"Yes! You're definitely working without a freakin' plan, you idiot!" I whispered in his ear, fuming in anger.

Apparently, the girlfriend of my divorced husband led me and my so-called boyfriend Shu to a fancy restaurant for this double date. She even said that this was not the end. She had her big surprise for the end of the day.

I scoffed at her enthusiasm. If only I could tell her the truth behind us. Then it would be like spilling a bucket of ice cold water on her stupid excitement.

However, in a way, I did feel a little bad for her. Like how she was so desperate for Akashi's love and attention, how she tried harder and harder being the one in his eyes. I didn't know if she had any hidden schemes behind her works, but she seemed too blockhead of a girl to me to plan any wicked plot in the first place. Besides, this girl was dating Akashi. If she did have an ulterior motive behind her actions, Akashi would've figured it by now.

She was way too smitten with him. And was way too young and naive.

I looked down at my plate of spaghetti placed in front of me. We came to this fancy posh restaurant for this stupid double date. Shu was sitting beside me, Akashi was right in front of me and Aihana was sitting beside Akashi. Perfect setting, I know. Specially planned by my miserable luck.

The rich smell of olive oil and juicy tomato sauce went through my nostrils as it brought water in my mouth. I was polite enough to wait for everyone to start eating so that I can start devouring my heavenly food too, but things weren't quite working out as I wanted.

They were talking. Conversation to know each other better, my ass.

"So, Shu-kun~" Aihana chirped. "How long since you guys are dating?"

I heaved a deep sigh. Here it goes...

"I think it's been... tw--three weeks... I guess." Shu said, scratching his head. I wanted to smack his head so bad that my hands started itching.

"You guess?" Akashi raised a brow. "Interesting choice of words."

"And how long you two have been dating?" I retorted back, not caring anymore if anyone was eating as I dug into my food.

Akashi looked at me as I was busy devouring the dish like a hungry lion. "Two years." Was his straight answer.

"Interesting..." I said dryly.

The rest of our date went just like this; questioning each other back and forth (Shu was answering most of them; and to think that this was same guy who never responded to anyone's question back at the café), giggling at stupid jokes (mostly Aihana), Akashi's calculative stare boring into me and I kept eating in the messiest way possible. The waiter came to us with a fake smile plastered on his face, handing us the bill and without asking any of us and before I could even protest, Akashi paid for us all. I don't understand how was this called a double date when one guy was paying for the three of us? His actions never made much sense to me.

"Are we done?" I said yawning. Even though I had the day off, I was tired from all this shopping, walking and well, eating.

We were inside Akashi's black limousine as we again were heading off to somewhere I don't know or care.

"What are you talking about?" Aihana exclaimed in her shrilly voice. "Did you forget about the big surprise?"

"Oh, yeah, right. The big surprise. How could I forget about that one?" I couldn't keep the sarcasm off my voice. Aihana glared at me but decided to say nothing.

"Ne, Sei-kun, I'm having so much fun today with you." She gushed pressing her slim body onto him. "Thank you for spending time with me even though you were so busy. I am so lucky to have a boyfriend like you."

This scene was way too personal and lovey-dovey to act around two other people. Especially single people.

Akashi looked at her with a small smile and patted her head. I don't know why for a second there I thought his smile didn't reach his eyes. Then he glanced at me with the corner of his eye, confirmed that I was watching them. He smirked. "Trust me. I'm glad too. To have you as my lover." He touched her cheek then pressed his lips on hers.

I just stared at them. I didn't want to look at them but I couldn't keep my eyes off. As if I was actually loving the pain it was giving me.

I thought he meant nothing to me anymore. I knew I had to watch this scene today once or twice, so I was prepared But when I was actually seeing them, him kissing her sweetly right in front of me, I couldn't just look away from them. They were so close to me. Too close.

I don't know why I felt a sudden emptiness inside my chest. What was I doing here? Going on a stupid double date with a fake boyfriend and my ex husband? Not to mention a super dumb girl on the mix. Could my life get anymore twisted?

Suddenly the atmosphere started to suffocate me and getting on my nerves. What in the world was I doing here? A wave of nausea hit me with full force as I suddenly wanted to get out of this car, get away from them with all my might. I couldn't take this anymore.

"Stop the car." I muttered. Akashi slowly broke the kiss and turned to me.

Shu looked at me incredulously. "Ena?"

"I said stop the car." The car kept going.

"Why? What happened?" Shu lightly grabbed my shoulder and tried to look me in the eyes. Aihana was staring at me like I was some sort of alien.

"I don't wanna stay for one second anymore." I didn't understand why my voice was cracking. "Tell him to stop the car."

"Stop the car." Akashi's calm voice ordered and the car stopped instantly.

I didn't dare to look up at anyone as I opened the car door and got the hell out of it. Shu accompanied me as well and closed the door. The car sped off without wasting a minute.

We got on the sidewalk silently and started walking.

"I want to be alone for sometime." I didn't look at Shu and kept my eyes glued on the pavement.

I heard a deep sigh. "I understand." He said. Then without even saying a farewell or anything, he left without a word. I looked ahead and saw his tall figure walking away like nothing happened.

I could finally breathe now. I inhaled a deep breath with closed eyes then slowly started walking.


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I walked around the town like a vagabond for almost three hours. I had nothing better to do and I didn't want to go back to my lonely house either.

But I had to come back to my home at the end of the day. It was getting dark and the place where I live was not really the safest. So, I just decided to forgot about the day and sleep on it as soon as I get home. Everything becomes a bit tolerable if you just sleep on it, that what I believed.

It was almost dark when I reached home. I walked up to the door but someone was standing there, right in front of my apartment. My breath hitched as my heart stopped beating. I could only see his back but I knew who he was. Red hair. Akashi.

"What are you doing here?" I tried to ask as sternly as possible as I stomped towards him. He turned around and looked at me.

"You didn't get to see the big surprise Aihana had," I looked at him as intensely as possible but his voice was unbelievably calm.

"So?" I spat. "I don't even wanna know. Came here to rub it on my face again or what?"

He took a step toward me. He wasn't that close to me but my brain sensed something and was screaming to me- to take a step a back but my body didn't function as my brain wanted. My feet remained glued on the land as I stared at him. It was dark now but there was no problem in seeing him. His heterochromatic eyes were glistening even in the dark as his entire existence absorbed mine with it's usual overwhelming power.

"So, I decided to give you something." His outstretched hand was holding a small packet. "Take it."

"I don't want it."

"Take it."

"I said I don't want it!" I didn't yell but my voice was loud enough to express my frustration.

"Why does it bother you so much?" His voice suddenly turned colder. "Didn't you say that I mean nothing to you anymore? And forgot everything we had in the past. Then why does it bother you so much when I pay for the food, try to give you something or... kiss my girlfriend?"

I stared him. "You're still my ex husband who kicked me out of the house and accused me of something I never did."

"And we're divorced. No matter what the past is, we're divorced now. Means that our paths are separated now. We have different lives. It shouldn't bother you that much if you say that you don't care. You must not contradict yourself. You hate that too."

"Separate?" I let out a coy, bitter laugh. "True. Our paths were separated for four years. But then ever since I met you in the café, you are in my life all over again. Tell me did you keep it separated?"

I looked at him intensely. I had some suspensions about him. He was messing up my life ever since I met him in the café. I was pretty sure that Akashi was invading my privacy in some way. I didn't have any proof but I just had this gut feeling that he keeps track of my whereabouts or something like that. He knew my address after all.

He again took a step toward me. And again I couldn't take a step back to get away from him despite of the endless screams inside my brain. At that moment, in that dark area in front of my door, Akashi in front of me didn't seem so loathsome. The twilight messed up mind more than any other time of the day.

His eyes were boring into mine, hypnotizing me completely. I didn't notice that it wasn't one step he took towards me. He never stopped. He was now right in front me; there was not even an inch between us. I could smell his minty breath now. Still I couldn't move.

He suddenly touched my cheek with one hand softly and put his lips onto mine without any hesitation.

It was so sudden that I forgot how to react. There were no butterflies in my stomach nor my heart was on fire- instead painful nostalgia embraced me bringing tears in my eyes. I fell under a spell as soon as he put his lips on mine. I didn't know if I kissed him back or not, I didn't know if my lips moved at all. All I realized and knew in that moment was I know these lips.

These were the only pair of lips that ever kissed me.

I got out of my trance as soon as he pulled away. And my mind started functioning like a normal human being again.


'What the hell he did he just do? Did he really do what I thought he did??'


"Indeed. I just can't keep myself away from you. Even after all these years, even after everything." He said quietly, his eyes fixed on my face. His one hand caressed my cheek lightly before removing it completely.

Then before I could say anything, he walked past me swiftly. His car was parking a little bit away from my house. He got into it without even looking back and once again it sped off leaving me totally confused, flustered and angry over his actions. Why the hell did I let him kiss me?!

I stood there for straight five minutes without moving. I was speechless, confused and furious. Then I realized that I was holding a small packet. The same packet Akashi wanted to give me earlier. When did he manage to give me this? And not to mention, I didn't even know since when I was holding it.

I opened the packet and there was a small box inside it. It had navy blue elegant velvet skin. Curious, I opened it slowly.

And there was a small pendant inside the box. It was made of platinum with a small black pearl on the center and lots of tiny bright diamonds encircled around it. It shined brightly in the dark as I looked at it wide eyed.

The same pendant he gave me on our first anniversary.

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