Never hold on to what you should let go.
~~Massie. 😅

Song of the week- If This Is Love by Ruth B.

I'll advise you start listening from where I indicate.

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"Hey." I said excitedly as I accepted Maya's FaceTime request.

"Oh thank God, I thought you'll be asleep already." Maya said, she sounded off.
One look at her face and it was obvious something was wrong, her nose was red and her hair was a mess.

"What's wrong?" I asked, her appearance had me extremely concerned.

"If you discover a new detail about yourself, but your past doesn't align with this new discovery, what do you do?" She asked, not answering my question directly.

"Does this new detail give you peace?" I asked her in return, I wasn't sure where this was going but I didn't want to pry.

"I think so, it makes me happier and it makes a lot more sense than my past." She answered wiping away the stray tears on her cheeks.

"Will there be any damage caused by this new detail?" I asked.

"It may hurt some people a little, just the initial shock, but it's something they can live with I guess." She answered, she didn't sound so sure of herself.

"Then go for it. If it's not going to cause any damage and it brings you peace and happiness, don't hold back." I said giving her a comforting smile.

I had no idea what she was going through, but being there for her was the best I could do.

"Thank you so much Kim, I knew I could count on you." She said brightening up.

"I'm always here for you. Don't ever second guess it." I said with a smile.

"How do you feel now?" She asked.

"A lot better, finished my medication today. The doctor said all the tests results look normal, so I'm good to go." I said.

"That's great. You're going to be home for thanksgiving right?" She asked hopefully.

"Yeah. My mum won't let me stay back especially not after the accident two weeks ago. And I'm definitely not missing out on this opportunity to see you and Jeff." I answered.

"I always knew you were obsessed with seeing my face." Maya joked.
"Don't worry I'll bring a lot of hardcopy pictures so you can worship them."

"Don't give yourself so much credit-" I was cut halfway by the bell.

"Someone's at the door, I'll call you back later." I said getting on my feet.

"Okay, bye girl." Maya answered and ended the call.
She sounded more cheerful now than when she had initially called me. That was good, it made me happy too.

I opened the door smiling but my good mood was thrown into thin air as soon as I saw who was on the other side of the door.

Start listening to the song from here.

"Hey Kim." He said smiling with a bouquet in his hands.

"What do you want?" I asked harshly.

"Oh come on, don't be like this." Damon said.
"I've been trying to call you but you weren't picking." He added.

"Then you should get the message, I don't want to talk to you." I said flatly.

"I'm sorry. I've said that so many times now. Come on Kim, we've come this far." Damon said reaching out for me.

I allowed him pull me to his chest and even hugged him back, but it didn't feel right. The energy just seemed off.

The past few days had given me time to think and I'd come to the conclusion that Damon had changed. My mind was already made up, I was letting him go.

"Thank you for everything Damon. Really. But maybe we should give each other some space. Get your shit together and afterwards, maybe we can talk." I said pulling away from him.

"Are you for real?" He asked surprised.

He probably expected the hug to be followed by the cliché 'kiss and make up' scene.

Boy was he wrong.

"Bye Damon." I said pecking him briefly before walking back in and shutting the door.

"Kim please don't do this.." He kept talking but I walked straight to my room, I didn't want to hear any of it.

As soon as I got into my room, I crumpled to the floor. I knew I was doing the right thing, but I was also losing one of the people who had been there for me the most and it hurt a little.

Trust your intuitions.

My father's words from the dream I had months ago, came back to me.

"But the last time, you told me this and it made me trust him." I said to my empty room.

I was really confused and had mixed feelings, so I took out my journal and decided to write, it always helped.

To let go or to hold onto.
To be real or to live a lie.
To love from afar or to grieve in intimacy.
There's always more to everything
More than we can see at the moment
In due time, it'll all make sense
In due time, I'll be okay with your absence
In due time, I'll think back and have no regrets.
People change
Faster than actors on a stage
For better or worse,
The direction unknown at the initial phase.
I'll hold on to the memories
I'll hold on to your idiosyncrasies
But I'll let you go

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Hey guys,

Hope y'all are doing fine and had fun reading.
Do you think this is the end of Damon and Kim?
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Till next week,
Massie 🙃🙃