Arthur watched as the sun set from the top of the east tower. He watched as the worst day of his life ended. It was his secret hiding spot. , the top of the tower. Well not secret. Merlin knew about it.

Hell, Merlin showed it to him. One time when he was upset, Arthur had found him up here watching the people. It was a phenomenal view. But he couldn't notice the view when he could barely breathe.

She was gone. She left. In the blink of an eye. And he made her leave. Well, she left him first. She left him the moment her lips went of Lancelot's lips. He just made it official.

He heard footsteps and knew it was Merlin. He was the only one who knew he was here.

"You'll live, you know." Merlin said as he sat down next to Arthur on the wall.

Arthur scoffed. "Live? How can I? You have no idea what I'm feeling."

Merlin gave him a small smile. "But I do." Arthur turned to him confused.

"It feels like you have a million stones on your chest. Like someone's making it impossible to breathe. And you try. You really do. But it seems like it will never go away. It feels like the whole world should stop and be in the same state as you, but they're not. They don't even know that the world just ended. Well, at least to you it did. Because the most perfect girl in the world, is gone. And you a can't do anything." Merlin never took his eyes of the sunset, his normal goofy demeanor turned grave.

"But. You finally learn how to breathe again. Finally. Even if it takes much longer than people say it should. And once your breathing comes back you can finally do what she would want you to do. Live. And remember." He said his eyes tearing up.

"And you never forget. Their memory is always with you. Because forgetting them would be a crime. Because she was perfect. Sometimes people find a new woman, who is almost or just as perfect. Some people find comfort in their family and friends. Some even find a worthy cause." He said looking at Arthur, as if he was his life line.

"But you live. And you learn to love again. And I know you will." Merlin finishes giving Arthur a smile.

"How could you know?" Arthur asked. Because that's how he felt. He couldn't breathe and wanted the world to stop but it wouldn't.

"Her name was Freya."

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Hey so this is a totally reused idea. It was originally written by Zeorzia on FanFiction.Net

It is one of my favorite oneshots on FanFiction.Net and I hope you all enjoyed my little remake.