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~ Jordan's POV ~

I rolled over in the bed, my arm stretched out only to meet cold bedsheets. I let out a groan and sat up slightly, my eyes landed on the clock showing it was 12pm. I took a few minutes to get up, my morning sickness making it hard for me to move around properly. I took a shower to freshen up but it didn't help the constant feeling of being about to throw up. I got dressed in silence and slowly went down the stairs to get some water. "Dragging her out here isn't good for the baby Adrian."

"And staying in Milan where Dante can get to her is?" I frowned at Adrian's voice travelling down the hallway as I made my way towards the kitchen. I stopped in the doorway, my eyes landing on Carlotta, Matteo and Angelo talking to my husband at the table. "Just be careful what you say to her. I don't need her anymore stressed than she already is."

"I'm fine, you don't have to worry about me." They all looked up in my direction, watching me as I walked into the kitchen headed straight for the sink. "How are you feeling?" I ignored Matteo's question and filled a glass with water making sure not to make eye contact with any of them.

"Jordan." I rolled my eyes and turned my back towards them, taking small sips of my water in an attempt to calm my nausea.
I heard Adrian mumble something and seconds later everyone but him left the kitchen closing the door behind them.

"Stop this. I know you're upset, but you can't just ignore everyone." I stubbornly continued to ignore Adrian, I know I can't ignore them forever but I sure as hell will try for as long as I can. However Adrian made this harder than it should have been by grabbing my shoulder and turning me around to face him.

"I'm sorry for what happened last night but you need to cut this out. I'm still pissed at you for not telling me, so don't think I'm going to be sympathetic, I was last night but not anymore." I slammed my glass down on the counter before stepping towards him.

"It's your fault. Don't even think about trying to blame me, it's you." His jaw clenched as he glared at me. "Just shut your damn mouth." With that he left the kitchen slamming the door behind himself, I sighed when the sound caused a sharp pain in my head. I picked up my glass and wandered through the house taking in all the beauty and depth of the decor as I searched for somewhere to rest.

I found myself lying on a hammock outside, staring at the clear blue sky. I had walked for at least 10 minutes away from the house through the endless grounds; I hadn't even reached the edge of the garden after walking for that long. I guess that's the benefit of being rich and having a house in the middle of nowhere.

I let my mind wander back to the events of last night and the fact that everyone knew about what Dante had seen. That was the real reason I didn't want to see or speak to anyone this morning, I was ashamed. I couldn't look anyone in the eye because of it, it was embarrassing.

I didn't blame Adrian for what happened, not really. Yes in the grand scheme of things it comes down to him but if I was truly against his lifestyle I would have done something about it, but my feelings towards him are much stronger than my need to get away from the mafia. I know he'll protect me and the baby, that's not a problem.

I also know I shouldn't have developed feelings for him and honestly I don't know when it happened. Somewhere along this twisted journey I found myself falling for him. His temper and anger issues, the way he cares about me in his own way, the way he can just switch and become the most caring person in seconds. I was falling for him fast and hard, and it was the most terrifying thing that's ever happened to me.

I feel like every single time I speak to him, it could be the end of our 'relationship' - one of us will push the other too far, we'll say and do things we'll regret leading us to ignoring each other for the foreseeable future. That is until something happens and we make up, but then it happens all over again. It's a vicious cycle which I can't get out of, no matter how many times I tell him we need to stop arguing. Something is always there to rip us apart again. Just like this whole thing with Dante.

I wiped away the few stray tears from my cheeks and got off the hammock, making my way back towards the house. I don't know how long a lay outside but as soon as I walked through the door I felt a tight grip on my wrist, I was dragged by a furious Angelo through the hallway until we reached the lounge where he shoved me inside. I glared at him while rubbing my tender wrist but before I could shout at him my attention was taken by the others in the room, all just as furious as Angelo. Except one. Adrian. He was beyond furious.

"Where the hell have you been Jordan?" I turned towards Carlotta who jumped off the couch glaring at me. "I was outside." She scoffed and shook her head at me. "You disappeared for three freaking hours! We've been looking for you everywhere."

"I'm not a prisoner here! I can do whatever the hell I want, I don't answer to any of you." I let my gaze fall on Adrian for emphasis, this just caused more anger to rage in his eyes as he glared at me from his place across the living room.

"You're pregnant with our niece or nephew and his baby!" Carlotta gestured towards herself and Matteo before pointed at Adrian. "I don't care if you don't value your own safety Jordan, but you need to start using your brain. Don't put that baby in danger because you're going through your own issues. I told you I would be here for you and I am. Adrian is your husband, and you know these two adore you. You don't need to disappear every time something bad happens, just talk to one of us."

"And what do you think is going to happen Carlotta?! That I'll just suddenly become happy again after talking to one of you?" I
chuckled although nothing was funny, I turned around to leave but Angelo stood firm in front of the door.

"Move." He glared at me and shook his head, I stepped towards him but Adrian's voice caused me to stop in my tracks.

"You didn't tell me that you were threatened yesterday. You let me leave you in that house all alone, you pretended everything was fine." His tone was surprisingly calm and if I hadn't just seen the pure rage on his face before I turned around, I would have thought he was just having a normal conversation.

"Do you know how scared I was when I got a call from Dante and I was miles away from you? Do you know what was going through my head when he said he was going to try to get to you before I could?" I bit lip as I stared at the floor infront of me knowing all eyes on were on me.

"You're a selfish bitch sometimes Jordan. After all that last night,
I comforted you when you were crying, I held you in my arms while you fell asleep to keep you calm. And this is how you act afterwards, you didn't give a damn about me yesterday."

"That's not true Adria-" I turned around to face him but he quickly cut me off. "No? As soon as I told you that one particular detail you were gone, you didn't care about anything else. All you thought about was yourself. You probably didn't even give our baby a second thought." Adrian was beginning to lose whatever grip he had on his temper as he stepped towards me, the words flying out of his mouth with pure hate and anger.

"You were just too concerned about what Dante saw weren't you?" He chuckled and shook his head as he stopped infront of me. "What was it Jordan? Worried you didn't look your best? Was that it?"

"Oh screw you Adrian, you know I don't want Dante and that I love my baby, I would do anything for it. Get your head out of your ass will you." Adrian glanced up at Angelo and gestured towards the door with his head. "Bro I think you should just cool down.."

"Get out. Now. All of you." He kept eye contact with Angelo behind me and eventually I heard the door open and the other three left the awkward and tense room leaving me with my angry husband once again.

"I'm the one with my head up my ass? Think for a second. You and our baby were threatened yesterday, the guards were killed at a house that I've lived in for years and the location has never been found and you have a revenge seeking Portuguese gangster after you. After all that, you think it's okay to just disappear for three hours and not tell anyone where you're going?"

I ran and hand through my hair and walked over to take a seat on one of the couches to get away from Adrian. "I wasn't thinking! I don't know Adrian. Why do you keep forgetting that I wasn't born for this. I haven't been raised to be constantly on my guard in case someone wants to kill me, I'm just a regular girl from London who managed to let herself fall for one of the most dangerous people in the world." Regret washed over me as the words that had been in my head all morning slipped out of my mouth. The room was deadly silent as I stared at the floor infront of me refusing to meet Adrian's eye.

He didn't say anything to me, he just stood rooted to his spot for what seemed like ages before he left. He just left. I told him I was falling for him and he left me. Once again I felt my heart shatter into a million pieces at the hands of Adrian De Mancuso, but this time it I wasn't letting him get away so easily.

"Adrian!" I jumped up from the couch following him out the living room. He ignored me and continued to walk away towards the front door but I quickly caught up with him, I grabbed his wrist to stop him but he roughly pulled it out of my grip before turning towards me. "What?"

"Don't just walk away from me." He shook his head as he looked down at me. "What do you want me to say?"

"I told you I was falling for you and you just leave? I don't know Adrian what do you think I want you to say?" He shook his head at me and turned away once again, he walked out the front door with me right behind him. The sun was shining down on us as Adrian made his way over to his car.

"Where the hell are you going?" He stopped in his tracks and turned to face me. "You shouldn't fall for me Jordan, like you said, I'm dangerous." I scoffed and shook my head as I stepped towards him closing the gap between us.

"I already have fallen for you! I'm not immune to feelings Adrian. I've lived with you for the last seven months, I married you and I'm having your baby. Did you really think I would get through this whole marriage without developing some sort of feelings for you?"

"You forgot to mention that I forced you into it, you never let me forget that at the start, remember? I hit you and shouted at you, you can't have possibly forgotten." I glared at him, I had no idea why he was trying so hard to convince me that I wasn't falling in love with him.

"I haven't forgotten all of that, but I also haven't forgotten the fact that on our honeymoon you were so different-" Adrian quickly cut my sentence off. "Until you found out I cheated on you."

"Adrian what the hell is wrong with you?! Why are you trying so hard to prove to me that you're a horrible person? I know it's not true." Adrian scoffed and stepped towards me, his anger from earlier reappearing.

"You don't know a thing Jordan, I treat you like crap, I lose my temper and I manage to hurt you all the fucking time." He stopped and ran a hand through his hair before turning back towards me with an emotionless face, ignoring the obvious hurt on mine. "I made you almost kill yourself."

"I wish I did kill myself Adrian." His eyes met mine as shock and pain flashed through his brown eyes. "I wish you killed me that day when I first met you. Maybe then I would have saved myself from this." I gestured between us ignoring the stream of tears falling down my cheeks.

"If I was dead I -" The words were caught in my throat when I saw tears well up in Adrian's eyes. "Adrian.." He quickly rubbed his eyes but it didn't do anything to stop the tears. "Shut up Jordan."

We stayed quiet for a few minutes neither of us knowing what to say so instead we used the quietness to calm down. This conversation became a lot more heated than it should have. Adrian cleared his throat and took a deep breath before speaking.

"Don't say that again Jordan. If you were dead I wouldn't have a baby on the way...I'd still be the freaking monster I was before I met you. I wouldn't have my tesoro..." I used my thumb to wipe away the stray tear which escaped from his eye while I gave him a small smile.

"I love you Jordan." My eyes went wide as I stared at him in complete shock. I did not expect him to say that, I never even thought he would say it, the possibility never crossed my mind. He looked back at me with sincerity and love making my heart beat a million times faster.

"You love me?" He nodded and leaned down to kiss me. This kiss was slow and passionate, I placed my hand behind Adrian's neck to pull him closer to me. Eventually we ran out of air and had to pull away.

"You're the mother of my child and my wife, of course I love you. I would be crazy not to. Im sorry for walking away, I just didn't know how to react to what you said and after everything happening because of me last night, I just.." I cut him off by placing my lips on his once again only quickly but it stopped him from talking. "Don't blame yourself Adrian. Please. If anyone apart from Dante is to blame then it should be me. I should have told you and I shouldn't have fallen asleep at the school. It wasn't your fault."

He didn't seem to agree with me but eventually he nodded causing me to smile. "You're so beautiful." Adrian stepped closer to me and placed his hands on the back of my thighs to pick me up. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he walked back inside the house, thankfully we got up to our room uninterrupted and Adrian threw me down on the bed before locking the door. I rolled my eyes at the cocky smirk on his face as he came towards the bed, his eyes trailing over my body.

"Let me show you just how much I love you Mrs De Mancuso."

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