratulations Ms. Walmart, You are pregnant" Doctor Jonas smiled at her but she felt her world collapsed around her. 

"What  is it? Why are you so pale?" Mrs.Walmart asked her.

"Mother, I .... I cannot marry Coltrane" Carina's eyes turned cold as she cried. She cannot do this. She cannot keep up with this farce anymore.

Carina was feeling something is off about her since the engagement party. The fact that Jeremy attend the party did not go unnoticed by her.

"What are you saying?" Mrs. Walmart asked her coldly. Catherine takes a deep breath before staring back at her mother.

"Is it that filth? Are you carrying Jeremy bastard?" Catherine looked up and her throat dried up. The tight slap resounded the office. Dr.Jonas was standing there but she did not say or do anything. Her job is on line.

Carina pulled her up with her hand, "We are getting rid of this mistake right now" Her mother's rigged her fingertips  digged on her hand.

"No. This is my life you cannot control it" Catherine pulled her hand away wrapping it around her midsection. 

"And this is my baby, it is not a mistake or a bastard" another slap was what she got in answer. Catherine blinked her eyes trying to stop those tears from fall freely.

"Doctor Jonas, we are getting an abortion" Carina turned to look at the lady who shook her head.

"We can't Mrs.Walmart without Ms. Walmart's consent" Dr.Jonas said as bad as she feel for the girl she cannot do much about it.

"I don't want any abortion" Catherine yelled as a her mother take a hold of her hand gripping it.

"I will pay you how do much you want?" Carina said calmly.

"Let me go this instant" Catherine screamed. But all that falls on deaf ears.

"Please" she begged. Dr.Jonas looked at her, feeling pity.

"We need Ms.Walmart's consent, Mrs.Walmart or this will be illegal" Dr.Jonas ignore the comment of money.

"She will sign it and Dr. Jonas you won't have a job to think what is legal and what is not?" Carina said coldly gritting her teeth.

"Okay Mrs.Walmart" Dr.Jonas said gulping down. This is bad.

"No you cannot do this to me" Catherine yelled.

"Stop it right now" Her struggle increased.

"Can you hold her tight?" Dr.Jonas asked Carina thinking what she should do. 

She pulled out a syringe. Filling it with an sedative. Dr.Jonas came near her holding the syringe in a way that if Catherine pushed away a bit it will direct proceed Carina's skin.

Catherine struggled pushing away the syringe, "ouch" her mother's  grip slipped. She pushed the doctor away  or the doctor moved away she have no idea but she ran out of there as fast as she could.

Present...

Tears fall freely, Catherine shakes in horror remembering what happened. Jeremy's eyes widen and he feels guilty for what he said yesterday. He should not have.

Jeremy slowly pulled her closer, "Don't cry. I promise this will never happen to you again" 

Catherine clutched his shirt crying softly. Jeremy asked her the same thing, there is no way he could  accuse her mother for what she did. He also thought this would be the best solution.
He ran his hand through her hair when she calmed down he gently pushed her away.

Jeremy ran his finger through his hair,  'Should he trust what she said?'

But she did not look like she was lying. And he hoped she was not. Because if she did lie he did not know what he will do. After all he is giving up on his convictions for her.

Jeremy sighed before standing up and hand her the marriage certification paper, "Sign it"  

Catherine looked at the letter's written on it, "It's a normal marriage registration paper"

Jeremy looked away.

"Let's get married. Normally without any clause" her eyes widen. Catherine looked at him but he was busy staring outside.

"Are you alright with this?" She asked him.

"I am the one asking so what do you think?" His words are blank. She whipped her tears and signed the paper.

"Here" Jeremy turned to look at the paper where she signed. He took the paper and signed it.

"Do you want a ring?" He asked her.

"No. It's fine" Catherine looked away. Does she want a ring? Off course she does.

"Are you tired?" She shook her head. Her heart fluttered, she always thought what would be like, to be Jeremy's wife. Now that she is married, her voice is stuck somewhere. She always admired Jeremy. Then slowly fall in love. And now here she is, "Thank you baby" 

Even though Catherine said no he took her to the nearest jewelry shop.

Ask her to choose a ring. This is something he is doing for his mom, she understands that's why she silently chose a wedding ring and slipped it in his ring finger. He did the same and paid for it.

They went to a restaurant and ate their dinner, that's when they saw Cassandra on the middle of the road.

Jeremy rushed to her. His blood ran cold as he picked her up in a bridal style. Putting her on the back seat. 

"She is burning in temperature, what should we do?" Jeremy asked her. She blinked her eyes, "let's take her home" Catherine suggested.

Jeremy wanted to protest but he did what she asked. He put her in the spare bedroom. Which he used yesterday. 

They were sitting silently, Jeremy was busy with his work and Catherine sat there, she was worried about Cassandra. They heard the scream and rushed inside.

"Are you alright?" Catherine asked as Cassandra looked at her in shock. She hurried and sat up getting out of the bed.

"Where am I?" Cassandra asked her heart beat to increase as she stared at Catherine when she heard his voice.

"This is our house" Cassandra looked at Jeremy. They noticed how her eyes briefly wander to their hand.

"We saw you on the road and brought you here" Catherine explained.

Cassandra nodded a subtle nod before chuckling at them.

"I will be on my way" her words came off cold. She wanted to get out of here as soon as possible. Suffocation filled her lungs.

"Where would you go?" Catherine asked her as she looked at the bags.

"Anywhere is better than here" 

"You can stay here. You look pale" Jeremy said even though he knows she will not stay here.This was the reason why he was hesitant to bring her here.

"No. There is no need for that. I am fine" Cassandra lied. Both of them understand that she was lying.

"But..."

"Let me be.I don't need anyone's help" Cassandra snapped grabbing her things and rushed out of there. 

"Will she be alright?" Catherine asked worried about Cassandra.

Jeremy was staring at the door, "I don't know" he rubbed his facing.

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