Star pov
I watched as he left with Janna, it was nice seeing him and her chat again. It was off they stopped talking because of me. I didn't even know she liked Marco in that way? Everytime I watch the two interact she would flick his ear or call him a name in a playful banter nothing really serious.

Oskar took off and Jackie stayed a bit and she had a smirk on her face "I see a little mark on your back? Did you hit yourself or..?" I blushed and laughed "What?! What are you talking about? I probably hit something?" She didn't look convinced "Star? Don't lie girl?" I sigh and nodded

"Okay..if I tell you. You have to swear not to tell anyone at all" she seemed intrigued and nodded "I promise, so tell me?" She had a grin plastered on her face and I blushed thinking about it. "Well yesterday or the day before I was able to leave the hospital for a couple hours. So Marco and I decided to hang and go to the movies and shop"

she giggles "Classic Marco.." I giggled too "Well after that we went to his place..we were alone and just stayed there looking at each other wondering who would make the first move.." Jackie had a slight blush "Wait..did you guys plan this? Or it just happened?"

I sigh "We talked about it weeks before and I told him I'll never get a chance to make love if I don't pull through..so he promised me" she smiles and lowered her head "So you guys had sex? How did it feel?" I blushed "It was awkward but soon was kinda playful and then pleasurable.."

I held my bed sheets remembering the scene vividly "Wow..were you in control? Or did he take the lead?" I shrugged "It was both because we took it slowly and calm instead of going right for it..I enjoyed myself..if I'm honest" she giggles "Wow..Marco isn't a virgin anymore? That's crazy.." I giggled

"Yeah and neither am I..you haven't done it before, like sex?" She blushed "Um no I almost did with a guy I like but I stopped because I was scared..he already done it and told me he'll be gentle but I couldn't.." I held her shoulder and she smiles "Its okay you'll get your chance again right?"

She nods and moves a bit "Star in all honesty I actually wanted to be Marco's first" I looked at her surprised and a little hurt "You..what?" "I wanted to lose my virginity with Marco..but we broke up and stayed friends..we made a promise if neither one of us found someone we care about we'll go back to each other and have sex..but he fell for you"

I felt kinda weird now that I'm hearing this? Marco never told me this? Ever and hearing it come from Jackie makes me feel like I backstabbed her in the back. "I'm sorry Jackie I didn't know? He never told me that? I feel like an idiot-"

"No it's okay! I'm glad he did find someone he could love..I just felt jealous that's all and your not an idiot Star you took time to get to know him and actually bond with him..that's something me and him could never really do?"

I stayed there thinking if I should just stop this whole thing and just give up on Marco? So many people love him more than I do and they'll be with him forever while I'm 6 feet under. "I'm gonna head out now...see you soon" Jackie took her stuff and left me there feeling all confused and upset.

Marco never told me any of that! He didn't even say he had a plan with Jackie?! Does he really like me or is he just playing with my feelings?! I groan and cry to sleep I didn't want it to be true but I had to wait and see.

The next day I woke up tired, I could barely sleep because of what Jackie said..it seemed like something Marco would do since he is a nice guy. But what did that make me? Just a easy girl? I picked my hair up and put in a bun and decided to go take a walk.

I used my cane and walked towards the garden I see Eliza already at the fountain "Morning Star? You seem tired? Did you hit sleep well?" I nodded "I have a lot on my mind Eliza.." she nods and sits by me "Is it about the handsome guy?" "Yeah..I feel used or even responsible for something that was promised ages ago! I should've asked him! Ugh I'm so stupid!"

I put my face in my hands and try to relax but I couldn't "Star are you okay?" I knew that voice and I shot a glare at him and faced away "Leave me alone!" He walked closer and set beside me "What's wrong? Did I do something wrong?" Eliza took off leaving me and him there "Why didn't you tell me?!" He looked confused "Tell you what?"

"That you and Jackie promised to sleep together if you didn't find someone?!" His face flushed and his eyes lowered "Star please calm down and let me explain" "Calm down?! I gave you my virginity that I can't take back..I feel like an idiot because I got in your way?! Marco just leave me alone okay and forget about me"

I say crying now "Star I didn't want to sleep with Jackie it was just a joke..she just wanted to mess around but I guess she really thought I wouldn't find someone..but I did. Star I love you so much that it hurts me when your upset or even crying? I feel helpless and don't even know what to do because somehow I make it worse and then I start to ramble and the-"

I cut him off with a kiss and he held my face to deepen it "Was that your way to shut me up?" I nodded "So you don't want to sleep with Jackie?" He shakes his head

"No..I love you not her? Star there are so many girls that like me and think I'm the one for them but I don't care because I like you and only you..I'm sorry I didn't tell you about that promise that was made years ago..I wouldn't sleep with anyone else unless it's you"

I blushed and moved closer to him and snuggled "Thank you for tell me that..hey you'll love me forever..ok?" He nods and kisses me "Of course I would.." I felt better talking it out with him and I felt relaxed and blissed. If this is how relationships are then I might be ready for it.